Moving On Up a Little Higher

The final words of Martin Luther King

Posted on January 18, 2010 by Mark C. Rathbun | 70 comments

Dr. Rev. Martin Luther King conquered hate with love. He gave his life so that our lives might be filled with more love, tolerance and forgiveness. If you think I am overstating that, I invite you to listen to the speech he delivered in Memphis the night before he was gunned down. He knew what was coming. His closest advisors suggested he get out of Memphis. But he stood tall so that millions of others might do so too. Here was the Code of Honor in application; not just theory. He never compromised with his own reality. His integrity to himself was more important than his body. His self-determinism (nay, pan-determinism) and his honor were more important than his immediate life.

Here is one relevant portion of the night before his assassination captured on film toward the end of the speech:

I suggest you listen to the entire speech on this day of remembrance. There is much we can learn from it. You can find it in two parts at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C2EnnclLMX4, and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ySGDMdQaDA0. The transcript can be found here if you would like to read along: http://www.americanrhetoric.com/speeches/mlkivebeentothemountaintop.htm

I find it very relevant to from whence we have come, where we are at, and where we are going. It is about being a man or a woman and standing for what is right and what is just. About being counted as a human being. About standing up straight so that the man cannot continue to make you crawl. Or as King himself said in this speech:

“Whenever men and women straighten their backs up they are going somewhere because a man can’t ride your back unless it is bent.”

Regardless, of whether you find any parallels, today is the King’s day. I don’t think it is too much to ask that we take twenty minutes to listen to, and reflect upon, his final public words.

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Martin Luther King – paying our respects

Posted on January 17, 2010 by Mark C. Rathbun | 54 comments

Friday the 15th was the birthday of Dr. Rev. Martin Luther King. Monday is a national holiday celebrating his life. Some of DM’s henchmen on the anonymous fringes have had some rather hateful things to say about my repeated references to and respect for King. I am not sure whether everybody understands why I regularly quote him. I think if you look at what we posted earlier this week about Friendship and the ensuing discussion we had about ARC and love, and compare it to the following short essay by Rev King you’ll begin to get the idea. http://teachingamericanhistory.org/library/index.asp?document=1131

There is much to learn from the man and his work. There are many parallels between what he helped accomplish and what we are attempting to bring about .

On an emotional level, I think U2 captured King’s spirit very well in their song Pride (in the name of love):

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The final purges – Part One in a series

Posted on January 16, 2010 by Mark C. Rathbun | 186 comments

DM took out Cruise by making him in his own image

Miscavige pulled off three purges in the past couple years that included the annihilations of three critical Commanding Officers in the Scientology network: Captain Flag Service Organization Debbie Cook, President IAS Janet Light, and Commanding Officer Church of Spiritual Technology Russ Bellin. The depowering of those three terminals cleared the way for the entire Church of Scientology network to finally be converted into one, huge crush regging operation. This series begins with a little handi-work that DM performed to clear the way for his carnage. By 2004 Tom Cruise was on fire, in great case shape, and gung-ho about expanding Scientology’s reach. As such, he constituted a real threat to DM.

During mid-decade, Miscavige spent increasing amounts of time at ASI in Los Angeles. Ostensibly, it facilitated his paling around with Tom Cruise which indeed he did plenty of. Unbeknownst to Tom, DM was very effectively taking TC out of the running too. Whether it was a warm up for the final purges or a separate objective undertaken to satisfy some other sick purpose, the fact is the techniques he used to nullify Cruise were similar to those he used on executives internally (including Debbie Cook, Russ Bellin, and Janet Light).

Miscavige pandered to Cruise to the point of collapsing the latter’s bank by converting his Church (auditor) into his pc. Miscavige slavishly changed the Church’s entire direction on a whim in response to mere comments by Tom. Tom was concerned for having Churches around the world that were upstat enough he’d feel ok sending VIP friends to them. DM, in his inimitable Ralph Kramden evaluator-who-calls-the-first-outpoint-the situation style, abandoned the LRH St Hill size orgs strategy and diverted hundreds of millions to his new “Idle Orgs” strategy. If some remarkable event does not intervene this strategy alone will likely destroy the entire Church of Scientology network.

DM's Ralph Kramden style of evaluation sank the church

DM’s pandering turned into pimping during 04-05, literally. Miscavige directly ran missions to find a 2D for Cruise, again based on a mere comment from Tom that he’d like to have a 2D who was OT or at least a dedicated Scientologist. DM directed his missionaires Greg Wilhere and Tommy Davis to perform a series of Scientology High Crimes during those missions, acts that not only violate the most fundamental ethics principles of Scientology, but would be considered aborhent to the society at large. Those missions will be covered in a later series on this blog.

What Miscavige did to Tom Cruise and his career was a well practiced pattern. It is an operating basis described by LRH in Science of Survival:

“From 2.0 down to 1.2, efforts to change people or dominate them are recognizable as such. From 1.2 down, all forthrightness vanishes and the most devious and insidious and complex methods are employed to nullify. The individual in this area of the Tone Scale very often has a complete belief in his or her superiority, which is a justification for using the methods he uses. Such people commonly fasten themselves on strong personalities well up the Tone Scale and then continue to assert their superiority (without ever giving, of course, any demonstration that the superiority exists) until the higher level becomes nullified. The individual in this area seeks death not only for himself and his own projects, but also for his entire environment. At this level we have murder, by slow erosion of individuals and the culture, and the actions are masked with voluminous “reasoning.”

Miscavige nattered incessantly and viciously to Cruise about the then-leading figures in Scientology, including – but not limited to – Mike Rinder, Marc Yager, Guillaume Lesevre, Ray Mithoff, and Greg Wilhere. Miscavige did not limit his rantings to staff, he included such noteworthy public Scientologists as John Travolta and Paul Haggis (and a host of other celebrities). Miscavige inculcated Cruise with the bunker mentality that it was two big beings (DM and TC) against a world of degraded beings. While servicing every personal demand of Tom’s, DM implanted Tom with the idea that it was a matter of scientific fact that DBs automatically and reactively conspire to bring down big beings. Cruise snapped terminals with DM and became his mini-me. He began to treat his own staff much the same way Miscavige treated his.

Cruise became power drunk, losing sight of his own goals and purposes. He explained to associates emphatically: “You don’t get it. First, there’s LRH. Then there’s COB. Then there’s me.”

His public antics were obvious dramatizations of DM’s valence.

Much like DM, he began directing manic actions with his own staff and professionals that severely undermined his credibility and power base. For example, he ordered his long-time personal assistant Michael Doven to assemble all the big shot agents at Creative Artists Agency (CAA). They were told they had to listen to a special briefing from Mike Rinder and do everything in their power (use every line they had) to help. Doven was shuddering on the way to CAA, receiving regular micro-managing calls from Cruise. Rinder briefed the CAA assembled on the South Park episode coming up and how important it was to spike it. I asked Rinder, “now let me guess Mike, all present looked at you as if you had just landed from another planet.” Mike replied, “Mars, Marty, they looked at me like I was from freaking Mars.”

The results of DM’s influence on Tom’s career and professional power were predictable and are now history. Once the most influential and on Source public Scientologist had been compromised and enervated, pulling off his last three purges were like child’s play for Davey.

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Declaration of Independence from a true friend of LRH

Posted on January 14, 2010 by Mark C. Rathbun | 140 comments

Anybody who has known Sarge for a while understands why I consider him a special friend. He is the kind of person whom one just enjoys occupying the same space with. It is no wonder LRH considered him a true friend.

DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE
My name is Steve Pfauth. I’m known by many other names: Sarge, Rodney, Richard, Alan and Joe, and others. There were times when I wasn’t sure who I was. I did a lot of security/comm stuff for LRH. I am from Michigan. I was as you a seeker of truth and freedom. I went from Michigan to FCDC, where my life as a Scientologist began. I left FCDC for the SO in Nov. 75. I went to Clearwater and was a security guard for LRH at Duneden. When LRH went to California I followed and went to “W’ (winter head quarters). When that went south I went to ‘S’ (summer headquarters) Int. I then went to ‘X’ when Mike and Kima Douglas blew. LRH didn’t just like me, he trusted me. After ‘X’ closed I came back to ‘S’. It was difficult because I had to stay in comm with Pat Broeker for comm relay between Int and LRH. I suggested I leave and go anywhere that I could operate without any hassles. I then became a ‘Rover’.

I was controlled by LRH via Pat. I just had fun! Being directly on LRH’s lines was very hard but I always had fun. After lots of adventures Pat took me to the ranch at Creston. I got there in May of ’83’ to help set things up. I was those “other Scientologists” that Vaughn Young talked about. That was a way to protect me. I was at Creston when LRH dropped the bod. I signed the death cert and the last will. If you don’t believe it look it up on the web. I blew the RPF in Jan of 89. I blow good! Still blown after all these years.

My only problem was leaving my friends behind. I have never met so many wonderful people as the dedicated Scientologists I had the privilege to know. Well, here I am comming to old and new. I would like to support my friends in a mission of truth and freedom. I am not a crusader. I do have to support truth and freedom. Hell, Thats why I joined the church in the first place. I do not like all the LRH bashing. LRH was not perfect. Forget all the PR. The Tech was real and the Tech works. LRH was a genius. How did LRH audit every day without an auditor or CS? Could you do that? Please understand we need to save the Tech. Please discard all the black PR. I got so much case gain, there is no way I can bash source.

Marty and I go way back together. He is going to allow me to post stories on his site. I consider it a privilege. I am going to try to keep my ego out of it and just tell the truth, as difficult as it may be. I need to tell the truth about the last days. I am no longer connected in any way with the current Church of Scientology but I cannot abandon all of LRH’s efforts to help people and clear this planet. Till his death he lived Scientology.

Love, Sarge

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Latest OSA cyber terrorism backfires again

Posted on January 13, 2010 by Mark C. Rathbun | 134 comments

Thanks for the heads up to the dozens of people who forwarded me the email from an address “indychicago@hushmail.com“. Your information in terms of routing confirmed my initial suspicions that the entire communication (the indychicago comm along with the attachment which seeks to position me with David Mayo and Bill Robertson and thus dismiss me as someone LRH would abhor) is a sloppy and glutz OSA intelligence op. Based on a survey of a number of the addresses people received the communication at, OSA blew its cover. Again, our lightening fast communication lines – and propensity for communicating whenever we perceive a doubt – unearthed yet another exhibit in the case of the people vs. David Miscavige.

Several of you have asked whether I knew about the blog spot OSA constructed purportedly all about me that was linked in the indychicago message. Yes, I’ve seen it. It is fabulous advertisement for our forum. It is one of five active web sites the Church has put up about me or even purportedly by me. Since June many people have originated to me that the church has directed them to me; though not apparently intentionally. An example, one gentleman who recently came down for auditing and brotherhood told me how he was pulled in to FSO based on a report that he had looked at “some enetheta” on the internet. After receiving a number of accusatory sec check questions about whether he’d looked at Marty Rathbun’s blog, the first thing he did – once he was out of the clutches of the FSO – was to search and peruse my blog. They did the same thing with the obnoxious Freedom magazine. Many people reported going to the St Pete Times site and then my blog in order to find out who Kingpin, Fact Checker, et al. were. Already today I reunited with a long lost friend who found me through the OSA Op email informing him of what a boar I am.

I think today’s lesson is, don’t be so anxious about spreading the word. DM’s minions are doing it for us. Let’s just carry on having fun.

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Friendship

Posted on January 12, 2010 by Mark C. Rathbun | 144 comments

We may bend, but we can never be broken. This is no cliche as is relates to us. After weathering a month-long, intense effort to shut us down, I wondered how it was we survived stonger than ever. It occurred to me that our resilience is inherent in our very nature. That is, we are a true group held together by an indestructible mortar called friendship. Almost a year ago I decided to post a single page website. The totality of its text is contained on the welcome page of this blog. I made the decison to do so based upon my experience of reconnecting with friends (first Mat Pesh and Amy Scobee, then Jason Beghe, then Mike Rinder and Tom Devocht, and then others). When the St Pete Times contacted me, my primary motivation for talking to them was to help friends whom I learned had suffered escalating abuses at the hands of Miscavige after my departure, Mike and Tom, and those who clearly were at the time still similarly situated. When the Times asked that I contact Mike and Tom to corroborate certain facts, I told them that for me to do so would violate our pure friendship relations – that I wasn’t so sure as a friend it would be pro-survival for them to speak to the Times – and suffer the consequences – at that time in their lives. A week later I received a call from Tom Devocht. He told me that the Times contacted him and wanted to corroborate my story. Tom told me he did so. I asked, “off the record?” He replied, “are you kidding me Marty, ON the record.” Mike Rinder was also located by the Times. He too cooperated to corroborate without even consulting me. Because of his particular circumstances, he initially did so off the record. But, when he learned of how unprincipled, false, and vicious DM’s response to the story was, Mike – on his own determinism – said, “I am now going ON the record.” It has been those types of self-originated acts of care for others that have created this group. And so it has gone from the outset to the present, the entire movement has organically grown as bonds of friendship have been re-established and nurtured.

Each day we hear of selfless acts of kindness one of us does for another. Just last week when Chrissie Pearlman announced her intention to overcome suppression, instantaneously help was offered from friends in several countries. Each step of the way it has been about theta re-uniting with theta. Remember, the components of theta are A, R and C. ARC is love in its highest sense. What is friendship but love? The objectives have been simple. To re-unite, rehabilitate one another, re-affirm common goals and purposes, lend a hand to re-discovered comrades, all to better accomplish the disenturbulation of theta into pure healing theta. Every time one friend does something, no matter how subtle and seemingly inconsequential, we grow and become stronger.

Malcolm Gladwell’s Tipping Point contains a very interesting section on the power of horizontal organization. That is, the superior strength of bonds created amongst people who consider themselves equals as opposed to imposed, verticle bonds of hierarchcal organization structure enforcing the superiority of not necessarily superior beings.

I think the laws of affinity explain that strength. There is a tendancy in the MEST universe for bodies to want to occupy the same space; but ultimately it is impossible for MEST to do so. Not so in the theta universe; only theta or life force can occupy the same space. It is much like Lao Tzu’s and Sun Tzu’s descriptions of the power of water. Much like water, theta can begin as a single body up high, effortlessly venture downward, splitting boulders, eroding land masses, dividing and conquering as it goes, then ultimately rejoining and once again settling or flowing together as in unity. One can try to divert it, capture it, alloy it and thus divide it. But, ultimately it evaporates, rises and begins the cycle anew.

Don’t worry about disclosing a “secret.” An SP cannot even conceive of such phenomena being possible, let alone do anything effective to stop it.

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Moving On Up a Little Higher

Posted on January 9, 2010 by Mark C. Rathbun | 202 comments

I knew coming into the struggle that there would be a price to pay for advocating freedom. I knew what we had done from the inside to make life hell for those on the outside exercising their rights to free of expression. Criticism has been leveled against me for not running to law enforcement agencies to report activities that could be construed as criminal. I advised caution against making complaints that were not viable because of statute of limitations and lack of unimpeachable evidence reasons, reasoning that to cry wolf would hurt the chances of justice being served for prosecutable crimes. Quite a few untoward acts have been directed my way recently. That I knew came with the territory and has been treated for the most part like water under the bridge. However, I did not anticipate the lengths the church would go to in order to harm my friends.

As I reported at the end of December, my email and blog were hacked into. The blog was taken down by the invaders. I have just learned that at least one email that was sent to me in early December has been posted on an internet site. These acts constitute felonies under law. During my tenure in the church there was one standard we nearly always adhered to. That was do not commit acts recognized as criminal under existing statutes. I mistakenly estimated that this standard would continued to be adhered to. I was wrong, pure and simple. The appropriate law enforcement officials have been notified and there is an ongoing criminal investigation on the matter. For those who have known me for any length of time, I don’t think there is any doubt about my capacity for sticking with this until justice is served.

I sincerely apologize to those who have communicated to me at my posted aol address (sthtexlensman@aol.com) whose privacy rights have been compromised. I recognize that people trusted my representations that the church would not hack my email. I also recognize that gives little solace to those who shared their thoughts and feelings with me via email. Your communications may yet wind up posted by the invaders. I realize that by posting this, communication between myself and others may decline. That is understandable. Recognize though that for every act of invasion of your privacy that may be committed against you individually the perpetrators of that crime will receive ten times the pain you may suffer.

It is my hope that people will recognize that the intent of hacking me and invading people’s privacy was done for one purpose, to cut our communication. The intent is to drive our anchor points in. The very objective our community and communication was exposing and overcoming. Because the strength of the communication lines we have established between ourselves we were able to bounce back fast and stronger than ever . We had more visits per day to my blog within 24 hours of getting back up with a temporary address than we had had for weeks. That is testament to a network of communications that has been formed amongst us that is apparently very widespread, rapid, and resilient. No matter how hard the church hits, the network of communication we have formed apparently just keeps getting stronger. Regardless of where things go, and what further attacks we might receive, remember that as long as you keep communicating and keep extending your reach among one another – central coordinating point or not – you are cause over the source of suppression. You are continuing to overcome suppression and if you stay at it you will crack the back of the source of suppression. And for every person who joins your ranks, you will continue to help lift the dark cloud of suppression off of his or her shoulders.

I have taken security measures to prevent a further breach of personal communications to me. If you would like to communicate directly with me, you can write to my pgp encrypted email account, howdoesitfeel@hushmail.com. If you are concerned about the measures the church is willing to take to compromise my communications, that is completely understandable. But, do not allow them to cut your reach. Increase your communications amongst one another. Get on Facebook to network, establish your own security encoded accounts where you are concerned for your privacy. No matter what, continue to reach, increase your communication. At the end of the day it is that one action that will overcome the suppressor who seeks to nullify me, you and any one else who wishes to communicate with an independent mind.

Finally, remember what Frederick Douglass said about the mission to abolish slavery in America. It is as applicable today as it was over 150 years ago when first communicated: “If there is no struggle, there is no progress.”

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Independence declaration and demand

Posted on January 8, 2010 by Mark C. Rathbun | 149 comments

Attention OSA and Flag

I demand that you release my boyfriend Shane Weightman from the
illegal activity of false imprisonment at Flag.

Placing him under 24 hour surveillance and forbidding him to call
me is not only a violation of his human rights, but also in
violation of the Creed of the Church of Scientology which states:
“ We of the Church Believe….
…That all men have inalienable rights to think freely, to talk
freely, to write freely of their own opinions and to counter or
utter or write upon the opinions of others…
…And that no agency less than God has the power to suspend or set
aside these rights, overtly or covertly…”
Ron Hubbard.

Further attempts to slander and malign my reputation in an attempt
to destroy our relationship will fail.

Your plans to keep him prisoner until you can have him personally
escorted onto a plane out of the country and thus hope to keep us
apart will also fail.

These are suppressive abuses being committed under the pious sham
that you are somehow assisting mankind by causing pain and
suffering to two innocent people.
Please release him from your custody at Flag so that he may have
freedom of movement and speech.

If you continue to suppress him I will take necessary actions to
ensure that his human rights are fully restored.

Sincerely

Chrissie Pearlman

Chrissie Pearlman and Shane Weightman

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Samantha “Sam” Domingo – UK Independent

Posted on January 7, 2010 by Mark C. Rathbun | 103 comments

Sam with friend Chrissie Pearlman

My Dearest Friends,
As I write this my final declaration of independence as a Scientologist and make my decision to openly declare my disconnection from that entity which calls itself ‘The Church of Scientology’ I thus end the journey of discovery I began so many years ago and begin my life again.

Telling my story was a difficult decision to make – it is personal and it is painful. However, by opening my heart to other independents who have done likewise I know I will fully begin to heal and hopefully my story will help others to heal. Here it is – believe it or not in a very brief version!

It began in the summer of 1988 when I traveled at the age of 21 to Amsterdam looking for adventure. There I met a man who introduced me to the subject of Scientology and got me to buy and read Dianetics. From the moment I opened the book I knew I had found answers to the questions I had been asking all my life. The more I learned about Scientology and L. Ron Hubbard, the more I knew I had found truth and purpose in life. Everything I learned made sense. I knew I could use the technology of Dianetics and Scientology to help people, help myself and make the world a better place. At the same time I fell in love with the world of Scientology, I fell in love also with the man who had introduced me to the subject. For the first time in my life I was truly happy. The next year or so was idyllic. Little did I suspect then that this short year of happiness was yet a precursor of the pain that would follow.

Fast forward to 1989 when we both joined the Sea Organization at Saint Hill. We had planned to be married before we joined the Sea Organization knowing that there were strict rules about co-habitation amongst un-married Sea Org Members. As there were logistics problems to getting married right away, we got engaged and went ahead and joined up. The purpose of helping LRH to clear the planet and dedicating the rest of our lives to help others was irresistible to both of us and we couldn’t wait to jump on board.

Within a few short months life became intolerably miserable. Meager food and money rations and the debased living conditions were bad enough. On top of this my relationship with my fiance began to suffer as we were not allowed to live together or have any form of intimate contact (other than holding hands). I blew once with my fiance and returned a week later wracked with guilt. I disconnected from my mother when I was persuaded that my erratic behavior (wanting to leave) was because she was suppressive and was causing me to ‘roller coaster’. My instinct told me that this was not LRH and this was not the way Scientology was supposed to be. However, everyone else around me insisted that it was just the way things were and it was the bad people out there preventing expansion and happiness. Group opinion rules so eventually I (sort of) fell in line.

For those who have never been part of this group I’m sure that the first question would be “why did you agree?” All I can say in my defense was that I, like my friends and fellow Sea Org Members, was driven by the certainty that LRH was a good man and that our fellow Sea Org Members were good people. We had formed such a bond of brotherhood and mutual trust and respect that when we let each other down, we felt that we had failed our friends and LRH. We did not know that we were being duped by a suppressive at the very top of the church.

Shortly after I disconnected from my mother, I was sent to LA for training on a new technical rundown. While I was there my fiance was sent to Africa on a mission.

Six months later I returned to the UK. Then within weeks of my return, my fiance was sent back from his mission in Africa placed under justice actions for some crime he had supposedly committed (forming a relationship with a female Sea Org Member while in Africa). I was informed that he was going to be ‘offloaded’ from the Sea Organization and Declared a Suppressive Person. I was given the choice to leave with him or stay in the Sea Organization. I was not allowed to speak with him alone. Meanwhile I was convinced by senior Sea Org Members that he was a very bad person because of what he had done and that he was actually suppressive and had been destroying me. I was also shown his ethics files and reports of earlier ‘crimes’ he had committed in a very convincing campaign to thoroughly turn me against him. In my state of grief and shock it worked. A few days later my fiance was offloaded from the Sea Organization and I pawned my engagement ring for enough money to buy a bottle of wine and some chocolate and got drunk with a close friend. That done, it was back on post and back to work! I suppose this was the end of any personal integrity, truth or happiness for some time. From there on out it was all business and just getting on with the job. The pain was neatly buried.

Coincidental to the above I had made the origination that I had received past life auditing and had already reached certain states of OT. This was ignored and I was told that it really didn’t matter as I would have to re-do all of my grades anyway. As I had no interest in doing this I pretty much decided I just wouldn’t bother with any Bridge as there didn’t seem to be any point. I did have a lot of sec checking though! Usually right after I had blown the Sea Org yet again and returned like the prodigal daughter.

Sometime around 1993 I was the Keeper of Technology and Policy (KOT) for the UK (a lofty post for a book one trained auditor but I made it work). By the winter of 1994 I had been busted off of this post and ‘put on the decks’ This basically meant that everyone had had enough of me (I wouldn’t profess to have been an angel by any means) so I was given a pick axe and told to dig a hole at the back of the castle. I would have been put on the RPF but my senior up the lines in LA had refused to allow this. After about a month of digging my hole (which did not grow much bigger despite my frustrated hacking due to the fact that the ground was frozen solid) I was told that I was being sent to LA for a comm ev and would remain there to be trained fully on my post.

I arrived in LA and was driven to Celebrity Center International, where despite initial protest I was quickly trained and posted as a supervisor. I wasn’t entirely happy but soon found a nice boyfriend who was also working there and because of the rules about intimate relationships we quickly got married. Life was pretty much OK until about a month into the marriage when I discovered (despite being on birth control) I was pregnant. (oops!) Being the innocent I was back then I figured we would have to simply leave the Sea Org (as Sea Org Members were not allowed to stay if they had children) and just make the best of it. Life shock number two was about to occur.

I was hauled off to ethics and asked what I was going to do about this ‘situation’. Horrified I asked what this meant and was then told specifically that I should seriously consider having an abortion as this would be for the greater good. Later the same day my new husband informed me that he had spoken to the Commanding Officer at CCInt and they were both ‘on to me’ (apparently I had been plotting to get pregnant all along so that I could force my husband to leave the Sea Org). Disgusted at my husband’s behavior and – well – gobsmacked that anyone would think me capable of such treachery I did what any brainwashed, spun in, PTS idiot would do and went ahead with an abortion. The Ethics Officer at Celebrity Center was very helpful in setting up arrangements for me to go to a free clinic where the abortion would not have to be paid for and I was even given a week or two off to recover. As a footnote, two weeks after my abortion a young Sea Org member at celebrity center approached me and asked me in hushed tones where I had gotten my abortion as she too had fallen pregnant and needed to get this ‘handled’. It was many years before I recovered from the guilt of my actions. I watched in a sort of dazed bewilderment as I inexplicably flushed my personal integrity down the toilet yet again. Needless to say divorce followed shortly thereafter and I was single again.

Always fast to bounce back however, I soon fell in love once more. This time it was to the son of a high profile celebrity who had just joined the Sea Org. Soon I had charmed the pants off of him too – the one snag was that he was in the middle of a divorce so we had to stay at arms length and just be friends until the divorce was finalized. We both knew this and so we followed the rules and would simply meet on breaks at the Church for coffee and a chat.

All of a sudden we were both hit with heavy ethics actions for having ‘2D flows’ towards each other and ordered to ‘disconnect’. We were both astounded and spent days trying to get someone to explain what it was exactly we were doing and what the LRH reference was that said we couldn’t be in communication with each other. The Ethics Officer was relentless and apparently there were reports that had been written on us by other people in the organization who were somehow able to perceive these mysterious invisible entities called 2D flows. After being pounded and hounded for weeks, the new man in my life had had enough and demanded we just leave. We blew together (I was getting awfully good at this by now) but once again I was just as easily persuaded to return to the church the next day so that we could ‘do things standardly and avoid being declared suppressives’. This was all done with the usual promises that everything would be fine, no-one would interfere with us and we would be able to leave together in a couple of days.

A week later somehow I found myself locked up in the security office at Celebrity Center. Meanwhile my partner in crime had been offloaded from the Sea Organization and had disappeared. I’m not quite sure how that happened but it was all very smooth. I also agreed a few weeks later to go on the RPF and was personally escorted to the PAC base by a security official and handed over, all without quite being sure just how I had been talked into doing such an insane thing when I was completely sure at that point that I really wanted to leave the Sea Org and have nothing more to do with it. Conditions were grim. I will not document them here for the sake of expediency as they have been well documented elsewhere.

I managed to get with the program for a good few weeks and was quite enjoying myself on the RPF and quickly made friends. However, the fact that I was escorted around the base and watched 24 hours a day did not sit well with my rebellious side and a couple of weeks later slipped my leash and called my boyfriend. He wasn’t doing so well so a few weeks later I jumped out of a 4th story window onto a tree, climbed down, escaped from the base and got him to come and pick me up from a local phone booth I found in Hollywood. I was soon rounded up however and toddled off obediently back to the RPF after I was promised that I would be able to route out of the RPF quickly if I just returned to ‘do things standardly’. This time however, when I returned I was swiftly put on plane (escorted to the gate by a church security goon) and packed off to England where it was considered I was far enough away that I would not be able to cause any more trouble.

This time it was my boyfriend who caused the trouble (not me!) he found me in the UK and got a flight booked for me to return to the US where he would be waiting for me.

My boyfriend and I decided at that point that we were going to get married and would walk away from the church. However, we were soon contacted by the president at Celebrity Center International and persuaded to go and see her as she wanted to ‘talk to us’.

We arrived at Celebrity Center and I was put into a room by myself with my boyfriend waiting in another room. There I was told (by the President) that I was without a doubt going to be declared a Suppressive Person. She informed me that this meant that I would never be eligible to do my OT levels this lifetime. It was entirely up to me whether I wanted to wish the same fate on my boyfriend but she wanted me to think long and hard about whether I wished to be the cause of his never being able to achieve spiritual freedom this lifetime. Wow! She left me alone with my thoughts and then allowed my boyfriend back into the room to see me where it was hoped that I would do the right thing and break up with him to spare him from a fate worse than death. Instead I told him everything she had told me. Upon this news, his face took on quite a threatening demeanor! “We are leaving right now!” he told me through gritted teeth. And we walked away.

When we reached his apartment we got a panicked phone call saying that it was all a big mistake and if I returned to the RPF and ‘routed out standardly’ it was completely fine and no-one was going to be declared. My boyfriend growled and got protective and refused to entertain the idea but I agreed to give it one last shot and this time it actually worked. After two weeks of intense sec-checking and plant checking I was finally ‘allowed’ to leave. The success of finally getting myself routed out might have had something to do with the threats my boyfriend was making in the background of personally getting a chopper flown in to the base to pick me up if anyone dared cross us again.

We walked away from the church determined not to return. We created three children (beautiful girls) together and life was good.

I wish we could say we are still happily married and lived happily ever after but it isn’t the case.

Around 1998 we returned to the church for services. We paid our freeloader debts and moved up the Bridge to OTV.

To document the out-tech and out-ethics we both encountered along the way would require a separate story and one that would make this write up far too long. Suffice to say that Black Dianetics, Black Scientology and Black Ethics was the undoing of our marriage. All of our family members suffered. The out-tech included (but in no-way is limited to) invalidation of case state, running OT procedures incorrectly, added inapplicable (and random) sec-checking and FPRD, evaluations and having to re-do NED (dianetics) after attesting to OT III. All adding up to hundreds of thousands of dollars of damage which had to be cleaned up with yet more auditing (and more money).

Yes we got gains from LRH technology and our OT levels – you cannot study and receive Scientology services without huge wins and gains. However, the corruption of the church and the technology was too great. The last leg of the final destruction was played out at Flag – the Mecca of Technical perfection where it had been hoped that good and happiness and sanity would be restored. Instead we were all subjected to callous, greedy and uncaring robots (that is what the Sea Org has been reduced to at Flag) who through lack of sleep, the unrelenting pressure of the next reg cycle and the eventual complete erosion any remnants of their own personal integrity, were instrumental in bringing complete chaos into the lives of our family members. We were never able to recover. Our marriage ended bitterly and I removed myself and my children from the church..

There is a happy ending to this story. When I made the decision to walk away I immediately recovered my own personal integrity and dignity and pride. I was rewarded with a swift de-PTSing and discovery of TRUTH through Marty and all of my new found friends. I re-connected with real Scientologists and real OTs and for the first time since discovering Scientology was freed of nagging doubts. Now I know why I was such a confounded trouble maker and I know that all along, despite our best efforts we were up against David Miscavige – an SP that we just couldn’t see. I found MY group. I am happy and proud to join your ranks. I also discovered that despite the many times I have walked away from the church I never walked away from LRH and I never walked away from my group. They were here, on the outside, all along.
I have been back in communication with my mother for some years (and most assuredly she is not a suppressive person!). I have three beautiful girls – the remnant of my marriage, who are quickly becoming strong independent young women. Life is good.

My story should be considered my doubt announcement. I will be forwarding this to everyone I know on BOTH sides. To those of you who are still lost among the lies I urge you to go look for yourselves. I have sent you the link to my story – there are more stories to be read here and there is much more to be known. Don’t let other people tell you ‘it’s entheta’ and ‘you cannot look’. The only way out is the way through. It isn’t all pleasant but it never is pleasant the first time you run yourself through an engram – and yet you always come out laughing on the other side. You know who I am and you know I would not make these statements lightly. LOOK DON’T LISTEN!

As for the rest of you – welcome back fellow rebels 🙂

Love From
Samantha (Sam) Domingo.

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Silvia Kusada – Independent and Happy

Posted on January 6, 2010 by Mark C. Rathbun | 44 comments

Silvia Kusada New OT7,GAT Class VI, with her best friend Mary Jo Leavitt, New OT VIII

I’m proudly waiting for my “Golden Rod”.

As many of you might know I have dedicated the past 15 years of my life studying and practicing Scientology as the pure philosophy of L. Ron Hubbard aligned with my desire to help people and to create a sane, happy world. I’m today one of the few Scientologists that has achieved top levels of training and spiritual awareness.

I’m now part of the many Scientologists that have chosen to leave the Church due to Management that I believe to be corrupt (NOTE: I’m officially leaving the Church of David Miscavige, I’m not leaving Scientology. Scientology being the pure technology from Ron Hubbard ONLY).

I’m today one of the few that has had the courage to openly leave, disconnecting from a Cult that I observed turning a philosophy of freedom into an activity of entrapment called Black Scientology. I personally witnessed several incidents of injustice, of flagrant lies, extortion, cases where unethical and violent people were protected, where false PR prevailed and where good people were deprived of their rights.

The true Scientology by Ron Hubbard has nothing to do with lies, blackmail, extortion, censorship, human trafficking and racketeering.

L. Ron Hubbard says:

“I think of (…) Scientologists as the free people. (…) I don’t expect (…) Scientologists to instantly agree with or seize upon whatever I say. I would be offended if they did and would feel they weren’t free people. Since they are intelligent I expect them to think over what’s said, try it, and if it’s good for them, use it.”

(L. Ron Hubbard from “What Do I Think of Auditors?” also published in The Auditor.)

“PERSONAL INTEGRITY IS KNOWING WHAT YOU KNOW. WHAT YOU KNOW IS WHAT YOU KNOW AND TO HAVE THE COURAGE TO KNOW AND SAY WHAT YOU HAVE OBSERVED”. (by L. Ron Hubbard)

“And then someday — me gone, other guys gone — all of a sudden there sits this thing, this organization. And somebody has to rise up and say, ‘Auditors of the world, unite: Overthrow this monster!’ And everybody would see it go down very plainly, you see. Down it’d go. Then they’d say, ‘Fine! Now we are free.’ And they would get another handful of letters cancelling their certificates.” (L. Ron Hubbard from a lecture What Scientology is Doing, 6 June 1955)

I’m proudly waiting for my Golden Rod.

Ask yourself “Am I free to have an opinion and/or to express it?” If no, whatever you are doing is not Scientology.