Monthly Archives: November 2012

Clearwater Star Chamber Gets Green Light, For Now

Reference: Miscavige’s Hot Smoking Gun

A Federal Court judge today denied attorney Ken Dandar’s motion to enjoin Pinellas County state court judge Crocket Farnell from proceeding with a closed-to-the-public proceeding to assess fines against Dandar.  F. Wallace Pope’s motion to strike my testimony from the record apparently was denied.

Here is the court’s official minutes:

UNITED STATES DISTRICT COURT MIDDLE DISTRICT OF FLORIDA

TAMPA DIVISION CLERK’S MINUTES

8:12-cv-2477-T-VMC(EAJ)

DATE:

HON. VIRGINIA M. HERNANDEZ COVINGTON

PLAINTIFF’S COUNSEL

Pro se

DEFENSE COUNSEL

Wallace Pope, Robert Potter

COURT REPORTER: Paul Spangler

DEPUTY CLERK:

TIME: 9:00 – 9:49 TOTAL: 49 mins

COURTROOM:

PROCEEDINGS: MOTION HEARING re: Emergency Motion for Preliminary Injunction (Dkt #2)

The plaintiff argued his motion before the Court.
The defendant offered a counter-argument before the Court. Defendant’s position is that plaintiff has not alleged some form of state action.

The Court stated she will not accept a pleading that is filed under seal or in camera.

The Court stated that plaintiff has failed to allege what has to be alleged in the complaint.

Oral Motion by plaintiff for leave to file an amended complaint. The Court instructs the plaintiff to file a motion if he wishes to amend the complaint and defendant will have a chance to respond.

The Court denied the Emergency Motion for Preliminary Injunction. A written order will be entered. Motion to Strike is denied as moot.
Motion to file pleadings in camera/under seal is denied.

News on the development:

Tony Ortega’s Account

New York Daily News

ABC Action News Tampa’s Account

Apparently, Dandar did not properly plead the case. I have no further data as to what took place in the Federal Court proceeding.  I simply responded to and complied with a subpoena and testified to the truth.  But, the more I learn of this case, the more I am beginning to suspect that an injustice of magnitude is afoot.   The proceedings before Farnell being carried on off the public record seems unAmerican and, given Scientology Inc.’s history of buying influence with the Pinellas judiciary, it at the very least has the appearance of impropriety.

Farnell was approached by Scientology Inc. lawyers to assess Dandar with fines for alleged violation of the Lisa McPherson civil case settlement the parties entered into in 2004.  The settlement agreement allegedly includes the provision that Dandar may not represent anyone for the remainder of his life in any action against David Miscavige and Scientology Inc.   Dandar allegedly violated that agreement by representing the woman whose son committed suicide while in the care of his Scientologists father.  The father was twinning with David Miscavige’s twin sister Denise at Scientology Inc’s Flag training center at the time.  Dandar alleged that Denise and Scientology Inc had pressured the father to hide his son’s meds, which deprivation lead to the suicide.  According to Dandar, he only took on the case when the victim’s mother was rebuffed by a number of potential lawyers who all opted out citing fear of the Scientology Inc retaliation machine. Dandar lost that suit earlier this year.  Miscavige now wants to ruin Dandar financially. Apparently, he wants to put his head on a figurative pike so as to create a chilling effect against any other lawyers getting the idea it is safe to sue Miscavige and Scientology Inc.   Therefore, we will keep a closer eye on this one.

Miscavige’s Hot Smoking Gun

Mark Bunker, also known as Wise Beard Man, posted a sixteen minute interview wherein he afforded me the opportunity to connect the dots revealing David Miscavige’s smoking gun in the Lisa McPherson criminal case:

watch?feature=player_embedded&v=ntEXhmjW-pE

references:

Tony Ortega coverage – by the way, when something (my interview with Bunker) is too hot for Ortega to post, you know we are dealing with some fairly explosive stuff.

By by the way, I hear there is some natter in cyberspace as to “it is about time”.   For the nattering spectators, and further testimony to the heat index on this one, I disclosed all of this to the Tampa Bay Times nearly three years ago – apparently, it was too hot for them to handle.

Previous post on the subject: 30 Million Dollar Cover Up

 

$30 Million Cover Up

Apparently a simple, hour-long deposition taken of me last week is beginning to create quite the tempest in Tampa, Florida.  Click headline below for link:

Federal suit: Scientologist spent $30 mil to cover up death of Lisa McPherson

FULL DEPOSITION TRANSCRIPT OF MARK ‘MARTY’ RATHBUN:

deposition of marty rathbun

UPDATE: 11/17/12 A.M.  Tony Ortega weighs in, Scientology Accused of Spending Millions To Influence Florida Judges

UPDATE: 11/17/12 P.M. Radar Online Coverage.

UPDATE: 11/17/12 P.M. : Scientology Inc Motion to Strike including Bizarre Whining about being an alleged victim of extortion:  Motion to Strike by Scientology Inc

Don Schaul – Independent Scientologist

1. Letter to All Scientologists.

15 November 2012

From: Don Schaul

Ex- Qual Sec Malmo Ideal Org

Class V Auditor & C/S

A MESSAGE TO ALL MY SCIENTOLOGIST FRIENDS AND OTHERS

 DOUBT CONDITION ANNOUNCEMENT

Dear Scientologists and friends,

I am writing this letter to you after a long period of silence from my side. Most of you did not know what is happening with me or what am I doing in present time.

The following is my story. A part of you already know it. It is worth telling to those who are not familiar with it.

As of now, I am 18 years old only and I am a Class V Auditor & Case Supervisor (Validated). I have also completed many other courses, such as different OEC Courses, the Hubbard Data Series Evaluator’s Course, etc.

My passion with Scientology started already at the age of 6. A few years later I represented Scientology as a very young Human Rights activist which created huge outflow for Scientology, LRH and Human Rights in Israel. I appeared a few times on all three national TV channels in Israel. Most of you remember me as that little kid.

At the age of 12 I already knew that LRH’s tech was what I wanted to work with, in this life.

I convinced my parents and they allowed me to study and acquire Scientology training. I did most of it at the Johannesburg Org, South Africa.

At the age of 14, I was the youngest trained Case Supervisor on the planet.

I returned to Israel as soon as I completed my training. I started auditing my family and brought both my parents up the Bridge, all the way to New Era Dianetics.

When I returned to Israel, many staff tried to recruit me to be a staff member at the Tel Aviv Org. I refused as I wanted to audit my family so as to  maintain high exchange with them for all they’ve done for me.

When there was a big need to open the new Ideal Org in Malmo, Sweden, the pressure to join staff became very strenuous. What really tempted me to join, finally, was: 1. I could really contribute to the expansion of Scientology organizations as I always wanted, 2. I would be the Senior Case Supervisor, and 3. That all of my expenses would be taken care of by Malmo Org. Just to remind you – at that time I was still a minor and a foreigner in Sweden so I could not support myself financially, legally. The third point was the most crucial of all, as it concerned my immediate survival.

I joined staff when I received, in writing, a signed CSW, noting that the Org will take care of all of my expenses.

As I started working as a Senior C/S, it soon became clear to me that Malmo Org will not keep its promise to pay for all of my expenses. I had to get my parent’s financial support, again.

However my parents were not at their best financially, to say the least, and they had a hard time supporting me financially. Following that, I asked HCO Malmo to relieve me of my staff contract and let me return home.

My request hit a huge wall of resistance and their way to handle me was trying to ruthlessly change my mind and also give me an aggressive Sec Check that took about 11 intensives of auditing. In order to make it even harder, I was made to do humiliating jobs such as cleaning toilets in front of public and staff. I was threatened with SP declares, not to mention an insane lack of sleep situation I was put in.

I wrote up all that was happening with me to RTC, only to receive an “ack”, yet absolutely no action.

My parents were worried about my future in Scientology and so took the burden of paying for all my expenses for the rest of my contract. I gave up and decided to stay until my contract was finished.

I was later promoted to the post of Qualifications Secretary in Division 5. Acting on this post, I noticed the lack of application of the Tech, and many actions which were off-policy. I reported on whatever I saw. I have come to realize that almost every time I reported on such an action, the result I got was punishment and being sent to ‘Cramming’.

The attempts align with the actions of management took their toll, and in my turn I have put that pressure on other staff members.

I hereby apologize to those who have suffered from that pressure. This was off-policy and pure idiocy. I take full responsibility  for it.

Towards the end of my staff contract, I got onto the Staff Leaving Routing Form.

As part of that Routing Form I was supposed to receive a Staff Leaving Sec Check. I did not resist getting one, quite to the contrary – I demanded it over and over as to prevent the prolongation of my stay in Malmo. 3 months passed since I routed onto that Routing Form and I still did not get this Sec Check. The last day came but there was still no possibility of going in session – so I left the Org and returned home, to Israel.

HCO Cope Off Malmo, Mr. Dor Levi, was sent after me to Israel to bring me back to Malmo like I was some sort of a criminal. I did not agree to come back as I fulfilled my contract. The Org did not fulfill its part of the promise, to be precise. However, as I wanted to handle the situation, I flew to AOSH UK and got my Staff Leaving Sec Check in complete. To return to Malmo? No way!

Obviously, Management and Malmo Org did not like this.

From all I’ve seen and experienced myself, I came to the conclusion that something in our way of operation as Scientologists, Staff Members and Management, departed from LRH’s writings both Technically and Administratively.

For example, the Staff Leaving Routing Form does not state that you are supposed to Sec Check a Staff Member for 10 intensives because he wishes to leave, but it should be a maximum of 5 hours (Ref: HCO PL 28 March 1962, TERMINATION FORM).

As a Qualifications Secretary, I encountered a hidden data line when auditors and supervisors who came from Flag did not agree to talk about the “New Bridge” as they were made to sign a million-dollar bond.

Of course, all this creates the following –

A. A hidden data line opposing to LRH’s statement on the fact that there is none, and that all he discovers he also publishes. (Ref: HCO PL 16 April 1965, Issue I, KSW Series 22, “THE HIDDEN DATA LINE”), and;

B. Technical degrades with the label of “old”. KSW #1 is being placed in the beginning of every Scientology course pack for a reason. The Technical Degrades HCO PL states that labeling technology as “old” or “historical” is a High Crime.

More examples? There you go:

–         Staff member named E.P., received 11 intensives of Sec Checking. The Sec Check was stretched over a period of 3 years. Its purpose (stated on the program) was to “handle her illness”. This is a program that was under the supervision of the Senior C/S Europe, Mr. Alberto Bussolin. The program was delivered by Flag trained auditors V.R. and E.G.

Pc E.P. got well when the right program has been written and executed on her, by me.  When the Pc folder was seen at CLO EU, I received a Cramming Order stating that her Sec Check was “quickied”. (11 intensives)

–         Staff members who are prohibited from reading Pc folders regularly went into the HGC, looked at and read Pc folders, especially for recruitment purposes. If someone said in session that he is not an ‘IAS member’, session data was being used to make him donate. In this activity the following were involved: Mrs. Lucky Story (Malmo CMO Int Mission I/C), the rest of the Malmo CMO Int missionaires, Mrs. Anna Skibbe (Malmo recruitment project I/C), other recruiters and registrars, both from Malmo Org and from the Sea Org.

–         The Malmo CMO Int Mission I/C, Mrs. Lucky Story, used to stand in my office or in the Senior C/S’ office, with the ED, OES, the Dissem Sec and the folder page and read out loud Next C/Ses of staff and public Pcs. This happened at least 8 times. This data is confidential and is protected by ministerial confidence, by law. No one beside the auditor or the C/S have the right to have it.  We were also unable to say anything against her doing this.

–         Pc C.P. received her Grades at Flag – Grade O in 3 hours, Grade I in 2 hours, Grade II in 5 hours, Grade III in 2 hours and Grade IV in 4 hours. She did those Grades in 2011. I will not go into what was actually run, but any C/S or auditor could tell you certainly that those are Quickie Grades. LRH writes about Quickie Grades in HCOBs, and their damage to Pcs and Orgs.

–         Happy Clears who went to receive their CCRDs came back upset, sick and with obvious indicators of a wrong indication. There is also a hidden data line delivered on the subject of “past life Clears.” I have had at least 6 past life Clears on my lines in Malmo who were denied proper handling either by Flag, AOSH EU, AOSH UK or CLO EU. Quoting the words of the Saint Hill C/S AOSH EU: “Don’t send them for the CCRD, this is off-line”. They are not being allowed to attest to the State of Clear, period. They are simply put to redo the lower Grade Chart. This is a clear violation of C/S Series 123R, the CCRD Series, and many other HCOBs.

–         During the period of 3 years, there were only 2 auditors in training at the Malmo Org. The only auditor who was fully trained at Flag up to Class V Graduate, had to be sent back to Flag for retraining. The fact that Orgs are not able to train auditors, or that training takes a very long time is a very serious, gross out-point. Take an HGC Auditor from Tel Aviv Org – T.T., as an example – 4 years of training at AOSH EU and 10 more years at Flag only to return as a Grad V, FPRD Auditor!

–         An intern sent her session video to the Senior C/S FSO (who passed the video) and then to RTC for approval and final Internship pass. Her video was stuck at RTC for 3 months. It then came back with one ‘Flunk’, saying that she “did not end the session fast enough”, not referring her to any LRH reference nor sending her to Cramming. Needless to say that this intern blew from training for good.

–         Student P.B., on the Pro Metering Course, was called, along with the Senior C/S, to watch his final video submission on the big screens in the RTC office. This was done so that they could measure the size of the read with a ruler and determine whether it was a “Small Fall” or a “Fall” (different meter reads). Do properly trained auditors need to take so much time to determine the size of a read? Were these actions ever done by LRH?

–          On at least 20 different times – the overrun phenomena described in HCOBs, while running Objectives processes, were absolutely ignored on Pcs audited at Flag, AOSH EU or AOSH UK. In a lecture delivered by the Senior C/S Europe in the Senior C/S conference at AOSH EU in 2011, he said: “Objective processes are run with no regard to any overrun phenomena”, without referring to any LRH reference.

And the list goes on…

In light of the situations listed above and many more, I decided to do a standard Doubt Condition formula. This is because I have complete faith in LRH’s tech and in my strong willingness to support Scientology and its expansion. I have met with the Ethics Officer of Tel Aviv Org and the OSA representative of Tel Aviv Org, Mr. Sefi Fischler.

As part of this condition formula, one must acquire data with no prejudices and from any source possible: real data and real statistics.

When one tries to get the statistics of Scientology, he is being sent to watch events on video.

Unfortunately, if you will really try to go down and investigate real international figures and numbers of auditors made, the number of satisfied Preclears or the number of real active Scientologists from the data provided by those videos, all you will get is a headache. And no real data.

While investigating this as a Hubbard Data Series Evaluator, the thing that caught my attention was, sadly, the fact that those outpoints did not come from certain people in this or that Org, as I thought earlier – but that this is the way Management covertly operates, encourages and guides towards, in handling certain people and situations. As I’ve heard many times from the Malmo CMO Int Mission I/C, she and her mission was directly run by Chairman of the Board, Religious Technology Center – Mr. David Miscavige. I had to look no more to understand what the source is.

I received data from the Org along with threats of being SP declared if I do not disconnect from my friends. All of this occurs when the Church’s spokesmen assert at every chance that there’s no ‘Disconnection’ in Scientology. At certain times I decided to disconnect and at certain times I decided not to.

This is a normal thing when one is in the Condition of Doubt.

I spoke to my friends, investigated and checked with any possible means, as I wanted to see the whole picture and get out of this condition.

This step took me a long time as I realized that I have been living in the dark for a very long time. There were many things I had absolutely no clue about, or that were covered by false PR.

The Org had a big problem with the fact that I decided to look by myself on data that was not supplied by them. This is wrong as they could not show me a single reference where LRH prohibits checking up on data from different sources.

I am an upstat Scientologist, with a record of more than 4,000 Well Done Auditing Hours in the chair. Also, I did Case Supervision both at Orgs and in the field.

I decided to forward the aims of our group and did so since I was very young. I moved my whole family up the Grade Chart. I have made progress in Scientology since the youngest age possible and my purposes are similar to those of all the members of Scientology who believe in the Tech that will set mankind free.

I disagree with the fact that I cannot look at data for myself, decide for myself and believe in what is true for me. I came to Scientology in order to ‘know how to know’, to think freely and to break the chains of suppression on the freedom of thought. This is my elementary right. Furthermore, based on my training, I believe in my ability to examine data and choose sensibly what to do, without prejudices.

I believe that as a Scientologist, I have the responsibility to check on what is wrong, ask questions, get the chance to make a change, make that change, be open and be able to talk about it publicly. Please do remember that free communication is one of our elementary rights as human beings.

Remember: The End Phenomena of the Professional TRs Course and the End Phenomena of Expanded Grade O is being able to freely communicate to anyone on any subject, as uncomfortable as it may be, on all flows. This is supposed to be our virtue as Scientologists! The highest ability in this universe is the ability to communicate. Along with that we commit, as well, the most major “overt” that LRH speaks of – to be there and to communicate.

There you have a Doubt Condition – to communicate or not to?

I am an Auditor and a Case Supervisor and I will never stop being one. I will always continue to audit and move others up the Bridge, no matter what happens.

My decision is to do this in such a place where there’s no suppression on the freedom of speech or on the freedom of thought, and in which Standard Tech could be delivered. With no disturbance.

I implore you, as a Scientologist, to open your eyes.

Keeping Scientology Working is everyone’s job, and this job could never be owned by this or that management. Even though we all have word-cleared that HCO PL, we all sin in leaving its application to a “higher” body that will keep the Technology working for us.

This is the future of all of us. We have to make sure Scientology will continue to exist, cleared of false data and changes that are hard to recognize as individuals. We have to ensure that Scientology will be correctly delivered to us and to those around us.

Start looking for yourself.

Ignore the floods of false PR and ask for precise statistics.

A lot of confront is required – the confront of evil. It certainly is a hard thing to do, yet not impossible.

Take a step to a better future for us all.

Start communicating. We CAN create a change in the world of Scientology. It takes REAL Scientologists to do it.

Scientology and the CHURCH of Scientology are two different things.

I choose to be an Independent Scientologist. I am independent and free from suppression.

I am here to get you up the Bridge on both sides. I am going to work hard so that we will all have a Bridge to travel on.

I will be glad to answer any question and communicate with each and every one on the things that brought me to this decision.

Lots of ARC,

Don Schaul

Class V Auditor & Case  Supervisor (Validated)

Fully Hatted Qualifications Secretary (Gold Sealed)

Hubbard Data Series Evaluator

Independent Scientologist

2. Letter to Independent Scientologists.

14 November 2012

An open letter to all Scientologists from the former Qual Sec of Malmo “Ideal Org”

Hello everybody,

My name is Don Schaul. I am an Israeli, I’m 18 years old. In this lifetime I trained up to Class V C/S. I have been the youngest C/S on the planet at the age of 14. I have also been a staff member at the new building of Malmo Org in Sweden, as a fully hatted Qual Sec.

There is a little story that I’d like to share with you today. Many do not know it.

After getting trained at the ages of 12-13-14, all on my own, as a public, my biggest passion was to join staff and help the planet as much as I can with the tools I have just acquired.

I was recruited by two Sea Org members who toured around Europe on a mission to recruit for the new “Malmo Ideal Org” that was about to open.

As I was a minor, unable to support myself financially, I was promised (in writing) to have all my expenses covered by the Org while being on staff. This unfortunately did not happen and I had to lean on my parents (who were in Israel), to financially support me.

The first months in Malmo were indeed hard, I wanted to leave, but as I was the only C/S around I was being kept there on an HCO Sec Check at the CLO Europe which was 9 intensives long (!). At the end I gave in and somehow worked out a solution to stay there until my contract would be completed.

I have received a one man Qual Division when I came. When I left, I have expanded this Qual Division to 5 people and 10 more on the TTC (Technical Training Corps – In training for a Technical post such as Auditor, C/S, Supervisor, etc.).

I have used my time in that Org to get myself trained on Admin Tech as well. And that is when I started to open my eyes and see the glaring outpoints.

Malmo “Ideal” Org has been a dead Org since its opening.  This Org had its stat of “Bodies In the Shop” at 50 at almost all times throughout those 3 years, with no change.

This Org is being directly run by “CMO Int”. In one of many conversations with those CMO Int missionairs, I have been told that they have all been taken off post (and so is the rest of CMO Int) to be part of the ‘Ideal Org Unit’ and run all the Ideal Orgs on the planet.

As I have audited both of my parents on their entire Grade Chart up the New Era Dianetics, and wanted to continue with their auditing, I had to get them both to Malmo and audit them on my free time.

My mother, who has never experienced the vibe of the Church’s Management, came to Sweden for 3 weeks, left her job and was very stressed on time to get the auditing done and go back to Israel. As the CLO Mission I/C, Mrs. (un-) Lucky Story found out that my mother is coming to get “free auditing” from me, she decided to send me to CLO EU (which is near Malmo) for Cramming and take me “off the chair” as an auditor and C/S because she looked at a pc folder (!!!!) of my Pc and saw some “outpoint” (needless to say that Lucky is not trained in Tech and it’s absolutely none of her business to look at Pc folders).

My mother had to wait for 5 days until I got through “Ethics and Cramming” and could take her in session. She finally got in session and I managed to create a safe environment for her as much as I could.

While my mother was there she was also on course. As she wanted to leave back to Israel she wanted to rout out of the Org. She went to see the ED as part of this and while going to the ED (who was standing outside of the Academy), she saw Lucky shouting at the ED, telling her that she’s downstat. This was in front of all public in the class and in front of my mother. My mother was shocked. Lucky came later to my mom and said that she is sorry it was done in that forum. However, this kind of behavior by an Int Executive was shocking to her.

There were violations of Policy, Tech and Ethics Tech, left right and center, but I was able to do my best and keep producing as I have had another person in my Division who was thinking the same way I was – the Senior C/S, Phil Bruemmer.

We have fought together against suppression whilst on staff. It was much easier to do this when we were a team. However, we were being attacked over and over and over.

You can see some of the situations we have encountered in the reports attached. We have always ended on the top of things whether people decided to suppress us or not.

At the end of our contracts we have both left. You can see the story of Phil’s leave cycle at the attached report. I have simply disappeared when my contract ended as I knew nobody would EVER let me go.

I had to open my eyes and realize that all these outpoints that I see lead up to a very big WHY or a WHO. I realized that the fact that you can’t talk, you can’t question and you can’t look is NOT Scientology. And those are the characteristics of an implant.

At the moment I realized this, my world changed a 180 degrees and I started confronting.

The way the Church keeps people enslaved is by keeping them ignorant. And you do that by NOT training them. The bad thing is that even when the Church trains people, they get the training in an environment that they are not allowed to fully use what they have learned – and they cannot even see it! That is exactly what happened with all of my young “friends” who have trained as auditors within the Church. They are not auditors and needless to say, not real Scientologists.

So there is certainly a big future ahead of us. And as we are bringing real Scientology to the new generations of Earth, the most important thing to do is to TRAIN AUDITORS and give them the right to USE WHAT THEY HAVE LEARNED.

I might have been a little more perceptive as this is not my first Lifetime in Scientology and I was already highly trained before I took this body, but this only shows that training is what will protect you and keep you out of the traps of this world.

I am now declaring my independence of the suppressive group of the Church of Scientology and I am starting to do real Scientology as a free being. I see it my responsibility to bring Scientology to the new generation and into the future.

Lots of love,

Don Schaul

Class V C/S

Hubbard Data Series Evaluator

Fully Hatted Qualifications Secretary (Gold sealed)

3. Reports

Here are a few written reports which concern some of the situations I have encountered:

Some of the following reports were written by Phil Bruemmer, ex-Senior C/S Malmo and my junior as the Qual Sec. We were in those situations together.

  1. A Knowledge Report written by me on the only Flag Trained auditor in Malmo Org – Vince Racz. I sent him back to Flag for retraining after many, many more attempts to correct him.Per the Senior C/S Europe, Alberto Bussolin: “He is better than the Class IXs at AOSH EU”. I hope not…

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUQTNZX01DU3JBZ3c

2. Knowledge Report written by the Senior C/S on the LRH Comm Malmo, concerning her protecting that same Flag trained auditor from getting corrected. Their common agreement was that me and the Senior C/S “weren’t standard” because we are not “Flag trained”.

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUZ2xQQ0stWDd6d0U

3. Another Knowledge Report on keeping the same flubby auditor in the auditing chair, written by the Senior C/S.

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUNzd3VFVEdlVNeHc

4. Knowledge Report written by me on the LRH Comm Malmo for condoning a severe injustice on me.

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUenJQbENhbWIzUG8

5. A report written by me concerning the misapplication of the EstO Tech. Note: There has been a long debate on this subject with the CMO Int Missionaires, terminals from CLO EU, etc. I have been Crammed on the subject, and was literally told in Cramming by the CTO EU Cram Off: “That is how it is being done today. I understand it’s not per the policy but there’s nothing much you can do about it”.

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUaVp0MzBaeTRoUTQ

6. A report written by the Senior C/S, concerning the misapplication of the EstO Tech.

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUdk02TGtBQVZQcEk

7. A Knowledge Report written by the Senior C/S concerning a squirrel Exec EstO (who was put on the post with the minimum training level of Staff Status II and BSM, by the CMO Int Mission).

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUTmlZczdaR2tUT00

8. An Evaluation done by me on Public Courses in Malmo Org. This should give a clear picture on the fact that only NEW programs are being pushed by management, forgetting the old. (The new Dianetics Rout Program over the rest of the “old” Public courses.) The Malmo CMO Int Mission I/C, Mrs. Lucky Story said on this eval: “It only fault-finds management and is a complete brush-off”. Well…

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUTXhacmJUUldlc28

9. A Knowledge Report written by the Senior C/S concerning a 3rd Party situation in the HGC.

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UURXVYbEZBNC1taE0

10. Knowledge Report written by the Senior C/S, concerning a scene in the HGC:

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUSURvbUdiZWV6N2M

11. A’ Things That Shouldn’t Be Report’ written by me to RTC, a few days after leaving staff.

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUbmNWX3JXT2p4TzQ

12. A Knowledge Report written by me as a Field Auditor, on privacy invasion, 3rd Party, and simple cruelty. It also shows the Churches views on the subject of homosexuality, which in my eyes has caused many Pcs, students and staff a great amount of suffer.

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUTTVuZ1pZR2dSTmc

13. A report written by me to RTC on Phil Bruemmer’s SP declare. I have obviously received no answer on that one, yet I am still was at that time in “good standing” with the Church.

https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUc3pGbGhzdHZkQTA

If you wish to share my letter with any of your friends in the Church or outside of it, here’s a link for you: https://docs.google.com/open?id=0B50LxZIhC0UUZ1d1dXllemlpWTA

Swifter and Slower Ways

From Thomas Cleary’s The Zen Reader:

Worldly afflictions are as extensive as an ocean, noisy and clamorous; but they all arise from the thoughts in your own mind.  When not a single thought is conceived, you are liberated from them all.

Since it depends on one’s own self, how hard could it be?  Attaining Buddhahood shouldn’t even take a finger snap.

Viewed in this way, it seems very easy; but even so, you must be the one to do it. An ancient also said, “The moment you produce a thought, it is an object; just don’t have a single thought, and objects disappear, so mind dies out spontaneously, and there is nothing more to pursue.”

Those who already have good roots will understand this kind of talk the moment they hear it.  Those who may be slower should look into it over and over — ultimately what principle is this?

– Ta-tu (17th Century)

Intention and Healing

From The Intention Experiment by Lynne McTaggart:

The Love Study indicates a number of profound suggestions about the nature of intention.  Sending a directed thought seems to generate palpable energy; whenever one of Radin’s senders sent a healing intention, many subtle aspects of the receiver’s body became activated, as though he or she had received a miniscule electric shock.  It seemed to be a kind of activating awareness, as though the receiver body had felt or heard the healing signal.

There had even been an element of anticipation in the receiver; some of the physiological reactions recorded suggested that the receiver had felt the partner’s healing intention before he had even sent it.

People appear to receive healing deep in their bodies by being retuned to the more coherent energy of the healer’s intention.  During healing, it could be that the ‘orderly’ energy of the well person entrains and ‘re-orders’ the sick.

In order to have the most powerful effect, a healer or sender needs to become ‘ordered’ on some subatomic level, mentally and emotionally.  The Love Study demonstrates that certain conditions and mental states make our intention especially powerful and ourselves more ordered, and that these states can be achieved with training.  The success of the basic training program that Radin, Schlitz, and Stone assembled suggests that attention, belief, motivation, and compassion are important for intention to work, but there are probably other conditions that intensify its effects.

I needed, for instance, to find out how we can loosen our psychological boundaries  It was becoming clear to me that when we send intention, in a manner of speaking, we have to ‘become’ the other. 

Dimensions

Here is some interesting food for thought from Thomas Campbell’s My Big TOE (Theory of Everything):

If you have read Flatland, it will be clear that the ordinary residents of a given reality can only observe and understand interactions within their own reality and the interactions of residents of realities that are more highly constrained than their own.  Residents of a more constrained reality cannot comprehend a less constrained reality because it lies beyond the limits of their normal perception.  

Each dimension of reality has its own rules that define its objective science.  Additionally, each dimension of reality experiences the next higher (less limited) dimension as subjective and mystical.  Consequently, your mysticism may be another’s science: It depends on how big a picture you live and work in, and the degree to which restraints limit your perception.  The perspective from the next higher dimension provides a bigger picture with a more complete understanding.  This more comprehensive, complete, and less restrictive knowledge is only accessible to lower dimensional beings (those with a more constrained awareness) through the experience of their individual locally-subjective mind. 

Consequently, a mystic could be a scientist from a higher dimension, or a delusional fool hopelessly caught in a distorted web of belief.  How do you know which is which?  A good question!  

Scientology Review by Steve Hall

by Steve Hall

Since our summit meeting at Casablanca 5 weeks ago, I’ve been working around the clock to make progress on some strategic marketing objectives for Independent Scientology. I broke up production into two phases, phase one was iScientology.org launched on October 12. And if imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, we received the loftiest compliment imaginable from the Church of Scientology who are now pretending to be us. The CoS purchased www.iscientology.com and pointed it to their website. Amazing! Like someone isn’t going to notice? It’s like Charles Manson meeting with the parole board and swearing he’s Brad Pitt.

Steve and folks at Casablanca

 

 

Now before I announce phase two, here’s a question addressed to everyone: before you buy something these days, do you not check consumerreviews first to bypass any false advertising?

 

Personally, I check consumer reviews before I buy anything — goods, services, movies, restaurants, cameras, cell phones, power tools, printers, computers, software, apps — you name it. These days there are consumer reviews for everything, except… Scientology (sound effect: cars crashing in the background).

 

The closest thing the Church has to honest consumer reviews are video testimonials and success stories that sound too good to be true. That isn’t what people want. What they want is authenticity, i.e. reality. One does not have to be a Scientologist to know that absolutes are unattainable. Not everyone likes chocolate; not everyone likes Scientology.

 

To a Scientologist the thought of presenting Scientology in the raw might seem alarming at first, but presenting things as they really are invokes the most powerful persuader of all: reality. There is really no trust until things get real. The Church can’t do raw consumer reviews because DM suckerfish smother everything with extortion and out tech.

 

For some reason in December 2009 having nothing to do with anything I’ve said yet (joke), probably was just a boyish whim after some auditing from Marty, I decided we needed a massive review and rating system “for everything Scientology” covering,

 

1. Every LRH book

2. Every LRH lecture series

3. Every auditing service on the Bridge

4. Every training service on the Bridge

5. Indie Scn auditors and centers

6. CoS service orgs

7. CoS management orgs (including OSA and RTC), and last but not least,

8. David Miscavige’s Greatest Hits…

 

(Cheesy Announcer, scroll titles:) “…featuring “Collectable” ASI Prints, Disconnection, Golden Age of Tech, The I-A-S, Ideal Orgs, the International Event Program, Library Donation Campaign, New Era of Management, 6-month checks, Super Power Project, Higher Production through forced abortions for Sea Org parents, and the Basics!”

 

A review system for all things Scientology was what I was originally alluding to when I said something big was coming in December 2009 for those who remember. I was originally going to put it into RediscoverScientology.com. Then I realized it was more appropriate for iScientology.org.

 

The system will be moderated to block OSA trolls, spammers, insincere people, etc. Reviewers must register before they can post a review. Registering enables the moderator to more quickly approve a review once he knows who the person is and trusts them. My secret moderators are already in place and they are people you know and trust.

 

What people want is unbiased and unvarnished user reviews. So that is what we are going to give them.

 

Reviews on orgs: 

 

A review/rating system will flank the effort to get in ethics by exposing abuses at curb level. I’ve even included management orgs so anyone who ever worked in an org can write a review on what it was like. I brought a new person into the Dallas org in 2008 and staff tried to badger her for a Ideal Org donation instead of having her read a book. My review on that event is going to leave a dark blotch in the eye of their reputation.

 

Churches are going to have to straighten up or get mummified. If someone had a good experience in an org, they can write that too. However, there’s an honesty check: each person who writes a review on an org has to answer this question, “The leader of the Church of Scientology, David Miscavige, is (a) a social personality or (b) a sociopath (suppressive person).” It’s a mandatory question and will show up in the person’s review. Kind of a Catch-22 (“a dilemma or difficult circumstance from which there is no escape because of mutually conflicting or dependent conditions”).

 

Auditing and Training Services: 

 

The keynote of Scientology is understanding — but without reality there isn’t any understanding. The problem with Church mis-marketing is that it lacks reality, and is infused with DM’s trademark “effort to overwhelm” — which is the closest thing David Miscavige has ever gotten to marketing.  That’s why the Church floods out promo — DM’s effort to overwhelm. Since field auditors don’t have registrars to enlighten people on books or services, why not let consumers do it themselves? It will be more useable than what minions could ever write because our consumer reviews will incorporate reality, the most important element.

 

Standard Tech:

 

A barrier to leaving the CoS is finding standard auditing and training. There isn’t any in the Church any more. So by listing Indie auditors and training centers and enabling their public to review them just as people now days review doctors and lawyers and professionals of all types, it will be clear to others that standard tech IS available in the field.

 

Driving in public:

 

LRH said orgs were never successful at “pulling in public.” He said he always had to “drive public in on orgs.” So instead of putting the review and rating system into iScientology.org, I have built an entirely new website in the last 4 weeks to drive people in on iScientology.org.

 

This new website will feature unbiased consumer reviews from actual Scientologists and ex-Scientologists. And you will be able to see who is who and understand the viewpoint that the person is writing from.

 

Reviews are “unbiased” meaning we won’t be editing them. That doesn’t mean we have to let let the Church inject lies or black PR — that’s would be the most biased content of all.

 

People can read the reviews and decide where they want to receive services — Independent Scientology or the Church. The website provides links to both. What could be more fair? But we’re also fair to the public because we tell them what they can expect from the Church.

 

By survey about half of the population is actively looking for philosophic or spiritual answers. Every month, more than 1.2 million people Google the word “scientology” and each one of those is a reach. That’s a river of people reaching for answers, finding nothing, and washing on down stream. Since the Church is incapable of helping anyone, I propose diverting that river of people into our front door and on up the Bridge.

 

Even a tiny percentage of 1.2 million people/month is a mind-boggling volume. Just 1% of 1.2 million is 12,000 people per month. Imagine our ranks expanding by 12,000 people each month. That won’t happen tomorrow. But it could happen in the future. It needs to happen. The doors onto the Bridge have never really been opened, not even in LRH’s day because the Church let themselves go PTS and they got repositioned by the enemy as a cult — DEATH by marketing.

 

But how could we ever handle such volume? Here’s how: New people must first be qualified by reading a book. If they won’t read a book, LRH says don’t waste your time with them. So all those 12,000 people must be directed to a book. Which one?

 

In the late ‘80s, Phil Anderson and I were responsible for marketing a book that was always FAR more popular than Dianetics with new public. With NO advertising it sold like crazy. It was easy to understand, blew people’s minds, hit all the right buttons, and through its pages it also provided auditing too straight from LRH.

 

Self Analysis

 

Self Analysis IS the only book that is actual self help. Dianetics is self help because it requires someone else to do it — a huge deal breaker that gave most book buyers a loss! Phil and I knew that in 1987, but Kaboom McTinyfists would not have it. So the Church of Scientology could never be convinced to promote the actual LRH book that people want. That just ain’t right.

 

Phil Anderson and I wasted two years trying to figure out a solution, but we couldn’t. Maybe that was because the only real solution would have been for some people to leave the Sea Org, start over from scratch, rebuild their personal lives outside the Church, analyze what to do, join together in a withering campaign to expose DM for the fraud he is, then come up with an alternative structure to supply services, market the hell out of it with it’s own logo and website, gather even more support, rekindle the failed purpose to bring greater understanding across the world, and with virtually no money devise some way of grabbing the world’s attention to direct thousands of people to read the right book. Maybe some day some people will do that. I wouldn’t know.

 

Back to the thread: So the new website will direct people to Self Analysis where LRH audits them right from the pages of the book. Next, Handbook for Preclears. Same thing. The church should be happy because they get to sell lots of books. They’d better be nice to us or we’ll tell people where they can download those books for free.

 

Now our public will not only be book buyers, they will be preclears who have had great auditing wins direct from Ron from the pages of those books. And what do you offer preclears?

 

Training! So that’s where we get involved. And we will route them to our Independent Scientology centers for training. This is 1950 all over again, but a lot better because we will be making auditors wholesale.

 

Re-opening the Bridge

 

The Church is like a giant rock sitting in the middle of a Mississippi flowing 1.2 million people/month. Nothing can go in so it just washes on downstream.

 

To bypass the Church and diverting that river of 1.2 million people/month actually onto the Bridge through our own lines, we must accomplish one simple thing: be on page one when people Google “scientology.”

 

If you Google “Scientology” today you will see the search produces 18 million search results. But only 10 results are displayed on page one. So, we need to somehow get into the top ten. That’s like running a marathon against 18 million people and finishing in the top ten.

 

If we can do that, we can re-open the Bridge. It is that simple and that important.

 

And it can be done. So here’s how.

 

These days, before people buy stuff, they consult consumer reviews. Google “LG TVs” or “Samsung appliances” or “Nikon cameras” — Google inserts consumer reviews right into PAGE ONE.

 

Once people discover there is a review and rating system for everything Scientology, they are going to come back many times to learn about other services on the Bridge. Now “iScientology.org” is not too hard to remember, but online, people go super simple. When they want to read more reviews they will simply Google “scientology reviews.”

 

That is significant because whomever owns “scientologyreviews.com” will have a golden ticket onto page one of Google and that means a shot at all 1.2 million people/month looking for good-quality Scientology information.

 

Of course the Church buys up thousands of domain names so they can prevent anything like this from ever happening.

 

They got out-smarted in December 2007 when I found they had missed “scientology-cult.com.” I bought it because at the time, “scientology cult” was the second most popular search phrase on the subject of scientology. Today, scientology-cult.com is #1 website for the search phrase “scientology-cult” — why? It’s right in our name. And so lightning struck DM right in the forehead.

 

So when I checked to find out if anyone owned “scientologyreviews.com” I knew the odds were stacked against us. It would be like opening a box of Cracker Jacks and finding the Hope Diamond. OSA has a program specifically to prevent this. Could lightning strike twice on the same forehead?

 

Think about what this $9 domain name could mean for us. It won’t happen overnight, but soon it could help us accomplish the only reason we ever had for attacking DM in the first place: To reopen the Bridge.

 

Scientologyreviews.com is ours.

 

By hosting the world’s only “unbiased consumer reviews on everything Scientology” at scientologyreviews.com we will eventually help people move onto and up the Bridge. Imagine driving thousands or even millions of people into Independent Scientology? Can it be done? Yes.

 

Now, over the last four years many people have asked how they can help. Here’s your answer. I need as many people as possible to create reviews at scientologyreviews.com. I need you personally to write reviews on each service you’ve done, each book and lecture series, and every org you’ve had recent experience with. If you were on staff somewhere, even in RTC or OSA, you can a review regarding your experience in the org.

 

There are now 310 topics on scientologyreviews.com each one with a little introduction explaining what it’s all about written by myself or Dan Koon.

 

If we had 100 reviews on every topic that is a total of 31,000 reviews. And that is more doable than you think.

 

I put in 400 hours building scientologyreviews.com and 215 hours on iScientology.org. I didn’t make a penny from any of this, and even took 5 weeks off from work to make this happen, forfeiting five weeks of my own income. I did that because these projects matter. I’m not asking anyone to send me money. I’m asking you to log just a small fraction of the hours I put in. From the bottom of my heart, if you value Independent Scientology, would you please do that for me and for yourself and for the world?

 

There are at least 1000 people reading this website right now. How do I know? Because when I launched iScientology.org by announcing it on this website, within an hour there were 1034 people online at iScientology.org.

 

So, let’s say you were able to write 5 reviews per hour. If 500 of us put in 100 hours each, that would give us 250,000 Scientology reviews online.

 

If 500 of us put in just 10 hours this weekend, that would get us 25,000 reviews — by Monday. With that DM could never catch up.

 

We need scores of reviews on every course, every auditing level, every book, every lecture series and every org that you have personal experience with.

 

Online, content is king. The biggest gorilla is first in line.  Launching our review website is a project worth pushing along because it will help get ethics in on orgs, enlighten people on their next step, encourage standard tech, repopulate the world with auditors, and re-open the Bridge to Clear and OT starting with Self Analysis.

 

Please contribute some time to this — a pleasant way to help! What you will be contributing to is everything we have worked for: the re-opening of the Bridge after David Miscavige had it totally locked down. And that is a contribution that will earn you “the proud knowingness of OT.”

 

Every review will be read by moderators before it is approved, so spammers and OSA need not apply. That junk will never make it past the eagle eyes of our Data Series sharp shooters (moderators) who can spot a Miscavige troll at 3,000 miles.

 

There’s no need to overhype everything like DM does. Just be real — you can freely say what is true for you. If you didn’t like a book or a course that much, just be honest. This is YOUR review.

Design
Most of LRH’s books and lectures were authored in the ‘50s. So the website has a ‘50s retro vibe. The Church has itself become a caricature, comical, stranger than fiction. And so the site reflects elements of that too. Even the logo has a bit of pulps in it: the font is called, “True Lies.” Result: it resonates and is alive.

 

From a marketing perspective, here is your chance to deliver the coup de grâce (death blow) to the Miscavige Empire of Corruption that has destroyed so many lives. Yesterday, DM cut us to pieces. Now the axe is in YOUR hands, its blade sharp. Oh, and by the way, in case anyone is wondering, THIS is marketing. Coming out with a new “release” every 5 minutes is not marketing, it’s confusion. Marketing is coming out with the one plan — the RIGHT one — and staying with it until the job is done.

 

Please reciprocate with your time.

 

This has to be done immediately because a review system is such a good idea, DM will probably try to copy it with bogus reviews of everything. We need to cut him off at the pass.

 

I’m counting on you.

 

Steve Hall

Four More Years

Last year I regularly referred to the 199 day siege upon our home in Ingleside on the Bay Texas by David Miscavige and Scientology Inc.   Last month we discovered what we thought was evidence that extended that siege to two years, see David Miscavige – Cowardice and Paranoia.    We reckoned the siege at two years because a Scientology Inc. agent responsible for the operation of the surveillance outpost at 201 Bayshore Drive (the green house noted in the linked post above) let slip that Scientology Inc. PI Monte Drake had leased the outpost since November 1, 2010 (the day we moved into Casablanca across the street).  Well, further research determined that, in fact, Drake has been leasing 201 Bayshore since November 1, 2009 – one year to the day before we moved into Casablanca.   This revelation was discovered while an employee of the cult was being interrogated about the November 1 2010 date coincident.   “No, Drake moved in a year before you moved into your current home”, was the plea in defense of David Miscavige’s domestic terrorist squads.   And proof of the November 1, 2009 move-in date was produced to divert attention from the domestic terror operations.   However, the defense turned out to be a further admission; in fact, proof that the domestic terror siege has been in place since at least November 1, 2009.   Further inspection of 201 Bayshore Drive, Ingleside on the Bay Texas proved that out.   If you wish to follow all this, you will need to read all the posts linked above, and then carefully watch and listen to the following video:

Additionally, former Scientology private investigators Paul Marrick and Greg Arnold disclosed that they arrived to Ingleside on the Bay in February 2009 to ‘case’ the place in order to  up the ante on the operation that Monte Drake had already begun several months before, (See, The Rest of the Story – Scientology Inc. Spies.)  That brings us back to late 2008 – Four Years.   Since Drake has put in writing another three year Scientology Inc. financial commitment to 201 Bayshore, we are looking at three (and it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to then extrapolate from that commitment, Four) more years.

Now, there is a silver lining in all this sickness.  That has to do with advice that I have regularly imparted on this blog over the past three years.  That advice was predicated upon my prediction, and perception, that David Miscavige had made a terrible misestimation.  That was that Miscavige’s obsession with me was playing right into the expansion and guaranteed survival of the independent Scientology movement.  Miscavige was so obsessed with knocking out whom he had so criminal-mindedly labelled the kingpin (yours truly) that his micro-management compulsion required all available OSA (Office of Special Affairs, the terror and propaganda wing of Scientology Inc.) resources be focused upon me and me alone. My advice was, and is, that given Miscavige’s obsession, the best thing people who were concerned about the future of Scientology could do is to start delivering.  Set up and produce to your heart’s content, knowing that Miscavige and Scientology Inc. are all tied up in a war against an enemy he has conflated, and virtually created, as all-powerful and all-important.   What we have disclosed about the over-the-top, spare-no-expense operations in our little hamlet over the past three years (including the revelations about surveillance outposts over the past month) is  validation of my estimation and advice.  There has not been a single report of OSA harassment or operations against other independents or freezoners for more than a year (but for the perpetual infiltration attempts and whispering campaigns).   The focus of all of Miscavige Scientology Inc war resources is here.  It can safely be assumed it will remain here given recent events and the trends they portend.

So, again, my sincere advice to you is, get busy and build a better Bridge.  The previous one has become a rather sad, cold-war era relic.  It is devoted to fighting an enemy that does not exist – at least, despite Scientology Inc’s unlimited ‘intelligence’ resources, does not exist in any form resembling what Miscavige estimates it does.

Please take advantage of this historic, horrible misestimation and misdirection of Scientology Inc. resources of destruction.

Gaining One’s Definition

I have posted this one before, years ago now.   But, it imparts a lesson that is timeless.  You may need to go through it a couple of times to follow – lyrics appended for clarity. By the way Lonnie Lynn is Common’s father.

lyrics:

featuring Cee Lo

Common:
After bein’ 25 you know just trying to survive in the world
Bout to have a little boy or baby girl. Who knows?
Anyway just when you start gettin that little age and experience to you
You start thinkin about stuff…tryin to make the right moves
So bust it out this is what I was thinkin check it

Yo the education of the Lon chicka Lonnie Lynn
Began, began with time
Bein my bloodline is one with the divine
In time brotha, you will discover the light
Some say that God is Black and the Devil’s White
Well, the Devil is wrong and God is what’s right
I fight, with myself in the ring of doubt and fear
The rain ain’t gone, but I can still see clear
As a child, given religion with no answer to why
Just told believe in Jesus cuz for me he did die
Curiosity killed the catechism
Understanding and wisdom became the rhythm that I played to
And became a slave to master self
A rich man is one with knowledge, happiness and his health
My mind had dealt with the books of Zen, Tao the lessons
Koran and the Bible, to me they all vital
And got truth within ’em, gotta read them boys
You just can’t skim ’em, different branches of belief
But one root that stem ’em, but people of the venom try to trim ’em
And use religion as an emblem
When it should be a natural way of life
Who am I or they to say to whom you pray ain’t right
That’s who got you doin right and got you this far
Whether you say “in Jesus name” or Hum do Allah
Long as you know it’s a bein’ that’s supreme to you
You let that show towards others in the things you do
Cuz when the trumpets blowin, 24 elders surround the throne
Only 144,000 gon get home
Only 144,000 gon get home
Only 144,000 gon get it baby

Chorus Cee-Lo:
I’ve lived and I’ve learned
I have taken and I’ve earned
I have laughed, I’ve cried
I have failed and I have tried
Sunshine, pouring rain
found joy through all my pain
I just wanna be happy with being me

Cee-Lo:
Let me voice my concern
So many of my fellow brothers have given themselves a title
That their actions didn’t earn
Our ignorance is in the same breath as our innocence
Subconciously, seeking to find an impressionable mind to convince
I’ve finally come to the realization why Black people in the worse place
Cuz it’s hard to correct yourself when you don’t know
Who you are in the first place
So I try to find the clue in you
But evidently, White folks know more Black history than we do
Why’re we bein’ lied to? I ain’t know our history was purposely hidden
Damn, somethin’ in me wanna know who I am
So I began my search, my journey started in church
It gave my heartache relief when I started to understand belief
Hustlin was like a gift spent my share of time in the streets
Taught me survival from this evil I’m just gonna have to deal with
And I felt like a fool when I tried to learn it in school
It almost seemed like a rehearsal when the only
Science and math are universal
Takin elder advice, read the Bible, the Koran
Searched scrolls from the Hebrew Israelites
Hold on, this ain’t right, Jesus wasn’t White
Some leads were granted with insight
and it’s all in the plan, but it took me some time to overstand
He still created with the imperfection of man
So, with followin’ I disagree
By no means have I forgotten or forgiven what’s been done to me but
I do know the Devil ain’t no White man, the Devil’s a spiritual mind
That’s color blind, there’s evil White folk and evil niggas
You gon surely find there’s no positivity without negativity
But one side you gonna have to choose
Any chance to speak I refuse to misuse
So how can you call yourself God when you let a worldly possession
become an obsession and the way you write your rhymes and
Can’t follow your lesson
If a seed’s sown, you make sure it’s known, you make sure it’s grown
If you God, then save your own, don’t mentally enslave your own
If you God, then save your own, don’t mentally enslave your own
If you God, then save your own, don’t mentally enslave your own

Well, I’ve lived and I’ve learned
I’ve taken and I’ve earned
I have laughed, I have cried
I failed and I have tried
Sunshine, pourin rain
I found joy through my pain
Just wanna be happy…bein me
Bein me