My name is Eliana Alaimo and I have been in Scientology since 1987.
I did my Bridge both sides, Auditing and Training. In January 2003 I started OT VII as public and my training Level was Class IV. In September 2004 I joined the Sea Organization on the Freewinds. I blew the first time while I was doing my Class IX Internship because I refused to squirrel as a pc and as auditor as well.
As interned on the Class IX Course we were forced to do a lot of videos and receive our passes from RTC on the various Class IX procedures so as to demonstrate we were able to audit paying Pre-Ots in the HGC. However, instead of running the procedures and so really getting trained and becoming competent on them we were just flying each other’s Rudiments in co-auditing and also were doing TRs; and those hours were considered “practical” training hours anyhow.
The order was directly from RTC to do the Ruds instead of the actual training and this was confirmed by the Internship Course Supervisor. I twinned with a Spanish girl that knew enough Italian and so we “co-audited” for several days on rudiments, the same that are used for interviews in Cramming. We were doing up to 6 sessions each a day as pc.
I was also assigned the SandCastle Vice President. But I could not really audit her because my ability to understand spoken English was not up to the level required. Nonetheless, the Supervisor told me that I had to train and I could have used a Sea Org Member for that purpose even if my level of English was not sufficient.
I still feel ashamed that I agreed to do that and she did not F/N in session and Red Tagged at exam.
But I got my RTC Video Pass and so went to the HGC to start as an Auditor there. When I refused to audit English speaking Pre-OTs a very tall girl , an RTC Trainee, started threatening me and told me that if I kept refusing she would have me thrown me in the kitchen to wash pans and dishes till I would change my mind on it.
In 8 months I did my training from Flag Metering to Class IX (including Senior Sec Checker – FPRD – PTS/SP Specialist –AO Review Auditor –CCRD Auditor). I did everything on checksheet time and I did not want to end up in ethics because I could not speak English! So I started auditing 2 English speaking Pre-OTs.
I did not understand a word they were saying in session, I was writing the “sounds” of the words on the worksheets, but even the Director of Processing did not understood what happened in session.
So I got sick the moment I realized I had betrayed Ron and Standard Tech because I followed an order from RTC.
I did not trust Management any longer, and being declared SP made me feel better, because in actual fact were the Squirrels declaring me!
That very same day, in my mind, I “wrote” my Declaration of Independence and I did not even know that Independence was a possibility!
For 2 years I was not allowed to audit on my OT VII because I had given back my confidential material – I was given the following:
– A Sec Check to see if I qualified for the Freewinds
– NED for the second time
– Did a part of OT V that I already handled
– NED for the third time
– Another Sec Check
– One FPRD
– Plus in the meantime I co-audited on ruds to be able to do the cramming I was assigned since I had to receive my RTC Video Pass
I did each and every step of the above program because the C/S at every step was promising me that I would be allowed back on VII if I did that each particular step first.
Each step was at first the LAST STEP, but when done it was replaced with a new step!
So I blew from all that squirreling and I was happy to see and to stress the difference between me and Ron to the squirreling that RTC was ordering me to do.
The irony was that the last session I did as Pre-OT before becoming sick and blowing received RTC Video Pass, so my Auditor got a Pass and I was actually on the run.
The reason for the PASS was that my auditor had to complete the Sec Checker Internship and fly back to Milano to be in the Universe Corp, and in order to go RTC demanded a Video Pass on his ability to do Confessionals.
But my blow did not last and I was convinced to come back and route out properly, so I went to Milano first and then to Copenhagen then back to the Freewinds and received an FPRD and a new Sec Check. I was left for five month with no Passport and so could not leave the ship, so I was looking at the various islands from the ship while doing hard MEST work.
I even cleaned the fuel tank and I was inhaling the fumes since my mask was old and faulty and … I experienced the strangest chemical release I ever had in my life. The MAA saw I was so happy when I got out of the fuel tank that he wanted me to write a Success Story!!!!!!
Squirrel and ignorant!
I went many times to the infirmary and got heavy dosages of antihistamine because I had a very strange allergy and my face was completely deformed. And all of this was happening inside that very ship!
After 5 months I understood how I could end the torture and I was released from my “prison”.
I was sent on mission for the Congresses Promotional Tour as a registrar and I had to sell sets of Basics and also cruises aboard the Freewinds. But I was not good at all as a registrar and one night I was in Brescia Italy and the CO Sharon Webber threatened me and told me I would never be allowed back on OTVII unless I was getting my products (money) in volume. So it was there in Brescia, that very same night in 2007 that I decided to blow, but blow for good this time – and I did it so to never come back on the Freewinds again.
So after I did blow, they told me that I would not be declared a Suppressive Person if I would “behave”. This R-Factor was given to me on the phone by Paolo Cocoda (HAS – head of personnel and ethics) even though I told him that I if I ever come back on the Freewinds it would only be done to put my hands on three terminals: CO CMO, RTC REP, CO FSSO.
Even with this threat of mine they did not declare me SP. But I had to behave and I was supposed not to say a bad word about the Freewinds.
So I devoted my attention to my new family and behaved.
I even wanted to pay my freeloader, but after strange offered deals, lies, false promises, you name it… I was not able to get a clear cut statement of what was required.
At the same time I read on the internet the story of Valeska, she was a friend and I knew her from the ship. When I found out she also blew and that now she Declared herself as Independent I started to understand and began evaluating what was true for me.
And so here I am wishing that David Miscavige and the people that follow him will leave Scientology so that it can be again of use for this planet instead of buying palaces and squirreling the tech as I experienced doing my Class IX Internship.
I was not like that before, and I am not like that now and so I do not want to have anything to do with whoever is supporting a church that is so far from what Ron said needs to be done to clear the planet.
BE DO HAVE and not HAVE HAVE HAVE. DO nothing, is the destiny of those palaces all of them empty because they were born out of an implant.
Starting today I declare myself to be a member of the Independents, of those who will use, accept and apply only Standard Tech and nothing else than Standard Tech.
I do not want to have anything to do with people who are not 100% Standard and I do not care if they pretend or call themselves Independent. I will not be reasonable on this point.
Eliana Alaimo
This same post may be read in its original Italian language at the Italian Independents site, L’Indipendologo.
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