Category Archives: Monique Banks Rathbun

The Road I Must Travel

L. Ron Hubbard was a great observer and describer of phenomena.  He once noted that the universe abhors a vacuum.   He also noted that when confronted with a vacuum of data, people tend to invent data to fill it.

I have intentionally not shared a lot of personal information over the past several months; and I don’t intend to start regularly doing so in the near future.  However, I have observed that Ron’s description of the information vacuum has apparently created a field day for those intent on reading tea leaves and those who harbor intentions inimical to my own.   And that has apparently upset some folks.  So, I am going to attempt to fill in the vacuum in the hopes it might set some people at ease.

Monique and I worked hard throughout 2011 to create some time for me to write some books that I believe will help Scientologists and former Scientologists heal and move on up a little higher with their lives.   Things did not go as planned.  2012 presented some issues that I thought, right or wrong, deserved my attention.

We wound up spending the bulk of the year assisting with battles (Battle of San Antonio, mop up of Headley affair,  expose of the Pat Broeker affair, etc.).   We with forethought entered them and exited them without a single penny in compensation; not even for the not insubstantial personal costs involved.   Fundraising for them diverted much of our income for the year.  This was the case much to the frustration of Debbie, Wayne, Marc, Claire, and others who demanded I be compensated.   We did not do so because the road I feel I must travel requires absolute independence of thought and obligation.  The pursuit of truth can, and has through history – including with Scientology- , been compromised by financial considerations.

We decided to move at the end of the year and Monique decided to go back to work in the health care field for two reasons.  First, it was necessary in order to obtain the type of premises that would afford us our life back from an intelligence apparatus the likes of which have been unknown to the world since the infamous East German STASI.  Second, it was necessary to afford me the time and space to get done the books I am in progress on.  Monique knows what I have to say – and what I have been trying to find the time to complete in the full context I have always asserted it deserves in books form.   She felt it so important to be said that she gave up – temporarily – the joy and fulfillment of auditing in order to make it happen.  We also forfeited our only assets, $35,000 in equity from a lease/purchase option, in order to effectuate this change.

Thanks to great research and planning on our part, we are moving forward on our plans while also rebuilding our lives from the intrusion.  It is not that the STASI (OSA, Scientology Inc.’s Office of Special Affairs) has gone away.  It is that they are buffered.   Thanks to the good people in our community, and the rather ethical and uncorrupted law enforcement agencies in our vicinity, we know more about their rather extensive and expensive surveillance operation than it can divine about us.   Their absurd black PR campaign being run directly at virtually everyone we have known or met (including everyone who has visited us and all of Monique’s family) is indication of the level of frustration of not having 24/7 access to our every movement.  It also doesn’t hurt having Sugar Ray Jeffrey as a neighbor and friend – the only man in history who has kicked Scientology Inc.’s ass two times in one year and who is fully motivated and prepared to do so again if they get too adventrous.

As far as what I have to say in my books, I am previewing some of it on the blog of late – but those are simply snippets.   I will say the following.   I believe I will demonstrate that perhaps the most powerfully destructive fault with Scientology is its promise and authoritative insistence that only it, to the explicit and must-be-agreed-upon exclusion of examination of any other data or technology, with scientific precision delivers ultimate truth.   Understanding that, in my view, opens one to potential heights that Scientologists wind up insisting they have achieved, but in reality are not even aware of.

Where ultimately does that go?   I don’t purport to know.  I do believe, though, that the moment one is certain he has arrived, he in fact has died spiritually.

To borrow a line from Tom Morello, ‘the road I must travel, its end I cannot see.’

The Simplicity of Scientology

 

Heads Up – Jim Lynch Let Loose

David Miscavige has come up with a ‘solution’ for no longer being able to spy on my wife and me electronically. see  Scientology Spies and Going Mobile.

Miscavige’s Office of Special Affairs (OSA, dirty tricks and propaganda wing of Scientology Inc.) has wound up failed journalist, turned Scientology Inc. gumshoe, Jim Lynch and granted him an unlimited expense account to harass my wife and me from a distance.   Lynch is zig zagging the U.S. by airplane dropping in on our friends and relatives spewing a litany of criminal-mind (the criminal – in this case David Miscavige – accuses others of that which he himself is doing) allegations against me.  The randomness and distances of his routes betray a financial mindedness of a sick Saudi prince.   Some church.

If you know Monique or me very well there is a good chance you’ll be seeing Lynch unannounced.  We would appreciate it if you would record any conversation you may have with Lynch should he show up to your home or office (for evidentiary purposes).   Feel free to share your views about the nature of his boss (Miscavige) and Lynch’s activities should he contact you.   Otherwise, you are also free to tell him to get a life and get off your property.

Jim Lynch - Scientology Inc. operative

Jim Lynch – Scientology Inc. operative

Nueva Casablanca

It is still Casablanca.

Except it is now built out of stone.

Instead of being surrounded by a sea of blue it is protected by a sea of green.

25 minutes from San Antonio International Airport.

The private road in, part one:

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The road home, part 2:

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The road home, part 3:

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The surrounds, part one:

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The surrounds, part two:

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Nueva Casablanca:

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You’re Damn Right We’ve Got The Blues

For those who haven’t followed the saga of the Scientology cult’s antics in our sleepy, beautiful home town of Ingleside on the Bay (IOB) Texas, I summed some of it up in an Open Letter to Residents of Ingleside on the Bay.

I promised the folks of IOB that if the cult insanity escalated to the point where it was a threat to ruining this town, I would up and leave in a heart beat.

Well, the latest from David Miscavige’s Scientology dirty tricks and propaganda service has crossed that line.

In the past several weeks we have discovered and published evidence that Scientology Inc spent 90 thousand dollars on rent alone to lease a home facing mine, and outfitted it with high powered cameras focused into our home, The Rest of The Story – Scientology Inc Spies. 

After our exposure Miscavige’s terror squads upped the ante by placing mirror coverings on all windows of the 90 thousand dollar surveillance outpost.   That had a chilling effect on a number of local residents.  When that was exposed, Scientology Inc sent in a squad of “fishermen” who looked like they came out of the casting call for the movie “Deliverance.”   For several weeks they have yet to wet a hook, nor communicate with any locals.  Instead, they sit behind their mirrored windows of the surveillance house leering menacingly.

The head honcho of the crew refused to identify his employer nor even the identity of who leased the premises to his boys.   He claimed to have never heard the names of the leasee (Scientology PI Monte Drake who has committed to 3 more years in that home) or the owner of the home.   He threatened me with arrest if I did not get off his property.  He did make a big point though of pointing out the following decal on his truck and telling me how proud he was to be a Confederate:

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I am not waiting for the cross burnings and whatever other snazzy PR tricks Miscavige has in store for IOB.   We are sad today to be leaving some of the finest people we have ever encountered.  We did not give advance notice to most because they would have convinced us to stay.  We are holding to our original promise.  The ‘church’ of Scientology has created a pall over one of the greatest little towns in the US.  And it is quite apparent there is only one way to remove it.  I am not going to try to dress up an ugly situation.  You are damn right we’ve got the blues.

UPDATE 11:20 CST 11/30/12:

Mark Collette of the Corpus Christi Caller Times filed this report on the latest from Ingleside on the Bay Texas.

The local CBS affiliate Action 10 News broadcast this piece:  Action 10 Report

A Thanksgiving Story

Thanksgiving apparently means a lot of different things to different people.  What it represents to me is a day of peace where one may reflect on the positives one considers blessed to have experienced.   It seems to me that how much one has to be thankful for is influenced largely by one’s viewpoint and outlook on life.  L. Ron Hubbard noted in the Ability Congress lectures that when one focuses on the negative (disability) one gets more negatives and conversely when one focuses on the positive (ability) one gets more positives.  Viktor Frankl bestowed a little gift along the same line of reasoning in Man’s Search for Meaning:

…Can life retain its potential meaning in spite of its tragic aspects?  After all, ‘saying yes to life in spite of everything’, to use the phrase in which the title of a German book of mine is couched, presupposes that life is potentially meaningful under any conditions, even those which are most miserable.  And this in turn presupposes the human capacity to creatively turn life’s negative aspects into something positive or constructive.  In other words, what matters is to make the best of any given situation. “The best”, however, is that which in Latin is called optimum – hence the reason I speak of a tragic optimism, that is, an optimism in the face of tragedy and in view of the human potential which at is best always allows for: (1) turning suffering into a human achievement and accomplishment, (2) deriving from guilt the opportunity to change oneself for the better; and (3) deriving from life’s transitoriness an incentive to take responsible action.

I am very fortunate to be spending this Thanksgiving, as I have the past seven of them, with someone who demonstates these virtues like no one else I know:

I also consider myself fortunate to have received an inspirational  story from Ulf Olofsson.  It communicates some things I have wanted to but hadn’t found the words for. It illustrates the truths of Hubbard and Frankl in action.  Doing time in Scientology Inc.’s Rehabilitation Project Force (RPF) sometimes carries a stigma with it.  I, however, have known several people who have turned the potentially negative experience into a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for enhancement of character.  Ulf is a prime example.  His story might shed some light on why I don’t always give a lot of weight to pedigrees and certificates.  I hope it gives rise to contemplation of things all of us can find to be thankful for.

Ulf Turns Tragedy to Triumph

Hi Marty,

The below are some not so coherent and chronological comments but nonetheless some notes of my RPF experience at Flag after leaving the Int base after 17 years of service there.

I left Gold at the height of insanity in late November 2006 and no RPF outside of the Int Base could even start to match up to the conditions at Int – the RPF at Flag was a holiday in comparison, but that doesn’t make the RPF right, it was just from my own perspective.

The original idea of the RPF as covered in the LRH advices and FOs about the RPF make some sense to me. Instead of off-loading an R/Sing staff member who was dramatizing his R/Ses on the organization, or being a chronic overt-product-maker, had a voluntary free choice of doing the program or getting off-loaded. It was for extreme cases where regular Qual, ethics and justice, hatting etc, had not created a change in destructive behavior.

For those people they were supposed to get a PTS Check, a check for evil purposes on all dynamics and anyone with a List 1 R/S [List #1 Rock Slam – meaning having exhibited a rock slam while checking a list of items related to LRH and Scientology] would get EX DN [Expanded Dianetics] or OT III or NOTS pending on case level.

This was 1974. A PTS Check in 1974 was a metered interview where you established if the person was PTS on the meter and if so to whom. Later the PTS Check materials got cancelled and the new “definition” for PTS Check was a 10 August interview as well as the PTS/SP course and the PTS Rundown – now all C/Sed for on the RPF, adding months to the program.

The original time frame of an RPF program was a few months. A month or two for training (if you were not trained already) and another month or two for the C/S’ed program. You did it 5 hours a day in a co-audit with technical supervision and worked 8 hours a day on deck work for exchange.

Today a typical RPF C/Sed program goes like this:

1. PTS Interview
2. PTS/SP Course
3. (conditional) PTS Rundown
4. Tailor made FPRD Sec Check (usually over a 100 questions)
5. (conditional) FPRD Basic Form
6. 1-8 Dynamics FPRD (about 800 questions)
7. (conditional) Ex DN program for L1 R/S
8. Final Assessment passed by RTC

I am not aware of anybody graduating the RPF in less than 18 months and most people are on the RPF for 3-12 years unless they blow or route out.

If FPRD would be done as originally issued in FPRD Series 5 (now they are up to revision 5RB) where evil purposes were checked for using suppress and invalidate only then the FPRD wouldn’t be so bad and wouldn’t take years to complete. But the DM revision of checking all the confessional left-hand buttons on every evil purpose to FN adds 20X the time. The original text says to check for an evil purpose with suppress and invalidate and if no read, move on. This is changed to having to FN each evil purpose with all buttons just like a confessional – which is in itself an alteration from the original.

The subject of buttons are so severely altered even the GAT drills can’t provide the references but the drills themselves are the “references” for how to check buttons in sec checking and FPRD because ALL the references of buttons state otherwise, but DM somehow had it figured out that the laws of listing and nulling applies to sec checking and not just suppress and invalidate but ALL left-hand buttons ever stated by LRH, i.e. the read on the button transfers to the question and hence it equals a read on the question itself, and the button is not put “in” and then re-check the question which is how every HCOB on the subject states to do. My own understanding of the laws of listing and nulling doesn’t even equate to this as other laws go directly against this practice, which may account for the amount of charge I discovered as a review auditor on “wrong items”. But others, more technically qualified than I, could ascertain what the truth is on this subject.

I could go on and on.

Add to the agony of the endless buttons that have to be FNed having to sit in a co-audit space with 50 people and you have some asinine tailor-made sec check FPRD style with a HEAVY concentration of the 2D [sex] as this subject seem to be the biggest crime in the universe by Flag MAAs (outside of being critical of DM.)

So there you are in the co-audit room with 50 people around you and an un-trained, awful-TRs foreigner with a heavy accent is asking you:

“Have you ever ass-fucked a cow?

On the question, have you ever ass-fucked a cow has anything been suppressed?
… invalidated?
…. been careful of?
… failed to reveal?
… etc, etc, etc”

All the way down the list of buttons and somehow you’re supposed to FN that. People around you are giggling and wonder what kind of overts you must have. Because you so divorced from the concept of feeling free you are not exactly FNing and the buttons are checked over and over and finally one button reads. Then you have to find an overt. You finally find a time when you stared at a horse’s dick and felt embarrassed about it. Then you run staring at the horse’s dick whole track and then check for evil purposes with all buttons to FN…

I am not even being cynical here – this is a real example that occurred on my RPF.

So, originally RPFers were L1 R/Sers or chronic overt-product-makers who were given a chance to get rehabilitated or off-loaded – hence its name: Rehabilitation Project Force.

Not today. On the Flag RPF over 50% were on the RPF for out-2D – an instant RPF offense at the FSO. Some very few had been involved in extramarital sex with another married person which is actually a crime by law, but that amounted to 3 people. The rest were there for seducing, petting, masturbation, etc. These “crimes” were an instant RPF-assignment at Flag because their Dept. 3 was obsessed with the 2D, just like DM and RTC.

4 young people (two not even 20 years old when assigned) were on the RPF for having had critical thoughts about DM coming up in session. This was the reason they got assigned to the RPF.

There were two valid L1 R/Sers and there were 3 valid chronic overt-product-makers, i.e. 5 out of about 60 were valid RPF assignments.

Some people on the RPF had been there for more than 10 years. One girl has been on the RPF since 1999 – 13 years in total. She was one of the most loved Class IX auditors but she didn’t pull major crimes when a public got nattery about DM so she went to the RPF. She was by far the best auditor on the entire RPF. She was REAL.

There is supposed to be an RPF I/C and a D/RPF I/C for Tech per the RPF FO’s to ensure the RPF is run standardly. The Flag RPF had none of these posts and we were mainly left alone. The RPF I/C HFA (Senior Qual Sec FLB) was mainly doing Basics sales and every now and then showed up at the RPF spaces to collect reports and most often to urge richer RPFers to donate to the IAS to help the FLB make its IAS reg quota.

During my 3 1/2 years on the RPF we had some 10 major “evolutions” whereby the RPF was off full-time around the clock to finish some construction project such as the new Oak Cove, the new Fort Harrison Hotel, new Crew Berthing or the Flag hosted international events at the Ruth Eckard Hall which the RPFers built all the staging for. So we would be working day and night for sometimes up to 2 months with no enhancement.

The RPF at Flag was however not cruel. Though work was sometimes around-the-clock, the psychological conditions, invalidations, etc which were present at Int, were not present at Flag. Hard work? Yes. Mental stress? No – at least not for me.

However I was in the tech unit from the very beginning and I got to audit, C/S and supervise and be hands-on, one-on-one applying Scientology to others, and despite altered FPRD and Sec checking tech, I could still get results. When I had done all the training I continued to just read HCOBs at night or any time I had and then I went right on to apply them to others. I became one of the most trusted tech terminals and I had no prior tech training. I took on review cases which had failed over and over again by Cl IX auditors at Flag and who were botched up and later RPFed. This gave me personal reality of the tech in application.

There were some great people on that RPF and we had a very strong third dynamic. These are the aspects I really liked, but all the rest is complete balderdash.

In retrospect though I think I had a very unique experience on the RPF because I took this opportunity to wholeheartedly try to absorb Scientology technology. Having months and months of delays throughout my 3 years and 5 months on the program I had ample time to study pretty much whatever I wanted and this included literally everything that was available – in pretty much chronological order, minus the exact references in my course packs when I was studying my RDD [Read it, Drill it, Do it] training line-up.

Another aspect which made my RPF experience unique was that I had spent 17 years at Gold prior to the RPF with pretty much no Scientology training or application. I did however get exposed to much of the background data on how the tech came to be, including reading all the Basics just before going to the RPF as well as naturally having listened to a fair amount of lectures by the simple expedient of working in audio. I also worked on the tech films – over and over again in the process of doing the soundtracks, as well as all the LRH films minus the ones on the OT levels.

These repetitive actions, including doing all of Dan Koon’s instant meter reads drills videos back in the 90’s inadvertently had instilled the certainty of instant reads and many basic laws of auditing, TRs and metering.

Of course before being shipped off to the RPF I received 250 hours of sec checking (audited confessional) at Gold by Lara Dolan – one of those teenage girls who had been trained to become one of the new breed of RTC interrogators. 250 hours of sec checking by a person who openly despised you [an ingrained attitude, not necessarily a reflections of the real person] and was the embodiment of ruthless, cold chrome. It was a lovely experience which of course gave me a very good idea of how “it is really done” – not!

I arrived to the Flag RPF with my twin Power Coleman in late Nov 2006 and we started our RDD training line-up which is the way of training on the RPF. My folders didn’t arrive on the RPF until about 6 months later and we couldn’t get going on auditing so Power and I continued our training line-up beyond what we needed for our program in preparation for other actions which may be needed. I trained up to become an Examiner which was my first post in the Tech Unit. There were two units on the RPF – the Deck Unit which did 5 hours of “redemption” (training and auditing towards redeeming yourself as a Sea Org member) every day and the rest deck work. The Tech Unit served the rest of the RPF as their technical staff during their redemption time and then we had our own redemption period in the afternoon.

When we finally got the folders we started auditing on FPRD both ways and we both tried to emulate what Lara Dolan had done on both of us before arriving on the RPF. Of course it was a disaster as neither one of us was “in session”, meaning willing to talk to the auditor and interested in own case – the prerequisite for a PC to be able to achieve ANY case gain.

One would think that this would be corrected, but instead we were “corrected” in the direction of being MORE ruthless, prying and “investigatory”. Here were two green guys (as far as auditor training was concerned) and we find ourselves being crammed (corrected) on advanced sec checking drills, interrogator beingness and other matters usually done at Grad V Auditor level – a much higher auditor training level.

This was of course the absolute wrong thing for us to do – what should have happened is we should have been crammed on the basics of auditing, which ironically was not even on any training line-up for the RPFers. We literally learned advanced sec checking tools before we learned a single basic auditing principle.

Both of us needed a review auditor to get us going again. In the meanwhile I had trained to become a co-audit supervisor. I had also gone through the basic auditing references contained in the very beginning training line-ups for Academy auditors and soon realized that the subject of FPRD is approached, taught and crammed in the direction of an HCO interrogation instead of auditing which it is.

Being a supervisor I constantly found that sessions failed because the RPFers didn’t know the basics of auditing. I couldn’t cram them as they hadn’t even studied these references, though they had studied pretty much everything pertaining to overts and withholds.

So I revised the training line-up and made people read the very basics of auditing before they even did TRs and metering so they would understand from the beginning why they were even doing TRs and metering. Bit by bit I got it instilled in the RPF that no auditing will work unless the basics of auditing, TRs and metering are applied, no matter how much investigatory procedure they knew.

This was backed up by some veterans who weren’t involved in the non-OT co-audit on a usual basis.

With this change actual auditing started to occur, including in my own twinship. The next hurdle however became our own C/S, an old GO operative who saw government agents in every corner – Dick Story. He was convinced that for two people to have been shipped off to the RPF from Int we must have been involved in seriously illegal stuff. He considered that our auditing, which was now running somewhat smoothly, was literally just pussyfooting around. So despite of our auditing finally running fine, we were constantly being crammed and corrected on advanced sec checking drills and we were asked to re-check questions he was convinced should have “more on it”. It wasn’t that he found wrong reads or non-existent FN’s while checking a question – he was convinced we were both theetie weetie and out of his own “knowingness” as a C/S he would have us constantly go backwards to re-check things; he added questions, etc, and as a result we were stuck.

I finally declared war on Dick Story and documented everything that had happened for the last several months, studied up on the C/S series and wrote a long report detailing his C/S “instructions” against the LRH policies and the exact areas of my twin’s worksheets. This got the attention of the D/Snr C/S Crew at Flag and he took Dick off as the C/S for us and we both got a new C/S who programmed a review auditor to clean up our extensive overrun. Then we started moving again.

By this time, as I had already studied the C/S series to be able to debug our own progress, I trained up to become a C/S and review auditor. I also had to do an Int (Interiorization) rundown on Power as well as running some NED on him based on a read on a correction list – so I eventually found myself having done the entire auditor and C/S training line-up up to Grad V – RDD style of course.

Moving forward a year and I had gotten Power through 50% of the program but I was only ¼ through. One problem I had was that I had received such a thorough sec check prior to the RPF that my 80 or so questions on the tailor-made sec check (FPRD style) wouldn’t read anymore on checking questions but I knew there were evil/false purposes there but we couldn’t get to them as almost all this-life time overt chains had already been flattened.

This caused an increasing frustration with my auditor Power who became convinced I wasn’t cooperating nor trying to get through the program. This attitude of him became very obvious in session so of course I wasn’t “in session” and of course, no results. This created an apathetic feeling of ever being able to get through and I asked to route out.

Power got re-twinned and I spent many months waiting for my folders to get FESed from Int. In this time I just studied and studied the HCOBs from beginning to the end in chronological sequence. After the FES finally arrived I was taken in for review auditing by a person who was a trained auditor and audited the PC for the PC – not the organization.

My now very expanded knowledge of the tech itself plus getting the right indications in session while blowing actual charge made me once again see that I could be audited and I decided to pursue the program with a new twin. The tech people seemed so dumbfounded by what to do with me I literally had to tell them that this was simply a matter of not receiving standard auditing and C/Sing and there were no mysteries if they just audited me for me and only cared about actual charge discovered on the meter – not what Gold thinks I should run, or the C/S is convinced I must be involved with, etc, etc.

So again my auditing progressed with a new twin. By this time I was the Review Auditor for the RPF and I really started to take an interest in debugging other stalled RPFers. This was my most rewarding activity while on the RPF.

I want to add that the majority of people on the Flag RPF were great people. They were not the scum at the bottom of the totem pole. Neither was the RPF program and deck work punitive or horrible. The RPF is often depicted and reported on in the media as a prison camp, and though some freedom aspects of the program can be likened to a prison, it honestly wasn’t that bad – factually it was a holiday compared to my previous experience at Gold.

The most common false data on the RPF (and seemingly at Flag) was to attribute ALL issues to overts and withholds. People who had trouble on post were only “handled” with ruthless interrogation techniques. Though overts and withholds of course could or were playing a part in it, getting to the bottom of those was not the panacea cure which would make the person a redeemed, contributing staff member.

So many factors were involved that made auditing practically impossible. Evaluation and invalidation were so rampant as to become the norm. Injustices were the order of the day and all this was compounded by the GAT trained “good” tech people who believed that a robotic, cold, out-of-ARC approach to the PC was the ONLY way of auditing.

There were 3 people on the RPF who demonstrably audited for the PC with ARC – all trained before GAT.  Alain Kartuzinski was one of them but I didn’t get to experience too much of him due to him being off all tech lines unless we internally organized him to “secretly” audit me –meaning without the knowledge of people outside the RPF. The other was Heather Crook, our Lead RPF C/S (OT V, Cl IX) and Josette Chiquet (OT VII, Cl IX). Josette was the best auditor I ever had. She was auditing me for me and I never even noticed her or the meter. She was also the most ridiculed and punished RPFer of all of them because she was “reasonable” and “CI” and had “serious MUs on PTS/SP technology”. Her “crime” was that she was “pattycake”, reasonable and didn’t get to the bottom of the “obvious” vicious crimes a PC must have had after expressing “disaffection with DM”.

On the contrary there was a hot-shot auditor with all the attributes of an RTC-supervised GAT line-up who came from CC Int for having screwed someone’s wife. He was hailed as the “best” auditor. He was revered for his TRs and metering but he didn’t have any ARC in session. He was stone cold, expressionless and made you feel very uncomfortable. He would wait for the needle to play Dixie while you just sat there looking at him hoping the needle did float.

From everything I had learned and now personally experienced on all flows here was Josette who demonstrably blew charge in my case and on everyone she took in session. She even had a terrible Swiss-German accent, not to mention her grammar, but none of that mattered – I was IN SESSION with her. But she was considered the most out-tech person on the RPF. However the guy from CC Int who had been trained under direct RTC supervision was cold, impersonal and very uncomfortable to be in session with, but that was of course attributed to “you have more overts and withholds…” What was wrong with this picture?

I continued the RPF program and finished my tailor-made sec check, the 1st and 2nd Dynamic FPRD forms and TRD (Truth Rundown). At this point something occurred. I knew I had examined most everything that had occurred while at Int and I could see my own exact causation in all I was involved with and I knew exactly what I had done and what others had done and I had an exact view of the state of Int and all other people involved. I had seen Truth for what it was.

This was however not an acceptable End Phenomena for the people at Int looking into my folders. Again months went by for them to review my TRD and instead of attesting to my TRD I got more black PR lines culled from my ethics files at Gold. They were culled by the very technically qualified Michelle Lundin – the Ethics Administrator. This included finding a session KR from a professional mixer who ran a withhold that he felt bad about being so acknowledged and rewarded by COB when Ulf had done the actual work. This was considered “black PR” by the Gold ethics people – my black PR??? Go and figure that one out. Another example was an ethics interview I had had where I mentioned “Peter”. I was talking about Peter Schless (a Gold staff member) but the Ethics Admin didn’t read it carefully enough to notice and reported that I spread black PR about another “Peter” – a hired professional mixer. When I was shown were my “black PR” came from I correctly clarified that this had nothing to do with the professional mixer – it was a mix-up of names – I was made to run the question anyway as the instruction “came from Int”.

While waiting to get word back from Gold I audited pretty much everything up to Grad V Auditor level, including much Grade 4 stuff. Handling computations was my favorite auditing. It was freewheeling, wild and I felt I understood what was going on with the PC and charge blew left, right and center though it got very loud and almost violent at times J

One poor girl came to the RPF as an out-2D case and she was a wreck. She was 17 years old and she hadn’t even really gone out-2D – her boyfriend had touched her tits… But that had become an RPF-able offense in the increasingly 2D-obssessive Flag Land Base.

She was told she had a chronic high TA, was an overwhelmed case and cried all the time. The FSO tech people had FESed her folders and evaluated that she was full of withholds. No auditing seemed possible as her needle wouldn’t clean up – it was the nastiest needle I had ever seen.

I asked to FES (Folder Error Summary) her folders (there were only 3) and C/S her from scratch. After the FES I suspected false TA (meter registering incorrectly because of physical factors) resulting in TA despair so I C/Sed a false TA checklist and C/S 53 (correction action to find what’s wrong with the PC.) I got my C/S approved by the Snr Crew C/S and then took her in session as the review auditor.

First I found that she always drenched her hands with hand cream before every session. When I asked why she told me her previous auditors always told her she had high TA. With hand cream her TA was between 1.9 – 2.1 and the needle was pretty much stuck with just small erratic movements, if any at all.

I asked her to go and wash her hands with soap and she did. She came back and her TA was at 3.9 but the needle was all over the place – now very reactive but anything but smooth.

She was however so unconfident that auditing would work on her I had to handle this factor first or I wouldn’t get any reads on the C/S 53. So to get her to feel some confidence in me and the subject of auditing itself I just spoke to her like a real person who cared for her and had her describe her past experience while observing the meter. The GAT trained co-audit supervisor was scolding me on the worksheets for adding additional communications into the C/S, but the girl literally thought that auditing didn’t work on her and all previous auditors had given up on her – top Flag auditors and she was anything but “in session”. I didn’t care what I had to do – if I didn’t get this girl “in session” nothing else would work.

I disregarded my co-audit supervisor and simply used ARC and communication and after I indicated some bypassed charge and acknowledged that there was nothing wrong with her or her TA and that it was simply the fact that she was made to put too much cream on, she blew down to 3.1 TA with tears in her eyes and the entire needle pattern chilled out.

At this point they wanted to replace me mid-session because I wasn’t “following the C/S” but Heather Crook came down as the Lead C/S, reviewed my worksheets and just told the co-audit sup to let me continue.

I assessed the C/S 53 and got some reads on rudiments – all pertaining to her coming to the RPF and they ran totally fine. We ran a withhold but just as a rudiment – no interrogation. Again the supervisor tried to correct me mid session to “pull more strings”, but I ignored him – per LRH this was a rudiment, not a sec check. The GAT trained supervisor wrote in my worksheet, “You’re on the RPF and she’s here for out-2D – pull further strings!!!” My PC was starting to go out-of session so I simply ignored him, and pulled the withhold to FN and continued.

(This was a common justifier by execs over the RPF by the way – “You’re an RPFer so you don’t have the right to have a case or pussyfoot around!” This may be justifiable as an attitude between an exec and an RPFer but certainly not when dealing with the tech – LRH made no exceptions for RPFers in his HCOBs but David Miscavige somehow had inside knowledge that this was acceptable and so it was pushed at all levels.)

Next I took up an LFBD read on “engram in restimulation” from the C/S 53. I assessed the NED Correction List and got a read on something like “Chain unflat”. There was no open chain per her FES but by just talking to her and observing the meter I found out that an incident had been restimulated due to a post situation with her senior and it had been keyed in ever since. She even gave me an item and it read with a duplicate LFBD to the original read.

I ran the item with a standard Dianetics Correction List and simply returned her to the incident. Bang, this girl goes into a whole chain of electroshock therapy and other brutal torture – shaking uncontrollably, screaming – all dramatizations being fully relived. Knowing my Dianetics this was what I expected so I just continued putting her through the incident. The rest of the course room was freaking out and the supervisor again wanted to step in and take over as this was “out gradient” for me. I refused to let someone take over and the PC didn’t notice this was going on as she had her eyes closed.

After the chain was taken to Basic and the postulate blown the TA was at 2.5 and the needle was a dial-wide FN and fully clean in its pattern.

The following day she FNed at session start and I ran two more chains when checking the other flows. No more reads on the C/S 53. The PC was repaired and ready for her RPF program!

Afterwards that girl became a toughie (in a good sense) getting on with the program and having no problems with FPRD or auditing in general. She was a different person from this meek, victim-type cry-baby that arrived to the RPF. Even the Crew C/S from Flag made a comment that an RDD trained RPFer cracked a case that no auditor or C/S from Flag could figure out…

Going through that experience convinced me utterly of the workability of the tech and how important it was to understand what auditing really was and that you only care about helping the PC in front of you and NOTHING else or it won’t work.

Observing this and many other similar auditing sessions as a review auditor while constantly getting my own auditing invalidated by executives, either from RTC or from Int or locally, I eventually came to the realization that the RPF program as currently run will never rehabilitate me. It certainly has the potential as a technical program to do so, but as the tech is not being applied for the PC, but for the organization and for the obtaining of “approvals” by RTC Representatives I knew I would never be able to finish the program without lying or conforming to someone or something that I was not.

Adding to this was the constant observations from early 2007 till the end of the nuttiness of the “Basics evolution” that was going on at Flag. Since the Basics got released the RPF was practically unsupervised. Any RPF-related staff including the RPF I/C and the Senior Qual Sec were assigned by their seniors to make the daily “Basics Sales Quota” or their entire office was not allowed to secure – policed by the D/IG MAA RTC Rep at Flag. Many others like Hy Levy have reported details about this evolution so I won’t get into much detail here. It is worth mentioning though that all the staff around us were walking around like zombies with red eyes and looking very tired as almost none of them slept more than 3-4 hours a night. The RPF I/C got re-posted as a full-time call-in person for the Basics. The Senior Qual Sec, now the RPF I/C held-from-above only came by when there was either a “flap” or when her office demanded that she goes to the RPF to reg the richer members, such as Alain Kartuzinski. In 2009 IAS regging became the focus as compared to the Basics. RPFers were literally woken up in the middle of the night to get regged. IAS regges as well as Super Power and Basics regges were granted “special permission” to talk to some RPF “prospects” to get donations.

By 2009 50% of the RPFers were assigned to the RPF because of “crimes” involving the Basics evolution – mostly prompted by financial irregularities conducted after inhumane threats and sleep deprivations if they didn’t make their daily quota. This included teenagers.

To then make the irony more ironic DM came up with a “bright” solution in 2009 to use RPFers to man up the newly renovated Forth Harrison hotel. Because DM ordered it, the FSO execs complied and 40% of the RPFers suddenly got “reprieved”. Their golden-rod issues said all kinds of honorary things about their progress, but the bullshit was that DM had ordered it and despite the policies on the RPF saying otherwise, 40% of the RPFers were reprieved and posted in the FH. The FSO execs were “tricky” however and managed to sneak out Dick Story (past crush registrar extraordinaire) because they needed to replace Hy Levy as a reg. So, Dick Story didn’t go to the FH, he went to the AO reg office, leaving his twin Alain Kartuzinksi in the middle of open questions on his FPRD form and in bad physical health. Less than a year later Alain dropped his body. I could make an entirely separate write-up on the craziness that surrounded this one single event, as well as the impact of the “Basics evolution”, but this write-up is already becoming too lengthy…

So, to conclude this, doing the RPF both gave me an unshakable certainty of the tech as well as an unshakable certainty that the powers that be at Int and RTC are not interested in creating self-determined individuals and staff members, but rather the opposite of conformed robots who align to an exact pattern of thought or behavior. I wrote this up in a petition as well as other forms of communications to various people I hoped would be able to possibly share some of my observations. The only response I got in the end amounted to being “FAR from completing the RPF”.

Having actually fully handled the ruins that resulted in me going to the RPF and having seen Truth fully there was no hope in site and I decided to route out again. So I spent another 7 months routing out. Luckily I got Josette assigned to be my auditor for the leaving sec check. This was great while it lasted but someone found out from high above and it was adjudicated that the RPF MAA had to do my sec check. Here we go again. Another person who openly despises me and believes I’m no good and shows it in session is now auditing me. After some months of just answering questions to the satisfaction of those reading the reports, including making up stories and overts just to satisfy those reading the worksheets while thinking happy thoughts to get the needle to FN, I finally “finished” and was allowed to route out.

The ultimate irony is that my RPF experience made me a Scientologist, and, it made me divorce myself forever from the corporate Scientology organization which practices reverse Scientology and creating people who become the opposite of what L. Ron Hubbard intended with auditing.

I just wanted to share this with you Marty and again thank you for your books and all you do! I am honored to consider you my friend and I hope we can meet in person again in the future!

Cheers, Ulf

Scientology’s Underground Railroad

The CBS affiliate in Corpus Christi is educating the region on the cult of corporate Scientology and the underground railroad necessitated by its abuses:

Scientology segment on KZTV Corpus Christi

Thanks to Marc and Claire for helping in the educational process.

Update: NBC affiliate coverage

Billion Dollar Babies – Cruise and Miscavige

While I was going through my decompression from Scientology Inc. my wife and I watched Paul Haggis‘ Oscar-winning film Million Dollar Baby.   The movie prompted me to have the first in-depth discussion on the subject of Scientology that I had had since leaving the cult.   I pointed out to Monique Haggis’  wonderful depiction of a number of elements of L. Ron Hubbard’s seminal work, The Code of Honor.

I was to later learn that David Miscavige and his deputy Tom Cruise had quite an opposite reaction to Haggis’ award-winning work.

Movie guys Tom and Dave on a date

I covered it in The Scientology Reformation: What Every Scientologist Should Know, as follows:

At first, Wilhere acted as if this surprise encounter and Tom’s immediate cottoning to Nazanin (Boniadi) would take priority over the “secret mission” for which she’d been selected. But after Nazanin lived with Cruise for a couple of weeks, the heights of Miscavige’s conceit apparently made him forget to inform Nazanin that the “secret project” had been cancelled. Nazanin began to suspect her encounter with Cruise was set up from the beginning.  She was so overwhelmed, though, by the affections of the number-one movie star in the world and the number-two Scientologist in the world, that she was afraid to create an upset. Her trepidation was exacerbated by the fact that she was constantly being coached by Tommy Davis and his then-wife Nadine, as well as Tommy’s future wife Jessica Feshbach, on how to act around Cruise. They were clearly working for the boss, David Miscavige, and the coaching was constantly reinforced with implications that her pleasing Tom Cruise was the most important thing in the world of Scientology.

Ultimately, Cruise’s own behavior became so erratic that Nazanin had difficultly continuing to play the obedient wife-to-be.

One evening, while Miscavige and his wife Shelly were visiting Tom’s home in Telluride, Colorado, they watched a private screening of the Paul Haggis written, Oscar-winning movie Million Dollar Baby. David Miscavige proclaimed extreme distaste for the movie, saying the content indicated that Paul Haggis, a Scientologist at the time, was a depraved person.

“Yeah,” Tom piled on, “what is up with Haggis? Is he back on board?”

Miscavige asserted, “No, that film was so low-toned and completely psych-oriented.”

“Yeah,” Tom double-piled on, “he needs to get his ethics in.”

Tom and Dave apparently prefer billion dollar babies to million dollar babies:

Investigation Into The Death of Alexander Jentzsch

Der Spiegel magazine in Germany has published a feature article on the mysterious and heartbreaking case of Alexander Jentzsch:  Der Spiegel.  See the German to English translation at the end of this post.*

Karen De La Carriere and I – along with appropriate law enforcement agencies – are actively investigating the death of Alexander.  There are too many unanswered questions to let this matter rest.  Scientology Inc. has gone into full-scale cover-up mode in hiding the circumstances of Alexander’s untimely death.  It has taken the following extraordinary measures to keep the truth hidden:

a)   “OT VIII” Stan Gerson is a numbered OSA agent.  He is listed in the OSA spies list maintained by OSA and published on this blog,  Scientology spy network exposed.   On that list, under ‘production data’ Stan is listed as ‘spokesperson at events .’  He is also listed as “trusted” by OSA.   Gerson was directed by OSA Int to send out a creepy Public Relations email broadly about Alexander’s funeral event at Scientology Inc’s celebrity center.  The event and email were  a thinly veiled ‘proof of life’ photo op for the imprisoned president of church of Scientology International (and father of Alexander) Heber Jentzsch.  The email also attempted to cover-up the plethora of questionable circumstances surrounding Alexander’s untimely death.   The funeral event itself was an attempted P.R. handling after Karen publicized that Scientology Inc promised  her that no such event would occur.

b)   The LA County Coroner has been obstructed in his investigation by Scientology Inc arranging for the representation of the man, Jeffery Thomas Evans,  in whose home Alexander’s dead body was found deceased. The lawyer Scientology assigned to Evans was the same lawyer who was retained to prosecute and silence Scientology Inc escapee Daniel Montalvo.   See this video tape where private eyes, surveilling and attempting to intimidate Daniel, tell the identity of the lawyer that retained them,  Vicki Podberesky:

Podberesky is now serving as a cover-up buffer between the Coroner and Scientology Inc witnesses (and persons of interest in the investigation) to the death of Alexander.

c)  Scientology Inc. has brought their ace of dirty tricks out of mothballs to flank the cover up.  Dave Lubow who coordinated and laundered money for the 199-day overt harassment operation against me and my wife last year has not been seen or heard from for ten months since being run out of Ingleside on the Bay on a rail.   But Lubow has suddenly re-appeared on the scene attempting to intimidate investigators of Alexander’s death with creep-out ops.

Dave Lubow

The reason for this announcement here and now is to alert those fence sitters, under the radar folk, and others who might have information about Alexander’s final months that you can reach either me or Karen and have your identity protected and any chances of Scientology Inc. retaliation obliterated.

A gifted young man has been killed and Scientology Inc. is dead set on covering it up.  If you have any information about Alexander over the past year you may possess a critical link to solving this crime.

You must examine your conscience before deciding to remain silent.

You can reach Karen at Karendelac@gmail.com

You can reach me at howdoesitfeel@hushmail.com

Karen and Marty are investigating

*Der Spiegel translation:

The case of Alexander Jentzsch

Living and dying through Scientology

By Mona Botros

Alexander Jentzsch died at the age of 27 years, his last name is well known to people close to Scientology around the world.: His Father is the international spokesperson for the Scientology Organization, the mother a well know dissident of the church. The cult controlled Alexander’s life, the circumstances of his death are mysterious.

Karen de La Carriere at first did not realize what she was reading when she was casual going through her Facebook messages: “Do you know Alexander Jentzsch is dead?”

De La Carriere told us, at first she thought there was a confusion with the name. But this was not about her 75 year old former husband Heber Jentzsch, it was indeed Alexander, her son.

He became 27 years old and died in the beginning of July 2012. His death has a number: 2012-04365. This is the case number of the authorities in Los Angeles. There were no signs of physical violence, no indications for a suicide, so the coroner. A toxicology report is expected to provide more information about the cause of death.

The name Jentzsch is well known to people close to Scientology around the world. Since 1982 is Alexander’s father the international spokesperson of the Scientology organization. He was the public face of Scientology up to the early 90’s. His mother was personally recruited and trained by Scientology founder L. Ron Hubbard .

“He begged me to sign”

Scientology believes they already know what caused Alexander’s death. In an email broadcast a long term Church Scientologist and godfather of Alexander announced Alexander died from adverse reactions to prescription medications he was taking because of chronic back pain after a traffic accident. A surprising announcement, given the fact that medications are frowned upon in Scientology.

Alexander Jentzsch was a handsome boy with dark eyes. He was seen at galas events at the side of celebrities like John Travolta and Chick Chorea.

But his life was not glamorous at all. The family unit starts to disintegrate when Alexander was 3 years old. Karen falls into disgrace with Scientology leader David Miscavige, when she speaks her mind.  So David Miscavige orders the separation of Karen and Heber. The divorce follows in 1988. Alexander lives from now on with his mother, the father is ordered to pay $280 monthly alimony for his son.  “In Reality Heber never paid a dime. How could he, with an income of 12 dollar per week?”  says de la Carriere.

She fights to get herself and her son through. Although the parents have shared custody, Alexander almost never sees his father, as Heber represents Scientology around the globe. Alexander suffered his whole life from the separation of his father.

At the age of 8 Alexander is recruited into the Sea Org., the lite organization of Scientology.  The lure must have been irresistible for the young boy. “They told him he would be able to spend plenty of time with his father.”, remembers de la Carriere. “He begged me to sign”.  Alexander goes to a boarding school outside of Los Angeles.

“Any information is controlled”

3 Years later Alexander is transferred to the Fort Harrison Hotel in Clearwater Florida the spiritual mecca of the cult. Scientologists from all over the world come to this place to participate in expensive courses. The boy has to clean toilets and scrub the floors among other things up to 12 hours a day, so says his mother.  An education?  None.

Soon something happens that will burden Alexander for the rest of his life and is only years later to become known.

A 40 year old female Scientologists and coworker rapes Alexander when he is 12 years old. Not once but repeatedly is Alexander raped. When Scientology internally became aware of the situation, there was a quick response. Within 24 hours Alexander is shipped to the West Coast, to prevent authorities in Florida to get access to the boy.

During grueling hour long interrogations the message is driven home to the boy: He is never to speak about this.  Only 14 years later de la Carrier learns about the rape of her son.  Church dropouts who were involved in the  cover-up, tell her what happened to Alexander. “I remember the moment I picked up Alexander from the airport and his inability to look me in the eyes”, says Karen. “I do not dare to imagine what they have done to him.”

The department of Scientology handling such situations is called “Office of Special Affairs” or OSA.  Their primary goal is to prevent any possible damage for Scientology.  The official task of OSA is public relations and legal affairs, but in reality it is kind of a private secret service.

Deported to Prison Camp

Mike Rinder knows the family Jentzsch. He worked closely with Heber Jentzsch, since Alexander was a toddler. He experienced how the President of the Church of Scientology increasingly fell out of favor with David Miscavige. “David Miscavige beat and humiliated Heber”, says Rinder. “DM could not stand the fact Heber was widely well liked and respected.” Miscavige gave less and less tasks to heber and at one point Heber was gone completely.  He was transferred to the international headquarter 2 hours drive east of Los Angeles. “There he got locked up in the hole”, reports the former OSA boss.

“The hole”. 2 small office buildings retrofitted to function as a prison camp specifically for Scientology executives. This is where Heber Jentzsch lives since 2006 based on the description of Rinder under pitiful conditions.  Heber Jentzsch had no free access to his son Alexander. Mike Rinder knows what he is talking about. He saw the aging President of the Church, when he himself was locked up in the hole.

Scientology objected to Rinders descriptions: Jentzsch lives and works in the church facilities. “Due to his age he rarely is seen in public compared to the past”, a church lawyer wrote in a note to SPIEGEL ONLINE. Heber was “proud at 50 years continuous service and so are we.” Incidentally  Scientology does not want to make any further statements about the Jentzsch family or Alexander’s death.

Alexander was isolated in his last two years of life, not only from his father but also from his mother. She left the church in 2010 and is since then a member of the “Independent Scientologists” movement. This community still believes in Hubbard’s teachings and practiced his methods.

When de la Carriere became too critical of the organization, they declared her an enemy of Scientology. Henceforth, no Scientologist may be in contact with her, not even her own son. “Alexander called me and said that I should not call him anymore and do not send e-mails.”

Disconnection til death

In 2010 Alexander Jentzsch and his wife Andrea leave the Sea Org, but remain members of the church. Andrea is expecting a child and those are not wanted in the elite organization. The couple tries to build a new life in Texas but experience several setbacks. Andrea loses the child and Alexander gets fired from his job.  They are drifting apart; “Just before his death, he changed his status on Facebook.” His mother remembers.

Alexander returns to the west coast, alone and penniless. He can’t ask his mother, by now a successful art dealer, for help. He stays with his in-laws, which live in the northern part of Los Angeles. They tell the police later, that he went to bed in the morning of July 2nd. He wasn’t feeling well and was complaining about a fever. In the evening he is still lying there the same way.  Nobody calls a doctor. The next morning there is an emergency call to 911. Alexander is dead.

A couple of days later, somebody slips some pictures to the grieving mother, taken two weeks before his death. Alexander is laughing into the camera. “It looked like he was doing fine,” Karen says in despair. Why did the young man die?

Ed Winter, speaker of the Coroner’s office in Los Angeles, says that they found prescription drugs close to the body. And: “We have evidence that he was already dead for a while before the emergency call was made in the morning of July 3rd.” Die investigation continues, Alexander’s death remains a mystery.

On July 10th, there is a yacht going out to sea in Los Angeles. The sky is bright blue, the ocean quiet. There is a heat wave, the first of the summer. The thermometer is climbing up to 100 degrees. On board of the ship is the urn with Alexander’s ashes. When his remains are set free, there is no memorial.

Karen de la Carriere is organizing one three days later. She wasn’t allowed to bury her own son. “Scientology has intervened in the matter and enforced our separation even after Alexander’s death,” Karen tells. Even one last look at his body was denied by her daughter in law.

What Is Wrong With Scientology? Is Now Available

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Excerpt from Chapter Seven – Confessional:

 In this wise, a new moral code is imposed upon individuals, covertly and against their own determinisms.  It is exacerbated by repeated questioning about the individual’s failure to report on other Scientologists.  After a while, a corporate Scientologist modifies her behavior accordingly, in order to avoid more security checks.  She not only edits her own behavior and thoughts, she attempts to do the same with Scientologist friends and family members, so that she does not get into trouble for overlooking such transgressions of others.  Thus, a process that was originally intended to free a person from the self-imposed mental prison she has created by her own inability to live up to what she considers right and ethical conduct becomes reversed.  The preclear is instead forced to agree to a new mental prison, imposed by the organization based on what it decrees to be right or wrong.  In short, the process replaces a person’s native judgment with a new judgment of its own.  In practice, it is a dark and painful operation, making a person less self-determined and more other-determined.

    It seems that the only solution open to corporate Scientologists to cope and carry on within their culture is to become moralists.  Moralists who enforce on self and others morals which have been implanted.  If corporate Scientologists police their own conduct fastidiously enough, and interfere enough with the behavior and conduct of their fellows, they reckon they might be spared the cost, embarrassment and pain of being ordered to further batteries of security checks. In fact, that is the only behavior that does avoid continual, expensive, and degrading security checks in corporate Scientology.

    This is yet another example of Scientology Inc.’s  reversal of end product.  Confessional technology was developed with the purpose to help an individual recognize she is the cause of her own destiny – and it has a long history of realizing that purpose.  This priceless technology has been twisted and corrupted to the point where now the individual winds up with her destiny blueprinted and dictated by the church.

    These blueprints are enforced through a related – and now similarly corrupted – technology of Scientology: the technology of ethics.

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