Samantha “Sam” Domingo – UK Independent

Sam with friend Chrissie Pearlman

My Dearest Friends,
As I write this my final declaration of independence as a Scientologist and make my decision to openly declare my disconnection from that entity which calls itself ‘The Church of Scientology’ I thus end the journey of discovery I began so many years ago and begin my life again.

Telling my story was a difficult decision to make – it is personal and it is painful. However, by opening my heart to other independents who have done likewise I know I will fully begin to heal and hopefully my story will help others to heal. Here it is – believe it or not in a very brief version!

It began in the summer of 1988 when I traveled at the age of 21 to Amsterdam looking for adventure. There I met a man who introduced me to the subject of Scientology and got me to buy and read Dianetics. From the moment I opened the book I knew I had found answers to the questions I had been asking all my life. The more I learned about Scientology and L. Ron Hubbard, the more I knew I had found truth and purpose in life. Everything I learned made sense. I knew I could use the technology of Dianetics and Scientology to help people, help myself and make the world a better place. At the same time I fell in love with the world of Scientology, I fell in love also with the man who had introduced me to the subject. For the first time in my life I was truly happy. The next year or so was idyllic. Little did I suspect then that this short year of happiness was yet a precursor of the pain that would follow.

Fast forward to 1989 when we both joined the Sea Organization at Saint Hill. We had planned to be married before we joined the Sea Organization knowing that there were strict rules about co-habitation amongst un-married Sea Org Members. As there were logistics problems to getting married right away, we got engaged and went ahead and joined up. The purpose of helping LRH to clear the planet and dedicating the rest of our lives to help others was irresistible to both of us and we couldn’t wait to jump on board.

Within a few short months life became intolerably miserable. Meager food and money rations and the debased living conditions were bad enough. On top of this my relationship with my fiance began to suffer as we were not allowed to live together or have any form of intimate contact (other than holding hands). I blew once with my fiance and returned a week later wracked with guilt. I disconnected from my mother when I was persuaded that my erratic behavior (wanting to leave) was because she was suppressive and was causing me to ‘roller coaster’. My instinct told me that this was not LRH and this was not the way Scientology was supposed to be. However, everyone else around me insisted that it was just the way things were and it was the bad people out there preventing expansion and happiness. Group opinion rules so eventually I (sort of) fell in line.

For those who have never been part of this group I’m sure that the first question would be “why did you agree?” All I can say in my defense was that I, like my friends and fellow Sea Org Members, was driven by the certainty that LRH was a good man and that our fellow Sea Org Members were good people. We had formed such a bond of brotherhood and mutual trust and respect that when we let each other down, we felt that we had failed our friends and LRH. We did not know that we were being duped by a suppressive at the very top of the church.

Shortly after I disconnected from my mother, I was sent to LA for training on a new technical rundown. While I was there my fiance was sent to Africa on a mission.

Six months later I returned to the UK. Then within weeks of my return, my fiance was sent back from his mission in Africa placed under justice actions for some crime he had supposedly committed (forming a relationship with a female Sea Org Member while in Africa). I was informed that he was going to be ‘offloaded’ from the Sea Organization and Declared a Suppressive Person. I was given the choice to leave with him or stay in the Sea Organization. I was not allowed to speak with him alone. Meanwhile I was convinced by senior Sea Org Members that he was a very bad person because of what he had done and that he was actually suppressive and had been destroying me. I was also shown his ethics files and reports of earlier ‘crimes’ he had committed in a very convincing campaign to thoroughly turn me against him. In my state of grief and shock it worked. A few days later my fiance was offloaded from the Sea Organization and I pawned my engagement ring for enough money to buy a bottle of wine and some chocolate and got drunk with a close friend. That done, it was back on post and back to work! I suppose this was the end of any personal integrity, truth or happiness for some time. From there on out it was all business and just getting on with the job. The pain was neatly buried.

Coincidental to the above I had made the origination that I had received past life auditing and had already reached certain states of OT. This was ignored and I was told that it really didn’t matter as I would have to re-do all of my grades anyway. As I had no interest in doing this I pretty much decided I just wouldn’t bother with any Bridge as there didn’t seem to be any point. I did have a lot of sec checking though! Usually right after I had blown the Sea Org yet again and returned like the prodigal daughter.

Sometime around 1993 I was the Keeper of Technology and Policy (KOT) for the UK (a lofty post for a book one trained auditor but I made it work). By the winter of 1994 I had been busted off of this post and ‘put on the decks’ This basically meant that everyone had had enough of me (I wouldn’t profess to have been an angel by any means) so I was given a pick axe and told to dig a hole at the back of the castle. I would have been put on the RPF but my senior up the lines in LA had refused to allow this. After about a month of digging my hole (which did not grow much bigger despite my frustrated hacking due to the fact that the ground was frozen solid) I was told that I was being sent to LA for a comm ev and would remain there to be trained fully on my post.

I arrived in LA and was driven to Celebrity Center International, where despite initial protest I was quickly trained and posted as a supervisor. I wasn’t entirely happy but soon found a nice boyfriend who was also working there and because of the rules about intimate relationships we quickly got married. Life was pretty much OK until about a month into the marriage when I discovered (despite being on birth control) I was pregnant. (oops!) Being the innocent I was back then I figured we would have to simply leave the Sea Org (as Sea Org Members were not allowed to stay if they had children) and just make the best of it. Life shock number two was about to occur.

I was hauled off to ethics and asked what I was going to do about this ‘situation’. Horrified I asked what this meant and was then told specifically that I should seriously consider having an abortion as this would be for the greater good. Later the same day my new husband informed me that he had spoken to the Commanding Officer at CCInt and they were both ‘on to me’ (apparently I had been plotting to get pregnant all along so that I could force my husband to leave the Sea Org). Disgusted at my husband’s behavior and – well – gobsmacked that anyone would think me capable of such treachery I did what any brainwashed, spun in, PTS idiot would do and went ahead with an abortion. The Ethics Officer at Celebrity Center was very helpful in setting up arrangements for me to go to a free clinic where the abortion would not have to be paid for and I was even given a week or two off to recover. As a footnote, two weeks after my abortion a young Sea Org member at celebrity center approached me and asked me in hushed tones where I had gotten my abortion as she too had fallen pregnant and needed to get this ‘handled’. It was many years before I recovered from the guilt of my actions. I watched in a sort of dazed bewilderment as I inexplicably flushed my personal integrity down the toilet yet again. Needless to say divorce followed shortly thereafter and I was single again.

Always fast to bounce back however, I soon fell in love once more. This time it was to the son of a high profile celebrity who had just joined the Sea Org. Soon I had charmed the pants off of him too – the one snag was that he was in the middle of a divorce so we had to stay at arms length and just be friends until the divorce was finalized. We both knew this and so we followed the rules and would simply meet on breaks at the Church for coffee and a chat.

All of a sudden we were both hit with heavy ethics actions for having ‘2D flows’ towards each other and ordered to ‘disconnect’. We were both astounded and spent days trying to get someone to explain what it was exactly we were doing and what the LRH reference was that said we couldn’t be in communication with each other. The Ethics Officer was relentless and apparently there were reports that had been written on us by other people in the organization who were somehow able to perceive these mysterious invisible entities called 2D flows. After being pounded and hounded for weeks, the new man in my life had had enough and demanded we just leave. We blew together (I was getting awfully good at this by now) but once again I was just as easily persuaded to return to the church the next day so that we could ‘do things standardly and avoid being declared suppressives’. This was all done with the usual promises that everything would be fine, no-one would interfere with us and we would be able to leave together in a couple of days.

A week later somehow I found myself locked up in the security office at Celebrity Center. Meanwhile my partner in crime had been offloaded from the Sea Organization and had disappeared. I’m not quite sure how that happened but it was all very smooth. I also agreed a few weeks later to go on the RPF and was personally escorted to the PAC base by a security official and handed over, all without quite being sure just how I had been talked into doing such an insane thing when I was completely sure at that point that I really wanted to leave the Sea Org and have nothing more to do with it. Conditions were grim. I will not document them here for the sake of expediency as they have been well documented elsewhere.

I managed to get with the program for a good few weeks and was quite enjoying myself on the RPF and quickly made friends. However, the fact that I was escorted around the base and watched 24 hours a day did not sit well with my rebellious side and a couple of weeks later slipped my leash and called my boyfriend. He wasn’t doing so well so a few weeks later I jumped out of a 4th story window onto a tree, climbed down, escaped from the base and got him to come and pick me up from a local phone booth I found in Hollywood. I was soon rounded up however and toddled off obediently back to the RPF after I was promised that I would be able to route out of the RPF quickly if I just returned to ‘do things standardly’. This time however, when I returned I was swiftly put on plane (escorted to the gate by a church security goon) and packed off to England where it was considered I was far enough away that I would not be able to cause any more trouble.

This time it was my boyfriend who caused the trouble (not me!) he found me in the UK and got a flight booked for me to return to the US where he would be waiting for me.

My boyfriend and I decided at that point that we were going to get married and would walk away from the church. However, we were soon contacted by the president at Celebrity Center International and persuaded to go and see her as she wanted to ‘talk to us’.

We arrived at Celebrity Center and I was put into a room by myself with my boyfriend waiting in another room. There I was told (by the President) that I was without a doubt going to be declared a Suppressive Person. She informed me that this meant that I would never be eligible to do my OT levels this lifetime. It was entirely up to me whether I wanted to wish the same fate on my boyfriend but she wanted me to think long and hard about whether I wished to be the cause of his never being able to achieve spiritual freedom this lifetime. Wow! She left me alone with my thoughts and then allowed my boyfriend back into the room to see me where it was hoped that I would do the right thing and break up with him to spare him from a fate worse than death. Instead I told him everything she had told me. Upon this news, his face took on quite a threatening demeanor! “We are leaving right now!” he told me through gritted teeth. And we walked away.

When we reached his apartment we got a panicked phone call saying that it was all a big mistake and if I returned to the RPF and ‘routed out standardly’ it was completely fine and no-one was going to be declared. My boyfriend growled and got protective and refused to entertain the idea but I agreed to give it one last shot and this time it actually worked. After two weeks of intense sec-checking and plant checking I was finally ‘allowed’ to leave. The success of finally getting myself routed out might have had something to do with the threats my boyfriend was making in the background of personally getting a chopper flown in to the base to pick me up if anyone dared cross us again.

We walked away from the church determined not to return. We created three children (beautiful girls) together and life was good.

I wish we could say we are still happily married and lived happily ever after but it isn’t the case.

Around 1998 we returned to the church for services. We paid our freeloader debts and moved up the Bridge to OTV.

To document the out-tech and out-ethics we both encountered along the way would require a separate story and one that would make this write up far too long. Suffice to say that Black Dianetics, Black Scientology and Black Ethics was the undoing of our marriage. All of our family members suffered. The out-tech included (but in no-way is limited to) invalidation of case state, running OT procedures incorrectly, added inapplicable (and random) sec-checking and FPRD, evaluations and having to re-do NED (dianetics) after attesting to OT III. All adding up to hundreds of thousands of dollars of damage which had to be cleaned up with yet more auditing (and more money).

Yes we got gains from LRH technology and our OT levels – you cannot study and receive Scientology services without huge wins and gains. However, the corruption of the church and the technology was too great. The last leg of the final destruction was played out at Flag – the Mecca of Technical perfection where it had been hoped that good and happiness and sanity would be restored. Instead we were all subjected to callous, greedy and uncaring robots (that is what the Sea Org has been reduced to at Flag) who through lack of sleep, the unrelenting pressure of the next reg cycle and the eventual complete erosion any remnants of their own personal integrity, were instrumental in bringing complete chaos into the lives of our family members. We were never able to recover. Our marriage ended bitterly and I removed myself and my children from the church..

There is a happy ending to this story. When I made the decision to walk away I immediately recovered my own personal integrity and dignity and pride. I was rewarded with a swift de-PTSing and discovery of TRUTH through Marty and all of my new found friends. I re-connected with real Scientologists and real OTs and for the first time since discovering Scientology was freed of nagging doubts. Now I know why I was such a confounded trouble maker and I know that all along, despite our best efforts we were up against David Miscavige – an SP that we just couldn’t see. I found MY group. I am happy and proud to join your ranks. I also discovered that despite the many times I have walked away from the church I never walked away from LRH and I never walked away from my group. They were here, on the outside, all along.
I have been back in communication with my mother for some years (and most assuredly she is not a suppressive person!). I have three beautiful girls – the remnant of my marriage, who are quickly becoming strong independent young women. Life is good.

My story should be considered my doubt announcement. I will be forwarding this to everyone I know on BOTH sides. To those of you who are still lost among the lies I urge you to go look for yourselves. I have sent you the link to my story – there are more stories to be read here and there is much more to be known. Don’t let other people tell you ‘it’s entheta’ and ‘you cannot look’. The only way out is the way through. It isn’t all pleasant but it never is pleasant the first time you run yourself through an engram – and yet you always come out laughing on the other side. You know who I am and you know I would not make these statements lightly. LOOK DON’T LISTEN!

As for the rest of you – welcome back fellow rebels 🙂

Love From
Samantha (Sam) Domingo.

103 responses to “Samantha “Sam” Domingo – UK Independent

  1. Well put Sam! I’m so happy for you and your daughters. You are setting a great example for them not just as their mother, but as a strong woman who has made the decision to maintain her integrity.

    The support in this new community is strong as I’m sure you know.

  2. Kathy Braceland

    Hey Sam,

    Wow…what a heart wrenching story. Thanks for giving such a detailed account.

    I loved the jumping out of a 4 story window into a tree bit…damn! What determinism!

    It’s so great that you pulled out of all of it and are flying high again. I’m glad you’re here.

  3. What’s most revealing about stories such as yours, Sam, is how the entire house of cards comes crashing down when the lie holding DM’s reign in place – that there actually is “Clearing the Planet” going on – is exposed as the fraud that it is.

    It’s so tragic to hear of all the crimes committed and obscene sacrifices demanded in the name of “Clearing the Planet”.

    The reality is that everyone in the S.O. is far too busy putting out fires or playing irrelevant tangential little games – or, worse, cracking rocks in a chain gang – to pay the slightest attention to the Big Picture.

    I’m starting to see that Scientology would be further along in its evolution if it was just allowed to germinate naturally.

    In other words, NO Sea Org, no IAS regges lurking like vampires in the NOTS lounge, no INT “Command Intention” and most of all, no David Miscavige “continuing LRH’s work”.

    The stats don’t lie: Under DM’s reign, the CoS has never been more polarizing to the world, never been meaner to its own, never been more desperate and can’t stop pulling in the worst PR imaginable.

    The end result of all of this is (a) cutting reach for the Tech from the curious and (b) alienating and ultimately forcing the withdrawal of those who have cognited.

    In other words, the destruction of Scientology.

    In the meantime, Hoover up money like it’s sand in the Sahara and build edifices to your grandeur.

    Except that both the buildings and the grandeur turn out to be empty.

  4. Dear Sam, WELCOME!! I always loved your “trouble maker” spirit, which we recognized in each other when you were my sup back in the CCI days. It is great to have you out in the light! VWD!!!!!

  5. Glad you got out from under the suppression. Note that when children become unimportant to society it has forfeited its future per LRH. This applies to the S.O. under DM’s rule. I can’t believe it’s gotten down to suppressing 2D flows. This was never a misdemeanor/crime under LRH. It just gets more and more insane. I truly feel sorry for the pale sterile robots left behind. It wouldn’t suprise me if DM starts ordering hysterectomies/vasectomy’s (oops sorry – it probably gave him a bright idea) I wouldn’t put it past him, imagine the lawsuits that ensue later from that – then more intense IAS regging to unsuspecting parishioners going more and more broke unable to pay for their Bridges, just slaves to paying for DM’s High Crimes. Eventually, even the descendents of Hitler are overthrown.

  6. Dear Sam,
    Anything I can say here is anti-climactic to your words and the incredible story, even abridged, that you’ve written.

    At the end of it, you said the simplest truth, that is SO true. Like confronting an engram for the first time, yep, it’s unpleasant, but if confronted and run out you’ll get up the scale and can laugh. With all that much life force recovered.

    The large pool of free theta has just expanded exponentially with your contribution.

  7. Wow Sam, great to “see” you again! I am very happy to know that you and your lovely daughters are well.

    Thank you for speaking up.

  8. Dear Sam, very well done on your decision to join our ranks. You almost made my own story look like a walk in the park. Big hug of support from sardinia.

  9. This is my life in 2010 so far:

    1. Wake up
    2. Coffee
    3. Sun glasses
    4. Marty’s Blog
    5. ….
    6. WIN!

    I had to insert #3 as it is getting blindingly bright in here.

    Welcome Sam! Love your insouciance!

  10. Martin Padfield

    Hi Sam,

    Well done! I know you had to handle a lot to take this step, and all power to you for having the backbone and carry-through to do it.

    We may be amongst the first to go Indie here, but we sure as heck won’t be the last! Lets get together soon.

  11. “It began in the summer of 1988 when I traveled at the age of 21 to Amsterdam looking for adventure.”

    I hope you had a good time in our Capital Sam. I wish you all the best. You alsoo saved your children wich makes me salute you !

    I wonder who has to tell DM the bad news these days. Is he obsesively sitting behind a computer browsing the Internet himself maybe, or is he delving into his big stack of expensive scotch ? Maybe both at the same time.

    He keeps that stock of scotch well up if I believe an Ex-SO/Still Scientologist person I had the fortune to talk to. The person was told to stack the incoming scotch as it arrived. (this was less than a year ago).
    If this rings unthrue I am happy to listen to alternate views or first hand expieriences on the scotch topic.

  12. If we’ve inhabited this planet for millions of years, then why be in such a hurry to straighten things out? If it takes a thousand years, that’s still less than a blink of an eye in the scheme of things. If you believed the universe is six thousand years old and could come to an end any day, I could understand why you might be in a rush.

    Let things play out in their natural course.

    Also — and I’m not sure exactly where this fits, but I’ve been meaning to throw it out there — all of LRH’s writings, lectures, and research can and should be public domain, freely available on the internet for everyone. I cannot see any legitimate reason that this should not be so. I don’t know how this gets accomplished from a legal standpoint, but I wonder if RTC/CSI/CST could be sued on the basis of violating some legal duty as trustee of LRH’s works.

  13. “Now I know why I was such a confounded trouble maker and I know that all along, despite our best efforts we were up against David Miscavige – an SP that we just couldn’t see.”

    That was my favorite line. I was a trouble maker too at times but if we were getting the stats up and noticeably making a difference where you could sit down and do a realistic Product Clearing, I’d have been tone 40 and gung ho and all that. At the end of my SO time, I eventually found a way to do that but it involved knowing I’d get in trouble. Doesn’t matter to you when you’ve got policy on your side though.

    Instead through most of my career I had a hard time staying tone 40 because I’d have to be excited about calling orgs everyday while in Ext Comm for example, which is squirrel.

    “Welcome back fellow rebels.” That was nice too, well done.

  14. Thanks Natalie – I read your declaration too.
    Like you I know that this is not only setting an example for our children, but protecting them and ensuring that they will make it. They give me strength and I am so thankful that I got to the truth before I lost them as so many others have. This is in a large part due to Marty and this group so thank you also for ‘coming out’

  15. Hi Kathy!
    Read yours too – nice job!
    The tree was a bit risky. I thought I was going to wind up in a hospital with two broken legs. I’m pretty sure there was some big thetan looking down on me that day because right when I thought I couldn’t hold on any longer the tree branch broke and let me down gently to the ground. Luck?

  16. Hello Huck.
    You are absolutely right on all fronts!
    Interesting point on the Sea Org though:
    What is the Sea Org? A group of OTs bound together with a common purpose to get in ethics. For me it still exists right here. Call it what we like, this special elite group has risen again to get in ethics and keep the show on the road. The thing called the ‘Sea Org’ as it exists under Miscavige is a mere mockery of the real thing, as are the ideal orgs and all these things will die. From the ashes will rise the free Scientologist and the free Sea Org member who will always go on in spirit, truth and loyalty.

  17. I love you too Mary Jo!
    Thanks for shining your light and showing the way.

  18. G. Schutte
    problem with hysterectomies and vasectomy’s is figuring out how to get them done without anyone having to pay for it – less money for the coffers. Abortions are easier.

  19. Jim
    I follow your posts and love your writing – nothing you say is anti-climatic.
    Thank you for the beautiful ack – there was a so much free theta already to expand that I’m just glad absolutes are unobtainable or it would be the end of us!

  20. You’re welcome (it was my pleasure) and thanks for the comm.

  21. Hi NOTSaware
    I’ve been following you on the blogs (I’ve been posting as Elizabeth). It’s been lovely getting to know you and even better getting to KNOW you. Thanks for the hug – I love hugs

  22. Tom
    What a wild coincidence!
    It’s been exactly the same for me! 😉

  23. Dear Sam,

    I am glad that you are happy now but the information about the abortions really deeply saddened me. I thought that just the INT Base has a (odd like DM) no kids rule and that children are allowed in all other Sea Orgs. Was I wrong informed?


  24. Crikey Sam, that’s some story!

    Unfortunately what you went through isn’t that uncommon, although not usually on the same scale. I’m very glad that you survived it. 🙂

    And I’m so glad to see you speaking out against the abuses of the CoS. Hopefully you will inspire others to do the same here in the UK. After hearing of all the ‘defections’ in other parts of the world, I was afraid that we would get left behind! I know that there are very many here who are very unhappy with what has happened to them, but just stay around because they either can’t face admitting that they were wrong or can’t think of anything else to do.

    Are you the one on the left in the photo? It looks as though it was taken by the lake at St Hill.

    I’m not surprised that you experienced a resurgence in your life when you decided to leave it all behind you. It was such a huge relief to me when I left and realised that I was no longer the effect of the ‘church’ of Scientology. I could be me again!

    Individually the people are good and mean well, the organization and the conditioning that they have been subjected to, make them do horrible things.

    Good luck with your new life,


  25. Samanta!!
    So nice to see you again! And to see you free!
    Do you remember me at ASHO?
    big hug and love… here is my e-mail: Silvia Kusada
    lots of love,

  26. becomingAware



    Somehow this Don Henley song came to mind:

    “I hate to tell you this, but I’m very, very happy
    And I know that’s not what you’d expect from me at all
    I’m not the kind to smile and bow out gracefully
    I always wanted to take it to the wall

    But I found somebody with a heart as big as Texas
    I found an angel with the golden wings
    She saw me down here in the dark somehow
    And everything is different now

    Yeah, I miss the old crowd sometimes
    And the wild, wild nights of running
    You know, a starving soul can’t live like that for long
    You go around in circles that just keep getting smaller
    You wake up one morning and half your life is gone
    I got so tired of that; I got so lonely
    I dropped down and I called out to heaven
    “Send me someone to love.”
    And heaven shot back, “You get the love that you allow.”
    And everything is different now

    Oh, and it’s sweet to know
    The wisdom that living brings
    Since I got a telegram from the god of simple things

    She said, “I don’t care what you do for a living.”
    “I don’t care what kind of car you drive.”
    “All I want to know right now is what do you believe in
    And what it means to you to be alive
    Will you stand here in this fire with me?
    Are you ready for another life?”
    So I bit that bullet and I took that vow
    And everything is different now
    Everything is different now”

    Needs a couple of words changed perhaps but shows a change of life decision. I thought “Texas” was appropriate.

    What a difference Standard Tech, Standardly applied can make!


  27. Dear Samantha,

    What a nice thetan you are. Your story was very touching and I am glad that you found the right “why” finally and got the truth to as-is the lies.

    It is stories like this that will bring about the disentegrtion of black Scientology at some point.

    Thank you for speaking out!

    Thanks Marty for being a true ethics officer!


  28. Sam, Welcome and all I can say is “Wow! – What a story!” And from one confounded trouble maker to another…totally wonderful to have you as part of the Independents!
    Atlanta Independent
    (PS: ****It’s snowing here today***)

  29. Sam it’s great to know you are well and rebelious! I remember when you were the KOT UK. Would love to hear from you! My email

  30. Dear Sam,

    What a beautiful, strong, filled with self-respect & integrity and amazing thetan you are!!!!!

    Thank you for sharing your truth with us. Your story is definitely impinging heavily among many insiders (CoS).

    I sent this out to many on-line scientologists and am getting great and supportive responses ! Thanks to you my dear! 🙂

    Wow, we are only 7 days into 2010 and had already 6 and half (Chrissie’s picture and waiting for her write up) announced their Independency from CoS!

    LOVE this!

  31. Hi Sam, I’m a freezoner in London. You ever down that way and want coffee lunch a beer or whatever give me a shout. 0208-864-4940

    I too admire the jumping from a fourth floor window into a tree. 🙂

  32. Hi Sam,
    Welcome to the family! Thank you for sharing your story with us. Love Mosey

  33. martyrathbun09

    Not to nitpick, but we got seven for seven days of 2010.

  34. E’mous…

    Looks like Geir Isene agrees with you! He’s another OTVIII and like Marty, one of the first to make a split in such a public way via the net.

  35. Thought provoking

    Welcome Sam!

    I have always had a soft spot for “trouble makers”! 🙂

    Even better that you intend to post your announcement on BOTH sides.

    I am glad to meet you (Elizabeth) as I have always considered your posts very dignified and profound. It is nice to connect the declaration with the person that I have been interchanging communication with, via the blogs.

  36. Kathy Braceland


  37. Hello Samantha. You know me, just not by this name. Thank you for standing up for what is right. Thank you for applying personal integrity. Right now, DM is a running around telling anyone who is left to stick their finger into the crack and hold back the truth. But the truth is pouring out. Soon the dam will burst- and it will be because enough honest, ethical and sane Scientologists put their foot down and say NO to the squirreling and suppression that DM has been dishing out. Everytime someone stands up and says NO, it is another nail in DM’s coffin. Bam!

  38. Some more E’mous from Geir as well. Well thought out and commented upon subject, this one of “open sourcing Source” :

  39. Hey Martin!
    Would love to get together soon – perhaps in a week or two after the snow melts! We have a lot to talk about.

  40. Thanks Cat Daddy. I always find your posts highly entertaining

  41. I have to say in my Sea Org career the best and brightest beings I ever met were fellow RPFers and some of the biggest trouble makers around. Very telling isn’t it?

  42. Chen Jong,
    It is increasingly apparent that DM’s psychosis has permeated down the line. It isn’t just restricted to the Int Base. What is also coming out in story after story on this blog and others are the exact same insane lines used and pushed.

    This abortion issue is outrageous. LRH wrote DMSMH for f#@!’s sake! Have you read that book? Do you know what IT says about this subject? Well, for those that do, that gives you some idea of how far apart David Miscavige and his suppressive perversions of ethics, tech and administration are from what LRH’s Dianetics and Scientology actually are.

  43. Hello Chen,
    Yes, you were given incorrect information. Where did it come from?
    In 1989 I was shown an Int issued order (from ED Int I believe) stating something along the lines that it was not on the current purpose-line of the Sea Organization for it’s members to have children and thus family time had been canceled and all Sea Org members becoming pregnant were to be sent to a Class V Org – usually this was devastating as you were cut off from the group support and on your own in a small struggling org. If you read Haydn James declaration of independence you’ll understand first hand how difficult this was. Perhaps someone has a copy of the issue and can show it to Chen? It wasn’t only at the Int base I was shown this issue at Saint Hill and it was a blanket order to all Sea Org orgs.

  44. Hello Axiom 142
    Good observation! Well done on spotting Chrissie and I at the Lake at Saint Hill (yes I am the one on the left). We deliberately used this photo for that reason. Can you say IN YOUR FACE? I consider Saint Hill to be our home and am quite offended that it no-longer belongs to us. I am also offended by the Miscavige-esque IAS statue that adorns the entrance to the castle and would like to see it torn down and replaced with a tribute to LRH and his family (confounded rebel that I am).

  45. Hello again Silvia.
    I’m smoked up with comm from both sides right now and would love to get in comm. Will send a personal email in a couple of days.

  46. E,
    Planets and civilizations are rather frail things, all things considered. The window exists now. I’m taking advantage, along with these many beings you are coming to know.

  47. becomingAware
    Beautiful! Thank you so much!
    are you done with ‘becoming’ yet? LOL

  48. Hello Alex!
    Have had some nice exchanges with you as my alter-ego Elizabeth already 🙂

  49. Hi Shannon
    We’re up to our eyeballs in snow here too – loving it.

  50. Hello Lucy
    Ahhh I remember you well! Will send an email tomorrow after I finally allow this poor body to get some sleep. We have a lot to catch up on.

  51. Truth – thank you for your support and for using my story for good. Marty – so cute that you are going after your stat – CSW for libs approved 😀

  52. Hey Terril,
    I never turn down an offer for warm beer. Will be in touch when we get un-snowed in. Yeah, funny, the window jumping thing seems to strike a chord. Can’t think why…

  53. Hello Mosey,
    Nice meeting you again – officially that is. Love being a part of your family. Well done on taking care of Simon Bolivar – rest assured there will be no mistakes this time 😉

  54. Sorry Marty,

    Have I missed reading one of the posts? Shame on me! 😦

    Please let me know who I missed. Thanks! 🙂

  55. Hello Thought Provoking
    Me too me too!
    The other side was waaaaaay harder but I thoroughly recommend it to all as a De-PTSing action.

  56. Dear Marty,

    You are totally right! We had 7 Independents for 7 days into 2010. I miss calculated. My bad!

    We actually have 7.5 (including the cute picture of Chrissie). Yeaaaaaah! 🙂

  57. Hello Jean Paul
    Hope to see you soon then.
    You are right about DM. We heard on the grape-vine a few weeks ago that no declares would be issued as long as we keep quiet about our views…
    So DM, thanks for telling us what you were afraid of and therefore what our next move should be. Word of advice – don’t tell us be quiet ‘or else’! That’s just ASKING for trouble.

  58. Thanks Sam its good to have you on Martys and Scientology-Cult web pages with Exilda and I. I know you could have actually written a book. I am sure you created quite a stir with OSA (Office of Special Affairs) with your writeup. These OSA guys were probably bored and all of us are giving them some work. Let me say hi to them for you. We look forward to either seeing you in England or America. England and America are now officially reunited.

  59. I forgot to officially say Hi to the OSA guys- so “hi OSA guys and Gals. How you can read all this stuff and still believe in your precious Miscavige is beyond me. I will leave that to other to speculate

  60. Eponymous
    Hello there.
    Can’t speak for everyone else but for me personally it’s a matter of simply not having very much patience. I believe a number of people tried to instill this into me from a very early age – it never took. No rush at all just want it all to get sorted out YESTERDAY!
    On a less flippant note (hey I’m trying here) there are a lot of people cut off from family and friends still. I think it’s hard to be patient about getting your loved ones back.

  61. Huck,

    So well put! To everything you wrote, I say, “Exactly.”

  62. Theo Sismanides

    Hi Sam, welcome to the Rebels!! Ha ha ha! Scientology is an adventure, climbing down from trees from 4th floors is for courageous thetans and is the Spirit of Play which has been lost in the Sea Org.

    What an amazing story. How freaky people can get about 2D. All one wants is a mate soul. Well, the hell with their seriousness, you did the right thing escaping from the 4th flour. This alone shows your courage to continue life in a theta way not in a prison. So, here we are, let’s make the best we can of it all.

    Cheers to you and your family! Cheers to the Independents One By One Coming Out and putting their Declaration of Independence.

    Thank you Samantha!!

  63. Theo Sismanides

    Oh, and one other thing.

    You got 3 children which is magnificent.

    What an answer to the suppression and the criminal mind of DM.

    I wish you all happiness and prosperity, we are back together now! More of us obviously and despite all efforts to keep us in line!!!

  64. Sam you are beauty. Thank you for sharing the truth. How about that jump..!!

  65. Hello Samantha!

    *Plop plop fizz fizz oh what a relief it is!*
    … And those who have had severe heartburn know the pain of life-ripping turmoil that only fractionally makes it into words …. of these stories. Story after story. Experience after experience. Corroborated by individuals, many who have not ever met, around the world.

    ouch…the years of travesties, illegal violati0ns, the hypocrisy, the duplicity.

    First, just a happy hello and big smile for bouncing back… (Having fun on the RPF! i Love that! LOL)

    I’ve heard others marvel over the same thing: You went thr0uogh that, too?!?

    Welcome to the bright, shining light of day. To your group, your family, your planet, your society! To enjoy and brighten and uplift.

  66. P.S. BTW, I loved Placido Domingo in Otello at the Dorothy Chandler Pavilion. Sublime.

  67. Great!!! Use my private mail whenever you please. Good luck!

  68. Barney Rubble


    Fantastic blog.

    As an old timer I did appreciate it indeed, taken from a 20 year plus SO vet who regretably enforced his spouse to forge go an abortion.

  69. Good points, I think I will definitely subscribe! I’ll go and read some more! What do you see the future of this being?

  70. That’s right Marty.

    Your stats are truly as the Clown On Board likes to say” straight up and vertical!”

    Sam, welcome back through the looking glass 🙂

  71. Underground For Now

    Hi Sam;

    I also have a soft spot for “trouble makers” and now “4th floor jumpers”.

    Your story is amazing. This group is amazing.


  72. Murray
    You never have any problem saying it how it is. I love that about you. Give Exilda a hug for me.

  73. Hey theo
    I am indeed among the rebels again.
    Reminds me of the time I walked out of a suppressive detention at school when I was 11 and the whole classroom followed (much to my surprise). I was expecting my mother to slam me when I got home but even she rose up with a rebel cheer! What can I say – it’s native.

  74. LOL wow! that jump sure is popular! I foresee a whole bunch of independents jumping onto trees. What fun.

  75. Thanks the acks. A point of clarification, however: I don’t mean to say that Scientology should not be organized but that the SO in its current incarnation does not represent the greatest good for the greatest number of dynamics.

    I agree with JLogan that planets and civilizations are fragile things, Epo. The sooner, the better in terms of Clearing the Planet (which means, by the way, nothing more than making it a sane, enlightened peaceful place) but it’s obvious that the Sea Org is failing and not because of the good intentions of the many brilliant beings who make up that group.

  76. Well done Sam, I am sure that 2010 will be a very good year for you & your beautiful daughters, you deserve the best & you make a great cuppa of coffee, take care & do well.

  77. Hi Sam, you don’t know me but I know of you very well because I was a very good friend of your husband at the time. I know what you and him went through and I am very happy that you left and that you are making it public. You are very brave indeed and I wish you well. Please feel free to email me, I have a lot to tell you. Warm regards, Aida

  78. And now we’re at 8

  79. I saw that one too! Must have just missed you. Oh well, next time.

  80. Hey Barney
    I feel for you – those were soul destroying times. But here we are 🙂 As Chrissie and I love to say: “not dead yet!!!….. Still not dead!!!!” ha ha

  81. Religious freedom

  82. Any more 4th floor jumpers out there? 😉

  83. Oh My Goodness! Hello Susan! Nice to see you here. How are you enjoying this insouciant group of rebel-rousers so far?

  84. Hello Aida
    Thanks so much for your email. I’m just setting up a new email account and will email personally hopefully by the end of the day which is somewhat eventful 🙂

  85. Rebel…

    That´s the only nickname my brothers give me one time.

    You are welcome here Sam.

    I hope you found this group a source of strength and inspiration.

    Roberto Sánchez Núñez

  86. Roberto
    An honor to be accepted in your group.
    Yes as OTs together we are a force to be reckoned with and it is that which allows us to be strong.
    I admire the courage you displayed very early on and hope that you are safe and secure within your own family now.

  87. Hi Sam, This is Naomi. I think we joined at the same time in the UK back then. You may remember me. Glad to see you on this side and well done on your announcement. Sounded real familiar on lots of points…

  88. Hi Sam, dont worry I have always been a rebel too & the older I get, the worse I get, will put my story on here soon, have to get in the right mind mode to write it, will be nice to see more familiar names. Will keep watching. Keep the enturb going in E.G. & I will help in any way. Keep rocking girl.

  89. Are you Naomi from CMO that told Adam off for wearing banana slippers in the courseroom? 😀

  90. Or Naomi from AOSH?

  91. Susan you have a hell of a story to tell and it will help you to get the comm lines out with regards to getting your daughter back – look at what happened with Chrissie’s cycle. She had so much help and support. You keep telling me you want to write a book. Sit down, take a deep breath and start writing. Your story needs to be told.

  92. Those whom I promised to send a personal communication to – I will write quite soon. Right now I’m making sure Chrissie is OK 🙂

  93. Your right, I will start this week, inbetween doggy walks in the snow.

  94. Huck – I TOTALLY agree with you. The Sea Org has been usurped and is being used as a weapon.

  95. “I’m pretty sure there was some big thetan looking down on me”
    ….Hubbard? (your dad!?)

    Thetans don’t die.

    Oh-ya, the 80’s… the Real golden age… what does Pat Benatar think of this song, a few seconds more…

  96. Much obliged, Its freezing here in Holland right now. Children Ice skating in the streets.

  97. Thomas Jefferson:

    The legitimate powers of government extend to such acts only as are injurious to others. But it does me no injury for my neighbor to say there are twenty gods or no god. It neither picks my pocket, nor breaks my leg.

  98. Antoine
    That is a confoundedly interesting comment.
    Please email me.

  99. Thank you for getting back to me Sam. i might add, I missed lol. As in;

    ….Hubbard? (your dad!?) lol.

    My dad pasted last year, and you know? That hit home. He was the most compassionate guy, ever. He lived a full life, suffered greatly with Asthma, loved my mom w/endless passion and romance right to the end. Had twelve kids with her. (me last) Never-ever pushed his Christian Faith. Prayed the Rosary with my Mom’s Catholic faith every-day, every-day. Always Praying for World Peace and God’s will. That was my Dad. And then one day he was gone… Months later it hit me. Some Parents are going to get this guy again, as their son. And from that day on ward, I never looked at these teen kids quite the same…

    Sometimes I think my dad is looking over me, but not really, i was kidding. All I know, as I’ve exteriorized myself more then a few times, with Scientology. He never “died”.

    Thetan don’t die.

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  101. Tory Christman

    Sam, it’s been *great* getting to meet you. Your story is amazing, as are many others, too. Thank you for sharing it, in details. I loved the jumping out of the 4th story window, too. ROCK ON, Girl 🙂

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