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The Miscavige Ideal Student

Posted on April 26, 2011 by | 1 comment

Now that you’ve seen the Ideal OTA, Ideal OT VIII, and one hell of a lot about the Ideal orgs of David Miscavige, let’s take a look at his Ideal Student.   A year, almost to the day, after having come to Corpus Christi with 19 other Corporate Scientologists –  including Tommy Davis, Michael Roberts and the Duffs (Denise and Michael), Jan Eastgate, Chris Smith, et al – aboard Tom Cruise’s private jet on a mission to “intimidate” me so as to kidnap JB, Michael Doven has been rewarded for his failed mission.  Miscavige is now touting Micheal Doven as a celebrity of sorts: the first Golden Age of Knowledge Completion.

Get it people, four years after the release of the largest single cross order to Scientology Training in the history of Scientology, ONE person has completed Miscavige’s line-up to hell.   Is Michael auditing anyone?  No.  Is Michael even an auditor?  No.   Is he enrolled to become one?  No.   A year after having the opportunity to have his head screwed on straight by me personally, Doven has been taken OFF the Bridge.  Here is the exclusive interview I had with Michael last April where you can witness Miscavige’s ideal student acting like Miscavige’s Ideal OTA Allender:

http://www.zshare.net/audio/7552721707c82e2e/

Here’s the post giving the context and what lead up to that interview:

https://markrathbun.wordpress.com/2010/04/29/failed-mission-review/

There is a reason Doven was awarded full time study by Dave (and called an “internationally recognized artist”) after his failed mission.  The clue is in the interview link – and Doven’s waffly, doubt-ridden, comm lags.  If he ever jumped ship – having served as Dave’s live-in spy to Tom for the ten years he was out of Scientology –  Dave and Tom couldn’t handle the fall out.  Having nothing but cowed, ill associates has its advantages.

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De-Ding: Here Comes The Wagon

Posted on April 26, 2011 by | 173 comments

Ok, so here is how the King of Squirrels has come full circle by becoming what he so forcefully resists and resisting what he so forcefully becomes.

The walking GPM.

KoS holds court with admirers

I am going to start by repeating an excerpt from an essay I posted on November 2, 2010:

Miscavige used such an abuse as part of his own push toward power in the early eighties.  A couple of Mission Holders, most notably one Kingsley Wimbush, used Responsibilities of Leaders as an integral part of a process called “De-dinging.”   Wimbush would gather staff and public at the end of the evening in the course room of his mission. He would have them read The Responsibilities of Leaders.  He would then insist that properly interpretted the policy required all of those who depended upon his “power” (all staff and public) to flow “power” to Wimbush.   He told them that the power flow he desired was money, and he’d pressure the staff and public to fill his hat with bills, the larger the denominations the better.

With this information Miscavige grotesquely violated this provision of The Responsibilities of Leaders: So to live at all in the shadow or employ of a power, you must yourself gather and USE enough power to hold your own – without just nattering to the power to “kill Pete”, in straightforward or more suppressive veiled ways to him, as these wreck the power that supports yours.

Miscavige did so by writing the most exaggerated, alarming and vicious reports about Mission Holders.  In fact, he used the Wimbush abuse of The Responsibilities of Leaders to unjustly paint dozens of Mission Holders with the same color.  His reports were so “Kill Pete” in nature that he led LRH to believe the Mission Holders were in fact government operatives out to kill LRH.

Ironically, or perhaps predictably, once Miscavige rose to power through such shifts, he eschewed virtually all LRH policy, but for one: The Reponsibilities of Leaders.  Apparently, Miscavige recognized how one (Wimbush for example) could get people to do the most irrational and off policy things by fixating their attention on this one policy.

from https://markrathbun.wordpress.com/2010/11/02/worse-than-fair-game/

Now, here is what David Miscavige had to say about Wimbush and his de-dinging “tech” during this terrordome “briefing” to Mission Holders on 17 October, 1982 – while full-stride, headlong into his push for power:

“Earlier this evening both Kingsley Wimbush and Dean Stokes were here. They have both now been declared and we are pursuing criminal charges against them. They have been delivering their own squirrel tech while calling it Scientology. Kingsley Wimbush’s ‘dinging process’ is complete squirrel. You won’t find it in any tech, yet he has been calling it Scientology. That’s a violation of trademark laws and he now faces some serious charges for this crime. This sort of activity is NOT going to go on any more.”  – David Miscavige 17 October, 1982

Now, do you remember this bozo from last Monday on this blog, the Village Voice, The London Daily Mail, and Gawker?:

OT “VIII”, OT Ambassador John Allender.   A man so bereft of intelligence he travelled across state lines 1,500 miles in order to continue to stalk and threaten Lori Hodgson at my home in Texas, the same woman he was already under investigation by the San Jose Police Department for stalking and threatening.

What might motivate such a bonehead move?  Perhaps a Simon Bolivar wanna be with a Napoleon complex?

Hold your hats.

In 1982 when Kingsley Wimbush and his brother Bernie and their pal Clay Primrose were literally holding public Scientologists prisoner in the Course Room at Stevens Creek Mission, the public were so terrified very few raised a peep in protest.

But, there were a few exceptions.  One was  a young woman named Lori Hodgson.  Lori wrote up to management that the D of T (Director of Training) at Steven’s Creek was literally imprisoning public and passing around a hat at the end of each course period collecting cash for the executives of the org.

That D of T’s name?

You got it.  John Allender.

You’ve heard of the Ideal Org.

Now, meet the Ideal OTA:


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“Macho” Super Ponzi

Posted on April 20, 2011 by | 181 comments

Where the baby blue raid t-shirts idea came from

 

Sorry for the two day interruption of the ongoing series about the King of Squirrels, in his own words.  If you haven’t already divined the reason for Miscavige coming unglued and sending OTAs to their slaughter in Corpus Christi, I don’t think there will be any mistaking it as this series rolls out.  You see, as Miscavige’s grip weakens his bunker has developed more leaks than Nixon’s White House. And David Miscavige and all the OSA weaklings he has left are powerless to stop them from continuing. 

 

Thus, you are able to see very clearly a number of frauds that have been perpetrated on the public for some time now, and you can see in Miscavige’s own words that he is the source of them.  You can also see how he has co-opted the minds of the Opinion Leader public, OT VIIIs or OT Ambassadors (also referred to as OTAs), as an advance action to get Scientology public to stand for the most off-policy, out-tech mass squirreling imaginable.

 

Today’s feature is on Super Power.  Which Miscavige tells his OTA pals (twice for emphasis) is “Macho.”  As of the Maiden Voyage OTA briefing in June 2006 unnamed project personnel were working directly under Miscavige to perfect machinery that is going to synthesize perceptics.  People have joked about the new Super Power building becoming an implant factory.  I don’t know that all will consider it a laughing matter once you read what Miscavige has in store. If somebody is willing to have his or her sense of time and space “drilled in”, and their endocrine systems tampered with, by this suppressive person, I suggest he or she needs his or her sense of the rightness of things improved.

 

Incidentally, the reason he won’t name who is working on it is because not a single one of them is a recognizable name from the tech hierarchy or Tech Compilations Unit. They have all long since been destroyed by Miscavige, one by one. Instead, he has a corps of engineering types, who have not had a Bridge auditing action in decades or any Scientology tech training. I feel for those who might believe that LRH actually suggested a “massive, massive, massive engineering plant” be constructed in order to compile Super Power.

 

 

MAIDEN VOYAGE 2006

OTA SEMINAR

COB

From recording of live event

 

…And otherwise – there I’ll probably give you a better briefing on Superpower.  Of which I – a lot of these things we work on – myself and I have a special project of confidential people that are so confidential you can’t even know their names.  (laughter)

 

We have a lot of these high tech things going on.  And one that I can tell I most certainly definitely personally work on are all these Superpower perceptics.  And I look forward to bringing that to the Auditor’s Day.  But basically we have a huge gigantic engineering warehouse in Los Angeles.  And we have all of the data on every single one of the perceptics, which is what we’re building there.  Everything LRH ever said on each one of them.  And you would just see a massive, massive, massive engineering plant putting together devices and mechanical items that drill in your perceptics.  It’s an auditing rundown and – I mean, this is macho stuff, okay.  (laughter)

 

This – it really is.  It’s macho stuff, it’s got the – you know, all these – it is, it really is.  (laughter)

 

And we’re  – and it’s basically – it’s an engineering project to be able to do these things like… How you can move through space.   How you can show that.  How you can get a relationship to time.  There’s all these very high-tech devices that have been created that are just gonna – it’s hard to describe it unless you’ve seen it there.  That’s why I’m looking forward to showing it at Auditor’s Day.  But what’s happening on that?  Oh just a massive, massive, massive warehouse and we start getting down to things – how do we get the guy to understand and feel his own – the “magnetic pull of his body”?  Yeah – we’ve worked that out.  “Body motion”, “saline content”, down to “endocrine system”, things like this.  All of those are being worked on, so that you’ll be hearing about there.  But that’s the general planning there. 

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Miscavige Shock Squad Hits Casablanca

Posted on April 18, 2011 by | 606 comments

We interrupt the ongoing exposure of David Miscavige as the greatest suppressor in Scientology history for this News Flash. David Miscavige has directly responded to the posts over the last two days, entitled and subtitled King of Squirrels respectively. Apparently, unsatisfied with ending standard tech delivery behind the walls of his “church”, he’s sending goons clear to Corpus Christi to stop it where he heard it is happening.

The assault by his Scientology (OT Ambassador “VIII” John Allender and friends) Shock Squad was captured on video tape, which can be watched below.

Just a bit of background and context is in order.

This morning I had just completed Lori Hodgson’s first two STANDARD sessions, which incidentally included cleaning up the trauma of having been stalked, assaulted and threatened by “OT VIII”, “OT Ambassador” John Allender.  That assault occured the day after she returned from her first trip to Casablanca in December. For the back story see, https://markrathbun.wordpress.com/2010/12/15/lori-hodgson-is-back-in-the-saddle/

While on a lunch break, our quiet theta environment was interrupted by loud pounding at my front door.  When I opened the door, there was John Allender with three other Miscavige goons in full Miscavige squirrel regalia.  Check it for yourself – it is documented below.

After the Sheriff got done interviewing me and Allender and co separately, the Sheriff told me Miscavige’s boys wanted to make a deal.  If I did not bring CRIMINAL TRESPASSING, STALKING, AND CRIMINAL HARASSMENT charges, Allender and co would not bring “assault” and “criminal mischief” charges (the latter for having took the microphone Allender shoved in my face out of his hand and off its cord  – the former for a 250 pound guy who looks like Sonny Barger on a bender sticking his stomach into my path of progress in the doorway of my own home).

Apparently Miscavige just doesn’t get my repeated messages to him that I (and Mike Rinder, and others) just do not make deals with the devil.  I told the Sheriff I’d roll the dice.  Bring it.  Don’t worry about fees, I’m representing myself if the D/A decides to bring the counter-charges.

There will be a trial in the San Patricio County Courthouse, unless of course Allender and co plead no contest.  Should be interesting.

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Doomsday Dave – KoS pt 2

Posted on April 18, 2011 by | 187 comments

What follows occurred eight years after the 1996 Golden Age of Tech implant, where Miscavige guaranteed public Scientologists that he had forever, absolutely solved TRs and Metering and all other barriers to rapid, standard training of auditors. With that, though not stated and apparently unnoticed by the many, Miscavige was also saying “Ron was wrong, his idea about the TRs and Metering films helping supervisors solve the making of auditors was plain silly.”  You may recall that in 1996 Miscavige proudly announced that based on his own “breakthroughs” that all orgs, including all Class V orgs, would be making “perfect” auditors with alacrity and in abundance. 

Eight years later Miscavige – ignoring his eight year old definitive and absolute claims – let his OT Ambassador friends in on a little secret.  In his 2004, Maiden Voyage Anniversary private OT Summit briefing, he acknowledged to the Ambassadors that students were taking literally “years” to get through his Golden Age of Tech metering course.  How he got away with blaming it on others is a marvel – given that from May 1996 forward he claimed consistently that he was Scientology’s tech God.  But you can see for yourself that his event implant technology apparently was the ONLY thing he kept working like a charm. 

And without mentioning that his 1996 hi-tech marvels (Quantum meter, reads simulator, and the doomsday machine super slow down playback reads critique player), in 2004 he promised to introduced yet another electronic via gadget to the line-up.  Recognize too, that here we are, another seven years later, and he hasn’t delivered on that new doomsday machine.  He said the doomsday machine would result in – oops didn’t he say that in 96? –  perfect auditors being made in abundance in every org in the world.  But, he said, it would be unviable to install immediately because it would cost perhaps 20,000 per org to replicate and install.  In the interim, he has collected hundreds of millions to build pretty MEST orgs across the world.  But, no new doomsday machines in any of them. And so, fifteen years have passed since David Miscavige “solved” metering by forever assuring metering is a lost science inside his “church.”  

After reading this, I encourage people to read HCO PL Complexity and Confronting in a new unit of time.  What follows comes from the official COB Office staff transcribed transcript of Miscavige’s secret 2004 briefing to OT Ambassadors on the Freewinds.  Without further ado, I give you the King of the Squirrels:

COB BRIEFING TO OT AMBASSADORS

25 June 2004

PROOFED AGAINST VIDEO (1 Jul 04)

 

 

OK, complexities.  Man that meter is apparently complex because people can take a long time on that metering course, okay? 

 

There’s two things you can bug.  People can get into this endless TRs, you need a TR supe on metering.  This is really a frontier on the Golden Age of Tech because of course the whole – if you take a look at what that was, it’s just drill in the right way to do something and you get it.  But a metering guy without somebody really knowing his stuff standing over him, the guy can really go off the rails and be at it forever and he’s positive he can’t make it.  And I run into it practically every time I go somewhere.  Even last month at Saint Hill there’s a guy there having been on it ninety months or whatever, and I’ve been at it and it’s just miscalling reads, you have to just slap him around pretty hard actually but boy, he gets it and you’re talking five minutes.

 

This is only the beginning, but I can’t refrain from a few comments:

a)  “People can get into this endless TRs”.  How, when you solved everything, by bypassing everyone through your Rep NW – which incidentally wiped out the tech hierarchy of the church of Scientology in the process – fifteen, count them, fifteen years ago.

b)   “And I run into it practically every time I go somewhere.”  Really?  I thought you solved this when you came up with a new doomsday meter, doomsday reads simulator, doomsday Golden Age of Tech drills for supervisors, etc, etc – fifteen, count them, fifteen years ago.

c)  “you have to just slap him around pretty hard actually but boy, he gets it and you’re talking five minutes.”  Easy then, just open an ultimate fighting prison camp for Spartan Sea Org members at Int.  Oh, forgot you did try that.  No wonder you call me a squirrel – I guess the Truth Rundown in the SP Times cut right across your STANDARD TECH handlings.  Whew – ladies and gentleman, I am not making this stuff up, it is transcribed from the actual briefing by Miscavige’s own staff.

And now, back to the rest of the KoS’s presentation:

 

So we’ve been working on a couple things here.   Here we go.  I’m going to show you one thing that now we got a – believe it or not – simplicity, but it does work.  Here’s a little pilot. 

 

Okay.  And this hopefully – look, this is – you’re seeing prototype stuff here now.  OK let’s start on this little display here.  Okay.  And this isn’t coming out tomorrow.  No really, this is between us now, this not coming out tomorrow.  This is just get – no, it is not, but I’m going to show it to you.  Deal?

 

What happens – anybody’s here been on a pro metering course (yeses), what, you see people and they walk over to the TV, they’re measuring the read.  Okay (laughs) we get all these things (laughs).  How long have you been on it?  Seven months.  Really, what have you been doing?  The last 6 and a half I’ve been on my final assessment.  (Exclaims) It shouldn’t be like that.  Okay.

 

Again, I cannot hold back another comment till the end, this guy just spits outpoints and lies faster than you can say “spit”.  If you haven’t already please read the last post on this blog, The King of the Squirrels.  Miscavige started the practice of walking over to TV screens and measuring reads.  Miscavige created and enforced the arbitraries that made “final assessment” impossible.  Nine years BEFORE this briefing. And look, he’s getting laughs as a response by the OT Ambassadors.

Ok, back to Miscavige:

 

Here’s a little device and here’s a training aid that really is going to speed this up.  This is a reads recorder.  And it’s right there for the guy in doing the assessment.  So here you go, student would be there, it’s got a microphone, a headset, coach would have it as well.  Right?  I’m going to play it for you over the speakers because obviously you’re not going to all be able to hear this you know.

 

And what this does is a guy doing an assessment or any reads it records it onto a hard drive, it’ll record hundreds of hours, you can record many assessments on it, and then play them back immediately and it plays back on the meter.  And here we go. 

 

I’ll give you – now you got the camera on there?  (Yes sir.) 

 

Okay here we go, this is just a little setup here, you can see, it looks a bit odd.  Okay.  Right here.  Various buttons and whatever, different files, meaning which assessment did they do, you know, it just goes up, I can move it up, okay I’m just going to play one now.  Imagine somebody just did an assessment.  You’re going to have to get it on the meter.  I played back their assessment that second… 

 

(Assessment) And there it all is right there, instantaneously.

 

Okay we go to the next assessment and that one they’re checking….

 

(Assessment)  Okay.  So we put this in a course room, and we did do it cause I thought, well I don’t know, I mean, is it really going – it’s instant, that’s the point, and the coach and the student are there.  We haven’t had a student on the pro metering that’s been doing it yet.  I mean it literally has reduced it down to checksheet time because it’s right there, we’re not to a video, we’re not to a screen, we’re not to anything else, it’s instant, anybody can go back and play it, even if the sup wasn’t watching them there it is.  (Exclaims)  So that’s step one and it’s end of metering bugs.  (Cheers, applause)

 

So, what he has done is put a digital recorder system into the meter itself or a plug in.  You see that is much different than having a different piece of MEST recording the drilling, because the MEST is in or on the meter instead of outside the meter.  Get it?  Oh, by the way, “we haven’t had a student on the pro metering that’s been doing it yet. I mean it literally has reduced it down to checksheet time.”  Do you realize this ass just admitted that as of nine years after his having taken over metering, that HE has not got a single person through the course in checksheet  time. Now, realize his introduction of MEST recording on the line in no small part permanently knocked off hats and responsibility from everyone from whoever his second in command is now, right on down through every hat on the org board to the supervisors in every org by introducing his electronic vias. And as of 2004 he says he’s gonna introduce more and in effect PEOPLE cannot supervise.

Sorry, back to the smartest guy in the room:

Now that’s something we’ve been developing and I just have to get all the interface ready so people can hook it up to their meters in the room and that’s probably the furthest in the distance from these quite frankly.  And there are several of these things we just developed and – okay, in any event, now here’s another one, here’s what we’re really getting.  This I’ve been able to take from Flag and I’m going to be able to take it right down to org level. 

 

Because one thing you know if you’ve been to the Flag AO down there you notice that they can record their sessions.  Every single one on a hard drive high security – no video tapes floating around, you can look right at the session – if you knew the cost of that baby, who, that wasn’t going to be too viable to put in the orgs. 

 

So we’ve been working on this for a couple of years, and we have a system here that for — fifteen, maybe twenty thousand dollars maybe we can put it into an org with two HGCs networked throughout the entire place, into the Qual cramming, into their C/S office, into everywhere, now, let’s take a – and look what you can do now.

At best what Miscavige describes is a gizmo that will eliminate the need to measure the length of read on a tv monitor; and nothing else.  But in practice it is yet another means to have his pre-selected, physically attractive, unapproachable, non-tech trained minions second guess, bypass and knock the hats off of supervisors. He’s going to have students with headsets plugging themselves into the meter in order to do e-meter drills.

Now hear this, this will further make metering impossible. The more one focuses on the MEST of it, the less they will be able to master perceiving the one and only LRH definition of INSTANT READ:

The correct definition of INSTANT READ is THAT REACTION OF THE NEEDLE WHICH OCCURS AT THE PRECISE END OF ANY MAJOR THOUGHT VOICED BY THE AUDITOR… 

…Additionally, when looking for reads while clearing commands or when the preclear is originating items, the auditor must note only those reads which occur at the exact moment the pc ends his statement of the item or command.

–         LRH – HCOB 5 August 1978, INSTANT READS

Really folks, metering is simplicity itself.  But recognize, L Ron Hubbard did not have people sitting in course rooms for months, let alone years interiorizing further and further into the meter in order to understand what this means – at the expense, of course, of the actual magic that allows as-isness to occur, the auditor-pc comm cycle. LRH had them do drills till they were comfortable enough and confident enough to take a person in session, then they’d go in session, and they would audit, audit, audit and they would learn to the point where they would not even contemplate arguing about what is and isn’t an instant read.  The auditor would know.  And many auditors do know.  But, they ain’t anywhere near the doomsday machines, the church or Scientology, and most importantly they aren’t anywhere near – or any place they can be even indirectly influenced by –  David Miscavige.

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The King of the Squirrels

Posted on April 16, 2011 by | 342 comments

With all the talk of squirrels this past week, let us focus for a moment on the undisputed King of Squirrels, David Miscavige.

Since he is also the indisputable “Ecclesiastical Leader” of the “churches of Scientology” let us be very clear about the basis for anointing him with this King of the Squirrels title.   The earlier beginning to my having even gotten into this terrain, was a controversial comment of mine to the effect that folk promoting their skype auditing, and long-distance internet NOTs supervision was, in my view, squirrel. That evaluation was predicated on the idea that the interposition of mest forms of electronics between a pre clear and an auditor is a grotesque perversion of the original formula that makes auditing work:

Auditor plus pre clear is greater than bank.

 

And that opens the door for any number of complexities to enter into the magical simplicity of the Basic Auditor Comm Series HCOBs and the several SHSBC lectures that go with them.

First let us define “squirrel” in the Scientology vernacular:

Squirreling (going off into weird practices or altering Scientology) only comes about from noncomprehension.  Usually the noncomprehension is not of Scientology but some earlier contact with an offbeat humanoid practice which in its turn was not understood.  When people can’t get results from what they think is standard practice, they can be counted upon to squirrel to some degree.

–         LRH, Keeping Scientology Working

After returning to Flag from the ship from my relatively unhindered eighteen month auditing and training sabbatical in the summer of 1995, I was assigned by Miscavige to the RTC Rep Office at Flag.  He told me that I was to begin at the bottom of the RTC org board, as my sabbatical was my own RPF for having blown in 93. In retrospect I think he wanted all influential public see me running about Flag with an “RTC Trainee” tag and my single, slim Ensign bars on each shoulder. I was to answer to the Class VIII RTC Rep Angie Trent and communicate to no one else above her on the command channel, most particularly not him.

That was fine by me, because frankly the end phenomena of my ship program was that I had no designs for any altitude or status, I just wanted to apply the tech, and the last person I wanted to be connected to directly was David Miscavige.

I worked mostly on TRs and Metering with the dozens of outer org trainees who were there, ran a program to retread Class XIIs on their TRs and Metering, and handled various VIP cases directly whom the tech hierarchy at Flag (as supervised by Snr CS INT) had failed to handle.

I was pretty much let alone to get on with it as completion stats and L’s HGC stats were steadily rising where I roamed.

However, at the end of each day the Rep office personnel would gather in the Green Room of the FH auditorium to write up our sections of the RTC Rep’s daily report to Miscavige.  It was the Rep’s report, and a great deal of it consisted of what I was producing in the course rooms (outer org, and staff Class XII course room).   Most days, I’d write up my report while Angie and Rikki Jensen (who had zero tech training) would review TRs and Metering videos.  Each day they were frantic to get several on the airport run to Miscavige, who had to give final passes.  They were between a rock and a hard spot.  They had a vicious daily demand for more. Yet the more they sent the more abusive, confusing rejects they would receive from Miscavige – all interlaced with the most vicious arbitrary opinions.  I was at ground zero of the end of simple TRs and metering, and the beginning of the era of mass confusion and endless TRs and Metering Courses.

While writing my reports I could not help but hear Angie and Rikki discuss rejects of students I had debugged in the course rooms.  I attempted to interject my view, and oft times defense or advocation for a particular student’s video.  Each time Angie cut me off saying that Miscavige had given her explicit orders that I not be allowed to participate on the video pass line in any way, shape, manner or form (which was consistent with Miscvige’s orders to me).

I wound up spending considerable time in the course rooms attempting to console students trying to reconcile their arbitrary rejects without outright disrespecting the RTC Reps and by extension Miscavige. I took on sort of a tricky, covert Chaplain hat while trying to maintain some semblance of the hard-as-chrome-steel persona Miscavige demanded of all of us.

At the end of each day I would heard Angie and Rikki arguing for several minutes on whether a metering video read was “instant” or “latent” or “prior.”   These arguments were interlaced with innumerable “COB saids”.  The definition of “instant read” departed further and further from the simplicity that LRH defined it with:

The correct definition of INSTANT READ is THAT REACTION OF THE NEEDLE WHICH OCCURS AT THE PRECISE END OF ANY MAJOR THOUGHT VOICED BY THE AUDITOR…

 

…Additionally, when looking for reads while clearing commands or when the preclear is originating items, the auditor must note only those reads which occur at the exact moment the pc ends his statement of the item or command.

–         LRH – HCOB 5 August 1978, INSTANT READS

One day I lost my composure and told Angie and Rikki in no uncertain terms words to the following effect:

Will you please look at how insane this situation is?  You two sit here and debate dozens of individual reads for minutes on end each, day in and day out.   You pull out rulers against a video screen and flunk a guy because he wrote “Small Fall” instead of “Fall” because you think it was 1/16th of an inch off.   Worse, what was yesterday defined as an instant read, is today called “latent” or “prior.” Think about this. Imagine yourself in session, with you two sitting over your shoulder second guessing every read. Is an auditor afforded the opportunity to say to the pc, “hold on a few minutes, I want to get a second opinion”, walk off and discuss it like you two do with someone else whether a given read is instant, latent or prior?   Hell, why do you think LRH introduced the idea of checking for “false, protest, etc”  Don’t you know that if you take up an uncharged item the TA will immediately start rising and there are remedies for that?  This entire RTC handling on TRs and  metering is taking training away from establishing certainty and instead introducting utter indecision and arbitrary. You’ve knocked the hat off of every Flag exec, Training and Qual terminal. Complexity and Confronting period, that is what is wrong with metering supervision and you are introducing it in spades.

 

That last reference was to HCO PL Complexity and Confronting:

THE DEGREE OF COMPLEXITY IS PROPORTIONAL TO THE DEGREE OF NONCONFRONT.

Reversing this:

THE DEGREE OF SIMPLICITY IS PROPORTIONAL TO THE DEGREE OF CONFRONT.

And

THE BASIS OF ABERRATION IS A NONCONFRONT.

 

The response to my outburst was red face, embarrassed silence.  In that culture there was no other possible response because to acknowledge would be to acknowledge where the bony finger was pointing, the King of Squirrels.  To fight would encourage an issuance of more discussion of the King of Squirrel’s arbitraries.

We all returned to our business but tensions increased between us.  As weeks went on all manner of unusual solutions arose to satisfy crams issued to students with their RTC rejects.  People were nitpicking every word LRH ever said about instant reads.  They were fighting over one LRH comment over another.  It was a tragic trainwreck of semantics and literalness.  And students, Flag Supervisors, and executives and the Reps themselves became increasingly confused.

The next thing I see is a Golden Era Productions, super high-tech video playback machine installed in the RTC Rep office at the Fort Harrison.  Angie and Rikki began doing their video reviews behind the closed door of that little office. When I asked about it, Angie told me that COB had come up with a breakthrough on “instant reads”.  He sent them that fancy video player because they could slow it down to incredibly slow speed and definitively determine whether a read was instant or not.

In practice it confused matters even more.   The reps were working in one electronic universe, the supervisors and students in another entirely.   The reps would sometimes invite a Flag exec, Supervisor or Qual terminal over to the ivory tower to demonstrate how they were right by showing them a disputed video on Miscavige’s secret, doomsday machine. That was necessary as some Flag executives began to protest heavily – though necessarily covertly – to the increasing confusion surrounding TRs and Metering. They would leave the magic technological wonder as confused as when they arrived for reality adjustment.

When I was able to elbow my way into their little enclave over Angie’s efforts to keep me out, I saw that indeed doomsday machine it was.  The sound was slowed down with the picture and greatly amplified.  The instant the words of the major thought ended was virtually impossible to divine as it blended in with the amplified ambient noise.

I even found an LRH lecture where he stated during the SHSBC era that about the most idiotic thing someone could do is to create some high tech film playback system to debate the issue of instant reads. 

I gave that to Angie and went about my business.

As my disagreements with Angie (representing Miscavige) became more intense and less suppressed, suddenly the Lisa McPherson matter hit like an atomic weapon that wiped out that chapter from my life and the lives of many others. To understand how that became the latest prior confusion knocking me further out of valence, you can google “marty rathbun videos tampabay.com” and watch me talk of where that lead me, Miscavige and the church.

Now, I’ve got a pc arriving today and need to do some work in preparation for that, so cannot write more at this time.  Hopefully, I’ve provided enough information to clear at least some fog from the swamp of arbitraries many have suffered from during the ensuring fifteen years. I am not done with this.  I am going to present some documentary evidence that the quagmire I describe above became far more thick and inescapable over the years that followed.

 

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Before You Knight Mayo…

Posted on April 13, 2011 by | 420 comments

 

I didn’t anticipate as much worship for David Mayo as appeared in the thread on the last post, Deconstructing the Mayo Myth. Of course, quite a bit of it was from the very squirrels I was trying to warn people about.  So, it did serve a purpose. I did not set out to discredit David Mayo.  I steered clear of that route pretty carefully – simply detailing proof of one whopper he told that resulted in people being confused (the comments at issue proving the confusion proposition true).  If one studied much Scientology and applied it, it would take a rather low IQ to be confused enough to put David Mayo on the same level as L Ron Hubbard – whether Mayo’s original lie were a lie or not.

 

I did not even think of the following facts before last night’s posting; because I never intended to bury Mayo.  I only thought of them while scratching my head at comments seeking to raise Mayo to sainthood.  They are clearly relevant – at least to those still apt to be lead down some dead end canyon.

 

David Mayo did not do a single thing to make the Upper Level HCOBs available for people outside of the church of Scientology.  In fact, he swore under oath on numerous occasions he never received the Robin Scott materials. He never wavered from that position from 1983 to this day.  Rather than take on David Miscavige, David Mayo countersued and made the focus of his attack L Ron Hubbard.  He actively joined forces with a formidable government and private consortium that was dead set on harassing, jailing and forever discrediting L Ron Hubbard.  The day before L Ron Hubbard died in January 1986 the Federal Disctrict Court judge on the case denied Mayo’s motion to force LRH into the litigation and appear for deposition. Mayo’s team ruthlessly pursued L Ron Hubbard literally to the day he died.

 

Mayo’s AAC was closed by 1984.  His stint as a Scientology practioner outside the church lasted a far sight shorter than the existence of the modern Independent movement, which has only just begun. Mayo was unemployed for the next ten years. He may have had a side “consulting” agreement with his sugar daddy who carried him for that decade in order to justify that carrying. He spent a great deal of that time windsurfing in exotic locations.  He was taken care of financially by psychiatrist/Scientologist Frank “Sarge” Gerbode.  Gerbode hired and paid for one of the largest litigation firms on the planet to represent Mayo.

 

Mayo ultimately agreed to a permanent injunction against using or disseminating any Scientology upper level materials.  He agreed to do that in exchange for all Gerbode’s legal expenses being paid for and a high six figure or low seven figure chunk of change for himself.   He flew in from his digs in Hawaii to consummate the deal. And he flew off to quiet, perhaps content, oblivion. Sure, David Mayo took a beating.  You think we haven’t?  The difference is this. I will die before accepting anything from David Miscavige. And I know for a fact the same goes for Mike Rinder and dozens of others who have been shoulder to the wheel over the past two years, after several decades of having their shoulders against another wheel that they thought was the one it is on now.

 

As to the squirrel line that “hey, you supported the little bastard he defied”, I’d like to courteously point out a few facts.  First, David Mayo wore Commander bars, was in daily communication with L Ron Hubbard, and was one of only a handful of people who even had access to LRH when the little bastard out maneuvered him and ousted him. Mayo’s compatriots at the AAC had more combined brass than the modern Navy when the little bastard, without any stripes, kicked all their asses.  That included Sector Nine Capitan Bill Robertson and a host of others.  We – myself and a lot of others who are now forwarding LRH’s legacy – were not even pieces on the chessboard then, let alone players.  By the time I was in a Legal executive capacity, Mayo and his friends were already engaged in a full-scale attack against L Ron Hubbard.  And they were arm in arm with the Internal Revenue Service, FBI, and an array of private sector attorneys.

 

David Mayo may have been the greatest C/S to ever trod earth before all this started. I wouldn’t know.  I only ever talked to him casually while a 23 year old LRH External Comm courier before I’d had any tech training.  Even then his presence didn’t impress me much.

 

And that reminds me of an earlier beginning to my contemplating a post to distinguish us from the likes of Mayo.  I have noticed over the past year several old AACers coming out of retirement and hanging up their shingles.   While nattering about Independents being “johnny come lately” out of one side of their mouths, they are back in business only because of the exodus we have unleashed.  Well, over the past couple months I have had some bedraggled souls wind up on my doorstep who have been mauled by old-timer squirrels.  I repaired them, and will continue to do so as needed. But, it is apparent to me that a line needs to be drawn.  Squirrels leave the church seeking freedom to do whatever hair-brained scheme their banks feed them. Independents leave the church seeking freedom to practice standard tech.

 

I was willing to let bygones be bygones and largely have over the past two years.  But, I think it is high time to clearly delineate what we stand for and distinguish it from others with not so lofty goals.

 

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Restoration of Tech: Service Facsimiles

Posted on April 9, 2011 by | 80 comments

Early on in the history of this blog RJ and I had an exchange about the “lost tech” of Service Facsimile handling in Scientology Inc.   Since, during more than a year of being subjected to daily doses of Scientology Inc’s dramatization of Miscavige’s Serv Facs, we have calmly and consistently gone about restoring the powerful technology of service facscimile handling.

In a Class VIII lecture aboard the Apollo in 1968, LRH told the original Class VIII’s that the route in Scientology had been taped by 1966.   If one fully understands that taped route, as preserved in the Saint Hill Special Briefing Course (SHSBC) lectures, one cannot help but notice the utter enthusiasm LRH expresses during his lectures on the culmination point on the route to Clear and OT: Service Facsimile handling.  Listened to in sequence – after hundreds of lectures, LRH’s tone changes noticeably.  Why?  Well, here is LRH’s description of the ability gained when one truly handles his or her real service facsimiles:

“Moving out of  fixed conditions into ability to do new things.”

Wait a second!  Isn’t the hope for just that the very reason why most people began studying and applying Scientology in the first place?

I have noted here before that the institution of the Golden Age of tech made the real handling of Service Facsimiles virtually impossible.

That is because actually discovering and handling terminatedly the Service Facsimiles of a pre-Clear (and yes, a pre-OT) requires what LRH calls “slippy auditing”.   A robot cannot and never will discover, let alone, handle a service facsimile.  LRH put it this way in HCOB 5 Sep 1978 Anatomy of a Service Facsimile, “those things that do not respond to routine auditing, that routine auditing won’t change, are rooted in this mechanism.”

Listen to the many lectures on the subject of Service Facsimile handling by LRH in the SHSBC to fully grasp that concept.  What I take from those lectures, and through SUCCESSFUL application behind the meter, an auditor has got to get down into the swamp with the pc to locate and wrassle that gator – or that gator is gonna bite the pc in the ass.  It is anything but “routine auditing.”

In early 1996 I reported directly to Miscavige that after several months of debugging cases – including extensive folder study of bugged OT cases that the tech hierarchy had given up on – demonstrated that the church of Scientology – including but not limited to the FSO – had lost the tech of Service Fac handling.  I could find very few actual service facsimile run over an extended period of time within the corporate church of Scientology.  PCs were run  instead on run-of-the-mill intentions, false purposes and other assorted beingnesses, doingnesses, and havingnesses.

Note that it is a computation, not a doingness, beingness or havingness.

– Anatomy of a Service Facsimile

The first step in actual service facsimile handling is to really clear this up for the preclear.   You are looking for a computation – which LRH clearly distinguishes from a beingness, doingness,or havingness (which are addressed by ‘routine auditing’).  One very effective method – aside from clearing  the pc thoroughly on HCOB Anatomy of a Service Facsimile – is to thoroughly clear he or she on the chapter titled “Computations” from Advance Procedures and Axioms.  Might take a bit of time, but it is time well spent. It is where LRH clearly establishes just what a computation is and clearly differentiates it from a beingness, doingness, or havingness or any other kind of consideration.

Beyond that, you cannot be a Golden Age of Tech robot.  You’ve got to roll up your sleeves and really audit the pc in front of you.  Oh, and corporate Scientology blasphemy of blasphemies, you’ve got to be in such good two way communication with the pc that if you don’t take LRH’s auditing demo tapes to heart, you are lost.

Ok, so why would Miscavige ignore my advice in 96 (he never even bothered to respond) and instead go headlong into creating robots in the place of auditors?

Well, here is clue in my opinion, also from Anatomy of a Service Facsimile:

There is nothing sane about a service facsimile; there is no rationality to it. The computation does not fit the incident or event occurring.  It simply enforces, exaggerates, and destroys freedom of choice over the exercise of ability to be happy or powerful or normal or active.  It destroys power, destroys freedom of choice.

I can tell you straight up that it is an intentional action on Miscavige’s part.  It was my own discovery of this mechanism in myself that freed me from continuing to do  the dirty work of Miscavige. I recognized the computation of my own that he so craftily used and profited from over so many years.  It is gone incidentally, and that is why Miscavige and his minions have no idea – and I mean none – who I really am and what I am capable of.

For a taste of how this lost tech, restored, can have incredible, practical impact on the everyday lives of folks, I am including a write up from a bona fide OT V Kay Proctor. I want to thank Kay for having the courage and responsibility to lay it on the line with intimate details of her life so that others might enjoy the abilities she now has.

Success Story — Kay Proctor — April 2, 2011

Marty gave me my son back last week! You see, I had a very insidious service facsimile sitting there and it was ruining my life and my son’s life.

I had asked for help in 2002 at AOLA when I was about to complete OT 3. I did not consider I could ethically attest to Freedom from Overwhelm with this glaring outpoint with my son. Though they reluctantly let me interrupt the level and do a RPEC, it only yielded minor relief.

Again in 2006 and then in 2008, I went to Flag, specifically to get some help with my son. Each time I was told to just keep moving up and it would handle itself over time as I went up the Bridge.

This was THE only glaring outpoint along my dynamics, and it was literally ruining my life, as it was a mother of an outpoint. My son was disagreeable, wasn’t winning in life, and neither was I. And now with my husband gone, it was just us and we were not getting along. The situation had to get handled for both our survival.

It took Marty 3 sessions to get to the bottom of this and it wasn’t difficult. A crazy, non-survival computation—It’s no wonder my son was disagreeable. I’d probably have killed somebody if I had this crap being run on me.

It went something like this:

In order for him to be self-confident, he had to do everything the same as I did.

That’s like, ‘in order to be happy, I have to be unhappy.’ Holy mother of god. What a load of crap. He gave me clues with his protesting of my standards and my perceptiveness. His mouth would be vile and abusive, invalidating any and everything, no matter what or why. Understandable reaction actually.

In less than 3 hours, I had my son back – quick and simple. Marty was meticulous with me until I had the ‘exact wording’ of the ser fac and then, it blew. Instantly I could grant beingness to him and it was evident when I made a phone call to him after session. He could now do or not do whatever he wanted, however he wanted and I could feel that the ridge was gone. I could also grant myself beingness to just run my life, instead of trying to mind my business and his. Whew! Did I gain some energy and attention units to use in a ‘more productive’ way.

So, now I am truly ready to get onto Solo NOTS, which I will do as soon as Jim Logan & I get ourselves through OT 6 in the next few weeks.

To sing a few praises to Marty: Now I’d like to let you know that the auditing I received was beyond anything I have ever experienced. Lovely, caring comm cycle, had a f/n at the start of session, so did not have to fly ruds with the crazy 3-swing f/n crap, did not have to go through a bazillion gyrations to get into session, which would previously consisted of: shoes off, feet on pillow, blanket over lap, another blanket made into a tent so that a heater could be at the back of my calves —  then a fan blowing on my face – plus all the significance if I had enough food, water, vitamins, bathroom, tight clothes, tight underwear, tight ass……………wtf. It would get crazy with all the gyrations.

Not one single gyration was needed. Sitting there in flip flops, no heater, no fan, no blanket, good can squeeze on the first try, f/n starting the session everytime. It was so easy. Marty did not blast me into the next room when he said “this is the session” as I always experienced at Flag, and no special gyrations had to be repeated for the Exam at the end of session.

Beautiful R-factors that made auditing safe and easy. You knew what you were looking for and were a properly enlightened pc.  When you know exactly what to expect, it runs like hot butter. Marty has set a standard for me, both for other auditing situations I may find myself in plus when I solo audit myself shortly on Solo NOTS.

I imagined it to be like LRH would audit — high, high ARC, great TR’s, completely handling the person in front of you and never feeling like you are doing some ‘one size fits all’ program, whether it indicates to you or not. It is your session and your case and the auditor is simply there to guide you.

Beautiful, standard LRH applied to a beautiful result. To say I am eternally grateful does not express the magnitude of how I feel.

I have not uttered one word to my son. In fact, he had no idea where I had been. I have been test-driving my new beingness this week.  From him, not one utterance of vile language, not one disagreement when I ask him to do something, no invalidations, and furthermore, he is in great comm with me with good ARC. The ridge that I previously felt is gone.

I no longer have a Held-Down 7.

I cannot speak high enough praises to Marty and his auditing style. May we all experience such and restore ourselves to our native state. Many, many thanks to LRH for this beautiful tech and for the standard application delivered to me at Casablanca.

Kay Proctor


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The Palmers – Dignified Departure and Arrival

Posted on March 30, 2011 by | 279 comments

dig·ni·fied/ˈdigniˌfīd/

Adjective: Having or showing a composed or serious manner that is worthy of respect.  (Dictionary.com)
That is the first word that came to mind when I read the following story of Richard and Vicki Palmer.
 

Richard and Vicki Palmer

 

 

My whole history in Scientology will have to wait. While it may be interesting to some, amusing to others, helpful to others still and cathartic for me – it’s too long to post here.

Having started in 1988 I’ve had the unique experience of being in Scientology after LRH departed but with the organization still having the “feel” of the earlier era (or at least what I imagine it felt like). I was fortunate enough to get training and auditing both pre and post Golden Age of Tech. And I’ve also held positions that gave me a unique view of the church.

I trained and interned as a course supervisor & Pro Word Clearer on the TTC (Technical Training Corps) and held a supervisor position for a number of years before going into the TTC again and training as an auditor & C/S. My last post held in an org was that of Snr C/S and I held it for 5 years.

I’ve done training, auditing and staff activities in Los Angeles, Flag & the Freewinds. And due to my staff status I’ve met people and been witness to things I wouldn’t have as a public. This led me to have many un-reconciled dichotomies about the subject – and left me with great conflict over the years. Some examples:

  • Reading about ARC being the universal solvent and then witnessing the LRH Comm of ASHO “rip the face off” the Commanding Officer.
  • Studying at great length the comm formula and the power of it only to then listen to David Miscavige (and RTC/Int Management staff) denigrate my peers with gross disdain at the Snr C/S Conference.
  • As an extra in a tech film seeing mistreatment of many SO staff, while one or two were treated like kings.
  • Training as a minister and coming to understand the benevolence of the subject, but then working with & around RPF members and seeing how they were treated.

While I can cite example upon example of dichotomies like the above (as a public, as an auditor, as a C/S, as an OT) I still continued with the subject. I was of the frame of mind that there was considerably more good happening and had thoroughly bought the PR that upper management was an idyllic heaven of standardness – it was just us idiots down lower on the org board, goofing things up. I was, for many years, the ideal “bot” for the church. I forwarded the PR line of management and was as much an example of what was expected of me as possible. If there was a program – I would forward its objective.

I had unique comm lines that most staff didn’t have. I was the Snr C/S so I had a Network post – this put me on the lines of management directly. I also had a direct line to RTC, complete with weekly reports. And as the Birthday Game I/C I had other unique comm lines. Being close friends to the DSA of the org also put me on unique comm lines.

As the only OT in both Day & Foundation orgs I’d had more hours of confessional auditing than the entire staff of both orgs combined. Yet I continually found myself in ethics trouble. Despite having been the only staff member I knew of in over a decade to complete a program (and gain signification of it from management) I still was a failure. And despite recruiting over 30 people for staff, C/Sing for both orgs and doing HGC & Review auditing I was still a downstat.

I watched year by year things change. The things that I noticed first were “statistics” at events that didn’t add up. They were things that didn’t really have any bearing on anything – or didn’t directly correlate to the business of orgs. Hearing about “column inches” of press didn’t mean much to me after I’d been involved with the DSA to get something posted in the newspaper for her stat. And things like “Number of books sold” became meaningless when I saw thousands upon thousands of dollars being spent on them by fellow Scientologists – and when the “25 books equals a Scientologist” quote would get tossed into the mix, it really stung.

Being trained pre-GAT and having true ARC in a session was very remarkable. Even if I goofed or didn’t know what to do next it hardly mattered. I was there with the PC and we were both doing our best. The C/S was caring and gentle with both of us – and why wouldn’t he be? And while internships were difficult, at the end of the day I was a PC’s friend. The GAT changed all of that. Personality, ARC, charisma, care – all of it went out the window. I had a realization shortly after finishing my GAT training (which at the time I thought was a good one – in hindsight it wasn’t), that with the advent of the GAT we no longer had “good” or “bad” auditors, we simply had auditors.

As Snr C/S I watched as the subject was systematically ruined – doing our best to churn out rote, robotic “auditors” as fast as possible. And I was running dozens of programs to ensure this happened. The irony is the GAT is such a pile of crap, there’s no way those programs will ever be completed. It’d be like having a series of programs that “extinguish the sun” by using acetone – just not going to happen, no matter how much effort you put into it.

But as a Scientologist, I was still trying to do it all. I was moving through OT levels, was trained and on post in a Class V org, had my wife moving up the Bridge, my son was in an Applied Scholastics school and we were even donating thousands to the IAS. But therein lied the rub – this was just too expensive for a “regular” family to do. I could see the writing on the wall, albeit too late. I was already in the hole for well over $100,000 and hadn’t even started OT VII yet. I’d been working days, nights & weekends for over a decade and was tired. There were very little days off, no vacations and no normalcy for my wife and son.

In 2002, I finished my staff contract, but as many of you know, there’s no “Congratulations/Thank You” for completing a contract and leaving. Oh no. And while there’s no golden watch, there can be goldenrod. 🙂

A Comm Ev was begun a couple months prior to me completing my contract and was issued a month after I left (but was still C/Sing for both orgs out of my home). The Findings & Recommendations were pretty gross. After all the years of work/exchange I’d given, all of my auditing & C/S certificates were suspended pending re-train (among a long list of other things). I was left with a sickening feeling of being “lucky” I hadn’t been declared. Still I soldiered on.

Interesting to note, my wife pointed out to me that most people after leaving staff (or being Comm Ev’d) simply disappear. At some point in the future there will be an attempt to get them “recovered” and at that time it will be disclosed how valuable they’ve always been and what a great contributor they were. But I decided to buck the trend. I was no enemy of Scientology. I wanted everyone to win!

So I got involved with the OT Committee and eventually took the position of D/Chairman. The Chairman & I sat down with some others and came up with a great idea – we’d get a public-level project going to buy the org a building! We started working on it and after a while had a building located, inspected and the initial checklist of actions done for management approval. It was affordable and was constructed & zoned for more stories on top of it for future expansion!

But as you can guess, that building was disapproved (without anyone looking at it) and the OTC was “in trouble” for acting without authorization. It was about this time I got a knowledge report written on me for “being too uptone” in the face of my unfinished F&Rs. Clearly I should have been more hangdog and stayed quietly off-lines. Well, as there was a Sea Org ethics mission in the org, this single KR got me hauled in – and I was told in no uncertain terms that if I didn’t pay for and route onto the Ethics Specialist course immediately, I’d be declared…

I got on course and worked on it diligently. I did my best to be a model student and help the supervisor out (whom I recruited and is still on staff to this day as far as I know) , gave wins, etc.. And yes, I completed it in checksheet time.

I then stopped working with the OTC and went flat out for months to get through my F&Rs. Why did I go through all of this? Well, because I wanted my wife and I to go to the Freewinds and do the OT Debug service, of course! The idea was simple. They promoted 98% of people doing this service are onto their next major service within 2 weeks of returning from the ship. I was thinking I liked those odds – because there was no way I’d be seeing a major service (simply from a financial aspect) for decades at the rate things were going. I was all-in, in the dark (poker parlance).

It was an expensive action but also a defining moment. Doing that service cost well over $25,000 (that we didn’t have) but helped open our eyes like no other. Doing the debug resulted in us having one of the most miserable times of our lives, being invalidated as to our intentions & abilities and left with no route of help.

After the debug we spent the next few years recovering financially. There was no option of doing more Bridge activity. I went to events and helped out however I could, but as far as services/donations go, I was no longer in the game. I was a broken piece…

And that’s why the OT Debug was also the most valuable thing I’d done in a long time. My wife and I both agreed that the church could no longer “help” us and we would have to rely on ourselves. It allowed me to take a step back and do what I knew to be the right things – work, pay off existing debt, never go into this kind of debt again, etc. It had the unexpected effect of allowing me to see how far astray the church had gone from my earliest days with it.

Over the next few years of just going to events (but not doing services or giving money) I was seeing a gross pattern – and recalling earlier instances of the same, substantiated things in my mind. My only thought was that sometime in the future things would be different. I had nothing left in the tank to give, so wasn’t really able to “pitch in to fix things”.

In July of 2009, Vicki and I found out about the St. Petersburg Times article & videos. I of course, was pretty knowledgeable about Marty, his post and relationship within RTC. Similarly with the others giving video testimony. Clearly I didn’t know them as well as those working/living with them all, but as far as “non-SO” went, I had much more knowledge than most.

To say I was in shock would be an understatement. The “problem” I was having was how everything was all of a sudden making sense to me. The church would like people to believe that the testimony given in those videos is what causes a negative effect in the wayward Scientologist. But that is a slap in the face in and of itself. I’d been observing things for YEARS with only partial data, unable to ascertain the truth of them because of incomplete data. No explanation given by the church EVER reconciled them for me. But these videos absolutely did.

I started thinking about how well little Dianetics book clubs & impromptu groups did. And how well Missions seemed to work, compared to Class V orgs. And how increasingly more difficult it got to get the job done as you moved up the org board. I was getting memories flashing of things I observed in Class V orgs, ASHO/AO, how much more poorly people were treated at Flag, the Freewinds, what it was like at the CLO/FOLO and what it was like at FB. The higher you went on the org board THE WORSE IT WAS! But I only ever saw up to FB so never personally witnessed the abuses at Int. But it now made sense – the idea of things “coming down the org board” was really true.

It now made sense why the RTC Reps in SO orgs were the rudest, most unfriendly, out-of-ARC people I’d ever met. It made sense why the MAAs in upper orgs were so concerned with petty overts. It explained why every Class V org EO eventually acted like a douche bag, pretending to be a big shot with a “badge”. It explained why the OSA network had the seediest, most no-gain-case personnel all over their lines. Why so much money went to “defense” of orgs. Why the church needed so many attorneys. Why the church’s PR was so horrible world-wide. And why the subject was being used the way it was on parishioners.

From the moment I had these realizations, I was out…

There is no way I can advocate, condone or support an organization betraying the very foundation of its existence. The Church of Scientology has become a fraudulent, human rights violating, cult of greed.

Step three of the Doubt formula states, “Decide on the basis of ‘the greatest good for the greatest number of dynamics’ whether or not it should be attacked, harmed or suppressed or helped.”

I firmly believe the church is no longer deserving of ‘help’…

Richard Palmer

 

Richard’s email: richardlpalmer@hotmail.com

Vicki’s email: vickimpalmer@hotmail.com

 

                                                       

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Leaving the church of Dave Miscavige

Posted on March 28, 2011 by | 191 comments
Another Texan takes the high road

Honestly, I won’t dignify that organization with the word Scientology.

I recall when going to an org was just fun. My friends were there, it was just a great place to be. There was no regging for anything but the bridge and it was done with ARC from the reg and was done to get you up the bridge. It was honest, it was good.

Fast forward to today.

Quite a difference, huh?

Now, essentially one individual has complete control of the only workable spiritual technology in existence, which is parceled out in such a way that only a tiny percentage of the population is able to avail themselves of it, due to of all things, the size of their wallet.

With that in mind give me a flash answer, what word comes to mind?

Yea, me too.

It seems very odd that of all the things I consume in this life, all the services and goods that pass before me in this existence, that I am to believe that I can ONLY receive spiritual gains from the good ol’ Church of Dave. It’s almost like he is insisting upon a monopoly on the delivery of LRH tech.

Not only that, but one would be lead to believe that only the squirrelyist of squirrels would dare leave the C of D and help his fellows out. Perhaps “squirrel” really means not sending Dave his cut of the action. Of course there are real squirrels out there, but they are easy to spot, easy to check up on. What bugs me is the use of the term to describe anyone not toeing the line, not in the herd, or “part of the group” regardless of the quality of the delivery.

With Marty, I’ve had the privilege of picking up the cans with one hell of a standard auditor on the other end. The difference between what he delivered to me and the herky-jerky crap-o-rama that I was getting from orgs is frankly unbelievable. Marty simply got me through what I needed to do as A to B as one could imagine and I cant help but think as LRH intended.

So a big thanks to Marty and Mosey. Things just are so much better in my life because you, and others like you, gave me an option outside the Church of Dave. And for showing me the new form of the delivery of LRH’s tech, and let me just say I loved every minute of it!

You know, I can’t help but think that as a consequence of our best people being driven out, Dave hasn’t enriched the field with some fantastic auditors, administrators and really the most competent people on the planet. So thanks, we can sure use them in the independent movement.

Just in case there is any doubt in anyone’s mind. I am out of the church, am an Independent Scientologist and I will be continuing on the road to total freedom.

With that settled and as a complete aside, I’ve noticed on this blog a tendency to express one’s thoughts and feelings in the form of a video of favorite or appropriate performances. Why not? We are dealing with the stuff of life and living. From the realization of betrayal to the exuberance of a great session. This is where the artists live.

So here’s mine, for Marty, Mosey and all Independents,

First a definition:

Shambhala (also spelled Shambala or Shamballa) is a mythical kingdom hidden somewhere in Inner Asia. It gradually came to be seen as a fabulous kingdom whose reality is visionary or spiritual as much as physical or geographic.

The words [chorus omitted]:

Wash away my troubles, wash away my pain
With the rain in Shambala
Wash away my sorrow, wash away my shame
With the rain in Shambala
[…]
Everyone is helpful, everyone is kind
On the road to Shambala
Everyone is lucky, everyone is so kind
On the road to Shambala
[.…]
How does your light shine, in the halls of Shambala?
How does your light shine, in the halls of Shambala?


I can tell my sister by the flowers in her eyes
On the road to Shambala
I can tell my brother by the flowers in his eyes
On the road to Shambala
[.…]
How does your light shine, in the halls of Shambala?
How does your light shine, in the halls of Shambala?

[.…]

And of course the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xnyh6i9NvmE&feature=related

ML,

Byron O. Dawson

Aka: Pissed Wizard

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