Mike Rinder’s Open Letter To His Family

Preface: When DM sent six people out to Denver (including Tommy and DM’s personal attorney Yingling) a year ago in an effort to silence Mike – an event I witnessed from start to finish – Mike made it crystal clear that he did not want his family subjected to the indignity of acting as pawns for DM in an effort to “handle” Mike.  Like clockwork, the master of Black Dianetics launched a year-long ongoing campaign to use Mike’s family as something much worse (in my opinion) than pawns.  Perhaps publication of this letter will help to bring about the cessation of DM’s relentless, sadist, familycidic (my made up term) behavior.  – Marty

Dear Andrew, Taryn & Cathy,

You made a big issue out of my failure to respond to your letters, so I am responding herewith to the letters each of you sent.  

I note that Jude sent me a letter when I was living in Denver – but didn’t send another in the second round after I moved near where she lives, and Benjamin didn’t send me a letter at all.  I guess the Church is worried that I may respond in person by paying her or Benjamin a visit and it sort of blows the “You have disconnected from your family and refuse to communicate to them” line when I show up and they are unwilling to talk to me (as when I went to the Fort Harrison and requested to see Benjamin).

I also note your letters were coordinated, all coming from the address of the International Justice Chief.  You put notes saying you want me to respond to that address because you are “following LRH policy.”  How so?  If I am an SP, my only terminal is IJC.  No policy says IJC is your postal service. And if you are following what the Church now claims is LRH policy – then these letters are disconnection letters. Or are you trying to “handle” me and get yourself to gentle cause?  Which is it? Handle or disconnect? Somehow you seem to be demanding that I communicate with you?  But only if it is supervised? I really don’t know, what policy it is that you are applying?

I also respond here to the letters you sent to the St Petersburg Times.  Those letters attempted to spin the encounter at the doctors into a “family dispute” that occurred because you just “happened” to see me driving into her parking lot (This story doesn’t quite square with “we are routing this from IJC as we are following LRH policy” – is this a family matter or a church matter?).  Odd though that none of you mentioned the 4 people from “International Management” or the 2 PIs that accompanied you on this “family dispute resolution”?  And you failed to mention that you had been following me for at least a day prior to showing up at the doctor’s office (Andrew, you said “I saw you yesterday and you looked terrible” – the only time I had left home that day was to ride my bike half a mile to the beach with Christie and Shane so I guess you were staked out next to the park in one of the SUVs with blacked out windows?).   You also told the SP Times that you were here visiting Jude and Benjamin – yet you said to me twice “You have no idea what I had to go through to be able to talk to you, Mike.”  And where were Benjamin and Jude if you were here visiting them and just happened to be out driving around?  And why did you have two rental cars for you, Taryn and Cathy when neither Taryn nor Cathy drives? 

But, like with everything in the church today, I do understand the position you are in and what you are required to do, and I bear you no ill will. In fact, Andrew and Taryn, as you will recall, I told you from the outset, and repeated a number of times, that I would happily talk to you without the screaming audience present. 

And by the by Andrew, I guess you hadn’t experienced the raving madwoman insanity of Jenny Linson before.  I challenge you to honestly ask yourself: “Is this really one of the most senior executives in Scientology?” Yes, unfortunately.  But in truth she is just a wind-up doll that spouts the words that David Miscavige tells her to scream and is otherwise incapable of original thought. That is why she is one of his most trusted pit bulls he sends out to make a fool of herself and Scientology on CNN and then again when she led the screaming in the “family dispute resolution” (though I thank God she is not family). 

Finally on the SP Times letters, it would be a good idea to remember the episode was recorded by the BBC.  Don’t fall into the trap of lying on behalf of the church to the media.  It never works out in the long run.

Sadly, I don’t believe you will read this letter, as it would be “spreading black PR” for you to see it.  Possibly you will be shown some edited version. That’s why I put it on the internet so perhaps there is a chance that at least you Andrew can read the entire letter.   You should.

If you had really intended for me to respond to your letters I would have suggested a different approach that didn’t include saying the following: “You are not even a Scientologist, so stop pretending.”  “Maybe you should check out of this game and go sit on a rock for a few million years, way out of the way.”  “Overwhelmed, implanted, evil-purp beings like you…”  “We will continue to flourish and prosper despite your feeble efforts to make yourself, and the bunch of fruitcakes you hang out with, right.”  “The American Psychiatric Association is in the phone book. Why don’t you give them a call. You are 95% in their camp by now anyway.”  “Go contemplate at a rock for a long time and destimulate.” “You could not actually have a soul.  It could only be rock solid blackness…” “You think you can fake out other people, taking advantage of the fact they don’t actually know you weren’t a Scientologist, having never studied or practiced the Religion you are now so viciously attacking.” “You continue to prove that you really don’t care about anyone and have no personal desires for betterment and never did.” And that’s just a few comments from 12 type-written pages of similar stuff.  I take it you were following what someone told you was the way to “handle” SPs?  Whoever it was gave you some really bad advice because it only served to make me more determined to do whatever is needed to end the insanity that has pervaded Scientology which includes turning family members against one another.

Your letters gave me the distinct impression that the only thing you would want to hear from me was “I am sorry I have been so stupid, I am reporting back to the bilges/Hole/tent on the golf course and I will write up steps A-E 5 times through”  But, that isn’t going to happen, so why respond?

The foundation for that impression was the letter I received from Cathy when I reached out to her after I first left. I asked her to call me or come and visit.  Her response, and I quote: “Fuck off. That is the last thing I would want to do. PS: I’ll send the divorce papers and brief the kids.”   Cathy, what is it with the divorce? OSA lawyers put the papers together for you as the petitioner, I signed them, and they were filed and assigned a case number in Los Angeles Superior Court (BD476191) on Nov 19, 2007.  It’s a formality to have an uncontested divorce with no mutual property and no child custody go through the court process.  Yet, now, when it is convenient (i.e. in dealing with the media?) you claim you are still my wife, though you use some other name – Bernardini — neither your maiden nor earlier married names?  What is this about?  Based on your communication at the outset, the letters you have sent and your screaming tirades when you “happened to see me,” including your command to “stay away from Benjamin” I would hazard a guess that you don’t want to be married to me (nor by the way do I want to be married to you).  Apparently you don’t even want to sully yourself by using my name. So, why scream “He is my husband” at the doctor?   Did you (or OSA) do something to prevent your divorce petition from being finalized?  Is this another good tactical move to combat “the SP”? 

And while on this subject – Monique Yingling told the St Petersburg Times that I had refused to see you in Denver.  She claimed that you were there to inform me about the situation with Benjamin and that I did not want to talk to you.  Just so you know, and I have a recording of this meeting, she never told me you were in Denver and never told me there was any information I needed to know about Benjamin. And you didn’t try to call me, even though you reportedly flew to Denver to see me (I take it you weren’t there skiing?). Monique called me on my cell phone. Why didn’t you?  You even have my email address – so does Linda Hamel and others in OSA.  When Monique called me and said she was in town and wanted to see me, I arranged to see her. I would have done the same with you (though Tommy came all the way to Denver and stated he was there to see me too – but when I tried to call him to arrange a time and place, Monique wouldn’t let him talk to me).  

So the record is clear, it was only after the 6 man team came to Denver to try and handle me and I told Monique she should go back to LA and deal with the rot that was destroying Scientology from within that you all decided to write to me.  This was two years after I had left the SO.  I had sent Xmas cards to everyone and the only person who responded was Barbara – until she too was told she could not communicate to me and sent me an “IJC” letter. Her cards and letters were nice, telling me I will always be her son regardless of anything and good roads, fair weather chat about dogs and kids and mundane matters.  Mine were similar in response as I had no intention of creating any further upset for her. I was simply letting her know I was OK and wasn’t living in poverty under a bridge or dying of leukemia because I thought she would worry.  I didn’t “suppress” her or give her a bunch of entheta.  Andrew, I am sure you have seen those cards and letters by now – she even sent me photos of James and his wife and child, so proud to be a great-grandma.  Barbara said she was too old to travel to the Freewinds or Flag again, so she had “nothing to lose” by communicating with me but was very worried that Andrew and Pat would find out. But that was too good to last – after all, her being in contact with me was “preventing her Bridge progress” – NOT – she told me she was on the Academy levels at the org and doing great auditing others, of course, she couldn’t do OT IX and X as they don’t exist.  So, the letters that you then sent to me, along with the less than subtle effort to buy my silence by Monique, solidified my conviction that I could not ignore the destruction of Scientology at the hands of David Miscavige.

The problem is that none of you know what is really going on.  You have been fed a lot of information that contains enough grains of truth to be believable, and yet is perverted to create a very false picture.

You have no doubt been given all sorts of DA packs and materials about me.  Don’t you think it’s a little odd that there are such materials about everyone?  Isn’t it starting to set off alarm bells that every person who ever speaks out about what they have seen has “confessions” about how terrible they were and how they were all trying to destroy COB?  You’ve written similar things Cathy, I have seen them with my own eyes.  They are only not used because you continue to toe the line.  But your confessions are just like everyone else’s – you admit you have tried to impede and overworked poor COB because unless you do that you won’t get out of the trouble you are in.  I did at least 10 “A through Es” during the time I was either CO CMO Int, WDC OSA, CO OSA Int or in the Hole (that is probably more than you have done, Cathy, but I know for certain you did at least two A-E write ups because you were an SP along with everyone else in the Hole and they admit to terrible crimes and intentions towards Miscavige and Scientology). Now, it is impossible that every single person in International Management is out to destroy David Miscavige and Scientology.  But if you look in every person’s files, you will find the same sort of “confessions”.  He proclaims loudly and repeatedly that this is the “op” of Int Management and nobody is going to get anywhere until they admit to it.  There are ready made “confessions” to “D/A” every person at the Int Base.  It’s designed that way. And no prizes for guessing what LRH says about someone who claims everyone else is an SP.

And just as an aside: Didn’t it ever strike you as just the tiniest bit strange that I was the International Church Spokesperson while I had been declared by David Miscavige, not once, but at least 5 times. And that I was doing this after those “confessions” that are published in Freedom Mag or handed out in D/A packs.  I would come out of the Hole or the bilges or OGH or the lake at St Hill as a total SP (according to DM), put on a suit or tuxedo and be the church spokesman or a speaker at one of the phony Int events? Is that standard Scientology policy at work?

The majority of the sensational “entheta” about David Miscavige concerns his physical and mental abuse of people.  I know that in the circumstances you are in, you will swear under oath that black is white in order to protect him and his acts.  But Cathy, you have seen it. Don’t pretend you haven’t.  You just believe it is acceptable behavior because of all the “wonderful things” he does.  But those two data don’t add up – savior of Scientology and vicious tyrant.  And if it really is OK in your mind that he acts the way he does – why is everyone lying about it?  Why not come out and say “Yes, he does beat people and he mentally abuses them, but we all think it is OK because he does so much good for Scientology”.   Don’t kid yourself that it is just because “wogs” wouldn’t understand how it is the greatest good for the greatest number of dynamics.  No, 97.5% of Scientologists would be horrified if the church admitted the truth and the flow of funds would dry up.  That’s DM’s dirty little secret. Scientology is supposed to be about the truth. Not covering up what goes on behind closed doors.  That internal rot is a symptom of the decay of the church because it no longer represents truth.

 Taryn, I don’t know for a fact if you have personally witnessed Miscavige wailing on someone, but if not, I am sure you have heard from plenty of people who have seen Gary Wiese being hit by him, and probably also Guillaume, Heber, Yager, Mithoff.  Henning Benndorf saw it hundreds of times and Miscavige told Henning to hit people on his behalf.  Henning was in SFX a lot.  When I asked you whether it was OK for Miscavige to hit people, your response to me was “I never saw him hit you.”  Probably true. But it was not a response to the question I asked.

Andrew, I know you haven’t seen this sort of insane behavior.  Nor have you witnessed the mental abuse.  You know I was in the bilges for more than a month with Guillaume, Heber and Yager at the same time Barb was on the Ship completing OT VIII. I had to be kept out of her sight in case it enturbulated her. When she attested, I was brought out of the bilges for an hour to get cleaned up and sit with her in the Heritage restaurant while someone stood guard at the door to ensure I didn’t do something funny.  It’s odd, I was so happy for her, but it was such a strange situation, it was difficult to not let my true feelings (“What the fuck is happening here?”) show through.  But that’s the weird shit that goes on. You can ask Barb about it.  I am sure she will remember. I had people go ahead of me to ensure she wasn’t in any passageway if I ever went out of the bilges. I know she thought it odd that I had been on the ship for a month after MV and she hadn’t seen me.

But honestly, Miscavige’s insane treatment of SO members isn’t the most major departure from the ideal scene.  It is just a manifestation of his aberration and the true crimes that he is engaged in.

I asked you Andrew if you knew what inurement was.  Hopefully by now you have had the good sense to look it up. Miscavige is guilty a hundred times over. And that could bring about the demise of the Church.  He knows it, but he thinks he is above the law (as well as policy) and can outsmart anyone.  He can’t.  But more importantly, he is in direct violation of very strict LRH policy. You have probably been convinced that “COB” deserves everything he has and more.  Dozens of cars. Private jets. Lavish quarters.  Expensive meals. Outrageous gifts. Cooks and maids and servants and typists and secretaries and chiropractors and hairdressers and makeup men.  The problem is, LRH didn’t have that. And LRH made his money by writing his own books. DM hasn’t done anything other than illegally assumed control of the Church and is reaping the rewards, not of his work, but by taking what LRH created. The $1500 per day for a scuba boat to sit next to the Freewinds, the lavish meals and expensive cars are paid for by the donations of good Scientologists like you.  Just one day of that $1500 per day boat charter would probably pay someone’s monthly mortgage that they took out in order to increase their IAS Honor Status.  The money spent on having 4 PIs follow me full time would buy 2000 copies of Dianetics every day that could be handed out to people for free.  Did LRH waste money like that? No way. And if you look at the article, What our Fees Buy you will see what he has to say about this.

You have been convinced that the Ideal Orgs strategy is a wonderful, on Source program.  It isn’t. It is propaganda by redefinition of words.  The LRH game for orgs was to expand beyond the size of Old St Hill and with that done get the staff to OT.  You don’t hear about this anymore, and the Universe Corps is a faded memory. THAT was LRH.  “Ideal Orgs” is DM.  This is what LRH says about the subject:

” We own a tremendous amount of property. We own a tremendous amount of material, and so forth. And it keeps growing. But that’s not important. When buildings get important to us, for God’s sake, some of you born revolutionists, will you please blow up central headquarters. If someone had put some HE (high explosives) under the Vatican long ago, Catholicism might still be going. Don’t get interested in real estate. Don’t get interested in the masses of buildings, because that’s not important.

“What is important is how much service you can give the world and how much you can get done and how much better you can make things. These are important things. These are all that are important. A bank account never measured the worth of a man. His ability to help measured his worth and that’s all. A bank account can assist one to help but where it ceases to do that it becomes useless.”  L. Ron Hubbard, 31 December 1960 lecture, The Genus of Dianetics and Scientology.

But even more important than this is the perversion of fundamental Scientology.  PTS/SP tech is being squirreled with disconnection used as a means of controlling people rather than a last resort tool to help someone de-PTS and lead a happier life.  It’s so bad, the Church spokesman doesn’t even know what to say any more – he says one time that there is no such thing as disconnection and then tries to go back on it and say it “isn’t enforced” and then tries to say it’s like the Catholic religion.  I mean, guys, why not come out and say what really happens. There isn’t a Scientologist in the world that doesn’t know how it goes. If what is being done IS standard Scientology – why not just come out and admit it? 

And there are many other examples, including 6 month sec checks on OT VII, redefining F/N’s, a training line up that makes robot auditors.  You will, of course, reject this out of hand.  But look at the long term international stats – they don’t lie.  And I know they suck as I have been into many orgs in the last 6 months and every single one of them is empty. From London to NY to Tampa to Dallas to Brighton to Orlando to Miami to Denver to Kansas City.  And I have received first hand reports from people who have been into numerous other orgs.  And while the propaganda line is “new orgs opening” in truth it is only new buildings opening.  There hasn’t been a new org opened in recent history.

Here are some articles I suggest you read. They won’t take you long. And if you can truly think for yourself then you can make up your own mind.  But I would hazard a guess that you a) will never be informed that they even exist, b) if you do hear of them you will be told not to read them because they are all lies or c) you will reject them out of hand as you have already been conditioned to believe that the internet only contains entheta intended to destroy you and Scientology.  But, just imagine if LRH had lived his life that way. Afraid to look or see because someone told him it was all bad.  He would never have discovered the reactive mind. Or anything else for that matter.  What happened to the idea that Scientology teaches you to find answers for yourself?  Here are the urls for the articles.  There are literally thousands of others written by all manner of people.







So, you now have a response and you can decide what you want to do. I am more than happy to communicate with you – any time you want. Though I am not willing to have the communication controlled by the Church.  If you can’t have a comm cycle without being supervised by someone in the church then I don’t know what freedom you feel you have achieved.

And remember, it is so very easy to dismiss everything that is said that doesn’t match the party line because there is a built in justification:  they’re an SP, they didn’t really make any case gain (even though they may have attested to every level including OT VIII), they are not really a Scientologist, it is just their own overts etc etc.  Some won’t confront reality until it is “acceptable” – i.e. that enough others have decided that this is reality so it is OK to go along. They can’t “think for themselves” and observe what they see.  But that is what Scientology teaches you. And if all you can do is think according to the dictates of others, you are not truly free.  I hope you can look and not brush off the outpoints you observe.  And start to think for yourselves.  Don’t wait until it has become “fashionable” – that is not the manner of a real Scientologist. 

I wish you all happiness. I know how hard it is to find inside the cocoon.  It is inevitable DM’s house of cards built on a quicksand of lies will fall.  It’s only a matter of time and how much more destruction occurs before his reign comes to an end.



149 responses to “Mike Rinder’s Open Letter To His Family

  1. Fellow Traveller

    What is greatness? This open letter.

    Thank you Mike.

    Bruce Pratt

  2. Virginia McClaughry

    Great letter Mike.


  3. Keep up the communication – it is the universal solvent!

  4. Watching Eyes

    Excellent letter but oh so sad to see a family so torn apart all so the Dwarf can keep his control & secrets just a little longer.

    If your family is able to read this letter in it’s entirety without interference, it should get them thinking. If they get nothing else from ilt, they should start wondering how can there be soooo many SP’s at Int and in the CofM. It is simply not possible. Sadly, they’ve been duped. Duped by a short, uneducated con man who is now so afraid he won’t even show his face on tv.

  5. FlavorsinGreen
  6. Joe Howard

    Of course OSA and like minded Scientologists will discount everything Mike has written in his utterly convincing letter because it is coming from him.

    Let them then read the following from the great Russian writer Leo Tolstoy:

    “There are two methods of human activity–and according to which one of these two kinds of activity people mainly follow, are these two kinds of people: one use their reason to learn what is good and what is bad and they act according to this knowledge; the other act as they want to and then they use their reason to prove that that which they did was good and that which they didn’t do was bad.”

    Enough said.

  7. Ne Obliviscaris

    Hi Mike,

    Great letter. I hope they get it.

    I hope the immortal beings who read this letter will finally realize that you are trying to help them.

    I hope that they will finally understand that there is no redemption between lifetimes. Only in the here and now.

    I hope that these people you love shall finally confront the fact that the only way to save themselves is to confess their sins to someone that needs to know and to sin no more.

    I hope your friends know that if they do not, they shall only be re-cast to suffer the fates that they have inflicted upon others.

    I hope that your family and fellows shall embark on a journey of giving redress to those they have wronged, as you have.

    Finally, I hope that others realize, as I’m sure you do – that family members choose each other for a reason… love.

    That is my hope.


  8. Yes. And so did the BBC.

    Thank you very much!

    Just Me

  9. Lucy James

    Very powerful communication.

  10. Mike, what an outstanding letter. That letter put ethics in like no letter I have ever read. This letter pertains to so many families with declared and undeclared members. People who think they are free but in reality can not be free because they continue to require the approval of others for their own existence. That is not freedom.

    People need to think for themselves and base their determinations on the actions of their groups and their members.

    Your license to survive is not granted by any church or any group.

  11. Mike,

    So many things I could say — mostly that I wish you didn’t have to go through this.

    But since you do, then do so with honor.

    Just Me

  12. Freedom Fighter

    Very well-written letter, Mike. The outpoints you list are so stark and so abundant someone would have to be either severely PTS or completely cut off from the fruits of observation to not see them.

    To those lurking and reading this, I understand it takes a lot to confront this stuff and to confront the fact that one has spent the better part of one’s life and the better part of one’s income supporting the squirrel of squirrels. Having confronted that fact, myself however, and having come out the other side of it, I can honestly say that the sooner one confronts it, the better.

    You don’t want to wait until it’s too late to do anything about it to realize you inadvertently contributed to the motion that destroyed Scientology.

    The choice is yours. You don’t even have to take anyone’s word here for what’s going on. Just LOOK for yourself. LOOK around you. Go to http://www.friendsoflrh.org and read the LRH references there. Do like I did and double check those references against the actual green-on-white and red-on-white. Mike’s given you a few references above. Start with those. But for the sake of all that is good, LOOK.

    “The whole agonized future of this planet, every Man, Woman and child on it, and your own destiny for the next endless trillions of years depend on what you do here and now with and in Scientology.” — LRH HCOPL 7 Feb 1965 Keeping Scientology Working Series I

  13. Watching Eyes

    I just watched the first 30 seconds of the video and shut it off. If kill the messenger all the CofM can up with then they’re in worse trouble than I thought.

    Making the video was an utter waste of slave labor time.

    Note to the uneducated dwarf: Anderson Cooper is well respected. You’re not. You were too afraid to even appear on his show. Pretty funny for a bully.

  14. Mike what a heartfelt communication. The operating basis of breaking up families, and tearing apart relationships is running rampant in the C of M.

    The C of M labels anyone who is willing to stand up and speak about its crimes, as an “SP”. The hope is that other Scientologist will cut comm with these “SP”s. Though some do, I’ve been seeing so many others NOT cut comm.

    There are so many “under the radar” Scientologist that have left the C of M. There are so many Scientologist who see these ridiculous false SP declares for what they are, and who WILL NOT and ARE NOT disconnecting.

    The sheer number of SP declares is raising the questions amongst them of “How could there be so many?” To get their questions answered many are turning to these “SPs” and finding out the truth.

    It is a beautiful thing to see a Scientologist realize the truth, and know that he no longer has to wear the chains of control that the C of M handed him.

    These Scientologist have known something was wrong, they have witnessed the out-tech and out-ethics to one degree or another. Some have been locked in rooms while money was demanded of them, some have been threatened with ethics if they didn’t turn their underaged children over to the Sea Org.

    Watching their eyes light up when they realize who the true SP is, is a beautiful thing. The charge blows and they take control of their lives once again.

    It is my hope to see this for your family and for you to be reunited with them once again.

  15. Mike, I hope they read this. It’s sad beyond words, what’s happened to you, what’s happened to the “Church.”

    THANK YOU for posting this LRH quote, which happens to be so very true, and the spirit that I embraced:

    We own a tremendous amount of property. We own a tremendous amount of material, and so forth. And it keeps growing. But that’s not important. When buildings get important to us, for God’s sake, some of you born revolutionists, will you please blow up central headquarters. If someone had put some HE (high explosives) under the Vatican long ago, Catholicism might still be going. Don’t get interested in real estate. Don’t get interested in the masses of buildings, because that’s not important.

    “What is important is how much service you can give the world and how much you can get done and how much better you can make things. These are important things. These are all that are important. A bank account never measured the worth of a man. His ability to help measured his worth and that’s all. A bank account can assist one to help but where it ceases to do that it becomes useless.”

    –L. Ron Hubbard, 31 December 1960 lecture, The Genus of Dianetics and Scientology

    ! ! !

  16. one of those who see

    Mike, thank you for posting this. I had trouble getting through the part with the quotes from the letters from your family. I know you are a very strong guy, but no one should have to read those words from their family. I just wanted to hug you. So horrible.
    Then there is this: “I did at least 10 “A through Es” during the time I was either CO CMO Int, WDC OSA, CO OSA Int or in the Hole (that is probably more than you have done, Cathy, but I know for certain you did at least two A-E write ups because you were an SP along with everyone else in the Hole and they admit to terrible crimes and intentions towards Miscavige and Scientology).”
    This is insane!!!! The most dedicated Scientologists being declared like this.

    I also watched the rebuttal to Anderson Cooper. At the end of which the guys calls Marty Psychotic. Well, in this case this quote from LRH is definitely applicable. “the overt doth speak loudly in accusation”
    MEST!! So, we can tell how staff are treated by how beautiful the MEST is. It does look as if DM’s lost it.

    There are so many outpoints in the church at this point which are what have led me to be sitting out. And they happened bit by bit. I kind of stare at the scene in wonder. Ya know… how could this have happened? But then LRH did say that “The Price of Freedom is Constant Alertness and Constant Willingness to fight back…” (quote may not be exact) I never really thought about it too deeply before. But he does say CONSTANT Alertness. Sh-t.

    As someone else posted “We won’t get fooled again”

  17. I want to reiterate how this is heartbreaking — Mike, we read about this, the *onslaught* of things said to you by people you love, by your own family that is pitted and controlled in blind, rabid attacks against you — this shouldn’t have to happen to anyone. You make excellent points in this — juxtaposing the outpoints, demonstrating the DM lies.

    The amount of pain,the attempts to slander and introvert and *destroy* lives is … unspeakably wrong, and no word can ever describe the reality of what it feels like to be the target and recipient of these betrayals, as so many undergo.

    If that isn’t enough to rally intervention of the Law, then inurement is. The senseless, stupid *vanity* of the driving motive (DM) behind all the pain, alteration and worldwide damage done by COB is …as senseless and insipidly stupid as all horrific crimes get, and eventually appear in hindsight. ..when the blinders come off. The blinders of “incredible.”

  18. It is so sad that your family have been pressured so heavily to ignore or pervert basic Scientology principles. In the end, there is only so much you can do about the situation.

    Maybe the best thing you can do is handle your own case. Sometimes that works miracles in the physical universe. Postulates trump effort, so let’s postulate some really good effects.

  19. AlexMetheny

    I salute you Mike.

    Your professionalism and dedication shine through like a beacon in this letter.

    You are living up to your commitments. You have your personal integrity in. Because of that, I know you are a happy man.

    In my own mind, I cannot wait for this to come full circle as I know it will at some point and for us all to see the real truth shine through. When that happens we will know who stood tall and who were creeping and cringing and hiding.


  20. Freetothink

    Wow! The place is deserted. Where’s everybody? In the Hole??? LOL

    What a 1.1 video, certainly violates the policy against using the “enemy line” in my opinion. They most have said “slave camp” about at least a dozen time.

  21. ~I am not declared and I have audited many hundreds of hours using strictly LRH tech and even gotten some to the state of Clear with NED.
    I am the mother of 3 fabulous children.
    I am happily married to the love of my life.
    I have a fantastic home-based business that allows me to care for my family the way LRH says mothers should.
    I am an Independent Scientologist and participant in this blog/collective of theta, well-intentioned beings.

  22. Wow – very well written Mike!

    I hope you don’t mind if I send a copy of your letter to a few hundred of my friends still drinking the cool aid.

    I wish you the best in bringing your family together.



  23. Mike,

    Usually, I have no trouble writing. I could write you thirty pages without stopping about peanut butter and napkins. (objects on the table next to me.) But, reading what you are going through leaves me speechless–or whatever term applies to writing. Penless?

    This fucking shit (and it does not deserve language less coarse) is unimaginable to me.

    My daughter just went through graduation at her high school. After the parties had finished and we were sitting around catching our breath, a profound sadness came over me. In the coming days she would be gone. Not gone for a couple of weeks like when she went to Europe, but for months.

    And then she would move out entirely.

    The emptiness left an aching that was nearly unbearable. All mixed with pride and joy and gratitude that such a wonderful being chose to come into my life.

    To lose my entire family? Over such fucking shit?

    To have an entire church desensitized to breaking up families is so criminal and so evil as to escape a normal person’s credence.

    “Ah, surely that isn’t happening.” When the church pretends it supports families, that is what the public want to believe. A person sitting in front of the TV with his or her family just does not want to believe that a church could be so callously evil.

    No one wants to be ARC broken. What the church does is such an ARC break that members clutch at the idea that “this isn’t happening.” And the public wants to believe the PR and excuses and reasoning. “Just like the Catholics and other religions you all love so much. Yuk, yuk.”

    To hold desperately to the lie is to maintain a “reality” that prevents one from being ARC broken. It’s kind of hard to break an unreality that’s accepted as reality. You have to come up to having a real reality to get an ARC break.

    Man, Mike, I know a lot of words, know a lot of curses and gutter phrasing, but none of them are adequate here. None.


  24. ~~~Mike, my theta hugs and postulates are flowing your way.~~~
    Your communications of truth will resolve this eventually. Your taking the higher ground is admirable. This force is with you. Theta dissolves entheta.

  25. Free. Of course not. It’s one of the reasons why I put it up on this blog, in the hope that it might be usable by others. If you could send it to thousands it would be even better as the more the greater the chance there is of getting someone to see the light. Mike

  26. Kathy Braceland


  27. Or, for you to them..”You are not even a family, so stop pretending.” Let’s be honest, your wife is married to David Miscavige.

    Hat dump = treason so Scientologists are forced into a lower condition on their second dynamic everytime they are made to disconnect or abandon the family hat.

    Leading the way into new dimensions is always a lonely business. Not running with the herd is a daring adventure. But when your time comes to stand on your own you must do it. That is dissemination. It is natural. It is wrong to hold all your children in a womb. They are to climb out, stand strong and independent and make their own way. That is dissemination, that is division 2 and dynamic 2. You did the right thing Mike. They know you did.

  28. Freetothink

    I find it hard to believe your brother wrote those words to you. It’s not that I don’t believe you. It’s that I don’t think he did. Someone else must have. But, if he did, he must have been really keyed in and any well trained MAA would have prevented him from sending it. Anyone familiar with the datum “don’t create antagonism” ???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! From the parts of his letter you shared with us, looks like his letter was a gross violation of that reference.

    If this letter went to you through IJC, there is no way that someone in that office hasn’t read it.
    That convinces me even more of the perversion of the Tech right at the very top.

    In addition, I have been through many ethic cycles where letters to friends & family, even conditions write ups were totally micro manage by the MAA. There is no way any of my MAAs would have ever let me write these words to anyone. They would have sent me for a session to handle my BPC. Hasn’t anyone else experience that kind of micro management? I’m not saying that it’s OK they do. It always annoyed the crap out of me that they did but they just did.

    So I don’t believe that they didn’t micro manage your brother in this situation. “Micro managing” is probably too kind of a term, in this case. “Brain washing” is probably more accurate.

    In the hopes that this bring some comfort to you, you have lots of friends here & many more to come.

  29. Dear Mike,

    Heart-wrenching, beyond eloquent, spot-on, naked truth and raw love. So universal and so timeless. You have spoken for many and it is my wish and desire that this WILL be duplicated not only by your family but also by the many who knew you and worked with you and respected you and are still inside the dark place this has become.

    Before I came out in public, and she quickly turned on me, I was close friends with the DSA Orange County who had told me she admired you so much– and if you indeed had come out and would speak out she would listen as she trusted you would say the truth. So listen, Marie – and all the other OSA-bots who read this and have to work SO hard to be in denial and unknow all they know, call “false” what they have observed and have become experts at weaving webs of lies: WAKE UP! LOOK!

    Mike, your words pierce through heavy armor; I think we will see very good results from this. We need to spread this one far and wide! Thank you, thank you for this and for everything…I keep the hope alive.

  30. Redneck Thetan

    There aren’t enough words to express the emotion the letter provokes. Just add me to the chorus who are sending their love to Mike. And it’s absolutely disgusting what people will say and do in the name of “love”.

  31. Freetothink

    Oh, BTW, who built all that incredible MEST? It must have cost a fortune in labor to built. Not when you have an army of slaves at your disposal!

    Who maintains all that beautiful MEST? It’s so sparkling clean! How can you keep it so clean?
    Slaves + toothbrush!

    Sorry, I’m in one of these moods today 😉

  32. I sat through all three. Each one more bizarre than the last.

  33. Mike, You are a man of honor. What you have sacrificed to help stop this insanity is truly admirable.

    There WILL be a win for every one of you out there who have stepped up despite personal danger and personal hits on your dynamics to help make this thing right. Trust me, the troops are amassing. With posts like these you are waking our group members up one by one and de-PTSing them. Please keep it up. There are more of us coming soon…

  34. Mike, I really enjoy reading any communication from you on this blog. You’re just so sane! Anyone reading this can see this isn’t a letter from an SP. This is a very rational,intelligent, clear thinking and caring person. Your integrity and genuine concern for these people is completely obvious, not because you are tying to sound that way, but because you honestly want to help them, and help others, and that just comes through naturally.
    This is the kind of person I’d want as my auditor, my friend or in my group.
    Lucky me, we are on the same team!

  35. By the way, I think this is a HUGE WHY with the Church. People were supposed to go out an trailblaze. It was that way in the beginning. People were encouraged to open missions and field groups and field audit and reach out and stand out and spread out and make it your own in your own neighborhood. A person wanting to open a mission now is penalized 40,000.00. Then taxed and policed. It is a crime if you are on your own and not part of the Sea Org. There is a reverse vector of sucking people back in to the womb and discouraging any independence because then, then there might not be taxes! But this anti dissemination. What crime have any of us committed beyond stepping away from the womb? Every once in a blue moon one pops out! Yeah! It did not used to be that way and when it was in a boom it was the opposite. Your crime Mike, is that you stepped away from the womb and cut the chord. That is dissemination. And that is a crime in the current culture. And if that may be a problem for those left back in the womb, it is not a problem for the rest of the planet and for all of the others you share the planet with now. Think of all the people who do not consider that a problem. And think of all the people that do not have this problem. You stand in the vast majority. This sucking people into the womb and holding them there is really entheta business. It’s crowded and it has to get way too crowded until one pops out. And then they act as if some tragedy occurred. When one gets pushed out he cries like a newborn. For the love of God knock it off people!

  36. Hi Mike,
    Thanks for making your letter open for everyone to read. I found it honest, sad, frightening, discerning and even a little shocking at parts (10 A to Es?, the quotations from family members?). And the LRH quote completely apropos, invigorating and rejuvenating. Geeeeezzzzz. I totally admire you for your confront and ability to speak out. Thank you.

  37. inurement:

    Benefit. For example, a nonprofit organization with tax-exempt status cannot provide employees with private inurement. That is, employees cannot receive benefits greater than they provide in return.

  38. Mike,

    I was stunned when I read the letters supposedly written by your family, certainly signed by them and sent to you. And I was stunned again when I read your draft response, and again when I read the published version.

    I think I was stunned because the level of insanity in the written and verbal communications hurled your way is stunning, literally. It is hard to fathom that depth of depravity.

    Perhaps that’s part of the intent – to stun. If it was I’d like to let the “man” hidden away behind it all know two things. Firstly, I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone as mentally tough as you Mike, so he is just pissing into the wind. And secondly, the universal reaction to this craziness is a strengthened resolve in your many friends to see this job done and the madness ended.

  39. Mike,

    Thank you for sharing your personal experiences with all of us. Your hard work in bringing to light the tragedy of what Scientology has become while in the hands of DM is a true service to LRH – and thus to all loyal to him.

    Your family situation is tragic enough. It overwhelms me to think that your family matters are but a small sampling of what is surely a widespread tradgedy within the church. To think that something that was meant to bring people closer together is tearing them apart, all due to misapplication and perversion of the tech.

    Thank you again. And I wish you well in your efforts to restore sanity and justice to the legacy of LRH.

    Sovereign Scientologist

  40. Damn Mike!!

    There was a time…….
    a time I didn’t think much of you,
    a time you were not my favorite human being by a long shot,
    a time I called you “Sir” because I had to and that was proper etiquette,
    a time I didn’t consider you much of a leader,
    a time when you were “part of the winning clique” that I wanted no part of,
    a time when I saw you on TV lying through your teeth!!! YOU PISSED ME OFF!!

    Now there is a new time. NOW.
    And I can say honestly and WITHOUT reservation,

    Thank you Sir!

    I now know that I was DEAD wrong about you. My apologies.
    I hope that communicates.


  41. The Chaplain

    Dear Mike,

    It is so sad to hear about the destruction of families and so horribly unnecessary that you should have to endure this type of suppression from your family.

    Obviously your family members are not applying LRH. He advises against creating antagonism and engaging in this type of behavior toward anyone in these situations, even an actual SP who truly is a “dirty dog”.

    I want to encourage you to continue to apply the LRH available to handle the suppression you are encountering. Send your good roads cards and theta letters, and keep communicating on any lines you have. Send them to whichever address you have that is closest to the person you are trying to reach.

    Miracles do happen and there’s a chance something will get through in the physical universe, or have some positive effect on anyone who might see them. But even if only in the theta universe, outflow = inflow, right?

    Wishing one and all love and the miracles of the spirit.

    The Chaplain

  42. TheEmperorIsNaked

    Look at all the shiney MEST. I wish I had this video near at hand when I was in reg cycles on how we needed to get donos for crucial planetary dissem campaigns. I don’t recall anything being said about funding opulent quarters. Hmmm.

    This was a bad move. Your donors are seeing this. Alert, alert!

    And by the way, who is Marty Rathbone? Looks like a happy fella. I like his doggie – looks happy too. Marty doesn’t seem enthralled with MEST, like whoever made this video apparently is.

    Wait, what is the correct EP of watching this video? I’m getting lost here…

  43. crashingupwards

    Hi Mike.

    Your open letter will achieve all you hope.

    And in the meantime, join me in saying a prayer for your family’s wellbeing. A prayer asking that any higher power in the universe look out for them and protect and help guide them.

    Its one thing to pray for oneself, but much more effective to pray for the benefit of another.

    And fortunately you will always love them, because you understand them. Stay well.

  44. Great letter Mike. Actually makes me think of the open letter Robert Vaughn Young wrote to you years ago. I, as I am sure many others, would be interested to know if you ever read it and if it had any kind of impact on your decisions in life.


  45. If you are reading this and you are still IN please take a moment to consider what YOU have.

  46. Mike,

    The Bud light or Foster’s on me next time!

  47. Beautiful reasoned and loving letter. I hope it will find its way to those you wish to reach.

    Inurement is a HUGE issue with possible consequences far beyond the Church having to pay taxes & loss of non-profit designation. DM’s blatant corruption – financial, employment abuses, batteries, kidnapping – could bring down crushing government regulation/licensing/inspection & restriction on use of LRH’s materials and the re-characterization of auditing as harmful, unregulated mental technology. You can bet that raid won’t be just over a few documents copied from government files a la Pentagon Papers!

    Scientology is NOT loved broadly. I know, I’ve lived professional life for a couple of decades where people don’t know I am a Scientologist. I’ve heard so much ridicule, disdain, disgust. It is far worse now than when I re-started my life post staff. Acceptances = near zilch, no matter the politicians who show up because they want staff block vote, no matter the glam TV ads, no matter the artifice of VM campaigns. Those things are transparent, and ordinary people see right through.

  48. FlavorsinGreen

    Must be really tough having family matters playing out in public, Mike. Hope you all will reunite one day soon.

    About the C of S video: I miss people. Where are they? But it’s smart too. If somebody blows, they don’t have to erase him from the video. Haha! The speaker could be a paid professional…

    Beautiful MEST but who cleans it? Where is the hole located? They just showed a golf course hole. Haha!

    Maybe INT has changed after the SP Times publications and DM is much nicer now?

  49. Freetothink

    I’m having too much fun with this. I had to watch it again to show it to somebody & I counted how many times they said “slave camp”, 15!!!!!

    Marty, by the lack of tan you had, I can tell you had not been lounging by the pool very much.

    Picnic area, pool, tennis court, golf course, did you guys have a stat on hrs of R&R? LOL

    Who would believe that SO members are given the time to do any of these things more than a few times a year if even that?

    Marty, Mike, Amy, Matt, Mark, Jackson & others, how many times through the years have you played golf there, had a picnic there? 1000’s, 100’s, dozens, 1, zero? The enquiring minds want to know 🙂

    Whatever your answers are, as far as I’m concerned even if you did it every day (which I think you would have been deserving of) it doesn’t excuse any abuses that has been going on there.

  50. Peter McMahon

    Mike, I hope someday soon your children get out and are reunited with you. I believe that someday that will happen. I admire your determination and your chutzpa. I remember Cathy from the NY Org back in the early 70s when her last name was Neal. Someday even she will see that the midget dwarf has no clothes.

    Wishing you the best — Peter McMahon

  51. Lady Lancelot

    Dear Flavors in Green,
    Thanks for sharing the Church’s response. Wow. Now I know what Hemet looks like and where our money goes. Nice. (said sarcastically.)
    BTW, I noticed none of the shots of the marvelous recreational facilities–golf course, tennis courts, etc–had any people in them. Actually there were no people in any of the shots. Weird. But certainly beautiful. The tone. however, was very tabloid. Not at all a classy response. Ick. Ick. Ick.

  52. Mike,
    First of all, thank you for the honesty. You’re an absolute inspiration. The good/bad thing about the internet is that it’s all recorded, anyone can go back and see what you actually said and when you said it – and it can be used against you – to people that cannot think for themselves. But in the end the effect that is created in the people you do want to reach is that they DO start to think and put it all in perspective. Your brother, Andrew, seems like the first one who’ll put himself in your shoes and try to understand where you’re coming from, and if I understand family dynamics, he’s the one that’s respected by everyone and thus he is able to put some kind of common sense to the scene in spite of the C of M insanities being bullied on everyone.

    This must be very painful to you. It is so nice for us on the sidelines, to know you have Christie and Shane – and Marty and Mosey – in your corner. God bless you all.

  53. freebeing11

    HOLY SH#@! Mike, that was awesome! I really knew there was something coming. I awoke and came right in here to see and OMG.

    Mike the pain – I really get that. I refrain from my venom when I read this and I really get the pain you have been through, What you and I thought at the time was “all of us” is a shame.

    I 1,000,000 % applaud you for your personal integrity of not selling out to them. YOU ARE DA MAN MIKE!!!! (this certainly applies to many reading this – for this though MIKE RINDER ROCKS AND IS AWESOME!)

    Thank you so much bro for your ongoing amends. It is sooo super high toned that it is completely inspirational to me.

    I can for sure honestly say – I Love You and You Are An Awesome Inspiration to me and I am sure many others.

  54. Virgil Samms

    Mike, what a spinning friggin mess. It is really an ice dip into reality. I mean my kids disconnected from me, but not as violent as that. You are being worked over big time. DMreally considers you a MAJOR threat.

    I know Cathy well and for her to hold on so tightly to the lies she’s fed is impossible to consider. She’s smart. She’s even street smart. She knows better.

    But your family would have to consider that you are completely insane to act like that, and yet they know better. What a hold the man has got on them!

    I don’t know about any of your family, but I had a good congnition reading your letter: This is de ja vu. This whole thing has happened before. This is an exact dramatization of what happened the last time. And the last time only a few did anything about it. The rest watched and did little and we lost Scientology.

    Now we have it happening again. No more can we sit by and watch this insanity carry on day after day after day. Actions have to be taken. It is time for action.

    ML Tom

  55. Mike,
    Beautiful, honest letters, all.
    With friends still on the inside, my hope of hopes is that these communications get to them.
    I, for one am going to use your post to get others to look. So thank you for posting this.

  56. Wise man, thanks a lot for your courage and compassion.

  57. Thank you Mike for this very sane communication. If Andrew ever reads it, I’d like to leave a personale message to him. Dear Andrew, I’ve been your auditor as well as your mom’s and your wife’s. I was there on the ship and what MIke says here is very true, I sow it with my own eyes. For God’s sake wake up!

  58. Concerned Citizen

    Dear Mike,

    Thank you for sharing, as you no doubt know, your actions send Richter 9.6 shock waves at the foundations of his flimsy world. the earthquake is coming, followed by a tsunami.

  59. ClearlyMistreated

    Wow, I’m about to vomit. Those videos were so 1.1 and tacky. I’m embarrassed for the Church.

  60. That sounds just Great!!!

  61. War and Peace

    Mike ~~
    I feel for you, eloquently and masterfully written.
    I could not respond right away.
    I was too angry, too enraged.
    I went and ran several blocks to clear my head because I was so incensed.
    The hateful and vicious wording of the disconnects as orchestrated by the predator Miscavige were hard to stomach.

    This is an embarrassment.
    The leader of the religion, at the helm of Scientology gets family members to write you to call the American Psychiatric Association.

    This is why I call him a PREDATOR. He is sucking out production and stats from your kids Taryn and BJ, while they do the slave labor for $23 a week, all towards his STATS while getting the family to write HATE mail to you.

    Barbara, your Mom doing OT 8 in the top decks while you do 30 days punishment detail of the BILGES with Heber, Guillame, Marc Yager.

    If anyone lurking here had the slightest question mark as to why Marty, You, JB, Jeff, Steve Hall and many others~~ SO members of caliber had to flee to leave the Reptilian Predator, this OPEN Letter answers question marks.

    Another Leather Bound Edition. Destined to travel far and wide through links, Email and cross postings. You are de-Ptsing those caught up in Disconnection with Hatred…DM style.

  62. Mike,

    I lokked up to you for a very long time, both when I was on staff and afterward. DM always rubbed me the wrong way, coming across as an arrogant mis-educated prick. You, on the other hand, appeared sane. Well-spoken, thoughtful, respectful, but with lines drawn. With you there, I thought Int Management deserved some respect. So thank you for doing your job as well as you did, for as long as you did, under the circumstances you did.
    If there is anything I can do to help you directly, please let me know.

  63. Impartial English Girl

    Mr. Rinder – what an unbelievably touching and patient letter. I fail to see how anyone could not be moved by it. But I suspect you are right and if your family get to read it at all, it will be a heavily expurgated version. But please be assured that there are people out here, some of whom you know, some of whom you don’t know and will probably never meet, who care very deeply about you and all who have to endure such twisted and inhuman cruelty.

    You have the love and respect of many, which will never equate to the love of a family, but I do hope that you can find some small comfort in the love and deep admiration that you have from your ‘web-family’. x

  64. To David Miscavige:

    It it not too late. Do some O/W auditing and leave the church. Do you want to make this quick or a long pain in the ass where more and more public and celebrities start to question your actions and your lies?

    You’re not practicing Scientology and more and more are finding out about it. You can always be identified by your theta fingerprint and by LRH and the truth will always follow you.

    I suggest you act now. It will be much more difficult the more you wait.

  65. Shouldn’t that be “we must not get fooled again”? We were naieve and blinkered and let our inherent inate sense of the truth blind us to the blatant absurdities in front of us. Maybe Pete Townshend was just having a dark day when he wrote this, but the concluding message is clear: “meet the new boss – same as the old boss”.

    We’ll be fighting in the streets
    With our children at our feet
    And the morals that they worship will be gone
    And the men who spurred us on
    Sit in judgment of all wrong
    They decide and the shotgun sings the song

    I’ll tip my hat to the new constitution
    Take a bow for the new revolution
    Smile and grin at the change all around me
    Pick up my guitar and play
    Just like yesterday
    And I’ll get on my knees and pray
    We don’t get fooled again
    Don’t get fooled again

    Change it had to come
    We knew it all along
    We were liberated from the fall that’s all
    But the world looks just the same
    And history ain’t changed
    ‘Cause the banners, they all flown in the last war

    (chorus repeat)

    I’ll move myself and my family aside
    If we happen to be left half alive
    I’ll get all my papers and smile at the sky
    For I know that the hypnotized never lie

    Do ya?

    There’s nothing in the street
    Looks any different to me
    And the slogans are replaced, by-the-bye
    And the parting on the left
    Is now the parting on the right
    And the beards have all grown longer overnight

    (chorus repeat)


    Meet the new boss
    Same as the old boss

  66. Mike,

    what a letter!

    The part on your mother Barbara completing OT VIII while you were cleaning the bilges and hauled up for PR purposes so that she might not get “wrong ideas” is so outlandish and beyond the beyond…

    Will your mother be able to read your letter?

    From what she responded to you on your Xmas card, she is a truely free, independent and big person and I would be surprised if she would not weigh in in her very special way as the “Head of the Rinder Family” to set records straight.

    What a strong statement and mighty communication!

    Chapeau! Fidelio

  67. Mike great letter .I do hope it gets through.
    You put Ethics in.One has to wonder what state of mind DM is mentally at this stage, he has been taken over obvioulsy and God help those receiving services under such conditions.He also is guilty putting others peoples lives at risk
    with the treatement he has been putting people and assuming remains on going Quite unbeivable he can this long get away with it .

  68. Haydn,

    yes, he is just pissing in the wind – and we all know what that does to a $ 5.000,– Armani suit and handmade shoes – yuck.

    And yes – I can’t even fathom the mental toughness of Mike – now and then.
    Again: Chapeau!

  69. Leonore,

    that’s exactly what I observe: The PR of SCN ist devastated and utterly ruined.


  70. Cowboy Poet

    That was a great letter.

  71. Excellent letter. Heartbreaking circumstances and utterly inhumane. But then, dmology is not humane. Never has been and never will be.

    There are many independent and hidden independents I’m certain in Australia. Your family is well known. Your mother is not hidden and quite loved. Someone will print this off, and post it to her or hand it to her. Privately.


  72. WAO Mike .. I understand your situation and it is good you explain it here for everyone to see and if they realy got the tech…. see if they can cognite what it means free of THINK!!! and BE YOURSELF!!!! Your mother is a sweet person I had the pleasure to know… and I know how she must be feeling because I went through something similar with my family… FLOW TONS OF ADMIRATION TO HER… and I’m sorry for Pat and Andrew who I also Know…though they were really OT’s…
    Well keep the good work .. all this will get to and end…. I’m sure of it.. and I’m with all of you… each person count!!!

  73. Well put. I also think if someone still in were to just confront their own life on a personal level it would be hard for them to say they have what they want in life.
    All that being and doing has led to not having…

  74. Caliwog,

    I dont think you understand the mindset here. Pleas will accomplish nothing until there is a realization that something is wrong and that they need to think for themselves. They know I want the family restored. It’s why DM is devoting so much effort to this — the letters and visits are attempts to play on that button.


  75. Mike,

    What a beautiful letter! Sadly, it will probably never be seen. Each paragraph is so packed with truth that it would be hard to edit it to be viewed at all. It was probably lost in the mail, damn postal service. I hope somehow they will find a way to hear the truth despite the barriers.

    BTW, it is easy to find out if your divorce is truly final if your interested. Just go to the website for the Superior Court of the county it was filed in. I was able to watch the progress of mine completely on line. Yours should have gone through very easily, unless they failed to send in correct documents. This would result in immediate rejection.

    My ex husband file and I waited the appropriate six months, thought I was divorced, only to find out they rejected it because one of the forms used was not the correct year. I had to refile all over again.

  76. Mike:

    How dreadfully sad it is that you must suffer the loss of a brother, daughter, and son. It is heartrending to see such destruction to a family at the hands of that POS, low down, dirty, midget. No one can spend a lifetime without consequences for their actions. The consequences can be delayed, but they will always come. The CoM is empty because DM made it so. People are not coming in anymore because of the fact the “new tech” doesn’t work. He has perverted everything he touches because he is a POS.

    I hope your family reads this letter. I hope that they are brought to see that they are being controlled by a mad man, the biggest SP to every grace this world. I hope that they come to you with their hearts open and arms full of loving hugs for you, because that is what you deserve.

    There must come a time for us all to think for ourselves. It may be slow in coming, but it always happens, like an awakening. Once it happens, no one can ever control that person again. There is only so much someone can digest before they really see what happened to them.

    It will happen.

    Thank you for your letter. Thank you for proclaiming what you needed to proclaim in a public setting where it is not twisted, censored and then re-written to be rendered useless by that midget and his wanker brigade. Good job, Mike.

    If you need anything, let me know. I would be happy to help.


  77. Mike, your in my prayers that your family will be restored someday and your kids will get out of the chaos before it destroys their lives. So I’m wishing Godspeed on playing that button for all it’s worth, and here’s hoping you have other strategies up your sleeve for pushing the issue until some sort of positive outcome is achieved.

  78. Basketball court = 0
    Soccer field = 1 time on one of the good sea org days
    there were times in the early 90s when we got exercise time at about 11pm and we went out to play beach volleyball or run the par course – but that was it, a half an hour in the middle of the night… and that was the really good times!
    “communal” (DM & TC’s) pool 1 time on S.O. day

    And all hands (all GOLD crew) spent months and months renovating all of those wonderful studios without setting a foot at home – sleeping on floors of the studios or in attics without pay and under constant threat of “going in the lake” I was thrown in the lake several times on renovations evolutions if TMs (deadlines) weren’t met. Shortened meal breaks i.e. complete SLAVE LABOR
    And by the way – all of the furniture and much of the renovations to the idle orgs are under this same labor.
    CC Int renos was done exclusively by the RPF for years as was the HGB and many many more, all of which were very engramic for all of us who endured night after night of no sleep.
    Those videos truly point that out – lavish quarters – every inch of which were under duress in the middle of the night. Why are there no people in the videos? Could it be because the people still at the int base are starting to share the look of concentration camp survivors??

  79. By the way, the tennis court was strictly off-limits for Sea Org members as it is right next to the G-Units (I’m not making this up – for some reason, maybe Jackson knows) that is what the celebrity housing is called at GOLD.
    A little Int Base humor…

  80. To stun someone would make them immobile or stopped to a certain degree. The church is trying desparately to stop Mike.

    Stun is also a good word because it is a temporary condition. Mike is unstoppable and determined as hell to make sure this truth gets know. There is no turning back now, the decison to expose the truth is now in full throttle. Much admiration and respect to all of the big contributors (and little ones, too).

    Stun also is indicative of too much motion hitting at one time. This is where confusion and the stable datum come in and going back to basics on the anatomy of an SP really starts to make sense.

  81. Freedom Fighter

    What I noticed the most (aside from the focus on MEST, MEST, MEST — where your donations are really going . . . and the lack of any staff) was the amount of joking and degrading it contained in stark contrast to the statements given by Marty and the rest of the Independents in the CNN video. “Kingpin Marty Rathbone”?? Seriously? This is the type of communication that the management of a religion puts out? Nice repeated deflection of attention with the flashing graphics depicting where DM was from October – December. Didn’t work on me. What about the period from January – September? Another footbullet with a .50 cal (caliber), IMO.

  82. The problem of only a few people doing something about it is a case phenomenon. We have to break through that.

  83. “A small body of determined spirits fired by an unquenchable faith in their mission can alter the course of history.”

    – Mohandas K. Gandhi

  84. Have any of you ex SO had unlimited access to the any of the following that Dave Miscaviage personally benefits from or has access to:

    1. A personal chef
    2. Massages
    3. personal Trainers
    4. Motorcycles
    5. Apartments or living quarters outside of general berthing.
    6. Tickets to Nascar races
    7. Acura’s. BMW’s, etc…company cars paid for by SO
    8. Cases of Scotch
    9. Nintendo’s, video games
    10. Big Screen TV’s for personal viewing
    11. Private planes
    12. unlimited financial resources at your discretion.

    The list goes on and on………….

  85. Nightmares Getting Less


    A very powerful letter, I am sure you spent a lot of time preparing it carefully, and you certainly accomplished that. If DM’s puts another one of his crazy “spins” on this, he himself will dig his own ditch, and unfortunately’s the Church’s as well.

    10-15 A to E’s in the hole! Insane!!!!!!!!!

    I recently found someone I knew before, was on the RPF for 13 years.

  86. No people in the videos? Well, people must just be way too messy, imperfect, and constantly changing for DMs comfort level. And besides, these vids won’t ever become outdated because someone blows, dies, or in any way becomes an embarrassment to CoS (DM) by being “human” in any way.

  87. This is where confusion and the stable datum come in and going back to basics on the anatomy of an SP really starts to make sense.
    Yes! Totally!

  88. Jack Airey


    Hope you start your book soon. You don’t write much, but everytime you do your writing always get a WOW out of me.

    So sorry for your family of kool aid drinkers. I do hope your mom gets to read this letter. Knowing older mom’s like I do, don’t be surprised if she comes to your aid in a very outspoken way.

    I know your brother is a grown man but he’s acting like a scared little boy hiding from the boogy man. Andrew needs to stand up to the current Church of Scientology management and defend his brother’s honor.

    Mike the “INDEPENDENTS” will win back their church with the truth and now that you’ve come forward in a very overt way, truth is getting revealed.

    Thanks Mike from one of your many friends who has your back.

  89. Amen.

  90. Andy,

    People change, thank god. Mike, you, me, all of us moving through this stinking mess. One step at a time (and sometimes, ready or not, by leaps and bounds). 🙂

  91. earthmother

    “these vids won’t ever become outdated because someone blows, dies, or in any way becomes an embarrassment to CoS (DM) by being “human” in any way.”

    Perfect observation, Marta.

    Watching the videos made me feel rather ill, like I was about to be regged for more money for the NEXT big fantabulous, splendiferous, ginormous ideal bla bla bla. I also realized that I haven’t missed events. At all.

  92. Marc Abian

    With all the recreational facilities the Church mentioned in their video, they forgot to mention the pole that people are forced to run around in 100 + degree heat.

    Also, Marty Rathbon – any relation to this fella?

  93. Huckleberry

    I feel your pain, mate. I’ve long held as my stablest of datums that “The Being Always Knows”. I believe the truth will win because, like us, it can only be occluded, buried, hidden, imprisoned, but never killed.

  94. Doc "Smith"


    Thanks for sharing the letter and the whole scene. Very powerful. I’m sure that if your brother takes a real look he will change his mind and de-PTS himself. I will help any way I can to bring the day when the blinders are pulled off of all our friends and families. Let me know of any way I can help.

  95. earthmother

    Thank you Mike for being willing to publish on the Internet a very personal communication. A pebble, no, a boulder, has been dropped in a pond and the ripples will continue to reach out and impact all who see it.

  96. martyrathbun09

    A Flag Public asked that I post this for him/her:
    Dear Marty,

    I don’t really get how to post on your site but this is what I want
    to say.

    Boy! You bring new understanding to “your integrity is more
    important than your immediate life.”
    I used to think that was limited to just your physical life such as
    risking your life to save some else and preventing
    them from being run over by a car where you could be killed. I
    didn’t get it could mean risking it all and then living with
    your decision in a state where you remained whole or were enabled
    to be complete again.

    Every time I read one of these types of posts I’ve hoped and prayed
    that this is just not true. I saw Tommy Davis on
    Anderson Cooper misrepresenting the materials in the PTS.SP packs
    I’d studied and applied and I was hoping the church would
    post a correction on its website and a press release for the media
    stating that Mr. Davis had made a mistake. A simple clarification
    would have done it for me. I looked for it. It didn’t happen. And
    now I have to look at that and accept it for what it really is.
    I know the references and can cite them verbatim. I also know PR
    Series 2 and understand why one shouldn’t lie in PR. Now
    I understand it at an all time high because hearing Tommy, our
    church spokesman (and a young man I thought the world of
    lie created instability for me within the group I cherished so

    Times are changing. We are becoming more and more aware of what is
    really going on, and factually, what has been
    going on all along. We’ve been die-hard Flag public and as a family
    have availed ourselves of everything we could possibly
    do in terms of processing and training. Yet, I find it hard to
    fathom that while I was enjoying my extended stays at Flag
    with family, having life changing wins, that others were being
    deprived and denied in a complete polar opposite all that
    I was being given. I won’t buy a product not made by “Fair Trade”
    because I can’t live with that–even if it saves me a few
    bucks. How do we create Scientology in a humane “fair trade” manner
    on a regular basis?

    I think this is the breaking point for me. I can no longer pretend
    and not see, what in truth, I’ve suspected for a very
    long time. I don’t know who to trust any longer. I’ve decided to
    trust in myself and what I know, what I’ve seen for
    myself and what I’ve experienced. And now the courage to say…
    Well that’s currently my focus.

    It’s time to bring the love and humanity and all that is spiritual
    and great in Scientology back for the public, the staff and the Sea
    members. That’s what this was all about for me in the first place–
    and what it needs to be again for all of us.

    Free Spirit 88008
    Flag Public

  97. Mark Fisher

    Actually, prior to the sports fields being built and the new courts, fields and exercise building for DM and TC, we had at one time a full court basketball court that was outside the perimeter fence in the mid 80s to be used on Sea Org Day.
    Steve Willett used some left over cement to build the court.

    This court was fantastic. In those days, DM was at ASI almost all of the time. After the Sea Org Day, the court was used for Exercise time daily. We actually got I think from 11:15 or 11:30 in the morning for exercise time until after lunch muster at 1 PM. We played as long as we could, no matter how hot it was outside.

    We used to have some GREAT full court basketball games. I used to play almost every day and got in the best shape of my life. It was fun.

    People who played on a routine basis included Greg Johnston, Ron Summerville, Tom Heil, Jason Bennick, Bob Azevedo, Gary Weise sometimes and Janis Grady played with us too. She was a tough player. We would play 2 of 2 or 3 on 3 full court.

    Of course, once the RTC reorg happened in 1987, exercise time went out the window, but I do recall one time having DM, Marty and Greg Wilhere join us for a game on the court.

    Marty may remember this. He dislocated a finger when a ball was knocked off the end 0f his finger.

    Tough guy that he is, he turned to Wilhere and had him pull the finger out and put it back in place and then continued with the game.

    Those basketball games were one of the true moments of fun and joy in those days. All while DM was away. Once he arrived full time, the games went away and the court torn up and replaced by a grassy field that Tom Cruise eventually used to land his helicopter.

    During that same time period, I went on a diet to lose some weight and was doing the “Fit for Life” diet which was big at the time. A very healthy diet where you eat lots of fruits and vegtables and properly combine your foods for best digestion.

    I lost 15 or 20 pounds and when I went out to ASI one day to handle something in LA, Hugh Wilhere (Greg’s brother) and several others noticed how good I looked. I told them about the diet.

    They proceeded to go on the diet and also lost weight. When DM found out what they were doing, he got pissed off.

    “Fit for Life” was “Off Source” and they were to stop it immediately.

    Next time he came to the Gold/Int Base, he called me up to Yager’s office and told me that I was “Off Source” for following this diet and I was to stop immediately.

    I proceeded to gain back the 2o pounds I had lost.

    I had to laugh years later after I left, when I found out DM was doing his own “fad diet” drinking wheat grass on a daily basis.

    Another example of a real SP in action.


  99. Ding, ding, ding!!

  100. Falling on deaf ears.

  101. Fellow Traveller

    “I think this is the breaking point for me. I can no longer pretend and not see, what in truth, I’ve suspected for a very long time. I don’t know who to trust any longer. I’ve decided to trust in myself and what I know, what I’ve seen for
    myself and what I’ve experienced. And now the courage to say…”

    Thank you for the courage and integrity to stop pretending. Commendable. Very.

    As far as the rest, well, welcome to the party! Personal integrity is a blast. It is not pain free.

    Bruce Pratt

  102. Your words are heared.

  103. To Free Spirit88008,

    Well, fan-F’ing-tastic! This was so well said and so good to hear.

    I, too, “vote with my pocket book” when I spend, and I work at living more sustainably all the time.

    The first action of non-support I took, in CoS, was not going to the events, not buying (figuratively and literally) the next “flavor of the month” new release or Wooptie-F’ing-Do campaign, and not putting one more dollar there.

    Then, once I realized where that stink was coming from, and how bad it really was, I just had to “vote with my feet”, no longer wanting any affiliation with the facade. I had been so “faithfully” focused on the prize, the aims and goals, I’d missed and refused the reality – for too long, but better late than never.

    Now I’ll stand, every chance I get, with those who are speaking out for healthy change and authenticity, and against the lies and abuses.

    How can we not, now that we know?

    I hope you’re speaking for many, many more right now and an avalanche to follow!

  104. Nicely done Mike.
    They will get your communication one way or another I’m sure.
    I have had to let go of so many friends I love and hold dear and can imagine the pain it must cause to see your family members controlled, manipulated and trapped this way. Stay strong. I’m sure that your constant alertness and constant willingness to fight back will bring them back to life some day.
    ….OMG they are so far gone. Sometimes makes me wonder if some ‘hello and OK’ process are needed just to get them out of that hypnotic trance and up to being able to receive a genuine communication. 😦

  105. Theo Sismanides

    I still prefer the shack, hohoho!!! Nothing like the shack, DM, as a matter of fact all this aesthetics makes me quite sick. Must be an implant or something. It’s like “hey, don’t move, don’t step, don’t breath, stay right there… oh, you just diiiiid iiiit!!! Oh, oh, you moved. Now you are going to be punished”.

    Sickening. I go for the shack and Freeeeeeeeeeedom!!!!!

  106. Hello, Free Spirit 88008.

    You bring up an excellent comparison when you talk about “fair trade” products in stores and what is happening at the “Church of Scientology”.

    I think the majority of the Scientologists would agree if they truly confronted the data. That is the first obstactle, getting them to look. Getting them to disagree with the church long enough to step outside the PR machine and look for themselves. Once that is accomplished the truth will tell itself.

    Although I was crushed to discover the corruption inside and disappointment in my of own non recognition of it, I have been very happy, with my integrity returned, since disconnecting from the church. The truthliterally has set me free in more ways than I imagined.

  107. Thank you free spirit.
    So happy you have found our humble, quiet, well-ordered, well-behaved and mild-mannered little group.
    Ooops! I lied too! LOL
    WELCOME!!!!!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂

  108. Mark,

    Great anecdotal stories of the early INT days! For those of us who were never at INT or never in the SO, they just really increase the ARC for all of you who did.

    Thanks for telling it.

  109. Mike,
    So sorry to see your beautiful family torn apart like this. Of all the things that are wrong within the “church” I think this is probably the most insidious aspect of it. I cannot tell you how many ex-SO and ex-Scientologists I have spoken to personally who have told me similar stories of family break-ups and disconnection. It’s a form of violence IMO to reject your own children, parents, husband etc in such a way. I hope that one day your kids will wake up and realize that their father means well, and loves them. This violent game that DM is having them play on you really tugs at my heart as it does for the many other people that have experienced disconnection. Good luck Mike. I hope they get a chance to read your letter.

  110. Theo Sismanides

    Mike, a great letter and thank you for sharing it with us!

    I really feel honor to be next to you even if the times are hard for everyone but especially for those who fight for family members as well. I know how that feels.

    However, my friend, may I say that a man who cannot confront ONE man is unable to confront any in the whole Universe. If you cannot confront one person, you cannot confront anybody.

    And now with confronting those very people, I know you care about, your children that is, you can confront anybody. Because you have nothing to hide from them anymore.

    I was ashamed to hear you were working on the bilges and then you would be taken out and had to wear a suit or a tuxedo as the International Spokesperson of the Church. I can understand how you felt. DM is using everybody in any way he can. But that is over now. No more disgrace, no more intimidation, no more craziness. We are creating a sane and theta environment and this is the BIG, BIG thing. The Theta we ARE creating here.

    There’s nothing like that. And no MEST can create it ever!!!!

    We are with you Mike!

  111. “What would happen if all men were free enough to speak? Then, and only then, would you have freedom.” — LRH, HCO PL 8 Feb 1960 HONEST PEOPLE HAVE RIGHTS, TOO (http://www.righthubbard.org/)

    Is this really what we want to be known for?

  112. “Maybe the best thing you can do is handle your own case”
    That sounds a bit evaluative. Not picking on you – I’m sure intention is to help. Just me, just sayin’ again.

  113. Also (while I’m on the subject of just sayin’) postulates are senior to mechanics but that doesn’t mean they replace them altogether. There is still a lot of work to do in the physical universe – we can’t just ‘glow’ things right.
    Sorry – I’ve just heard those lines so many times within the church that they’ve become a button:
    “you need to handle your case” – alternate version “you’re case is messed up” (favorite of D of Ps) and
    “postulates are senior to mechanics” (favorite of Reges trying to convince you that it doesn’t matter if you don’t have the money in your bank account right now).
    Maybe I need to get those reverse Scientology buttons pushed a bit more until I’m flat on ’em?

  114. No Lucy, we didn’t have any of that. We came pretty close though:
    We did have a lumpy bunk bed mattress to sleep on, beans and rice to warm our bellies and worn out shoes with holes in the bottom which provided adequate air-conditioning when our toes got too hot. Once in a while we got paid – sometimes as much as £20 a week. I’m sure that comes pretty close.

  115. Fellow Traveller

    Sam —
    You can come say away with me anytime.
    (with apologies to Styx)


  116. emperor…report to cramming…LMAO!

  117. Bryon
    Bingo! Competence is senior to case gain!

  118. Well close enough doesn’t quite cut it according to the IRS. I think Dave better start counting his days of freedom, they are numbered before he starts sporting striped outfits!

    Taken from the IRS website:

    Inurement/Private Benefit – Charitable Organizations

    A section 501(c)(3) organization must not be organized or operated for the benefit of private interests, such as the creator or the creator’s family, shareholders of the organization, other designated individuals, or persons controlled directly or indirectly by such private interests. No part of the net earnings of a section 501(c)(3) organization may inure to the benefit of any private shareholder or individual. A private shareholder or individual is a person having a personal and private interest in the activities of the organization.

  119. TheEmperorIsNaked

    Thanks Ceileen,
    I’m sure there will be a nice sec check waiting for me there… 🙂

  120. Sam
    “Maybe I need to get those reverse Scientology buttons pushed a bit more until I’m flat on ‘em?”


    One of my favs:
    “Dreams are nice–in fact they are essential in life–but they have to be materialized into the physical universe before they exist AS PRODUCTS.” HCO PL 23 AUG 79R, Issue I,
    Rev. 23 Aug. 1984 DEBUG TECH

    I had the idea that also applied to parishioner’s bank accounts, if it didn’t exist in the real world then they didn’t have it to spend and had to make it in order to donate. Glad to say I didn’t drive my public into debt. But, I still regged them onto lines in orgs that I knew would drive them into debt. Fine line of justification that. Something about overt of ommission…once you know about it and don’t do anything about it….

    I get it.


  121. AlexMetheny

    Hi Virginia,

    Just wanted to thank you for your awesome write-up on C/S series 73 and all the out-tech sec checking on Solo Nots!!


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  123. Mike, thanks for the ack and answer.

    I definitely understand the mindset. I think it’s you who does not understand mine – or perhaps you just don’t remember.

    You talk about what DM has done to your wife and kids, but what about what LRH has done to you? Maybe you’re just not ready to see that. The most effective traps are the ones we keep ourselves in. But believe me, Mike, what you’re exhibiting isn’t the normal behavior of someone forcibly separated from the people they love.

    Ask yourself again, Mike: Where is your heart?

    If you ever need a friend, you have my email address.

    ML (really),

  124. martyrathbun09

    Be like calling DM for solace.

  125. Mike,

    Who writes these letters?

    For years people have gotten these crafted communications full of almost insistent hypnotic derogatory statements.

    It’s much like the trolls on the internet, and the Religious Freedom Watch website.

    I had hoped your being over OSA for so many years, that you could name names, who are the OSA staffers who craft or who use the active Scientologists in the LA area who write this stuff.

    We heard that Bill Yaude, Case Supervisor, Class 8, Sherman Oaks Mission, has been the troll “Roadrunner” on the internet for years.

    These words in the derogatory letters, are crafted, and crafted by someone, and it is so obvious there are some wordsmiths who’ve been doing this for years.

    Who are they? Who in OSA writes or approves this type of stuff?

    This whole Religious Freedom Watch, and all the internet smearing you and Marty and others are getting is all of the same style.

    Who’s the who, who are the who’s?

    I had hoped you would know, being over OSA for so many years.

    Is it Gavino Idda and Gloria. Lynn Farney?
    Gail Armstrong? Aaron Mason?

    Bill Yaude?

    I agree that absolutely ALL of your postings should be sent to thousands of Scientologists.



  126. LOL. Not true, Marty. DM still lives in LRH’s world. I’m free.


  127. martyrathbun09

    You are doing his bidding in a big way. Free.

  128. It’s all about perspective, Marty. To the Co$, I’m doing your bidding in a big way. Free!


  129. Mike,

    Love seeing you stand taller and taller in your own shoes…. being more and more the being you always were and have been. The seven league boots are starting to show. There is a palpable synergy that you and Marty manifest in common cause and underlying affinity, not to mention co-conspirators Christie and Mosey and the rest of the assembled gang.

    If LRH were sitting on a cloud in heaven gazing on the the scene I bet he’d be giving you a wink and a smile.

    “Something is happening here, but you don’t know what it is do you Mr. Jones.” Bob Dylan

  130. Lucy,
    Very good reference on Inurement re DM. Anyone with provable facts, photos etc could do us all a favor and even earn a reward. http://www.irs.gov/compliance/article/0,,id=180171,00.html.

  131. Dear Flag Public,

    I am also a Flag Public but keeping Fabian as I cherish the rare communications I have with my SO children monitored by an Ethics terminal, be that as it may. Although I try not to regret yesterday my one regret is that I influenced my children in joining the SO before I had my personal experience with it and was disabused. The living conditions at Flag for staff particularly when routing out were grim. The Hacienda is surrounded by tall fences and the security gate is guarded 24/7. I was a prisoner on two levels both physically and emotionally. If I left before I was OKed I would be declared automatically which would cut my communication with my family and friends. And then there were the fences. I worked daily for no pay during the rout out which took around 4 months.

  132. Leonore,
    Not sure just what you intended with that post.

    The image of Scn and LRH today is the direct result of perversion of LRH’s writings, NOT because those writings are deficient. In the hands of a raving lunatic SP such as the mental midget, the philosophy of LRH has been dragged through the mud. It does not make the subject dirty, just to be perfectly clear here. And, there are many individuals who can see the difference. That you chose to remain silent is your right. It does not make it a ‘fait accompli” (an irreversible accomplishment) that LRH and Scn would not and could not be seen truthfully and clearly for what they are when the source of suppression (and all his connections) are removed. There is already great evidence of that here on this blog.



  133. Virg,

    Damn! How did you get so smart?

    Somebody tonight said he thought we should be concerned about our retirement…very well meant and said by a quite nice young man. I told him we still had miles to go before we could sleep. This really is the demarcation point, again. Darn. I thought I was gonna get to rest a little…LOL!

    Damn the torpedoes!!!

    Mike, you are a good man, salt of the earth. We will see the end of this madness and all of us will be reunited with loved ones again. Don’t have much of a choice, do we? Black cinder is not my favorite mock up. Thank you for all that you are doing to make things right.

    Jim Logan, what is that reference about howling charges over the ramparts?


  134. Fellow Traveller

    I am no Jim Logan, but I weespect da fellwa. And I kin hep ya out wid da wefewence:

    Route to Infinity
    19 May 1952

    “There is only one way, really, to get into a state of living, and that’s live! There is no substitute for an all-out, over-the-ramparts, howling charge against life.

    That’s living. Living does not consist of sitting in a temple in the shadows and getting rheumatism from the cold stones. Living is hot, it’s fast, it’s often brutal! It has a terrific gamut of emotional reactions.”

    Bruce Pratt

  135. Hey Free Spirit, Welcome. My family sounds very similar to yours. We’ve also had the benefit of all the auditing and long stays at Flag. Had we known what we know now, things would have been much different. I agree with you completely on the fair trade aspect. Our Church has lost it’s way I’m afraid. And we have all contributed in some way. Just by pretending not to see what I was actually perceiving, I contributed to the motion. For every dollar we gave in an effort to end entheta reg cycles rather than walking out and writing it up, I contributed to this motion. But, life is in us today… So no time like the present to start contributing to the solution. Good to have more theta on the team.

  136. Cured Robot

    Jesus, I’m speechless, I’ve written this comment so many times but in simplicity to have to do your A-E five times then to pulled out of the hole to be an international spokesman for Scientology when convenient is untenable.

  137. TheEmperorIsNaked

    You are right. People want to be free and you cannot say you have freedom and then not deliver on it. This situation won’t turn around fully until true delivery is happening again.

  138. TheEmperorIsNaked

    Agreed. LRH warns in many places of failure to deliver and how the public stays away in droves. PR is important, but it can’t replace delivery. People need to be able to get up the Bridge and WIN.

  139. Lucy – if you only knew what DM has access to – when you say big screen TV – HOW ABOUT PERSONAL MOVIE THEATRE with beyond state of the art sound system and like you say it goes on – if you can imagine a really selfish Saudi prince, it is not an exaggeration! This guy not only has the personal jet, but gets picked up by helicopter to go to the personal jet, I don’t think people understand the lifestyle and luxury this man has access to and the stark comparison to a staff member at the int base…

  140. Freetothink

    Marta, wow I bet you’re right, LOL

    earthmother, I haven’t been missing the events either, all the franticness & created hill 10

  141. Freetothink

    Thanks for reporting your experiences guys. Like Karen said, it really increases the ARC 🙂

  142. Impartial English Girl

    Not just to America, Jack, honey – he lied to the WORLD.

    Mike, Marty, Amy, Anderson Cooper, John Sweeney et al; they are modern-day heroes, as are all who stand beside them. In the days/weeks/years/decades/centuries to come, they are the ones who will be remembered, whereas Davis, Cruise and Miscrabige will be memorialised with the scorn and derision, which they have worked with ruthless tirelessness to earn. xx

  143. Very well written and stated.

  144. Look at all the shiney MEST. I wish I had this video near at hand when I was in reg cycles on how we needed to get donos for crucial planetary dissem campaigns. I don’t recall anything being said about funding opulent quarters.

    I had no clue that my IAS “Hill 10” donations were buying swimming pools, basketball and tennis courts, even a golf course.

    Maybe a “Call to Arms” refers to what ball, racket or club to use.

    To the uninitiated who don’t know any better, unfortunately all the professional glitz in the video can make their position appear believable, and in the same token, CO$ can just about get away with anything by over-slicking truth with irrelevant PR.

    Better than 50% of the videos’ content massages church expansion that has absolutely no bearing on the mousy little twerp’s abuse or the slavery it took to build all that glitz, and does little else but find another avenue to promote RTCs Scientology.

    Nice repeated deflection of attention with the flashing graphics depicting where DM was from October – December.

    At least 2 of his flights went back to L.A. and he was there long enough to take a drive out to Hemet, proving absolutely nothing, except to again lace the video with ‘Shine & Glitz” to show new churches and aggrandize Miscavige’s accomplishments. Again, purely glitter promotion used to defer the real issues.

    The fabric of this PR cloud will break one day …

    Watching the videos made me feel rather ill, like I was about to be regged for more money for the NEXT big fantabulous

    Truly scary. Feels like getting lost in the shuffle … Oh well, hasn’t that already happened.

  145. CEileen,

    Just recently revisited your reply to this older post… not sure if you will see it…

    My comment was a leapfrog on Michael Rinder’s comment regarding inurement – David Miscavige’s blatant self-enrichment at the expense of the Church (and its staff and parishioners). Inurement can lose the Church its status as a non-profit, endanger the legal and social recognition of Scientology as a religious and spiritual/philosophical activity, and possibly risk the existence of the Church in any form.

    DM is not the only actual or potential source of suppression. If the leader of the Church commits apparently criminal acts as have been described here and on other pro-LRH websites, it opens the door to other entities attacking the whole subject of Scientology. LRH fought various efforts of this nature since the 1950s. Without the recognition of religious and spiritual nature Scientology, governments – i.e. suppressives using government – can make it illegal to practice Scientology. There have been such efforts historically and internationally. For example, there could be licensing requirements that prohibit auditing unless you are a licensed psychologist or psychiatrist and regulations that prohibit training of auditors outside of an accredited educational institution. If that happened, you or I or Marty or anyone could be accused of a criminal act for taking another into an auditing session! This is but one example, but I hope it will make my point more clear.

    My comment is just to reinforce how harmful DM’s actions have been. His off-policy, out-tech, self-aggrandizing, and apparently criminal acts, potentially endanger the entire subject – our access to it and utilization of it – inside or outside the Church.

    I completey agree with you that correct tech – correct applications of real LRH tech – results in great word of mouth, great PR, and broad public acceptance of the subject of Scientology. My point is further that the horrible PR for Scientology today, and the long term downtrending (and hidden) major stats of the Church today are a result of long-term gross misapplications and evidently hidden criminal behavior. The responsibility lies squarely on DM’s shoulders.

    Personally, I think people are afraid to speak against him because they think it was LRH’s intention that DM take the reigns of Scientology. Scientologists don’t want to go against LRH intention. Once they become aware that his rise to “leadership” was a Machiavellian power grab, their fear of thinking and speaking out will fade.

    That’s how I see it.

  146. SecretlyHidden

    I’m so stunned. I’ve been tracking for awhile now. But this letter sealed the deal in stone for me. I was confused by the DA material and the “confessions” previously. OMG.
    I have a young daughter on staff at a class V org. I’d like to give more details, but I’m worried it would give my identity away. I am having mixed emotions on whether to shake her world or leave her be. I beleive she is learning some valuable tools for life. She is NOT likely to go SO because of some previous experiences.

    I’d like some advice, or better stated, some opinions. What if I leave well enough alone and she ends up full of cool aide? If I disrupt her now, what does she have left to believe in? This is what she has learned from me, to “guide” her life. If I don’t interupt soon, it might be too late. Perhaps it is already too late??? She has personally experienced some wildly “weird” things.
    Man, I need to make a decision!

  147. Fellow Traveller

    SecretlyHidden —

    Thank you very much for looking. That takes courage that is not often acknowledged properly.

    The first frightening step for me was the realization that I had to look closer because something did not add up.

    Thank you also for not over reacting. That would likely cause the solution to become an instant problem.

    The best advice and best thing you can do for her is make sure you are a safe terminal for her to communicate *anything* to. So what’s going on in *HER* universe?

    I also have observed that things are not all bad everywhere all the time. My god, if some scn is getting applied, that there had better be some good.

    If you are really expert at gradients, you can scope out what her perceptions and knowingnesses are. Just for an example say while both looking at the latest promo like LA MODEAL, say “Geeze, why are there not more people in the these photos?” Gradients are marvelous. Archimedes was a genius. Sometimes we forget that gradients sometimes need to take into account the universe at each end. LRH was another genius.

    The gradient could be the difference between meddling, caring and being prepared.

    A review of *your* Code of Honor and *your* Personal Integrity are always in order.

    Bruce Pratt

  148. I guess you have to decide which is more important: Your love for Scientology or your love for your daughter.

    Good luck and I hope you make the right decision.


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