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Reason or Force?

Posted on March 14, 2010 by | 65 comments

From PDC 10: Specific Parts of Self-determinism, Spacation by L Ron Hubbard:

People recognize that, and although you will see a tremendous tendency on the part of the slave to assume his chains and wear them, and wear more chains if possible, you always have a greater number who in the end will turn on the master.

The masters of the slaves die. They have always died in this universe and they always will, and so may too a universe die.

But the point we are making is simply that force was never any weapon with which to combat reason. And every time force has been applied to reason in this universe force as come the cropper, not reason.

Sooner or later the reason would go around and through because there’s on…force, you see, can’t go through sixteen-foot bastions and barricades. You have this enormous citadel sitting on the high crown of an untouchable mount. And it is garrisoned and provisioned and watered to withstand the siege of centuries. And its garrison is well-trained and well-armed. Not a signle shaft or a bolt or a lightening flash could go through that citadel.

But by the water carrier or some other means an idea can go through the wall of any citadel. When you ask, “what is the strength of this citadel?” you always have to ask “what is the loyalty of this garrison?” That is the other factor, and force was never able to win against it. It could win temporarily, oh, yes, but never completely. Now in a reaction against force, people quite often will assume a no responsibility for the whole universe. That’s going downscale against force.

Want to point out to you that there’s an up scale from force. A high one, and that goes up toward the reasonable thing to do. And people very often, who are trying to go up scale toward the reasonable thing to do, will find themselves caught with specious reasoning and will find themselves dropping down toward the weak thing to do.

Reason which is afraid of force, and reason which exists to keep force from hurting one is not reason. That, too, is a form of slavery. But reason which exists to go up from the level of force must first be able to confront force. Only then can such reason take responsibility for those things which reason alone can produce.

And so you find a society, just before it goes out, taking its last effort to escape force by being reasonable, but that reasonability consists normally of an assumption of slavery of one form or another – not an assumption of freedom. They will lay upon themselves various restrictions and…out of fear.

Now that man who is able to take responsibility for force, yet who does not employ force, is much more terrible than man who can apply force alone. And the man who applies force alone is, of course, much more terrible to a lower scale on the chart than those who can only cluster together in terror and hope that the mass of their numbers will restrain the hand of force.

You want to remember then you’re looking at harmonics, when you’re looking at this on a tone scale. You’ll find groups which cohese solely because they are terrified of force which may be applied to them. And in that cohesion they simply seek protection of the individual by the group.

That group almost never advances. Now that group which can be free in each and every individual matter is yet the only group that can act and reason and with cause. For a group to be cause it must consist of individuals who themselves are cause.

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Anchor Points

Posted on March 11, 2010 by | 50 comments

 

We’ve made a tremendous amount of progress in phase one of the game; that  is, de-ptsing ourselves from the dictator and his counter policies. I have sometimes made reference to DM’s GPM (goals-problems-mass), and advised we not get suckered into becoming part of it. There is a St Hill Special Briefing Course lecture (Attacks and GPMs) that I think supports this idea and is very applicable to the current scene.  Here is an excerpt that sums up some mechanics that you might find relevant to your current environment. You might  find it liberating or de-oppressing on one level or another.

 From: Attacks and GPMs, 21 Oct 1963:

     Now, the whole of life is an interchange if you’re going to live. It’s an interchange — an interchange activity. It’s putting out anchor points. And let’s look at the gradient scale of how you would go about this. Supposing you’re just there all by yourself. And there’s no limitation to your putting out anchor points, right? And you can put out anchor points. There’s no limitation to this. You can put out as many anchor points as you like, you see?

    Somebody else shows up and they say, “You shouldn’t put out these anchor points,” or “I want to make some of this — I want to have some of this space too.” And they put out anchor points against your anchor points, so you don’t put out anchor points quite so far, you see? — talking about the Factors, now.

    All right, and let’s supposing that every time you put out an anchor point, why, somebody else forbade you to put out the anchor point, and you complied and agreed and didn’t put out your anchor point. How big do you think you would be after a while? That’s about how big you are now.

    See, that’s practically the way you got there — the way you got there. There’s nothing quite as disturbing and there’s nothing quite so certain to throw anybody into apathy, is just continue to put out your anchor points. It’s the most disturbing activity that you can engage on. Everybody says, “You mustn’t put out your anchor points,” and you put out your anchor points. Then they give you lots of reasons why you shouldn’t put out your anchor points and you put out anchor points. They bring all sorts of duress to bear on you why you shouldn’t put out your anchor points and you put out anchor points. What’s going to happen to their morale? See?

    Now, sometimes it’s very difficult to continue to put out anchor points in this particular way; sometimes you just get cut to ribbons. And it’s those particular times that you got cut to ribbons you tend to remember as lessons not to attack, or lessons not to put out anchor points.

    Now, the gradient scale on the thing goes, put out anchor points — in other words, continue to create your space — to attacking that which is preventing you from putting out your space. Now, that’s also putting out anchor points, don’t you see? And you get down along low human levels, and what are you then involved with? You’re involved with attacking those who are preventing you from putting out anchor points. Attacking them.

     Now, you go down scale just a little bit further. You start defending yourself against attacks. This causes you to live good, to have good behavior, to have various socially acceptable characteristics — all sorts of things. These things are basically defenses against attacks, direct attacks. Now you can go down scale even further than that: You have the defenses against possible attacks. And this causes people to live in castles and you know, dig moats that nobody will ever think of ever charging against, you see? Invent weapons that have no particular use; invent social characteristics that are impossible to attack.

   This causes you, in other words, to go down scale a bit further. Now, there’s further down scale than that: is imagining you are under attack. That you are defending, answers itself out — answers itself out in this wise.

   That you are defending yourself — you understand, this is the — now let me point back to you the level of the scale just above this — possible attacks, see? Level — you know, possible attacks. You’re not being attacked, you’re simply preparing yourself to defend possible attacks. See, now just below that there is a point that because there are all these defenses, there therefore must be attacks. You see, it proves itself. Well, you got a moat dug all the way around the place! Obviously, there must be somebody going to ride across that moat.

   Some of the screens that a thetan puts up are terribly entrancing. These screens are very, very entrancing, because they leave them up forever. Why did they put them up in the first place? Well, they put them up against a lion. All right, the lion might still be there. See, you would have to take the screen down to find out. You don’t dare take the screen down because you’d be attacked if the lion were still there.

    This causes a very funny action. You can get a thetan, you know, a pc, and get him to find one of these black screens and get him to pick up one little corner of it and peek around it real fast and it reads — sometimes he’ll really have to get his nerve up to do it. And he will. He’ll see something like a mocked up lion or a snake or something on the other side of the black screen.

   See, one of his answers of confronting is cover it up so he can’t — won’t have to confront it, you see, black it out. There is the final — final mechanism of a defense. Permanent defenses lead to a belief that one is under attack. When you get way down scale, you — it’s — must be that you’re under attack because there’s the defenses. Somebody must be ready to launch the rockets at you any moment because, heh! Here are all these radars waiting to detect them. And of course, the more one defends the less one becomes mobile — one is less and less mobile. So therefore, actually, he never gets out to look.

    He never goes out to look, to see if there are any attackers. And I imagine there are nations on planets someplace in this galaxy, at this very moment, who have no neighbors but who believe implicitly that those neighbors are there with full armies ready to attack them; and that live a life of complete defense, complete immobility, never going abroad, carrying through all of the various survival activities, to them, to prevent an attack against nations which are no longer there, that have long since gone to dust.

    A GPM, in essence, is such a mechanism. One has a defense up against an area of confusion. He has a stable datum all arranged to take care of an area of confusion that has long since ceased to exist. Thetan eventually traps himself.

    The GPMs then are a long history of all of the things which ever attacked him, and those things might now be gone.

 Now, consider the flip side. I was out at the Int base a couple weeks ago. The most noticeable change since my residing there was this: about fifty feet inside the electronic, razor wired security perimeter fence, DM had built a ten to fifteen foot fortess-looking wall around his villas compound. That is where his living quarters and VIP guest quarters are now located. A fortress within a fortress. Interesting.

 I suggest our best direction is to just keep putting anchor points out.

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Ordinary People Are Extraordinary

Posted on March 8, 2010 by | 66 comments

 

Hi Marty,

I just wanted to let you know I’ve sent personalized versions my “opt-out” notice, below, to the Scientologists I’m currently in touch with and to the Mission and Orgs that consider me a part of their field.  I’m also sending a copy to the MAA at KSW.com, in case there’s a count being kept.

 I don’t have any expectations or grand delusions about this having any effect, other than for my own health and well being.  Up until recently I was of the mindset that any kind of a public announcement from me, regarding leaving the Church of Scientology, would be of so little consequence that it wasn’t worth doing.  Why risk creating any ill effects when no positive effects could come from it – such a tiny pebble tossed in the water that any ripples created wouldn’t even be seen, let alone felt.

 See, I was just a member, just a parishioner.  Not a celebrity nor a big status donor.  Not a business owner, nor influential in any large circles of Scientologists, either public or staff, or non-Scn VIPs.  Haven’t witnessed any crimes or illegal malfeasance the CoS leadership would want me silenced about.  Not a creative writer, nor public speaker, who might be sought out by media.  Apparently, I am not in a position to be of any significance to the CoS.  Just a parishioner.  No threat = No value to CoS. 

There’s also no reason for anyone in the church to come try to keep me because I don’t command a big income, commissions, bonuses.  I haven’t received any inheritances nor been given any large monetary gifts that I’m “withholding”.  I’m in the latter part of my “income earning years”, and what $$ of any size I did have, I’ve already donated to the IAS, the local Ideal Org campaign, and paid for auditing or the purchase of shiny new replacements of books and lectures. I’m the “common-man” work-a-day gal.  As an ex-Sea Org member I’m not eligible to join staff and I don’t live close enough to the local Org to be a prime volunteer candidate.  Church loses nothing, based on its current values.  No potential big bucks or cheap labor = No value to CoS.

 I’m fortunate not to have any family left in the CoS and nobody where I work gives three figs about Scientology, one way or the other.  Although, I’m sure there will be some Scientologist friends and acquaintances that will choose to keep my “enturbulation” off their lines by disconnecting, the whole reason for sending this notice out is to get the BS behemoth’s enturbulation off my lines.  I’m disconnecting from them.  What a HOOT!  Quit calling, quit emailing, quit sending print mailers in epic proportions, and quit coming to my door.

 I step away with my values intact and I keep my eternity.  Life is Good.

 Thanks to you and the other bloggers, commentators, ex’s, non’s, and anon’s – it’s quite the little intervention and rehab gig you’ve got going!  

 Marta L. Willson

OPT OUT COMMUNICATION:

I’m sending you this email, not with the intent to create upset, but out of respect for our past relationship.  I don’t want you to be blind-sided hearing it from someone else.  And so that you can take whatever action you think is needed as a result of the information.  I’m writing to let you know firsthand that I am leaving the Church of Scientology.  I have been a Scientologist since 1969, completed through grade VA on public lines, and solo-audited to Clear and OT as a Sea Org member and executive – prior to 1980.  I have had personal gains in Scientology that words just can’t do justice.  But, it is my experiences and observations over the past eight years that bring me to this decision.

 I’ve always been a steadfast supporter of LRH and the Scientology philosophy, so I didn’t arrive at the decision quickly or easily.  Yes, there are an abundance of reasons for my decision, but I won’t go into them here.  Suffice to say, that my personal values and (in my opinion) the fundamentals of the Scientology philosophy, do not align with the current operations and practices of the Church as it is currently organized and managed.  What I see is that the Church is producing far more BS and self-promotion than any other product or service, and is leaving as a by-product a wake of toxic bad news and ill repute the half-life of which is anybody’s guess.

 Until there is significant reform in the Church’s organizational structure, management style, and operational practices – I’m opting out.

Respectfully,

Marta L Willson 

To Marta and the rest of the extraordinary ordinary people among us:

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New York Times

Posted on March 6, 2010 by | 223 comments

The New York Times – Sunday edition – has published an informative account of Christie King Collbran’s parting with the church and turning Indpendent (she is the first Independent, by the by). Don’t miss the multi-media pieces that go with the main story, particularly the video of Christie.  http://www.nytimes.com/2010/03/07/us/07scientology.html?pagewanted=1

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The healing game

Posted on March 4, 2010 by | 63 comments

 

 

Regular commenter Virgil Samms submitted the following wise observations in italics below. My additional observations and opinions follow in regular text:

From: Science of Survival, Pg 338.

“There are, one could say, four distinct sources of aberration. The first is occasioned by phrases in engrams which specifically dictate certain obsessions, compulsions, repressions, delusions, neurosis, and psychoses. Such phrases, however, have command value on the analyzer, which does not know they exist below it in the reactive mind, only to the degree that the case is charged with entheta. …

“Therefore, there is a second type of aberration source which is simply the amount of charge there is on the case. This might be called mechanical aberration. It does not stem from specific commands but stems from mental inefficiency by reason of cumulative entheta….

“The third kind of aberration is environmental and is the result of aberrated persons and situations in the individual’s present time environment. This is normally temporary, but cumulative environmental entheta has a chronic effect in the case. …

“The fourth type of aberration is educational, being the cumulative entheta of the culture in which the preclear was raised, the irrationality and bad data he has received as a result of his education – by parents, in schools and by experience.” – L Ron Hubbard

The first type is, of course, handled by auditing out the engrams.

The second type is handled with destimulation, auditing, assists, word clearing and so forth.

But paying attention to the third and fourth kinds of aberration explains being in the Sea Org from the 80’s forward. The amount of entheta was unbearable but I also found myself dramatizing the aberrations that now seem to all stem from DM. I want to point out to the people who post on your blog that there is a good chance of there being cumulative amounts of this type of entheta on their case. This is handled by looking at the truth in what was and is there in the Sea Org.

We all know that we found what we had been looking for to solve our own questions as to our unique existence on this planet and what was happening on this planet. Ron explained ARC=U to us and we were suddenly Understanding that our heretofore behavior was wrong and needed to change. We found TRs and learned how to communicate properly to another being. Then we practiced ARC with our TRs and life was sweet because we were treating others with respect and dignity and received the same in kind.

Then we got onto staff in order to salvage this planet and we ran into heaping amounts of entheta. The dichotomy was this: The closer we got to the top of the org board the crazier life became until we found ourselves doubting whether we were suppressive or not.

But look at what LRH intended for us to be like and then what you envisioned yourself to be like. Then throw away what you were socially and educationally taught in the Sea Org. Sure we all learned to be tough and how to get products and all of that, but there is a way to be tough and in ARC. Read HCO PL Ethics Presence and look at what he is saying there. He is talking about ARC! DM was NEVER in ARC. He might have acted like it but I know I never got a warm fuzzy feeling around the man.

Understand, there are the 3rd and 4th types of aberrations as per the above and understand that we have gotten a lot of aberration from the Sea Org and from being on staff or just plain being a public at FSO going OT.

 

Virgil has made some powerful and truthful observations in my estimation. I think you can add to the resolution of all of those types of aberration the three valid therapies. Those are change of environment, exercise-nutrition-health, and education. Don’t ever forget the powers of those. You don’t need a formal auditor, you don’t need a formal org, you don’t need a formal anything to get inestimable gain from the application of the three valid therapies.

Virgil cites from Science of Survival. I highly recommend reading, or re-reading, that text as fullfillment of the education step, or as a therapy in and of itself. If one fully grasps the theta-mest theory set forth in SOS, one can very neatly consolidate one’s gains attained through the 3D engram running we are all engaged upon, the three valid therapies, and whatever other therapy – formal or informal – each of us may engage in. The more enturbulated theta one frees – BY WHATEVER MEANS – the more free theta one enjoys and commands, and thus the more entheta one can disenturbulate. Of course, that process continually increases one’s store of free theta. It begins to work like an ascending spiral – sort of like the dwindling spiral in reverse.

Thanks Virg.

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A new Old School declaration of independence

Posted on February 28, 2010 by | 67 comments

  I’ve never met Glenn Samuels. However, I learned a little something about him in 2001.  At that time I visited world renowned recording artist and producer Stanley Clarke at his home. My assignment was to recover him to the Church so that Chick Corea could participate in a reunion of Return to Forever. Stanley was very gracious and sincere. He told me he was impressed with all my arguments, but that one fact made him hesitant to return. That fact was that his friend Glenn Samuels had been declared for no apparent legitimate reason in the early eighties and he was unwilling to disconnect from a true friend.  RTF ultimately did reunite for a tour last year. How they dealt with the matter of Stanley and how he dealt with his friendship with Glenn I do not know. I do know that Stanley seemed awfully sincere in 2001 and I was impressed with how impressed he was with his friend.  So, I was intrigued when Glenn contacted me with his declaration.  Please read it thoroughly. He imparts some perspective I think is valuable to all of us.

 

I would like to commend you and the other independents on what you are doing. It takes courage to leave the Church of Scientology and take an independent stand against a vengeful and unrelenting force. I’m happy to see that there is a new independent movement.

 I left the Church of Scientology in May, 1982 after being held under guard. Two former COs of the CMO were also under guard at the same time, we would wink at each other as we passed in the hallway. I got my car keys from the not so bright guard and took off.

I left behind all my belongings, my wife, my sister, all my friends, my group and my dream of a safe and sane planet. Most of you who are reading this know what I am talking about. It is a rough and courageous thing to do and I admire you for doing it.

In the early 80s it was important to Miscavige and the Broekers to get rid of anyone who had his own voice in Scientology. The people who built Scn. up from tiny orgs run in some major cities in old homes in bad neighborhoods and ugly industrial buildings to having admirable structures in all the major cities in the world were selectively and systematically expelled. Top International Scientology Execs and Senior Messengers were kicked out or sent to “Happy Valley” where most of them were made to run around a tree for months, do menial work, and then got declared. On the tech side almost everyone who trained directly under LRH was targeted as well. They also got rid of a lot of popular Mission holders and took their missions away from them. It was important to the three in-charge to have no voice within the organization more popular, senior or convincing than their own. Also it was important for no one to have more power or knowledge in any area, such as the tech. When R was alive he protected the tech hierarchy and their sovereignty. After the removal of the top tech people and the removal of the top execs who knew not to mess with the tech the remaining tech personnel were easy to manipulate.

R’s order was for Scientology to become a juggernaut, something that would run on its own after his death. The way that order was implemented was callously brutal with human rights violations. I left because of the human rights violations. I was on a CMO Mission that ordered people thrown out on the street in Clearwater. These people were my friends, good, sincere and hard working Sea Org members, not deserving of any of that nor being labeled “Suppressive Person.” It is a subject of debate because of the stranglehold that Miscavige and the Broekers had over the communications in and out to R what he knew or didn’t know at that time. But I know for a fact that LRH loved some of these people that were rounded up and cast aside. One was my ex-wife, Maureen. He was crazy about her; he photographed her, loved being around her on the ship during the dance troupe days and trained here to run Flag Bureaus on the ship. He told her that there was no way to take a bad picture of her… She was crushed by seeing a message supposedly from him that said she was an SP. It is hard to believe that R could call someone he loved so much as SP. It didn’t make any sense. It wasn’t just her; he was also very fond of Mayo. He trusted him. Mayo was the Sr. CS at Flag when he was sent to Int. when LRH was near death around 1978. It was through Mayo’s care and precise auditing that R recovered. That auditing led to the release of NOTs. It would be hard for me to believe that anyone could be so callous as to throw out and denounce someone who helped save their life. Nevertheless it did happen to Mayo and others that were R’s beloved friends. Miscavige wrestled control of Scientology from the Broekers and you have what is going on now.

For the most part when LRH or one of the top execs would go off on someone sooner or later justice would be restored. Now there is no sense and sighting of justice. When a leader of a religion is unbalanced and receives lawsuits or a court summons, they tend to blame and purge anyone near them. This is what is happening now; people like Rinder, Marty and Amy Scobee are current examples of that In the past there was always recourse for those who wanted it, now there is none. The whimsy and commonness with which someone is called an SP these days is staggering. An SP is a very specific type person, they are not very common. Most of the top execs and auditors were Clear. By definition can a Clear be an SP? It is an important question to consider to anyone in or out of Scientology.

Some of my friends who recently left the church told me that the meter has become more important than the person sitting in front of the auditor. They told me that auditors and examiners stare at the meter looking for a floating needle, over run processes for weeks and wrap people up in blankets with heaters for the sake of the tone arm. The whole operation has gone sour due to the administrative leadership. It tells me that the auditing is not centered and focused on the person, but now exists for ulterior motives and sundry purposes.

When someone would come to the Apollo for auditing the intent was to “crack” their case and send them back to their org or to just get on with life. LRH called us the Case Cracking Unit. That same intent was carried over to the initial days in Daytona and Clearwater when we landed. We were hand picked and trained by LRH to do expert interviews, CSing and auditing so that when a person came for auditing it was done in a matter of an intensive or two. They would have their case cracked. If they chose to stay and get an L or do an advanced level in Clearwater that was their choice, but not the main intention. It was all about precision, economy of time and superlative results. There was no plan to keep them at Flag with endless unnecessary rundowns or intensives of sec checking to be sure, nor did OT 7 cans cost $380.00!

 There was a lot of excitement when we did the first NOTs course and opened up the first NOTs HGC in Clearwater. I CSd in the first NOTs HGC. At that time Clearwater was a fun place to be and those getting auditing became friends for life. I have been told it is no longer that way. It is a sad state of affairs. I am happy that people like Marty and other independents are around to give those who want auditing in a safer “client-centered” environment the chance to get it.

In the 80s there was an independent movement which eventually failed due to harassment, endless litigation, and multi-million dollar pay offs from the church. However, Sarge Gerbode did stand up to the church successfully, but it cost him a lot of money. He developed what he calls TIR, traumatic incident reduction. He went toe to toe with Miscavige and won the right to deliver parts of the tech in the name of his new organization. He has done good work and has associations around the world, some funded by counties to help the abused. It is good to see that. And also I am glad that there is a new desire for people to get auditing where it is all about the help and not about anything else. I have audited off and on since the 80s but have decided to focus on counseling once again. I have expertise in “cracking cases” and it was and is my main purpose in life–to help people.

 If anyone wishes to contact me and discuss getting sessions I can be reached at:

glennsamuels@gmail.com. I’m currently in the San Diego, Ca. area, but will travel.

 Good luck,

 Glenn

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Two Very Essential Rights

Posted on February 25, 2010 by | 77 comments

Here are some thoughts to consider in the establishment of rights of community. The following excerpts are from Philadelphia Doctorate Course lecture #10 Specific Parts of Self-determinism, Spacation.

 “For a thetan there are two very essential rights: One is the right to his own sanity, and the other is the right to leave a game…”

 “…Probably the hardest thing a man has to take is when he has to enslave himself to something which is not of his own choice and permits himself to be placed in time and space not of his own choice…”

 “…Two very essential rights, and that is: the right to his own sanity, and the right to leave a game, which boils down to the right to have an exertion of self-determinism, and the right to locate himself in some other universe if he suddenly chooses to.

 “It’s all right for people to have a right, but if they don’t have the capability, the right is meaningless. So the right depends to some extent, in any case, upon an education about the right. Well, therefore, you restore these things – you get freedom, and that’s what we’re trying to do. And you should ask yourself, once in a while, when you’re processing preclears, are you sending them in that direction? If you’re sending them in that direction, you’re being very successful.”

 Seems to me this is a great index to use to determine whether one is delivering or receiving Scientology processing or Reverse Scientology. Is the processing being delivered with the intention and toward the direction of clarifying and strengthening these rights?

 Whether one formally recieves or delivers processing or not, I think these two essential rights ought to be validated and honored in our dealings with one another. It is a handy index. Does your third dynamic encourage sanity? That is, does it assist you to better percieve differences, similarities and identities? Or does it attempt to dull such perception by continually forcing upon you propaganda that requires you to check your perceptions at the door? And when your personal integrity is being so tried, is the felony compounded by discouragement of your right to leave a game, or to relocate yourself?

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Shane and Chrissie Pearlman Weightman Prevail!

Posted on February 24, 2010 by | 80 comments

  I attended a very important event last Friday at Mary Jo Leavitt’s home in Los Angeles. It was the wedding party of Chrissie Pearlman and Shane Weightman.

 Do you all remember the level of energy Chrissie created when she announced on this blog that despite the C of M’s best efforts (and war chest to finance it) she was going to walk out with her boyfriend Shane? If not, here is the link https://markrathbun.wordpress.com/2010/01/08/

 Well, the party was befitting of the OT achievement Chrissie pulled off. Thirty independent souls made it a night to remember. Personally, I’ve never attended a more fun and fullfilling event. The atmosphere was like a Scientology Mission public party from the seventies – and so much more. I had the opportunity to have a meaningful conversation with just about everybody there. No cliques, no downtone j and d, just pure theta from a bunch of extraordinary folk.

a good portion of the crew

 At one point I heard loud voices on Mary Jo’s front balcony overlooking the street. When I went to investigate I found fifteen people lustily cheering Mary Jo’s son Gregory , her daugther Joanna, and Chrissie’s daughter Breyana. The three were in the street below confronting the well manned PI’s corps DM had sent. And the PI’s were speeding off like cockroaches stunned by the light.

Mary Jo not only raised two extraordinary offspring, she has created a home where everyone feels welcome and special. She is one charming, warm, and theta being. 

Host Mary Jo with the bride and groom

I was honored to be chosen to toast Chrissie and Shane.

at the original toast

 I was caught by surprise and did not really do it justice. So, I decided to write one befitting the ocassion:

 To Shane and Chrissie, and for that matter Sam

who braved the entheta, stood and said “no” to the man

 With Shane firmly in their suppressive physical grip

the C of M thought they would pry Romeo from Juliette

 But they underestimated Chrissie who arrived in the UK

over the Atlantic by jet she came to save the day

 Waves of lies and alloying of affinity did Shane withstand

because a woman on fire decided DM wasn’t strong enough to take her man

 Independent and United! Raise your glasses to Chrissie and Shane

now a legendary example of the power of the spirit of play!

Finally –  for Chrissie, Mary Jo, Mosey, and the many other strong women in our universes:

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Happy Birthday Mosey!

Posted on February 23, 2010 by | 217 comments

 

 I’ve been planning to acknowledge her on her birthday 23 Feb.  It is hard to describe just how special this being Mosey (Monique) is.  After failing to find the words, I decided to share a short chapter of a book I’ve been working on. I think it gives one at least a glimpse of what I am talking about

  Chapter ___

She said I need you to hold me

I’m a little far from the shore

and I’m afraid of sinking

You’re the only one who knows me

and who doesn’t ignore

that my soul is weeping

 – Jamie Houston, Buck Johnson and Damon Johnson

In the Spring of 2006 I lay dying in bed. I hadn’t moved for a week but to occasionally struggle up to use the bathroom, and perhaps ingest a bit of sustenance. When I did rise the entire room swayed as if I were aboard a vessel in a stormy sea. Within minutes I would be so exhausted I would stagger for the bed to lie down once again. For forty-eight hours I hadn’t risen at all, having no more appetite there was nothing to expel from my body. The entire time Chiquita sat on the corner of the bed, looking at me sorrowfully with her usually perky golden ears now drooping like a hound dog. At first she tried to revive me by licking the side of my face. When she failed after several days of effort, she stopped eating too. By then, lying down did not stop the dizziness.

Monique tried to persuade me to see a doctor. She thought perhaps I had West Nile fever because of all the tromping around the local bayous I had done with my camera and dog in tow. Bayous had been my sanctuary, where I’d go for space, contemplation and solitude. But, I knew there was nothing physically wrong with me, technically. By then I was not aware enough to pinpoint it precisely, but the cause later became clear; I was dying of a broken heart and spirit. It started when I decided that I had placed myself in an untenable position and had utterly failed.

I had reasoned that I could not totally commit to Monique. Yes, she was the light of my life. Yes, she was the embodiment of the unconditional love that each of us harbors a longing to obtain, even if kept as a low burning desire deep down within our souls. It was the ultimate in dichotomy. The closer we became, the more guilty I felt for denying her access to Scientology. I was a Suppressive Person (an excommunicated one) according to the Church, meaning anyone connected to me would be automatically denied access to Scientology because of it. I could imagine under no circumstances reconciling that split. I had earlier ultimately decided the only way I could possibly impinge on Scientology’s leader Miscavige to reform his escalating sadistic conduct was to create a shock by leaving. Even if I had a desire to return it was impossible to do without becoming a prisoner because of what I knew – something I was unwilling to ever again become. Because I had seen indications that my leaving had precisely the opposite effect, and Miscavige had instead accelerated his madness, I recognized that I had accomplished nothing.

In fact, it was worse than nothing, because as long as Monique remained my partner she would be unqualified to participate in Scientology. If ever there were a special being who deserved to sample the spiritual gains possible through Scientology, it was Monique. Matter of fact, from the few writings she had read, and the teachings I passed on to her in conversation, she was far more of what Scientology founder Hubbard defined as a “Scientologist” than just about anyone I had known in my twenty-seven year experience within the organization. But as I had become more familiar with her life I knew she, like any one else I had ever met, would benefit greatly from formal auditing up the Scientology grade chart.

It did not become clear to me till later that I was removing myself as her problem. I loved her so much that I unwittingly willed my own death so that she might one day experience that which my very existence was denying her. This was no high minded martyrdom going on. I was not even consciously aware of the decision. All I knew at that time was that on one particular morning the body was going to complete the process of shutting down, I (the spirit) was going to slip out and move along. Monique’s hurt and Chiquita’s mourning were painful, but for the greatest good I knew I was simply an impediment to the advance of a far more gifted and wonderful person.

Monique kissed me on the forehead before taking off for work that morning.

Man, I felt bad about leaving – but I resigned myself to the fact it was inevitable. I felt like I was living in a surrealistic haze. There was no sound, but the occasional low, muffled whining of Chiquita – she sensed something was wrong. There was no time, no space, no energy, and finally no matter. All I felt was absolute exhaustion and weakness, no ability to even maintain involuntary nervous system function. Then, I began to sense myself slowly rising through the top of my skull. I could faintly make out the room from a point of view a foot above my head. It was all ethereal shadows. Chiquita’s whimpers startled me and held me in equilibrium; I was in suspended animation in that spot for some time. Finally, I began to ever so slowly float above that spot, I could see the room with my own body lying in the bed below all in black, white, and gray shadows.

Suddenly, I – me, the spirit not part of the body – sensed an urgency some distance off. Just then, the sliding door between the living room and driveway opened. Seconds later Monique appeared in the doorway. She looked toward me, not the body. She said “Mark, don’t leave me. I need you to please stay with me.” I had never experienced more love directed at me, ever. In a heartbeat I was back just above my head, comfortably. Monique was holding my head to her cheek with her hands. I felt an indescribable warmth and life force course through my body, starting with the head and flowing to my fingers and toes.

Monique pulled back, continuing to hold my head in her hands, she looked directly at me, face to face. Suddenly, I could see with perfect clarity. First, the physical beauty. Then as we continued to gaze at one another, I perceived a spirit and it occupied the entire room. While my body was still weak, I felt more alive than I ever had in my life.

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Stepping out of line

Posted on February 22, 2010 by | 149 comments

Do not confuse the Reformation with the reform of the Catholic church. The latter was a consequence of the former. The Reformation refers to the reforming of the religion of Christianity. That entailed the breaking of the monopoly the Catholic church held up to that point on Christianity the subject. Reformation began by pointing out to the Pope and Christians what was wrong with the monopoly, setting forth its abuses so that they might be corrected. The all powerful monopoly reacted much like the C of M of today. That is, rather than reform itself it branded the reformers as ‘heretics’, prounouncing them guilty of “blasphemy”. Instead of accepting the labels and conforming, the founders of the Reformation recognized they did not need the church in order to practice their religion.

 The “Counter Reformation”, wherein the Catholic church begrudgingly began to change some protested practices, occured long after the Reformation was in full bloom, only when it became clear that the monopoly had been broken and that in order to survive the Catholic church would have to compete in the marketplace of ideas.

 In the early 16th century Martin Luther didn’t consider then-reigning Pope Leo X was such a bad guy. He recognized however that the Curia and the priesthood had been so thoroughly corrupted over time – and its vested interest in keeping matters corrupt so precious and innate, the only reform of the institution would come as a reaction to enough people refusing to continue to empower and enable it. That is, discontinue lemminmg-like compliance to the church’s anti-Christian practices, and cease contributing to its vast building fund and war chest coffers.

 Luther’s attitude toward Leo X serves to demonstrate how the Scientology Reformation is that much more necessary and inevitable. In contrast to Leo X, Miscavige himself is the author of Reverse Scientology. He micro manages every action and utterance of Scientology management, ruthlessly controlling his kingdom with an iron fist.

 If you think the Catholic church analogy is far out, consider the fact that Miscavige doesn’t. He has directly ordered both Mike Rinder and Tommy Davis to position Miscavige as “the Pope of Scientology”.

 If you believe that Scientology managers will magically arise, topple Miscavige and right the ship you should consider the following facts. The last three people who I witnessed advise Miscavige contrary to his own spontaneous evil impluses on matters of importance were myself, Shelly Miscavige and Mike Rinder. When Mike Rinder told Miscavige which way was up, he was subjected to dozens of ruthless beatings and torture in the Hole (yes, torture by any current, civilized definition of the word). When I attempted to advise Miscavige against insane dictates one too many times, he threw a several hour tantrum at Int HQ whining that nobody in the Sea Org, no public, no media, not even the Internal Revenue Service backflashed him, but I did. His handling was to sentence me to the Hole jail house, where he tried to turn me into a mouse. Mike and I opted out of the game when it became apparent to us that independent thought had been oppressed into oblivion on the Int base and was about to be extinguished in ourselves. Shelly Miscavige was similarly handled by Miscavige. She was sent to do years of hard time at the Church of Spiritual Technology fortified compound near Lake Arrowhead, subjected to personal invalidation to the point of apathy and silence.

 There has been no, NO, check on Miscavige’s evil impulses since. None. The people who remain at Int have long since be neutered of the notion they could ever confront Miscavige. Those who dream of an internal uprising are whistling past their own graveyards. No one is left in Miscavige’s perimeter but mice.

 The idea of declaring independence from the C of M was not an arbitrary one. From long, hard experience we learned that the only way to break free of DM’s stanglehold on thought is to discontinue investing DM with power. In his 1998 profile interview with the SP Times DM defined power as “will people listen to you?” He rose to power on that principle and continues the practices of imprisonment of body and soul on the same principle. To play DM’s game requires you let DM win. He innately and instinctively applies the most ruthless and violent measures to squash dissent or even percieved disloyalty in his environment. This is a man who cannot even play a game of cards without overtly cheating.

 Exercise of independence, both physical and mental, is the historically proven solution to overcoming tyrany. It worked during the Reformation, it worked during the struggle for American Independence, it worked for India following Gandhi’s lead, it worked during the civil rights movement. It is working now.

 It was the factors outlined herein that prompted us to encourage people to overtly declare their independence. The initiaters of the Protestant Reformation did not publish in anonymity or shyly sneak around in the shadows. Nor did the American founding fathers. Nor did Gandhi. Nor did Martin Luther King. They didn’t hide in little cliques and natter about how victimized they had become. A victim causes nothing but his own continued suffering. The only way to ultimately handle oppression and suppression is to turn around and face down the demons that have been hunting you. Only then do suppressives lose their power. Their only strength lies in others’ reluctance to step out of line.

 If you want to be at effect, stay in line, hunch your shoulders and remain silent. If you want to move on over to cause, step out of line with authority and sound off.

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