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Restoration of Tech: Service Facsimiles

Posted on April 9, 2011 by | 80 comments

Early on in the history of this blog RJ and I had an exchange about the “lost tech” of Service Facsimile handling in Scientology Inc.   Since, during more than a year of being subjected to daily doses of Scientology Inc’s dramatization of Miscavige’s Serv Facs, we have calmly and consistently gone about restoring the powerful technology of service facscimile handling.

In a Class VIII lecture aboard the Apollo in 1968, LRH told the original Class VIII’s that the route in Scientology had been taped by 1966.   If one fully understands that taped route, as preserved in the Saint Hill Special Briefing Course (SHSBC) lectures, one cannot help but notice the utter enthusiasm LRH expresses during his lectures on the culmination point on the route to Clear and OT: Service Facsimile handling.  Listened to in sequence – after hundreds of lectures, LRH’s tone changes noticeably.  Why?  Well, here is LRH’s description of the ability gained when one truly handles his or her real service facsimiles:

“Moving out of  fixed conditions into ability to do new things.”

Wait a second!  Isn’t the hope for just that the very reason why most people began studying and applying Scientology in the first place?

I have noted here before that the institution of the Golden Age of tech made the real handling of Service Facsimiles virtually impossible.

That is because actually discovering and handling terminatedly the Service Facsimiles of a pre-Clear (and yes, a pre-OT) requires what LRH calls “slippy auditing”.   A robot cannot and never will discover, let alone, handle a service facsimile.  LRH put it this way in HCOB 5 Sep 1978 Anatomy of a Service Facsimile, “those things that do not respond to routine auditing, that routine auditing won’t change, are rooted in this mechanism.”

Listen to the many lectures on the subject of Service Facsimile handling by LRH in the SHSBC to fully grasp that concept.  What I take from those lectures, and through SUCCESSFUL application behind the meter, an auditor has got to get down into the swamp with the pc to locate and wrassle that gator – or that gator is gonna bite the pc in the ass.  It is anything but “routine auditing.”

In early 1996 I reported directly to Miscavige that after several months of debugging cases – including extensive folder study of bugged OT cases that the tech hierarchy had given up on – demonstrated that the church of Scientology – including but not limited to the FSO – had lost the tech of Service Fac handling.  I could find very few actual service facsimile run over an extended period of time within the corporate church of Scientology.  PCs were run  instead on run-of-the-mill intentions, false purposes and other assorted beingnesses, doingnesses, and havingnesses.

Note that it is a computation, not a doingness, beingness or havingness.

– Anatomy of a Service Facsimile

The first step in actual service facsimile handling is to really clear this up for the preclear.   You are looking for a computation – which LRH clearly distinguishes from a beingness, doingness,or havingness (which are addressed by ‘routine auditing’).  One very effective method – aside from clearing  the pc thoroughly on HCOB Anatomy of a Service Facsimile – is to thoroughly clear he or she on the chapter titled “Computations” from Advance Procedures and Axioms.  Might take a bit of time, but it is time well spent. It is where LRH clearly establishes just what a computation is and clearly differentiates it from a beingness, doingness, or havingness or any other kind of consideration.

Beyond that, you cannot be a Golden Age of Tech robot.  You’ve got to roll up your sleeves and really audit the pc in front of you.  Oh, and corporate Scientology blasphemy of blasphemies, you’ve got to be in such good two way communication with the pc that if you don’t take LRH’s auditing demo tapes to heart, you are lost.

Ok, so why would Miscavige ignore my advice in 96 (he never even bothered to respond) and instead go headlong into creating robots in the place of auditors?

Well, here is clue in my opinion, also from Anatomy of a Service Facsimile:

There is nothing sane about a service facsimile; there is no rationality to it. The computation does not fit the incident or event occurring.  It simply enforces, exaggerates, and destroys freedom of choice over the exercise of ability to be happy or powerful or normal or active.  It destroys power, destroys freedom of choice.

I can tell you straight up that it is an intentional action on Miscavige’s part.  It was my own discovery of this mechanism in myself that freed me from continuing to do  the dirty work of Miscavige. I recognized the computation of my own that he so craftily used and profited from over so many years.  It is gone incidentally, and that is why Miscavige and his minions have no idea – and I mean none – who I really am and what I am capable of.

For a taste of how this lost tech, restored, can have incredible, practical impact on the everyday lives of folks, I am including a write up from a bona fide OT V Kay Proctor. I want to thank Kay for having the courage and responsibility to lay it on the line with intimate details of her life so that others might enjoy the abilities she now has.

Success Story — Kay Proctor — April 2, 2011

Marty gave me my son back last week! You see, I had a very insidious service facsimile sitting there and it was ruining my life and my son’s life.

I had asked for help in 2002 at AOLA when I was about to complete OT 3. I did not consider I could ethically attest to Freedom from Overwhelm with this glaring outpoint with my son. Though they reluctantly let me interrupt the level and do a RPEC, it only yielded minor relief.

Again in 2006 and then in 2008, I went to Flag, specifically to get some help with my son. Each time I was told to just keep moving up and it would handle itself over time as I went up the Bridge.

This was THE only glaring outpoint along my dynamics, and it was literally ruining my life, as it was a mother of an outpoint. My son was disagreeable, wasn’t winning in life, and neither was I. And now with my husband gone, it was just us and we were not getting along. The situation had to get handled for both our survival.

It took Marty 3 sessions to get to the bottom of this and it wasn’t difficult. A crazy, non-survival computation—It’s no wonder my son was disagreeable. I’d probably have killed somebody if I had this crap being run on me.

It went something like this:

In order for him to be self-confident, he had to do everything the same as I did.

That’s like, ‘in order to be happy, I have to be unhappy.’ Holy mother of god. What a load of crap. He gave me clues with his protesting of my standards and my perceptiveness. His mouth would be vile and abusive, invalidating any and everything, no matter what or why. Understandable reaction actually.

In less than 3 hours, I had my son back – quick and simple. Marty was meticulous with me until I had the ‘exact wording’ of the ser fac and then, it blew. Instantly I could grant beingness to him and it was evident when I made a phone call to him after session. He could now do or not do whatever he wanted, however he wanted and I could feel that the ridge was gone. I could also grant myself beingness to just run my life, instead of trying to mind my business and his. Whew! Did I gain some energy and attention units to use in a ‘more productive’ way.

So, now I am truly ready to get onto Solo NOTS, which I will do as soon as Jim Logan & I get ourselves through OT 6 in the next few weeks.

To sing a few praises to Marty: Now I’d like to let you know that the auditing I received was beyond anything I have ever experienced. Lovely, caring comm cycle, had a f/n at the start of session, so did not have to fly ruds with the crazy 3-swing f/n crap, did not have to go through a bazillion gyrations to get into session, which would previously consisted of: shoes off, feet on pillow, blanket over lap, another blanket made into a tent so that a heater could be at the back of my calves —  then a fan blowing on my face – plus all the significance if I had enough food, water, vitamins, bathroom, tight clothes, tight underwear, tight ass……………wtf. It would get crazy with all the gyrations.

Not one single gyration was needed. Sitting there in flip flops, no heater, no fan, no blanket, good can squeeze on the first try, f/n starting the session everytime. It was so easy. Marty did not blast me into the next room when he said “this is the session” as I always experienced at Flag, and no special gyrations had to be repeated for the Exam at the end of session.

Beautiful R-factors that made auditing safe and easy. You knew what you were looking for and were a properly enlightened pc.  When you know exactly what to expect, it runs like hot butter. Marty has set a standard for me, both for other auditing situations I may find myself in plus when I solo audit myself shortly on Solo NOTS.

I imagined it to be like LRH would audit — high, high ARC, great TR’s, completely handling the person in front of you and never feeling like you are doing some ‘one size fits all’ program, whether it indicates to you or not. It is your session and your case and the auditor is simply there to guide you.

Beautiful, standard LRH applied to a beautiful result. To say I am eternally grateful does not express the magnitude of how I feel.

I have not uttered one word to my son. In fact, he had no idea where I had been. I have been test-driving my new beingness this week.  From him, not one utterance of vile language, not one disagreement when I ask him to do something, no invalidations, and furthermore, he is in great comm with me with good ARC. The ridge that I previously felt is gone.

I no longer have a Held-Down 7.

I cannot speak high enough praises to Marty and his auditing style. May we all experience such and restore ourselves to our native state. Many, many thanks to LRH for this beautiful tech and for the standard application delivered to me at Casablanca.

Kay Proctor


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Ingrid Smith Creates an Oasis in LA

Posted on March 26, 2011 by | 142 comments

 

 

When I was a kid there was a lot of talk of Russia bombing us. One day at my school we were marched into the auditorium to watch a movie about that very threat. It ended with a nuclear explosion going off and the people in the vicinity quickly disintegrating to skeletal form and then nothing. That was pretty scary.

The scariest movie that I saw as a kid though was ”The Invasion of the Body Snatchers”. This was about people in a small town whose bodies are taken over by cold emotionless aliens. The theta in the town was disappearing–no more friendly grocer, the chatty neighbor or the caring teacher. I found that terrifying. They looked the same on the outside, but inside they were somebody else and somebody you didn’t want to meet.

Even at an early age I found the destruction of the spirit more horrible than the body. I understood why when I got into Scientology. Thetans have been on a long dwindling spiral from suppression and implants. It is what is done to the Thetan, not the body that destroys him the most.

I got in on a 4th dynamic ruin. I became an auditor very quickly and have continued to audit since. To free beings and help restore self-determinism is very important to me. Also to reverse this dwindling spiral. For one thing beings in that condition are much more fun to interact with. Robots are not.

Ron knew that data in Scientology could be used in such a way as to do tremendous damage to the being. Unfortunately David Miscavige has proven him right. Here are Ron’s chilling words:

PDC TAPE 20 “FORMATIVE STATE OF SCIENTOLOGY, DEFINITON OF LOGIC”.

“It (Scientology) is not in itself an arbitrary, Fascistic police force to make sure that we all think right thoughts. It’s a servant of the mind, a servo-mechanism of the mind. It is not a master of the mind. Scientology will decline and become useless to man on the day when it becomes the master of thinking. Don’t think it won’t do that. It has every capability in it of doing that. Contained in the knowable, workable portions before your eyes, there are methods of controlling human beings and thetans which have never before been dreamed of in this universe. Control mechanisms of such awesome and solid proportions, that if the remedies were not so much easier to apply, one would be appalled at the dangerousness to beingness that exists in Scientology.”

The Church has simply become another suppressive force and implant station in a long line of them on the track. How can I possibly be connected to that? It goes against everything I believe in. That is why I am announcing my disconnection from a Church that destroys beings. I want to thank Marty for giving me the forum to do this in. Fortunately, I have what is important–the tech.

Please visit my new blog: http://www.oasisforpersonalfreedom.com/?p=12

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Imagine

Posted on March 24, 2011 by | 149 comments

Imagine.

I want you to imagine a scenario for a moment if you will.

Imagine that with every step you ever took in Scientology the following ACT ONE was in.

Please read ACT ONE again. Here it is:

“The auditor and pre-clear are a group. To function well a group must be cleared. The clearing of a group is not difficult. It requires but little time. The relationship of the auditor and pre-clear is not parity. The auditor lends himself to the group as the control center of the group until the pre-clear’s subcontrol center is established under his own control center’s command. The role of the auditor ceases at that moment.

  

The auditor necessarily owns the pre-clear. He owns the pre-clear on a lessening basis until the pre-clear owns himself. If the auditor wishes to successfully own, to the end of NOT owning the pre-clear, he must not use the pre-clear to the service of the auditor for this establishes and confirms the ownership and inhibits the pre-clear from owning himself.

  

THE FIRST ACT of the auditor concerns himself. He assesses the task rather than the pre-clear and assesses the matter within himself. He establishes whether or not he desires the pre-clear to become established under the pre-clear’s own center of control. To do this the auditor may find it necessary to straight-wire himself for the removal of any reason why he does not want this pre-clear to be owned by the pre-clear. He then postulates to himself what he wants to happen with this pre-clear and postulates as well that he can do this task with this pre-clear. He must feel these postulates solidly. If he cannot he must discover why he cannot. Thus the first session’s first minutes with the pre-clear are concerned with the auditor himself. He should take time out from the pre-clear until he himself is established in his task and then readdress the pre-clear. “

– L Ron Hubbard, Advanced Procedures and Axioms

Now, when I say imagine that it was in, I do not mean “sorta in”, “a lot in”, “a little in”, or “most of the time in”. I mean, in unconditionally.

To get what I mean by completely in, please take a few minutes to review a segment of an interview I did with the St Petersburg Times in 2009. You can find it at this link, http://www.tampabay.com/specials/2009/reports/project/rathbun.shtml

On the right hand side of the image, there is a list of topics. Click on the one entitled “Abuse of Trust.”

The conditions I describe in that video interview are Church of Scientology conditions making the definition of in-session unattainable – that is “interested in own case and willing to talk to the auditor.” I mean, unconditionally “willing to talk to the auditor” with no consideration present that there are any adverse ramifications possible for what one might say to the auditor.

There is no such thing as “kinda in session”, just as certainly as there is no such thing as “kinda pregnant.” One is either willing (completely without the slightest allowance for concern of repercussion) to talk to the auditor, or one is not. One is either unequivocally interested and willing to look at whatever he is directed to inspect and arises and then discharge it by exposing it to the light of the auditor or he is not. If the pc has that 100% confidence it causes exact time, place, form and event to as-is. If he/she does not then that time, place, form and event is altered to that degree and tends to solidify and thus mass and energy and uknowingness accumulates in the universe of the pc.

There is one condition precedent for creating the condition of “in session.” That is, ACT ONE is IN.

Imagine ACT ONE being in with TONE 40. I don’t mean the corrupted, sacrilegious, low-scale force that Scientology Inc has foisted off on people as TONE 40. I mean TONE 40 defined: “Intention without reservation.”

Imagine now that every session you ever received was received with absolute confidence that ACT ONE at Tone 40 was in with your auditor.

Now imagine every session, every training action, every cycle ever “administered” under the name of Scientology was done so with the unequivocal intent to return free theta to you so as to return more of you to you so as to enhance your control over your own destiny.

Imagine further that ACT ONE was in with every person within the organization administering that auditing and training. That means the Case Supervisor, the Examiner, the D of P, the folder pages, the Ethics Officer, the Chaplain, all Qualifications Division Terminals, all Tech Division Terminals, all Div Six terminals. That also means all OSA terminals, Int Management,including its alter ego who micromanages it to suit his intentions and image.

Imagine further that ACT ONE was in with all Division Two terminals.

And, yes I know it is difficult, but also please imagine that all Registrars had their ACT ONE in with respect to you.

Absurd? Why? How could ACT ONE – the creation of a third dynamic for the spiritual betterment of the pc – mean anything when that auditor’s participation in it is dictated utterly by a larger third dynamic for other purposes, some detrimental to the pc? When that auditor reports in detail everything that goes on within the created auditor/pc third dynamic and subjects the pc to the effects that larger third dynamic wishes to create on that pc? When that auditor does not utterly control the auditor side of the e-meter, but instead subjects the preclear to the whims of another much larger third dynamic?

I don’t care if God wrote the policies that dictate the actions of that larger third dynamic, there is no ACT ONE if the auditor’s contract with the pc does not bind every single member of the larger third dynamic under whose auspices and control he is carrying out his auditing duties. And no matter how closely the members of the larger organization follow God’s policy, the moment any single one of the members of that larger third dynamic violates the pc’s contract with the auditor under ACT ONE, that contract is broken. And that pc is for it.

An unattainable absolute? Ok, imagine every org terminal who exerts any influence upon you went through the process of ACT ONE on you before he or she ever gave a command or suggestion? And imagine that each did his or her darned best at keeping that ACT ONE postulate clean and in with respect to you.

Now, if you haven’t already done so, lightly scan your history in and around Scientology organizations and imagine all departures from ACT ONE by all terminals connected with those organizations had not been present. Instead, each terminal did his level best to operate with ACT ONE in with respect to you.

Imagine where you’d be right NOW.

Imagine.

 

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The Only Pay There Is For Living

Posted on March 7, 2011 by | 180 comments

Shortly more than a month ago on this blog Mike Rinder predicted the following:

“Next up on the Vulture Culture agenda, once all personal possessions, teeth fillings and hair are sold off:

BLOOD, SWEAT AND TEARS”

You can review that posting here: https://markrathbun.wordpress.com/2011/01/20/what-will-they-think-of-next-2/

Well, now that I have reviewed the latest Ideal Org promo Scientology Inc is sending out, I suppose I will never accuse Mike Rinder of using hyperbole again.  Please be sure you are sitting before you get a load of this one:

And on the brighter side of life, don’t forget the only pay there really is for living:

Well, if you’re going to live life without feeling, without sensation, communication, ARC, understanding and a few other minor quantities, why live?  Why live?  Why not just be a — just take the cog out of the machinery that one is and just go out and lie down in a field someplace and expire, because there’s no point in it; because the things I’ve named are the pay you get for living; and there’s no other pay.

The pay is communication, sensation, ARC, understanding, cooperative endeavor, enthusiam over goals, activity; the feeling one is going and doing something.  These are the only payments that can be made to one for living.  There are some things that try to substitute for them: mink coats, Cadillacs, and big bank accounts. Person says, “Well, if  could just make a couple of million, then I would’ve been paid for it.” Well, ou and i know the answer to that. We see some of these follows that slaved through it for 20-25-30 years, let everything go by the boards but that first couple of million, or something like that, and there they sit in the preclear’s chair with ulcers. They were paid, apparently; they were apparently paid; paid in cash — but they weren’t paid in communication, sensation, understanding, feeling of a job well done, ARC. These payments they didn’t get, and it made them sick!  So there is something real about living, and that something real is life.

-L Ron Hubbard, 29 December 1957, Experience – Randomity and Change of Pace, from Ability Congress

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Cynthia (Cindy) Pinsonnault – Another Texan Ya’ll

Posted on February 22, 2011 by | 116 comments

 

  Please give a warm welcome to yet another Texan (Houston) with integrity.

Dear Friends;

I have been a Scientologist for 44 years, since age 11, when my mother decided to take the Communication Course at a small mission in New York State and enrolled my sister and me as well. From that very first course my life was changed for the better.

I have tremendous respect for L. Ron Hubbard and I am grateful to him for the gift of his discoveries. I will continue with the study and application of his technologies and philosophies in my life.

I am also grateful to every auditor, staff member and friend who has helped me learn and apply the technology and thereby helped me attain greater spiritual awareness and affinity for my fellow man and the universe. And I commend all those dedicated staff and volunteers in missions and orgs around the world who tirelessly work to help others.

However, I can no longer support what the church has become under the leadership of David Miscavige.

I remember LRH’s church; it was fun, it was spiritually uplifting, the environment was safe, affinity was very high. For a long time, I have observed a slow but continual departure from Ron’s purpose of bringing spiritual freedom to man. My observations lead me to believe that the church is in decline and that David Miscavige is the suppressive person responsible for that decline.

“What is true for you is what you have observed yourself. And when you lose that, you have lost everything.” — Ability, Issue 125 February 1961 (Tech Vol. VI, p. 23)

For years I’ve ignored my doubts and made excuses for the outpoints I saw. My decision has been a long time coming and is the result of my own observations and my own integrity.

“[People] learn to keep their mouths shut, and it’s the wrong lesson. When in doubt, talk.” — The Phoenix Lectures 1954

I thought I understood “Keeping Scientology Working,” and yet for years I have remained silent while the technology has been degraded and misapplied. I accept my share of the responsibility for allowing this to happen.

International events present flashy but false statistics in an attempt to show success where there is none. Events have become overhyped sales pitches for the latest round of fund raising and the aggrandizement of David Miscavige, who now presents LRH materials that he has “fixed.”

Fund raising has become more important than tech delivery, more important than spiritual freedom, more important than the bridge.

Finance and org policies have been ignored or altered to support a flawed ideal org scheme.

Because of the above and much more, I hereby announce that I am withdrawing my support and leaving the organization of the Church of Scientology.

 Whether or not you have observed any of these outpoints is for you to determine. If anyone wants to know more about what led me to my decision, I hope you will think for yourself and start with the websites that report information Mr. Miscavige does not want you to have. The letter written by OT VIII Luis Garcia does a very good job of documenting the outpoints and departures from policy. I recommend reading Luis’ letter: https://markrathbun.wordpress.com/2010/11/11/a-letter-from-garcia/ . 

I also recommend Marty Rathbun’s blog, https://markrathbun.wordpress.com/.

“For a thetan there are two very essential rights: One is the right to his own sanity, and the other is the right to leave a game.” — LRH, PDC, Dec 3rd1952

 I will not sever my communication lines with anyone who wishes to call me a friend. But I realize that my decision may mean the end of friendships. You have that choice.

 My decision is made. I hope that you will respect it even if you don’t agree with it.

 And to anyone who is struggling with doubt about their own observations, I hope that you are able to continue observing and stay true to your own integrity and know that there are many people outside the church who are courageously dedicated to keeping LRH’s purpose.

“To actively decry the suppression of knowledge, wisdom, philosophy or data which would help mankind.” — Code of a Scientologist The Creation of Human Ability 1954

“Look, don’t listen.” — HCO PL 7 February 1965 KSW Series 1, Keeping Scientology Working

With affinity,

Cynthia (Cindy) Pinsonnault

Grades, former mission ED, IAS Founding Patron

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Kay Proctor Does The Texas Two-Step

Posted on February 18, 2011 by | 261 comments

The book “Cowboy Dances” (1939) talks of this Texas trademark, “The real two-step should be smooth and beautiful to watch.”   Take a look at the way Kay does it – real straight-ahead, dignified, and with a pleasing tempo.  Welcome home Kay!

Dear Friends,

HCO PL 4 March 1965 : Reserved Payment Account

OEC Vol 3, p. 315: Purpose of the Reserved Payment Account: To prevent a false idea of the financial position of the org from occurring by providing a place where money awaiting disbursement can be placed before it is actually paid out, thus removing it from the general accounts and estimates of financial position of the org.

OEC Vol 3, p. 316: Savings: When the org desires to buy something big or expensive, it should not use time payments, hire, purchase or mortgages. It should start putting money into the Reserved Payment Account and, when the full sum is there, buy the item for cash, using the fact to obtain a good, big discount. While the Building Fund on building purchases is also intended to help buy buildings outright, there is nothing wrong with also depositing available amounts of the disbursement sum in the Reserved Payment Account to help out.

Additionally,

HCO PL 18 Jan 1965:  Financial Management Building Fund Account

OEC Vol 3, p. 42: The primary purpose is to provide a cushion by which an organization which is becoming insolvent may be salvaged.  The secondary purpose of the Building Fund is to purchase property, but when this is done, the purchase must be for cash or, if any mortgage is involved, all further payments than the initial payment must be made from expense sum.

Finally,

OEC Vol 3, p. 247: HCO PL 28 Jan 1965: How to Maintain Credit Standing and Solvency

The secret to solvency is:

1. Make a lot of money.

2. Spend less than you make.

3. Make it before you spend it.

4. Gather bit by bit a cushion of cash to fall back on and don’t ever fall back on it.

5. Keep your credit excellent as a second cushion.

6. Refuse to spend reserves

Etc.

These basic LRH policy letters on finance plus the many others contained in Volume 3, give a perfect roadmap for expanding any org, whether the local org in your local sphere or the upper level orgs in Int’l Management. Clearly there is an abandonment of LRH finance policy, witnessed by the Ideal Org fund raising program, which is off- policy and not to be found in any LRH policy. With off-policy as the current operating basis from COB, David Miscavige, I have no choice but to withdraw my allegiance to the Church of Scientology as I can no longer support anything but pure LRH.

To give one a little history. I found Scientology in 1984. I was living in Tyler, Texas and my sister-in-law had just been introduced to the subject and had done Life Repair. I could tell from talking to her on the phone that she was different.  At that time, life had kicked me in the teeth enough times and I was looking for answers. I asked how much money I needed and I was told around $2,500. I was a single woman at the time, teaching school and had no resources. I went around to 3 banks, asking for an unsecured loan and when they all turned me down, I then lied and said I needed money for my daughter who needed health care. That was the magic ticket and I left with a loan for $3,000, getting just a little extra in case I wanted to do a course.

I purchased the Dianetics book and then I took off for Dallas to the Mission of the Southwest, there on Mandeville Road, off Central Expressway.

I paid for Life Repair and cleared words while in session, as I had no prior information about this subject. My life turned on a dime, and I handled a long-term situation with my father. I was really happy for the first time.

I returned to Tyler, taught school and one day while mowing my lawn, I decided that I wanted to go Clear. I called my ex sister-in-law (we had both since divorced the boys) and I moved in with her, quit teaching, had no idea where I’d work or what I’d do, but I knew I wanted to go Clear.

Shortly thereafter I joined staff and was the PCS in Div. 6 for a 2-1/2 year contract. During that time we had highest ever statistics with new public and the org was booming.

Not to bore anyone with the full story, suffice it to say, that I have worked totally in an environment with fellow Scientologist since 1984, and have been dedicated and very engaged in my Church.

In 1987, I regged Jay Proctor for staff as well as my 2D and from that point forward, we both loved and used LRH policy to navigate our marriage and the raising of our son, who was delivered by standard LRH birthing policies in our home with a mid-wife. In October 2009, Jay dropped his body, with a full LRH Last C/S, surrounded by OTs. We applied LRH tech to our everyday life.

LRH tech was the glue for our life, as there is no situation that we were unable to handle using the tech.  In the 1980’s – early 1990’s, it was fun being a Scientologist and a staff member, even though we worked very long hours. We had community activities, we played the Birthday Game for blood, we had great parties at the org on Friday nights, both public and staff included. We had church picnics and a real sense of family.

In 2001, shortly after September 11th, my mother dropped her body and my OT levels had been paid for some time. I arrived at AOLA and began, going straight through from R6EW to OT V, completing in September 2002.

All along the way, I saw more and more outpoints. And now, to see our church be so off the rails with regards to finance policy deeply saddens me. LRH provided all of us with this beautiful tech, and it is being misapplied by Chairman of the Board, David Miscavige.

This is unconscionable for me.

Whether any of these outpoints are true for you, you have to determine that. But, outside of the Ideal Org program, here are some additional outpoints I began to observe:

1.       For many years, at major events, none of the usual Int’l Management Executives shared the stage with COB as they formerly had been. They used to be part of every program.

2.       There is a distinct upper strata structure that LRH laid out to provide checks and balances within the organization, which would include these International Executives. Where are they?

3.       Has RTC (Religious Technology Center), Church of Scientology Int’l (CSI) and Church of Spiritual Technology (CST) been un-mocked and collapsed? Is David Miscavige chairing them all?  http://www.savescientology.com/

4.       Heber Jentzch, the President of the Church of Scientology. Where is he? He had not been seen in many years, and he has to be nearing 75 years in age. He didn’t die, so where is he?

5.       Saint Hill-size orgs were popular in the 1990’s which provided for orgs to build their staff and public ranks to the size of Saint Hill Org in the UK. ASHO in Los Angeles achieved this status for a brief segment in time in the late 90’s. What happened with this program? And why was it disbanded?

6.       I noticed there aren’t Class VIII auditors produced as before? Why?

7.       I was at Flag in the mid 90’s and at that time, there were several Class XII auditors that LRH trained. I can’t find any of them now. Where are they?

If any of this has resonated in any way with you, please check for yourself some of the key stats in your local org. Observe them for yourself on the OIC board – which is the stat board that HCO keeps posted in plain view or should.

1.       NNCF – New Names to Central Files. These come from Books sold to new people or new people arriving for first service at a mission or org.

2.       BIS – Bodies in the shop. This would be of interest with regards to both Division 6 (new people) as well as Division 2 (returning public).

Observe for yourself and if these stats are up trending in your org? And if the #’s are sufficient for viability?

To ensure survival, LRH finance policy must be applied and applied standardly. This means monies come from a well-oiled operational org that delivers services in such abundance, making more money than the org can waste.  These abundances are channeled into the Reserves Accounts and the Building Fund account.

Then when repairs are needed for everyday operations OR a new phase of expansion, which could include renovations to the existing structure or a new structure, the monies are available, as there has been complete adherence to proper finance policy along the way, thus ensuring  the infrastructure is in place to facilitate the expansion. LRH gave us the tech and the road map to ensure stability both in terms of monies, structure, staff and public.  When followed, true expansion occurs and all is stable.

However, the caveat is that orgs take orders from International Management. Now, that is a single individual – David Miscavige.

Please “Look, don’t listen”.  Whether your reality is similar to mine or light-years different – from this point forward, I invite you to look closer.  Check out things further – allow no carte blanche acceptance.

In no way am I discrediting all the wonderful Scientologists, both staff and public that I have come to know along the way — some incredibly lovely people that I love dearly, including the staff members who devote their lives to this cause.  

But under the current leader, we have lost LRH’s Church to “Miscavige’s Church”. It is no longer the LRH that we once knew and loved, and therefore, I cannot continue to show support.

Recently, on national television, Tommy Davis, the Church’s spokesperson, said that it was false that the church’s policy was that you had to give up your friends if you chose to leave the church.

You now have that choice. I will always keep my comm lines open to any of you who wish to call me that cherished word, friend.

My decision is made. Please respect and grant beingness. It is my wish that each of us flourish and prosper. That is my plan, and I will be moving along with the correct application of the LRH conditions to achieve that.

Love and warm wishes,

Kay

OT V, IAS Honor Roll

Austin TX 

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What is Freedom?

Posted on January 17, 2011 by | 82 comments

Reading some MLK this morning, which has become my habit on the day designated to acknowledge the man and his work, I came across some material you might find useful.

Martin Luther King arrested

On the mechanics of suppression and how it denies an individual the power of choice, MLK from What Is Freedom?, The Ethical Demands for Integration:

What is Freedom?  It is, first, the capacity to deliberate or weigh alternatives. “Shall I be a teacher or a lawyer?”  “Shall I vote for this candidate or the other candidate?” “Shall I be a Democrat, Republican or Socialist?”   Second, freedom expresses itself in decision.  The word decision like the word incision involves the image of cutting. Incision means to cut in, decision means to cut off . When I make a decision I cut off alternatives and make a choice.  The existentialists say we must choose, that we are choosing animals; and if we do not choose we sink into thinghood and the mass mind. A third expression of freedom is responsibility.  This is the obligation of the person to respond if he is questioned about his decisions.  No one else can respond for him.  He alone must respond, for his acts are determineed by the centered totality of his being.

From this analysis we can clearly see the evilness of segregation.  It cuts off one’s capacity to deliberate, decide and respond.  The absence of freedom is the imposition of restraint on my deliberation as to what I shall do, where I shall live, how much I shall earn, the kind of tasks I shall pursue.  I am robbed of the basic quality of man-ness. When I cannot choose what I shall do or where I shall live or how I shall survive, it means in fact that someone or some system has already made these a priori decision for me, and I am reduced to an animal. I do not live; I merely exist. The only resemblances I have to real life are the motor responses and functions that are akin to humankind. I cannot adequately assume responsibility as a person because I have been made a party to a decision in which I played no part in making.

Now to be sure, this is hyperbole in some degree but only to underscore what actually happens when a man is robbed of his freedom. The very nature of his life is altered and his being cannot make the full circle of personhood because that which is basic to the character of life itself has been diminished.”

On confronting the evil of suppression, MLK from Stride Toward Freedom:

As I thought further I came to see that what we were really doing was withdrawing our cooperation from an evil system, rather than merely withdrawing our economic support from the bus company. The bus company, being an external expression of the system, would naturally suffer, but the basic aim was to refuse to cooperate with evil. At this point I began to think about Thoreau’s Essay on Civil Disobedience.  I remembered how, as a college student, I had been moved when I first read this work. I became convinced that what we were preparing to do in Montgomery was related to what Thoreau had expressed. We were simply saying to the white community, “We can no longer lend our cooperation to an evil system.”

Something began to say to me, “He who passively accepts evil is as much involved in it as he who helps to perpetuate  it. He who accepts evil without protesting against it is really cooperating with it.”   When oppressed people willingly accept their oppression  they only serve  to give the oppressor a convenient justification for his acts.  Often the oppressor goes along unaware of the evil involved in his oppression so long as the oppressed accepts it. So in ordered to be true to one’s conscience and true to God, a righteous man has no alternative but to refuse to cooperate with an evil system.  This I felt was the nature of our action…”

Finally, while reading the following passage,  it occurred to me that we are blessed to have a number of Mother Pollards among us.  Why it tends  to be women who demonstrate this intuitive strength, I do not know.  But, it does so happen to be that way.  This is in acknowledgment to each of you; and no doubt you will know who you are when you read it. MLK from The Strength of Love:

One of the most dedicated participants in the bus protest in Montgomery, Alabama was an elderly Negro whom we affectionately called Mother Pollard. Although poverty stricken and uneducated, she was amazingly intelligent and possessed a deep understanding of the meaning of the movement.  After having walked for several weeks, she was asked if she were tired. With ungrammatical profundity, she answered, “My feets is tired, but my soul is rested.”

On a particular Monday evening, following a tension-packed week which included being arrested and receiving numerous threatening telephone calls, I spoke at a mass meeting.  I attempted to convey an overt impression of strength and courage, although inwardly depressed and fear-stricken. At the end of the meeting, Mother Pollard came to the front of the church and said, “Come here, son.”  I  immediately went to her and hugged her affectionately. “Something is wrong with you,” she said. “You didn’t talk strong tonight.”  Seeking further to disguise my fears, I retorted, “Oh, no, Mother Pollard, nothing is wrong. I am feeling as fine as ever.”  But her insight was discerning. “Now you can’t fool me,” she said.  “I knows something is wrong. Is it that we ain’t doing things to please you?  Or is it that the white folks is bothering you?”  Before I could respond, she looked directly into my eyes and said, “I don told you we is with you all the way.”  Then her face became radiant and she said in words of quiet certainty, “But even if we ain’t with you, God’s gonna take care of you.”  As she spoke these consoling words, everything in me quivered and quickened with the pulsing tremor of raw energy.

Since that dreary night in 1956, Mother Pollard has passed on to glory and I have known very few quiet days. I have been tortured without and tormented within by the raging fires of tribulation. I have been forced to muster what strength and courage I have to withstand howling winds of pain and jostling storms of adversity. But as the years have unfolded the eloquently simple words of Mother Pollard have come back again and again to give light and peace and guidance to my troubled soul.  “God’s gonna take care of you.”

This faith transforms the whirlwind of despair into a warm and reviving breeze of hope.  The words of a motto which a generation ago were commonly found on the walls in the homes of devout persons need to be etched on our hearts:

                    Fear knocked at the door.

                   Faith answered.

                  There was no one there.

 

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An Important Difference Between Radical Scientology and Independent Scientology

Posted on December 30, 2010 by | 170 comments

 

The following lecture passage succinctly differentiates between where the Church of Scientology is headed and where Independent Scientologists are going. It is LRH from History of Dianetics, 28 December 1954:

Phenomenna, Phenomena. Phenomena. Phenomena. They wouldn’t have turned up, don’t you see, if we hadn’t been going in a direction of ability. We’re trying to discover ability so, naturally, disabilities announce themselves and all the phenomena there is, actually could be cataloged under disabilities. So you see the direction of research? Do you see why we got someplace in Dianetics and Scientology? We’re goin in the opposite direction. We just reverse things. And instead of trying to write down, “The number of insanities are…” (fellow by the name Kraeplin did this) – number of insanities are catalog, catalog, catalog, catalog; category, category, category; catalog, catalog, catalog, catalog, category, category, category and unclassified. It’s real cute. That’s the most enormous list you ever saw in your life.

It didn’t get anybody on the road. Why? He was going around looking for disabilities, looking for disabilities, looking for disabilities, looking for more disabilities. And of course he’d find a disability, he’d simply fix on it because that’s what a disability does. So research and investigation of disabilities would continually wind people up in trouble and with set ideas – with catalogs. It would wind them up with an enormous variety of disabilities, were they able to take their attention off the last disability they’d found. But they don’t.

Let’s get a case. He starts into examination of himself and he goes right straight along. He’s doing fine, by the way, he’s just swell. He’s a hit at parties, he can play the piano with his shoes on, he can do all kinds of things. And he goes into his case on self-examination to discover what is wrong with him, since the last five girls that threw him over has given him some clue there must be something wrong with him.

So he says, “Let’s see, what’s wrong with me?” And all of a sudden he turns his attention a little bit introverted and he hits some kind of a psychic trauma. He wants to increase his ability, you see, and he hits this little trauma and it says, “The thing that’s wrong with you, Joe, is you’re no good.”

And he says, “Well, I’ll look around and see what else I can find.” [laughter]

There goes your case, fixated on one idea. Everywhere he goes, he has that idea in front of his face. What happens, though, if you actually, actively start increasing his ability? His attention comes right off that circuit – ping! And of course, another one will pop up. You take his attention off that one, another one will pop up. Off that one – another one. Off – another one! This is the reaction of the mind going toward freedom. Freedom lies beyond barriers. And as soon as you start to go in the direction of freedom, you’ll find some barriers. And the trick is not to stand around and look at these wonderful barriers inside the head.

Let’s find out how able a fellow can be and how free he can be. And if we discover this, we will discover immediately why research and investigation in the field of Dianetics and Scientology will continue to expand – because the direction toward ability is the only direction it has ever really had. The more able we can make a person, the freer he is. The more dynamics he is surviving along, the more beingness he is.

And so we are able, if we pursue ability. If we pursue disability, we are disabled.

And the first and foremost of these abilities is communication.

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A Postulate For 2011

Posted on December 23, 2010 by | 241 comments

Here’s a postulate for 2011: Freeing self and others from a low-scale, imprisoning moral to a high-scale, liberating ethic.  LRH, from the Philadelphia Doctorate Course lecture Chart of Attitudes: Rising Scale Processing, 11 December 1952:

Now, what then is your level that is an attainable level for freedom?  It would have to be a level which is so high that every man could reason and be responsible in his own right for his own acts and also for the acts of others.

Blame-regret, blame-regret is the course of a police state.  And its spiral dwindles down, and dwindles very rapidly. So there’s no halfway point on this scale.  You can’t cut it off here and say we’ve done a good job and reformed the whole world.  You can’t cut it off here at A: you can’t cut it off at B. You just got to go ahead and put the guy into shape so he can handle himself and his force.

You can patch up somebody and make him well.  That’s what you were straining against in auditing. You see, you broke agreement — with the first book, you broke agreement with the MEST universe to this degree — to about 4.0.  You said, “Look, it says I have to have engrams and I have to have things that force me to do various things, and look, I can run them out.  As fast as they happen, bad things happen to me, I can run them out.”  And you were disagreeing with the mandates of the physical universe to that extent.  But that extent ceases at 4.0.  And from there on up, it requires another process.

That’s why immediately Homo Sapiens can go to 4.0 on Dianetics: The Modern Science of Mental Health and the Science of Survival.  But he can’t go anyplace above that without having his self-determinism restored to him. (emphasis in bold supplied).  He becomes well, he becomes better able to reason, but I have not seen what I had hoped to see, because unfortunately it can’t exist — an ethical, strong Homo Sapiens. And if it can’t exist, let’s go up here.

Gee, you’re clear up to a potential of 36.0, 38.0 before you can get a full level susceptible to good ethic.  An ethic is that which is enforced by oneself, his belief in his own honor and good reason and optimum solution along the eight dynamics. That’s ethics.

And morals is somebody who sticks a spear into your belly or a sepulcher over your head, hides a bogeyman back of a chair, tells you nothing and says you’ve got to do it because the unseen gods…There’s no difference between a taboo and a moral.

Right here is the point where Dianetics has been blackened and Scientology reversed:  “But he can’t go anyplace above that without having his self-determinism restored to him.”

And therein lies the first step in remedying Black Dianetics and Reverse Scientology in my opinion and beginning the process of moving folk on up a little higher, a little more higher, and finally a whole heck of a lot higher.  Fortunately, we are rich beyond imagination in terms of  tools to accomplish the restoration of self-determinism. 

One doesn’t need to be a priest or a rocket scientist to contribute to that motion.  Each of us can do it day in and day out with what we know.  We are also free to learn more so as to do it more effectively and more efficiently. 

Ain’t it great to be alive?

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Freedom from Overwhelm

Posted on December 4, 2010 by | 362 comments

 

We have come to discover the crux of Miscavige’s Black Dianetics implant technique. My own awakening experience has been shared in greater or lesser degree by the many O.T.s who have made their ways to the Shack (the original and Casablanca). In my view, here is how Miscavige reverses Scientology to create the product of unquestioningly loyal sheep at the upper reaches of the Bridge.

First, as most of you know the ability gained from OT III is Freedom from Overwhelm.

How, then, are so many OT 3s, OT 4s, OT 5s, OT 7s, and OT 8s (not to mention Clears and Releases) finding themselves in the unmistakable condition of overwhelm?

If you look at what staff and public get a steady diet of from the very top in Radical Scientology the one overriding common denominator is overwhelm.

Overwhelming, implant-like stage setting events – six times a year.

Overwhelming diet of entheta about the state of the planet, and its populations’ insistence on destroying man’s only road to total freedom.

Overwhelming invalidation and evaluation as to individual behavior.

Overwhelming interiorization by way of unrelenting sec checking and evil purpose pulling.

Overwhelming demands for money.

Overwhelming demands for thinking in a prescribed way, and overwhelming punishments for thinking rational (redefined as ‘critical) thoughts.

Overwhelming auditing sessions by auditors taught an overwhelming beingness, and operating on the equation auditor plus meter can and should overwhelm pc or pre-OT.

Overwhelming family, peer and business associate pressure to toe the white line.

Overwhelming harassment for those who stand up and refuse to be overwhelmed.

If there is anything to be learned from the public disclosures of myself, Mike, Steve, Dan, Amy, Jeff, Marc, Claire, Jackson, Sarge, Karen, et al (ad infinitum) about the day to day conduct of David Miscavige, the common denominator of it all could be summed up in this description: “continuous intent to overwhelm.”

I think we can accurately state his overwhelmingly primary goal as “to overwhelm.”

Multiple reports have now been received and cross verified that Radical Scientology is routinely programming OT VIIs and OT VIIIs for objectives and even the Purif. A more suppressive, and reverse, general tech mis-programming is hard to conceive of.

LRH says this about the effect of incorrect programming in HCOB 13 June 70 I, C/S Series 3: Session Priorities, Repair Programs and Their Priority:

When incorrect programming occurs, then any auditing on it can add up to more overwhelm, which adds up to more errors.

There is that word again, overwhelm.

On top of all this is the overwhelming effort from staff and even public Scientologists to make the only acceptable beingness of a Scientologist to be overwhelming.

That this is the end result is not surprising given the following from LRH from HCOB 28 January 1966, Search And Discovery Data: How a Suppressive Becomes One

Search and Discovery is being made, and auditors are finding on one person and another, “myself.” Well, just among us girls, of course, you are going to find it. One of the best reasons you are going to find it is that it is part of the R6 bank. The other reason you are going to find it is that after a person is totally overwhelmed by a suppressive he assumes the valence of the suppressive. And a person you would find that on has actually been pretty suppressive…

That is the mechanism of suppression – overwhelming a person. Oddly enough you will only find it on persons who are suppressive and of course you’ve walked into the real mechanism of how does a suppressive become a suppressive. He becomes a suppressive by taking over the valence of a suppressive.

Is there any wonder why the overwhelming public impression created by Radical Scientology in the market place of public opinion is “Scientologists are overwhelming”?

Freedom from overwhelm is attainable and rehabilitatable.

The first step, as in remedying any disability, is recognizing that the condition exists.

It is quite amazing to watch how rapidly people blossom once this Black Dianetics process is remedied.

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