Happy Birthday Mosey!


 I’ve been planning to acknowledge her on her birthday 23 Feb.  It is hard to describe just how special this being Mosey (Monique) is.  After failing to find the words, I decided to share a short chapter of a book I’ve been working on. I think it gives one at least a glimpse of what I am talking about

  Chapter ___

She said I need you to hold me

I’m a little far from the shore

and I’m afraid of sinking

You’re the only one who knows me

and who doesn’t ignore

that my soul is weeping

 – Jamie Houston, Buck Johnson and Damon Johnson

In the Spring of 2006 I lay dying in bed. I hadn’t moved for a week but to occasionally struggle up to use the bathroom, and perhaps ingest a bit of sustenance. When I did rise the entire room swayed as if I were aboard a vessel in a stormy sea. Within minutes I would be so exhausted I would stagger for the bed to lie down once again. For forty-eight hours I hadn’t risen at all, having no more appetite there was nothing to expel from my body. The entire time Chiquita sat on the corner of the bed, looking at me sorrowfully with her usually perky golden ears now drooping like a hound dog. At first she tried to revive me by licking the side of my face. When she failed after several days of effort, she stopped eating too. By then, lying down did not stop the dizziness.

Monique tried to persuade me to see a doctor. She thought perhaps I had West Nile fever because of all the tromping around the local bayous I had done with my camera and dog in tow. Bayous had been my sanctuary, where I’d go for space, contemplation and solitude. But, I knew there was nothing physically wrong with me, technically. By then I was not aware enough to pinpoint it precisely, but the cause later became clear; I was dying of a broken heart and spirit. It started when I decided that I had placed myself in an untenable position and had utterly failed.

I had reasoned that I could not totally commit to Monique. Yes, she was the light of my life. Yes, she was the embodiment of the unconditional love that each of us harbors a longing to obtain, even if kept as a low burning desire deep down within our souls. It was the ultimate in dichotomy. The closer we became, the more guilty I felt for denying her access to Scientology. I was a Suppressive Person (an excommunicated one) according to the Church, meaning anyone connected to me would be automatically denied access to Scientology because of it. I could imagine under no circumstances reconciling that split. I had earlier ultimately decided the only way I could possibly impinge on Scientology’s leader Miscavige to reform his escalating sadistic conduct was to create a shock by leaving. Even if I had a desire to return it was impossible to do without becoming a prisoner because of what I knew – something I was unwilling to ever again become. Because I had seen indications that my leaving had precisely the opposite effect, and Miscavige had instead accelerated his madness, I recognized that I had accomplished nothing.

In fact, it was worse than nothing, because as long as Monique remained my partner she would be unqualified to participate in Scientology. If ever there were a special being who deserved to sample the spiritual gains possible through Scientology, it was Monique. Matter of fact, from the few writings she had read, and the teachings I passed on to her in conversation, she was far more of what Scientology founder Hubbard defined as a “Scientologist” than just about anyone I had known in my twenty-seven year experience within the organization. But as I had become more familiar with her life I knew she, like any one else I had ever met, would benefit greatly from formal auditing up the Scientology grade chart.

It did not become clear to me till later that I was removing myself as her problem. I loved her so much that I unwittingly willed my own death so that she might one day experience that which my very existence was denying her. This was no high minded martyrdom going on. I was not even consciously aware of the decision. All I knew at that time was that on one particular morning the body was going to complete the process of shutting down, I (the spirit) was going to slip out and move along. Monique’s hurt and Chiquita’s mourning were painful, but for the greatest good I knew I was simply an impediment to the advance of a far more gifted and wonderful person.

Monique kissed me on the forehead before taking off for work that morning.

Man, I felt bad about leaving – but I resigned myself to the fact it was inevitable. I felt like I was living in a surrealistic haze. There was no sound, but the occasional low, muffled whining of Chiquita – she sensed something was wrong. There was no time, no space, no energy, and finally no matter. All I felt was absolute exhaustion and weakness, no ability to even maintain involuntary nervous system function. Then, I began to sense myself slowly rising through the top of my skull. I could faintly make out the room from a point of view a foot above my head. It was all ethereal shadows. Chiquita’s whimpers startled me and held me in equilibrium; I was in suspended animation in that spot for some time. Finally, I began to ever so slowly float above that spot, I could see the room with my own body lying in the bed below all in black, white, and gray shadows.

Suddenly, I – me, the spirit not part of the body – sensed an urgency some distance off. Just then, the sliding door between the living room and driveway opened. Seconds later Monique appeared in the doorway. She looked toward me, not the body. She said “Mark, don’t leave me. I need you to please stay with me.” I had never experienced more love directed at me, ever. In a heartbeat I was back just above my head, comfortably. Monique was holding my head to her cheek with her hands. I felt an indescribable warmth and life force course through my body, starting with the head and flowing to my fingers and toes.

Monique pulled back, continuing to hold my head in her hands, she looked directly at me, face to face. Suddenly, I could see with perfect clarity. First, the physical beauty. Then as we continued to gaze at one another, I perceived a spirit and it occupied the entire room. While my body was still weak, I felt more alive than I ever had in my life.

217 responses to “Happy Birthday Mosey!

  1. I love it when I read something and there are no words.
    Happy Birthday, Mosey!
    Love, Dan and Mariette

  2. Wow!

    Happy B-day Mosey!!!

    It seems that there´s a lot about you we don´t know.

    Thanks from the bottom of my heart for mantaining this guy alive when a lot of us were only capable of questioning ourselves if he was well or even alive.

    Marty: Don´t get me started on this subjects:

    “I was dying of a broken heart and spirit.
    It started when I decided that I had placed myself in an untenable position and had utterly failed.”

    This is just beautiful and very helpful.
    Life changing words for me.


    Your mexican amigo:

    Roberto Sánchez Núñez

  3. That was beautiful, Marty. Happy birthday Mosey.

  4. I love you both. Happy Birthday, Mosey.

  5. Beautiful love story. Beautiful Mosey.

    Happy Birthday.


  6. Dear Mosey,
    we are so lucky to have you. Love you and admire you!
    Wish you the best birthday you have ever had…
    Marty, thank you for this beautiful post!!


  7. Kathy Braceland

    Marty, I can’t believe I’m speechless…that was so beautiful and eloquent. The tears welled up from the start. It took me a while to read because the page was all under water blurry. Wow….

    Happy HAPPY Birthday Mosey — you wonderful girl you.

    Love and kisses to you!


  8. Wow, Marty, this is very beautiful and powerful. VWD, Mosey, for succeeding. You must have very strong intention and a very clean space. Happy Birthday!

  9. “They says its your Birthday
    It’s my birthday too, yeah
    They say it’s your birthday
    We’re gonna have a good time
    I’m glad it’s your birthday
    Happy birthday to you.”

    (Seriously it is MY birthday too! So I KNOW how special you are…. 🙂 )

    Rock on girl.

    “Yes we’re going to a party party
    Yes we’re going to a party party
    Yes we’re going to a party party

    I would like you to dance (Birthday)
    Take a cha-cha-cha-chance (Birthday)
    I would like you to dance (Birthday)

    I would like you to dance (Birthday)
    Take a cha-cha-cha-chance (Birthday)
    I would like you to dance (Birthday)

    You say it’s your birthday
    Well it’s my birthday too, yeah
    You say it’s your birthday
    We’re gonna have a good time
    I’m glad it’s your birthday
    Happy birthday to you.”

  10. Monique,

    Mosey, I appreciate you very much.

    Thanks, for being there. I hope some day we shall meet.

    And thanks Marty too, much appreciated.

  11. Of course! Another piece of the story. Thank you Mosey……….and happy birthday!

  12. Mosey, Happy Birthday and well done on keeping the cowboy in the saddle.
    Marty, your story gave me a lot of understanding of what you are doing and your intent to get us off the self-imposed eggshells we think we are walking on. Thank you.

  13. Happy birthday Mosey, we’ll meet someday.

  14. Happy Birthday Mosey!!!!!!


    You are one hell of a lucky guy!

    Both of you I wish you much success and a long track together.

    I love your writing Marty.



  15. WOW ………..Happy Birthday Monique. See you soon.

  16. A very Happy Birthday Mosey! I am looking forward to meeting you someday soon. What a powerful story Marty!

    Amazing how powerful Love is in this universe.

  17. Happy Happy Birthday Mosey !
    Many happy returns
    You are so important and vital in this community.
    War and Peace

  18. Happy birthday. Thank you for being there and communicating!!

  19. Happy Birthday Mosey!!!!
    I loved the story. You and Marty are very special people and Amy and I love and appreciate you both.
    P.S. Leave some of those redfish for me…..

  20. I am almost without words on this post….. Mosey is one of the kindest, and sweetest persons I have ever met. A perfect match for Marty whom I cannot say enough good about. I love you both. Happy Birthday Mosey!

  21. Marty — this is probably not the right place to respond to this as it is so intensely personal, both what you have written and how I feel about you and Mosey. But I would feel as though I had failed to publicly acknowledge both of you if I read this and didnt post something. You have a 2nd dynamic that everyone should aspire to and you are helping create a 3rd dynamic that everyone you would want to be your friend can be part of. You are the best friends I could ever hope to have. Happy Birthday Mosey. And Happy tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after and the day after…. Mike

  22. Mosey,

    We don’t know each other, but in reading this very personal piece, I am moved by how much you are loved, and how well you love. Happy Birthday.


  23. ❁ Happy Birthday, Tom!! ❁

  24. How theta. A small birthday gift, Mosey.

  25. I knew I loved Mosey when she first hugged me with that calm, warm ARC that is one of her qualities. Then when I learned of her work with human rights, and I knew I loved Mosey again for her calm, resolute courage, kindness and integrity. When she got excited about what stars and planets were sparkling in the night sky, I knew I loved Mosey! And when I heard this story, I knew I loved Mosey for loving Marty so much! Do ya know I love you, Mosey? 🙂 Well I DO! ☼HAPPY BIRTHDAY!☼

    Marty, That’s an exquisite poem. Can’t wait for your book! And P.S. … don’t ever pull that stunt again!;) We all need you!!

  26. Happy Birthday Mosey, you are a very special lady.

  27. Wow, beautiful story. I didn’t know that you were so physically ill and emotionally wiped out. I am very glad that you decided to stay and share and love. Happy b’day Mosey. It’s sad all the suffering that has occured from DM and his cronies. Onwards & Upwards for the beautiful people I say!!!

  28. Happy Birthday Mosey! And Marty – that was breathtaking. Sentient and loving.


  29. What a special sweet lady you got marty!Happy Birthday Mosey.

  30. Timeless art by Marty painting melancholic yet profound words that portrait the path that led to pure and unconditional love, with a resurgence for hope and reform.

    Cheers to your Manuela Saenz, Marty!

    We love you Mosey, happy birthday 🙂

  31. That was absolutely beautiful Marty. A very, very happy birthday to you Mosey!

  32. QuietDisobedience

    A wonderful example of the old saying, “Behind every great man, there is a great woman.”

    Happy birthday, Mosey. I hope you have the wonderful day you deserve!

  33. Absolutely lovely.
    Happy Birthday Monique.
    Thank you for coming into Marty’s (and Chiquita’s) life. I am glad you were born.

  34. Mosey, You are surely a beautiful soul and we love you so much. Happy Birthday my love. We (all the Independents) will celebrate your next BD.

    Mosey, Free and I are grateful to you for giving Marty a new life with love and passion.
    What an amazing team you both are!

    Marty, we love you soooooooo much. Thank you for all your are doing for this amazing Independent group and mankind.

    Thank you, Thank you guys!


  35. TheEmperorIsNaked

    Sigh. No words…

  36. Happy Birthday Monique!! Beautiful experience as it’s described, I could duplicate it fully! I’m very honored to have you both as my friends.

  37. I’m sobbing. Man, this really got to me. I remember the day we reunited and you told me and Mat this story and I cried then. Marty, you have such a compassionate side to you and I love both you and Mosey so much. You know that.
    Mosey – see my separate message. Happy Birthday!

  38. Wow. I’m speechless. What a powerful story.

    Happy Birthday Mosey!

    You are proof that behind every great man there is a great woman.

  39. Love heals us.
    Love pulls us through.
    What a beautiful love story.

  40. Thank you, Mosey, for saving this guy for all of us, too!

    Much Love! And Happy Birthday!

    And thank you, Marty, for sharing this deep privacy of yours with all of us. To me it handles quite a huge bit missing so far for really understanding YOU and the path you went before helping us all now walking taller and moving on up a little higher.

  41. This story is really a tribute to the beauty of souls. Marty, you’re a beautiful being.

    Each of us have gone through a “dark night of the soul” with regard to Scientology, rather with regard to its abuse.

    It’s a suffering that words cannot do justice to expressing.

    “At least a nerve has limits,
    a body part a name.
    But the soul … the soul …
    There is no bandage —
    even crying is in vain.”

    That is the seat of the depth of treachery of betrayal once one has found the Tech.

    That is what the hand of help in Scientology is reaching out to…souls that have been hurt, crushed and broken. There is no greater crime than to use the knowledge of the mind against the care, loyalty, commitment and inherent goodness of beings.

    These games conditions have created quandaries and suffering for hundreds, thousands by the misuse of Scientology. What we put up with to be loyal, or to keep evil from the world, or to give life and truth to others is the attestation of how good we truly are.

    Marty, thank you for sharing this story. It’s one more attestation of the beauty, that intrinsic inherent core of who and what most beings are.

    I will never become immune to betrayal, to broken trust, to how much a broken spirit hurts.

    We know the relief that is possible, to others and to ourselves. That is no small thing to alienate from the world as DM has done by sabotaging good people.

    So glad you found an ally and a friend in your darkest hour.

  42. Today is a day to celebrate. Thank you for being, ✩ Mosey✩ !

    ♫ ✩ all together now ✩ ♫

  43. For Marty & Mosey

  44. Speechless for the second time.
    Happy Birthday Mosey you beautiful being.

  45. I am so happy for both of you!

    Marty, your story reminded me that I remained with the church long after I should have left because I kept hoping that things could be worked out so that people I cared for would not be denied the benefits of Scientology technology.

    The realization that the tech had fallen into evil hands who were using it as a carrot to enforce abuses was the key which unlocked the puzzle.

    The only future for the tech and for those we love is to create an independent and sane environment in which beings can achieve spiritual freedom and certainty at their own pace.

    I am glad Mosey was there to help when you most needed it and that you are here now to serve as a focal point for the reformation to come.

    Gretchen and I are here to help when you need it.

  46. Mosey! Happy Birthday my fellow farmer. Your hubbys writing reminds me of a quote from the bible:

    “A faithful friend is a sturdy shelter; he who finds one finds a treasure.”

    May you shelter each other and keep each other safe.

    Have a brillinat day! 🙂

  47. exsolonotsdofp

    Happy birthday Monique!

    Your inconditional Love for Marty deserves all my respect.

    You remind me of my wife Erika. With her inconditional Love i feel alive…something i didn’t experienced since a loooooong time.

    Wish you both to succeed in creating a new familly cell…..full of Love!

    Michel Puzzolante

  48. Ah…so you’ll soon be the birthday girl
    The news of which is bound to unfurl
    A whirlwind of celebrations
    Acknowledging your relations
    And for what you did that was right
    I’ll take the day off, and think of you both that night.
    Happy Birthday!

  49. Wiping my tears, the power of love blows my mind…

    Happy Birthday Mosey!

    Love you heaps, Kirsi

  50. Thank you so much Dan and Mariette for all your love and support! Thanks for all that you are doing!

  51. Roberto!!!
    Thank you for the birthday wishes! What I didn’t know at the time was that he could hear what I was feeling and thinking. But I am sure glad he not only heard me, but he decided to come back!

  52. Thanks Craig,
    It is so great to have so many amazing people in our independent family! Welcome!

  53. Thank you so much Gaia.

  54. WH,
    Thank you for your support and contributions, and the birthday wishes!

  55. Ciao Bella!
    Big hug to you Silvia! This is already the best birthday ever….our Third Dynamic is absolutely incredible!

  56. Kathy,
    Thank you for everything! Yes I got choked up when I read it, and I knew the ending of the story 🙂
    I am sure glad he decided to stay around a little longer, cause look at all he would have missed 😉
    Big hugs to you!!

  57. Thanks Tone,
    My intention is a hell of a lot stronger now, thanks to my auditor!

  58. WOW! Marty, thanks for sticking around. Mosey, thanks for being Marty’s better half and have a very happy birthday.

  59. Tom, Thank you for the song. I love it.
    Well Feb. 23rd is a great day!! Happy Happy birthday to you!!!

  60. Barney,
    Thank you for the birthday wishes! I hope to meet all of you too very soon!

  61. Linda,
    Thanks for the birthday wishes. This past year has been quite wonderful and exciting (of course).

  62. Looking in,
    Thank you for the birthday wishes. If I had then, the abilities I have obtained in my auditing this past year, wow….imagine 😉
    But I can not take all the credit, Chiquita believe it or not, really helped!!
    Thanks again.

  63. Boyd,
    Thanks and For Sure someday soon!

  64. Mosey Happy Birthday and you three deserve the best! Marty what a beautiful story I cried. I know we will meet. until then.you are a beautiful , encouraging, sensitive, warm, loving and gifted family.

    Love Carol

  65. Mosey, Happy Birthday!!! You are awesome! Have a great day! Love, Jan

  66. “The minute I heard my first love story I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along.” -RUMI

    A very blessed birthday to a very special being.

    Love, Cathy

  67. Michel,
    Thank you for the kind wishes! My dad has a saying….”No matter the question…….LOVE is always the answer”
    Words of wisdom!!!
    Thanks again and Welcome to our family!

  68. CP,
    Thank you for my lovely poem! I always enjoy reading your poems! Keep them coming!

  69. Kirsi,
    Thank you so much! lots of love to you too. Oh and btw, thanks for all the mystery gifts on Farmville….I need some fences though…my animals are wandering all over the farm 😉

  70. Colwell,
    Thanks, I am a glad he chose to stick around a little longer too!

  71. Jan!!
    Big hug to you…welcome to the bright side of the road.
    (Still waiting to find out who won 😉 )
    Will keep you posted!
    Love you lots!

  72. Happy Birthday Mosey! You two are a power team, and thank you for keeping the old codger’s body and soul together! It was a real treat to meet you and I hope we meet again soon.

    Alicia’s birthday present to you should be with you about now…

  73. Happy Birthday, Mosey!

  74. Sunshine Lady 🙂
    You tell him!! At least if he does, I’ll have LOTS of backup!!!!
    Thank you for always bringing a smile to my face, just by being you!!!

  75. Thanks a bunch FD! Thank you for all that you are doing!

  76. Hear Hear Jef!

  77. Happy Birthday Mosey! Although we haven’t met in person, I met you and fell in Love when
    a year ago Marty told me this story. I met you
    in his eyes. Much Love. Sarge

  78. Your dad found the secret to the universe, Mosey …

  79. Robin,
    Thanks for all your support! I really enjoy reading your posts! Thanks for the well wishes. Oh btw, I am really the lucky one here …but let’s just keep that between us 😉

  80. I can not wait! Thank you for all you do!

  81. Mark,
    Me too! Thank you for all you are doing! and Yes Love is an amazing thing!

  82. W&P,
    Thank you so much for your contributions! Everyone of us are important to this 3rd dynamic in our own ways!
    Love Mosey

  83. Thanks Rush! This is a great day! I am overwhelmed by the love from everyone!

  84. Christie,
    Thank you so much. You are really very special to us! You were the first, in a long line of independents that I met, and to say I was in awe of your courage, strength and integrity is an understatement!
    I am so happy for you as well! (you and I are pretty lucky huh?)
    Love you both so very much!

  85. Mike,
    I don’t even know where to begin! You are so very important to us, but you know that, right? I am so very thankful to have you and all the rest of the independents in our life. Thank you for being you and being here!
    Lots of love! Mosey!

  86. Thanks Lunamoth,
    I truly feel the love!

  87. Tiziano,
    Thanks so much! Simon is quite a guy, isn’t he 🙂

  88. Thanks Sharon!

  89. QD,
    Thank you, this is quite a wonderful day!

  90. Flur,
    Thank you, I am so happy to be right where I am, and a part of this awesome group of people!

  91. Truth and Free,
    This is quite a celebration in itself! Thank you so much to both of you for all your love and support!
    BTW, I am getting lots of compliments on my birthday presents 🙂
    We love you guys
    Big Hugs !!!

  92. Thank you for sharing this day with us!

  93. Mat,
    The fish are waiting, but ya better hurry up. Thank you guys for being such good friends! Thank you for all you are doing!
    We love you guys.

  94. Thank you Notsaware!

  95. Ames,
    I remember that visit too. You guys are very dear to us! Thank you for all that you are doing. I will look for your other message.
    Can’t wait to see you guys again!
    Love you both!

  96. Jamie,
    Thank you so much for being you. I am lucky that I get to be behind the scenes and out of the line of fire! But you guys out there on the front lines everyday fighting the good fight, no matter the cost are the ones who need to be commended. Thank you so much! Can’t wait for you guys to come visit!

  97. Thank you Fidelio. I am glad he stuck around too! Imagine how mundane things would be if he didn’t 😉

  98. Tears of Joy, Tears of Joy, Tears of Joy.

    Happy Birthday Mosey!!!!!

  99. Sam,
    Thank you for all your support! I love reading your posts! Especially the ones where you lay it down on a troll. Love them!

  100. WOW


    Marty and Mosey you my believe you need Scientology.

    But make no mistake Scientology needs you. Remember That.

    Love you both.

  101. David and Gretchen,
    Welcome to the bright side of the road! Thank you for all that you are doing. I very much enjoyed your post a while back about the power of a postulate. That one has stuck with me!
    Again, Thanks!

  102. Rachel,
    I need some fences for my farm, my animals are all over the place 🙂
    Thank you for the birthday wishes!

  103. Alexis de Tocqueville

    To Mosey,
    A very happy birthday to you and many happy returns of the day. I really hope to one day meet you.

    And to Mark,
    Thank you very much for sharing a chapter from your book. Man oh man, it’s great. You had me sobbing at that next to last paragraph; not grief but the good kind of tears.

  104. Hi there Sarge!
    Thank you so much! I really enjoy your LRH stories especially because I do not have the history that all of you guys have. I have listened to almost all of the lectures and often wonder what he was like in real life. Your stories help to paint that picture for me. …..Looking forward to hearing more 🙂

  105. Martin,
    Thank you so much. I really enjoyed meeting you too. Can’t wait to meet Alicia, she is such a joy and so full of curiousity! Please give her a huge hug from her “friend from far away”
    Love Mosey

  106. Thanks Carol, I can’t wait to meet you too!

  107. Huck,
    Thank you so much. Thanks for all your support!

  108. Cathy,
    That was so beautiful, Thank you for sharing that with us!

  109. Thank you Virgil!

  110. Freedom Fighter

    Wow! What a story! Very timely for reasons won’t go into here. VWD, Mosey, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

  111. It’s interesting how she knew he was leaving, leaving and not just sleeping.

  112. Theo Sismanides

    Happy Birthday Mosey! And thank you really for being who you are and doing what you are doing.

    Love is not out of the game!

    In fact it is Love which keeps one going in the game. Even Marty, it looks like, haha. And this story is the very proof of this.

    It is amazing to read Marty’s story! And it is amazing what Love can do. It’s unbelievable how theta/love can resurrect a spirit.

    We didn’t fail Mosey because of you! I can’t believe it! This is amazing!

    How much or how little of processing you knew woudn’t matter a bit. All you knew in your life is unconditional love! Let’s not forget that the rest of us Scientologists, Independents or not.

    I am so happy you are around and so close to us all, but especially to Marty because he is such a being!!

    Me and my wife Olga we wish you a Happy Birthday and extend a big thank you!!! And thank you Marty for daring to love in spite of everything.

  113. Mosey-it truly is and was a happy day the day you were born! Happy Birthday! We have never met but I know we will soon one day. Thank you for being there and being the pillar of strength and love for Marty. I send you a big theta hug and kiss for all that you are and do. Yes, Marty you are blessed to have this wonderful woman by your side!

  114. “How did you get out?” she asked.

    “I followed the trails of your perfume. It led me out of the abandoned mine.”

    “That’s impossible,” she said. “I didn’t wear perfume all week.”

    “I know. But I knew it was you.”

    _/!\_ (gassho and birthday wishes)

  115. I will keep this simple.

    It appears tome that you two have found ALL of your dynamics within eachoter.

    Happy Birthday, CD

  116. Wow, I’m speechless. You both are lucky (and deserving) to have each other. Soul mates are sometimes mighty hard to come by!

    Happy Birthday (and welcome back).



  117. I was so touched by Marty’s post that I forgot to wish you a Happy Birthday!

    Very well done on bringing him back. It’s amazing what one has to do to get an auditor these days. 🙂

  118. Tears were just dropping……
    This is real love !!!
    And love is forever.
    Happy Birthday

  119. I feel almost the intruder in a very private moment. That you have shared it with us Mosey and Marty has truly touched me.

    Have the best of birthdays!…Knowing that the two of you are there and doing so well brings me joy.


  120. Happy Birthday Monique! On my Mother’s birthday I got her a card that said ‘Happy 29th’, all the way up into her 70s. She always smiled.

    Her beautiful smile never aged and she was always 29 to me, and my Dad!

    You have timeless grace and a beauty that transcends. You held all of us in your hands that day, thank you, we are truly grateful.


  121. Happy Birthday, Mosey!

    Marty, that was beautiful, and I can somewhat relate.

    After my first husband died suddenly, it was the promise I’d made to him to remarry and be happy that kept me going during the darkest times. He was there for me until my wedding day when I remarried. He’d sometimes make himself manifest (he liked to knock books off bookshelves), but he was never far from me during that time.

  122. Mosey
    If that man of yours so much as sneezes in the wrong direction again call Jim Logan right away and tell him to come over and give him a slappin upside the head.

  123. CD,
    Thanks. our dynamics just get better and better with each passing day!

  124. Lucy,
    Thank you so much! We miss you guys. Please hug the girls for me!

  125. Because,
    Thank you very much! We love you too.

  126. Alexis,
    Thank you for the birthday wishes. I hope to meet you too very soon!

  127. Thanks FF!

  128. Tim,
    Yes, Infact, I was at work and I just had this overwhelming sensation that I just needed to get home and fast.
    Pretty amazing the events of that day!

  129. Theo,
    Thank you! I too am very happy that he stuck around! It was a really great decision in my opinion (but I am biased) 🙂

  130. Thanks Freespirit, We are all very lucky to have eachother. There is so much to be said for real ARC!!

  131. Thanks Bunkai

  132. Ted,
    Welcome! yes, we are all very lucky.

  133. Platone
    Thank you so very much.

  134. Sherry,
    Thank you for sharing in this with us! This has been a wonderful day!

  135. Jim, (and Amanda)
    Thank you for all that you do. Your contributions are invaluable. Can’t wait to do some fishing for some salmon!!
    Btw, my dad celebrated his 30th last year 😉

  136. Deirdre,
    Thank you for sharing that with us. Good for you on keeping your promise!

  137. Thanks Talya,
    He’s pretty special to have too 🙂

  138. Agreed!!! Thanks Trey

  139. Yes, Mosey, you held all of us in your hands that day!

    That is so well put, Jim!
    VML, Fidelio

  140. David,
    Thanks for the birthday wishes! Chiquita helped alot! But I am glad he’s still here!

  141. Beautiful story…. trapped in belief, freed by love.

    Happy B’day Mosey.


  142. David from England

    I don’t know you from a bar of soap (as we unwashed English say), but you sound like one hell of a woman. Happy Birthday!

    And Marty,
    Those who wonder what strange power keeps people involved in Scn against their best interests need to read your words. Your self-sacrificial desires were beautiful and horrific at the same time, and I’m so glad that you came to understand that your sense of honor was never standing in the way of this wonderful woman you love.

    You have explained so much to me in this story.

    Love to both of you,


  143. Happy Birthday Mosey and thank you Marty for all you have done recently for free speech…;)

  144. Mosey happy birthday….what an inspirational story..I really am lost for words.

    The first time I ever looked at this blog just a couple of months ago, I sat back and really observed the photo of you and Marty and I remember thinking….”That lady has a beautiful beingness about her and he looks like a very happy man”…

    I do hope that one day our paths will cross. I would be honoured to meet the lady who is the pillar for Marty….may all your birthday wishes come true

  145. Thank you for helping keep Marty alive. I only really know him through this blog, but it’s never a good thing to have a problem of that magnitude.

  146. Concerned Citizen

    Dearest Mosey,

    I want to send you a big theta hug. My spouse and I are both very taken by the story. Our love is much like yours and we know the power of love. (And of heart break)
    Marty has always being someone very important to us both. He probably remembers little of us, but he had created great effects in our lives. I was just recently thinking how Marty had in essence returned Scientology to me. I thought I had it and yet I had lost all desire for auditing, but not for the achievement of greater states of being. Kind of weird, I’d lost my reach so much, Marty and Thoughtful, and Dan and Revel. They all re-kindled it. I couldn’t believe how strong that desire has grown since being an independent (albeit under the radar)
    Well, Marty was the guy that started all that for us, we are thankful for that, and to you for keeping him around we will forever be thankful.
    I remember the first time I saw your picture how deep an impression you made on my soul. Clear serene eyes, beautiful face, radiant smile.
    Now I know that beauty radiates from you and your essence to manifest physically.
    Happy Birthday Mosey from the bottom of our heart and please continue to share all that love you are
    (No typo, I did write “love you are”) with the rest of us, we need it.

  147. Happy Birthday Beautiful!

  148. Happy Birthday Mosey,

    Wow, this is really theta. I am so glad for both of you and I am glad for all of us for if we had lost you there Marty …. really, Mosey, I think you have not only saved Marty’s live there. Thanks to both of you.

  149. Wow, what a beautiful story! Mosey, thank you so much for being there for Marty. My life has turned around completely in the last few months because of Marty’s courage in speaking out, and I simply don’t know how to thank you and him enough.
    And of course … Happy Birthday!

  150. Beautiful story, beautifully written.

    Although never declared, I went through a similar inner turmoil, Marty. It still bothers me that I feel the need to keep my kids and family away from the church…it’s taken me a long time to reconcile that.

  151. Jim, a truth and lovely sentiment, and beautifully put: “You held all of us in your hands that day, thank you, we are truly grateful. “

  152. Mosey,

    The day I got in my car and drove north to Corpus to see Marty I was excited at the prospect at seeing my old comrade. But by the time I left your house that day I felt extremely lucky — I now had two great friends.

    And you guys are great friends because you give freely of yourselves and ask for nothing in return, a rare and precious commodity in this world. You are truly precious Mosey, truly precious.

    I count the day I drove north to Corpus as one of the most fortunate of my life.

    Happy birthday Mosey and many, many happy returns!!!!

  153. Happy Birthday Monique!

    Marty, I hope you know how lucky you are to have the love of such a wonderful and caring person.

    Of course you do, you big softie. 🙂


  154. Happy Birthday Mosey and Marty thanks for sharing.

    Here is a little diddy quaranteed to make you smile from ear to ear.

  155. Wonderful story!
    Beautiful love!
    Happy Birthday!

  156. Wow! Wow! Wow!

    You’ve taken us all up a little higher!

    Happy Birthday, Mosey!!!

  157. Thought provoking


    I don’t think I have ever met Marty but when I first read this blog, after the initial shock and rejection, I knew that something very important had just happened. At the time, I didn’t realize it, but I was about to find something that I had thought I had lost.

    I saw the picture of the two of you in front of the campfire and thought, what an incredibly theta couple! Good, because he is going to need the strength and support from someone special (you) to pull it off.

    I fully understand his angst in feeling that he was preventing you from receiving Scientology. The gift of the tech is one of the most valuable gifts a person can give. I am so happy that he was able to find a way to overcome that consideration.

    Marty’s very touching story clearly expresses the power of unconditional love. I am sure that both of you have greatly expanded your dynamics as a result.

    Thank you for being there for him and allowing him to also take care of you. Enjoy your wonderful birthday, your friends and your love.


  158. Really beautiful story with a greatest ending!

    I can really relate as quite a few of us Ex’s have gone through those stages of decompression more or less but without the amazing rescuer at hand.

    Have a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mosey!

  159. Well when we met Mosey was with you. You
    are a great talker, Ax is also, me less so. I exchanged very few words with her, and she ventured almost none in this meeting.

    Unlikely she is fully up to speed with all we had to communicate.

    However I felt a real good connection with her.
    She exudes theta warmth.

    Then also, she is one hot chick!

    You lucky bugger 🙂

  160. Happy Birthday Mosey!

    And a very touching story. I could kinda feel the somatics as I was immersed in it. Glad you made it through!

  161. Alexis de Tocqueville

    One last thought, to the both of you…

    This Life
    by Bruce Springsteen

    A bang then stardust in your eyes
    A billion years or just this night
    Either way it’ll be all right
    A blackness then the light of a million stars
    As you slip into my car the evening sky strikes sparks
    This life, this life and then the next
    With you I have been blessed, what more can you expect

    At night at my telescope alone
    This emptiness I’ve roamed
    Searching for a home
    The stars a brief string of shining charms
    Rushing in red out of our arms into the drifting dark
    This life, this life and then the next
    With you I have been blessed, what more can you expect
    This life, this life and then the next
    I finger the hem of your dress, my universe at rest

    We reach for starlight all night long but gravity’s too strong
    Chained to this earth we go on and on and on
    Then a million suns cresting where you stood
    A beauty in the neighborhood
    This lonely planet never looked so good

    This life, this life and then the next
    With you I have been blessed, what more can you expect
    This life, this life and then the next
    I finger the hem of your dress, my universe at rest

  162. Huck,
    That song was beautiful! Thank you for that!

  163. Thank you for always making me smile ear to ear!

  164. Sunshine lady! And now a tear to my eye! Thank you for being you!
    Love you bunches!

  165. Martin,
    It came today 🙂 Marty took photos I will send Ali a special thank you email! What a sweet heart she is!

  166. Thank You Maxim! It has been a great day!

  167. David,
    Thank you for the birthday wishes!

  168. Indie Anon,
    Thank you for being here and communicating!

  169. Lise,
    It would be an honor to meet you as well. Thank you for your courage and integrity! All my birthday wishes have certainly come true! I am one lucky lady 🙂

  170. There is always a great beautiful woman standing by a great man.

    Thank you for being there for Marty and all of us – We would Love to share your Birthday Cake next year. Happy Birthday Mosey

    Love Exilda and Murray

  171. CC
    Thanks for the birthday wishes. It is truly heartwarming to hear the many stories from everyone on the blog about their very difficult journey away from the church and how they are rediscovering their purposes that brought them to Scientology in the first place.
    This has been a truly theta filled birthday!

  172. Thanks so much Natalie!

  173. Exilo,
    Thank you for sharing this day with us. This day has been very theta! 🙂

  174. Margaret,
    Thank you for sharing in this day with us. We are very fortunate to have such a strong group!

  175. Hadyn,
    Where do I begin? I remember your first visit and we were at the restaurant. I was just in awe over the total ARC between you two! Then I got the chance to meet you amazing girls. I could have talked with them all night long. Then the icing on the cake…The whole family came to visit! I told you then how much they touched me and still do everyday! Thank you for all that you are doing. Your support and love means so much to us!
    Lots of love

  176. Ax,
    Thank you for the birthday wishes. I very much enjoyed listening to you and Terril over warm beers and wine!
    Thanks for your support!

  177. Jack,
    Thank you for the birthday wishes and sharing this day with us. Can’t wait to meet you!

  178. ML,
    Thank you so much!

  179. Cre8,
    Thank you for sharing in this day with us! It has been a special day for me!

  180. Karen,
    Thank you for sharing that with me. It is a tough thing sometimes to let someone else take care of you…But we are learning, and know that there is strength in numbers. We have expanded our dynamics tremendously and they just continue to grow. Life and love are amazing things!

  181. Sinar,
    Thank you for your friendship and support. You really mean alot to us! It is so nice to watch this group expand and evolve. What a year this has been huh?
    Can’t wait to meet you!

  182. Terril, I remember the meeting quite well! Between you, Ax and Marty….you think I could have even squeezed a sentence in 😉
    I know you have taken some heat since then, so I say thank you for that!
    Thanks for the birthday wishes and for making me actually blush 🙂

  183. FOS,
    Thanks, I am glad he pulled himself through too! This universe would be very different if he were not here!

  184. Alexis,
    That was very beautiful. I am going to see if I can find that song on You Tube. Thank you again!

  185. Exilda and Murray,
    Thank you so much for sharing this day with us. Congrats new mother and father in law! I am sorry I missed the celebration! What a strong daughter you have raised!

  186. That made me cry!!! So beautiful!! =) Happy Birthday Mosey!!

  187. Thank you Chrissie! I know you can relate to the power of love!

  188. WOW! What a day! Thank you to all of our friends…You really made this a very special birthday for me! I am overwhelmed by all the love sent our way! Thank you to each and everyone for everything that each of you do in your own ways to support us!
    Lots of Love
    Now I must go to bed 🙂 I am exhausted!

  189. “mosey // February 24, 2010 at 1:35 am | Reply

    Terril, I remember the meeting quite well! Between you, Ax and Marty….you think I could have even squeezed a sentence in
    I know you have taken some heat since then, so I say thank you for that!
    Thanks for the birthday wishes and for making me actually blush ”

    Blush making is gratis and a pleasure. 🙂

    Been taking heat for a decade. Cool with that.
    Actually from critics rather than COS. When we met, Marty commented that he could be the lightening conductor handling attacks from you know who on the independant/Freezone area.

    Me for example.

    A bold brass balls response. 🙂

  190. Mosey
    A very Happy Birthday to you. Thank you both for putting so much theta out there and being there for us. This is my first posting even though I have been reading for months, this was just too theta to not ack.
    Again, thank you both.

  191. Abbey,
    Thank you for being here! Welcome 🙂

  192. That’s my Marty 😉

  193. Happy Birthday, Mosie! Terrific story. Nice Save.

  194. What an incredible story!! Happy Birthday Mosey!!! I think that both of you are very lucky to have one another. I hope one day that I find that special ARC with another being.


  195. Lotus Miyamoto

    Marty and Mosie,

    This is the most romantic love story I have ever read. So pure, so honest and so full of love. The strength of the human soul is amazing and so are you.

    Happy Birthday Mosie:) You lucky girl you!

  196. That’s some tribute.

    Mosey, you must be amazing. Happy, happy birthday (I may have just missed it).

  197. Gosh, I really don’t know where to put this so I’ve convinced myself this is a “birthday gift to everyone” in honor of Mosey’s birthday.

    File this one under the category of “if it’s not fun it’s not Scientology.” I rediscovered the site below by looking at some old posts on ars. It is not one that I bet most here have stumbled across.

    “The Compleat Aberee” described itself as “the non-serious voice of Scientology” and was published from 1954-1965.


    It looks like all the issues were scanned to the website. They are chock full of anecdotes that really give you a sense of how things were back then. Enjoy! (Hope it was OK to post this, Marty)

  198. Mosey! Mosey! Mosey!

    Where would we be with out you??

    I feel I’ve missed the Party. There I am looking down where a cake once sat, and now only crumbs! 🙂

    (Actually I was at work reading all these posts, tickled to death! Factually, hiding in the bathroom, with my trusty iPhone, leaning left to right to wake my sleeping legs.)

    My VERY first sentiment was said by others;

    “You are proof that behind every great man there is a great woman.”
    “A wonderful example of the old saying, “Behind every great man, there is a great woman.”

    So very very correct.

    Marty has such a wonderful ability to write and communicate, his willingness to be transparent, and true. Has everything to do with you and the strength we find… and know, only in Love.

    Amazingly, it’s all there. For even in a dog, the wonderful Chiquita. There is more love, there, then there is in Mr. Miscavige.

    Well, anyway. I know what we got as a group.
    It’s the thing that makes us all. Love.

    And on your wonderful Birthday, after the candles have been blown, I’m with you as everyone of us, wishing your postulate true.

    Thank you Mosey.
    Thank you, Thank you, for being You.

  199. Mosey, I do not know you, but I am a reader of Marty’s website. Happy birthday.
    My best wishes to you. I liked the love story, and it is beautiful.

  200. Antoine, no worries, the cake is yet to come because a certain missy didn’t tell anyone it was her birthday 🙂

    What you say here is so very true! –>

    “Amazingly, it’s all there. For even in a dog, the wonderful Chiquita. There is more love, there, then there is in Mr. Miscavige.”


    “Well, anyway. I know what we got as a group.
    It’s the thing that makes us all. Love.”


  201. words fail me. that is one beautiful post!! 🙂

  202. Luana,
    Thank you for the birthday wishes. Maybe someday you will know me!

  203. Antoine,
    Thank you for the lovely words! The party is still going ……
    So welcome to the party!
    We do have quite a group here dont we??

  204. Will you ever forgive me 😦
    Oh and I don’t know when YOUR birthday is either….. 😉

  205. Heather,
    Thank you for the birthday wishes! It was a truly spectacular day!

  206. Lotus,
    Thank you! I think we are all quite lucky. We have a mighty group here!

  207. Zana,
    Thank you very much for your birthday wishes. Yes I have so much appreciation for what we have created on all our dynamics. Great things are happening everyday….You will find it!

  208. emldubu,
    Thanks so much!

  209. I was out of town so missed out on the actual day. Happy belated Birthday Mosey! So glad you have eachother. Sending you both a big hug!

  210. Wow, so happy for you guys!!!

  211. Happy (belated) birthday! Dang, life sure can be great!

  212. Happy birthday Mosey. And Marty that was a wonderful story. You write so well, it’s like we are in the story.

  213. So, so beautiful.

    Happy Birthday!!!!

    (Even if a little belated.)

  214. Hi Mosey!

    I wanted to say something else to you… this story, and who you are means something very special to me, especially now. I can’t wait to meet you in person!! I know we’ll be forever friends.

    Love to you, Cathy

  215. Mosey:

    From my beingnes, to your’s, Thank you for your ack.


  216. 23rd of Feb is my birthday, my son’s birthday is 24th of Jan. Numbers are funny, but this is true.

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